My life as a journey
by Madalina Loghin
My life as a journey by Madalina Loghin
This book presents the story of Andrea, a woman whose life has brought her memories but painful thoughts as well. Each cycle means a lot to her and she puts heart and soul into them; she discovers an obsession, though, in every stage of her life with which she has to deal. She knows about all these addictions as she got used to them but, unfortunately, she does not know how to make them stop. They are part of her life so she has learnt how to deal with them. She tries to hide them or, at least, make them look normal to the people surrounding her. The images in this book portray her inner thoughts every time she has to deal with these obsessions. Andrea is a woman like any other but what makes her special is her strength to cope with her own problems and her ambition to move on.
“When someone says ‘you’ve changed’ it simply means you’ve stopped living your life their way.” Unknown
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I am exhausted…I need to change this…I can’t live like this forever...I love my parents, I really do but this has to stop...it’s too much. I understand they want the best for me but…this is not exactly me, this is not who I am. I have become obsessed with school and books but this has to stop. I don’t want to become a genius...they have to understand that I need to go, I need to live my life, not their life…I am exhausted...I can’t…
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“There comes a time when you have to choose between turning the page and closing the book.� Unknown
I had enough of this. I need to live my life, far from here. I feel like this has been forever. I feel watched and controlled and I don’t want this. I feel like a prisoner. I want to explore my passions and my ideas. I want to go far away, I need the time to go quicker so I can make my wish come true. My parents won’t like this but I know in their heart theywill support me…I feel caged...I feel…I had a great childhood, I can’t complain but I am not a child anymore, they have to understand that...I have to go…
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“The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.� Socrates
I did it. I am here...but now what? NO! I don’t regret coming here. I made a big change. I don’t know anyone here but I am mature enough to take care of myself. I know I can do it and I know I will get there at some point. I will fight until I get there. I promise! It’s hard but I am not giving up!
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“In the virtual world, lives and feelings are measured not by the distance of miles but by the reality of our desires.� Tony G.
This is me…alone. I am looking around and all these things are everything I have got right now. Was this the price to pay to make my dream come true? Being alone, on my own? I don’t know…it’s so hard. This is what I do everyday…they keep me alive…I’m stuck in this room but no one cares I suppose…Is there anyone who understands me, is there anyone who knows what I am going through? Do you understand me? Can you help me?
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“We cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails.� Dolly Parton
I’m in my own world...I don’t really have friends...is it because something is wrong with me? Is something missing? Is it about my appearance? I don’t know. Maybe it is...something needs to be done! So many girls on the internet have changed something about the way they look and then they are very popular…I need to be popular as well! .... I have done it now but was this the right thing to do? I fear that I still don’t look right. What if this is still not enough? I want this fear to go away... How do I look?
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“She wanted him to tell her that when you love someone so hard and so fierce, it was all right to do things that you knew were wrong.� Jodi Picoult
He is her first and only love, the only person that really cares about her. She wants him to always be with her, near her, to give her attention all the time. She wants to know everything that happens to him, where he goes, what he does and she is so addicted to him that she would go with him anywhere, just to know that she won’t be alone again. He loves her very much and because of that he lets her obsession develop on him. He is not happy though, he feels constrained, he doesn’t have any intimacy, he feels caged, he is sad. But he doesn’t say anything about that because he loves her back and as long as she is happy he will try to live with that. She has got that possessive look. Her intentions are not bad, she doesn’t mean that in a bad way, she knows the whole situation, she knows about her problem, about her obsession but unfortunately she can’t do anything about that because she doesn’t know what to do. He has learnt how to live with that. 22 / 23
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“Children are the anchors of a mother’s life.” Sophocles
I love them...they are everything to me...I would do anything for them. I am obsessed now with them and I am trying to always be there and play with them, cook, go for walks, try to teach them all sort of things...is that the right thing to do, though? Is it too much? Maybe I should give them more liberty...but they need me...I am sure‌
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“We are what we repeatedly do .” Aristotle
This is who I am...look at me! I am ok now, I am different...I have got a beautiful family...just look at me!
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“Your children will become who you are; so be who you want them to be.� Unknown
I am here again...I am always here, washing clothes... well, that’s my role I suppose...it would be nice to do something else instead of this...but I have to be an example for my children, for the future...they need to learn to always take care of their family…I am doing the right thing...I know that…
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“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.� Haruki Murakami
That’s my life in that suitcase...oh how I miss everything...my journal, I have got everything written there and my teddy bear...oh that’s from my parents when I was home...and the children’s toys and all of those things in there...I had a beautiful life. I can’t complain...I can’t...I have to take them with me, always. They are mine...how I miss everything!
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“She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important.” Marilyn Monroe
She met the love of her life, the man she could trust for anything, she lived her life but she ended up in the same point: alone, but this time in her elder years. She misses everything from when she was young: her memories, her husband, she misses being young in fact. When she was a teenager, she was capable of doing anything. Even when she was sad she knew how to find things to make her happy. Now, she is alone again but inside, she is happy that she had a good life and she had the right person with her.
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She saw everything ending as a new beginning.