Mrs Eaves Type Promotion by Nadia Izazi

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A study o f the ty pefa ce Mr s E a ves b y mea ns o f w o r d a sso ci a ti o n a nd speci men di spla y. Typeface design ed by

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2012 myfonts A ll rights reserved. No p a r t o f th is b o o k m ay b e repro duced in any f o rm with o u t w ritten p er m issi o n fro m the copy righ t h o l der. T h is i s a work of f ictio n . A l l in ciden ts, n a m es a n d c haracters are the p ro du ct's o f desig n er's im a gin at i o n (t h at is of course, i n f l u en ced b y h er o wn ex p erienc e ) . A ny other resemb la n ce to a ctu a l p erso n s o r ev en t s is purely coi nci den ta l . First pub lished i n 20 12 b y Na dia I za zi. Prin ted i n San Fran cisco , Un ited S ta tes. Typeface used in this book is Mrs Eaves, Mrs Eaves XL Serif, Mrs Eaves XL Serif Narrow, Mr Eaves and Fette Fraktur. T h is b o ok used Neen a h Cl a ssic Na tu ra l W h ite p a p e r. It was printed b y Na dia I za zi, a nd b ound by Nadia I za zi a n d Cecil ia Hedin .

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our lives are full of choices. from the easy ones to the hard ones. S o me t i me s e a sy c h o i c e s a r e n o t so e a sy t o ma k e b e c a us e of o u r su r r o u n d i n g s th a t i n f l u e n c e o u r mi n d . P r e ssu r e f rom the so c i e ty — o f w h a t th e y p e r c e i v e a s r i g h t o r w r o n g , w h a t the y s e e a s n o r ma l o r a b n o r ma l . Ou r mi n d c o u l d b e e a si l y a l t e r e d a n d w h a t's so e a sy c a n turn i n to so me th i n g th a t i s n o t . I t i s a l l b e c a u se w e th ink the l o g i c a l w ay i s a l w ay s t h e r i g h t w ay, th e r e f o r e mo st o f the time we ignore what we feel. Th i s b o o k i s g o i n g to b e

a journe y for you to follow your h e a r t .

It is going to b e a story of you, as Mrs Eaves in a modern world who met the man of her dream in London during her visit from San Francisco. All your decisions are going to lead you to one ending. There is only one happy ending in this b o ok, and that would b e achieved only if you keep on following what you feel is right, without any concerns of what others might think of your decisions and actions. I t i s n o t w r o n g to g o w i t h th e l o g i c a l w ay, b e c a u se may b e , mos t o f th e ti me i t i s th e mo st r e a so n a b l e w ay. We h av e to k e e p in mi n d t h o u g h , th e sa f e st w ay i s n o t n e c e ssa r i l y t h e b e s t w ay. Mo st p e o p l e l e a r n mo r e w h e n t h e y a r e g o i n g o u t o f th e i r tra ck , o r w h e n t h e y g o a g a i n st t h e n o r m, b e c a u se t h e y te n d to f ind a n e w w ay b e si d e s w h a t n o r ma l p e o p l e w o u l d d o . A n d t his w ay, mo st o f th e c a se , w i l l b e th e r i g h t w ay, may b e n o t f o r e v e ryone , b u t a t l e a st f o r y o u r se l f .

by signing below, i, (your n ame here) agree to follow the rule of this book, which is to f o l l o w m y h e a r t and not to care about what my surroundings tell me to do. i am ready for whatever it is that's waiting for me, and i am going to fight as hard as i can for what i feel and i will also listen as close as i could so that i can hear my heart that's whispering the answers to me clearly.

y o u h av e t o s i g n b e f o r e y o u g o t o t h e n e x t p a g e . i f y o u d i d i t, t h e n g o o d lu c k !

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f i n a l l y you get a time to take a break from your hectic school schedule .. L iv in g al o n e wit h a n eedy d o g i n S a n Fra n c i sc o a n d b e i n g a fu l l t im e s t u d en t in an ar t sc h o o l k e e p y o u r l i f e w ay to o b u sy. T h is s pr in g b reak y o u d ec i d e d t o g o t o L o n d o n to se e y o u r b e st fr ien d w h o ju s t grad u at ed . Yo u ar e go in g t o s p en d yo u r w h o l e w e e k i n L o n d o n , a n d y o u ar e pl an n in g t o h av e fu n a n d g o c ra zy. Yo u k n o w y o u' r e g o i n g t o h av e a go o d t im e t h ere . O n t h e plan e y o u s t art pl a n n i n g o n w h a t y o u a r e g o i n g t o d o fo r t h e n ext s ev en d ay s of y o u r l i f e i n L o n d o n . Yo u k n o w y o u wan t t o go o u t an d par t y. Yo u a l r e a d y b o u g h t p r e tty d r e sse s fo r y o u t o w ear, an d y o u d i d n o t f o r g e t to b r i n g y o u r h i g h h eel s t o o . Yo u ar e s in gl e a n d y o u a r e r e a d y to mi n g l e . Yo u get cl o s er an d cl o s er to L o n d o n , a s y o u c a n se e t h e c i t y v iew fr o m t h e air plan e.

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T h a t w a s th e w e i r d e st f e e l i n g y o u h av e e v e r h a d w h e n y o u ju st me t so me b o d y. I t f e l t l i k e so me o n e w a s p i n c h i n g y o u r s t o ma c h , b u t th a t g u y t h a t y o u j u st saw, h e ma d e y o u r h e a r t fe e l so w a r m. I t f e l t l i k e y o u r w o r l d st o p p e d f o r a se c o n d a n d t h e o n l y th i n g y o u c o u l d se e w a s j u st h i m. I t w a s r e a l l y j u st l i k e a mo v i e . Ev e r y th i n g g o e s i n a v e r y sl o w mo ti o n . Hi s mo v e me n t, eve r y o n e's mo v e me n t i n c l u d i n g y o u .

fo r a s e c o n d you c ou l d h e a r not h i ng b u t y o u r h e a r t b e a t a n d i t wa s b e at i ng fa st s o fa st you t h oug h t i t wou l d e x p l o d e .

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I n a sh o r te r e x p l a n a ti o n , h e j u st r o c k e d y o u r w o r l d , a n d h e d i d , i n d e e d , t a k e y o u r b r e a th aw ay. Yo u c a n' t sto p sta r i n g a t h i s b o d y a s y o u b o th a r e w a l k i n g t o t h e sa me d i r e c t i o n . Yo u fi g u r e t h a t y o u b o th a r e g o i n g t o th e ta x i sp o t a n d y o u k e e p o n w i sh i n g th a t t h e l i n e i s g o i n g t o b e v e r y l o n g so y o u c a n j u st ke e p o n sta r i n g a t h i m. As y o u st e p o u tsi d e th e d o o r, y o u c a n h e a r t h e ra i n h i t ti n g o n t h e g r o u n d . Th e r e i s n o w a i t i n g l i n e a n d t h e r e i s n o c a b w a i ti n g . I t i s p o u r i n g , a n d y o u a r e j u st g e tti n g w e t. A l l y o u w a n t i s j u st t o g e t a c a b t h a t w i l l ta k e y o u st ra i g h t t o y o u r f r i e n d 's p l a c e . You l o o k a r o u n d a n d a p p a r e n tl y y o u d o n o t se e h i m a n y mo r e . T h e n a ta x i c a me b y,

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and a s so o n a s y o u c a l l t h e c a b y o u h e a r a ma n's v o i c e e c h o i n g y ou . Yo u t u r n y o u r h e a d to w h e r e t h e v o i c e c a me f r o m, a n d y o u s e e h i m sta n d i n g a n d st a r i n g a r y o u . Yo u g e t t o se e h i s e y e s, and t h e y a r e t h e w a r me st e y e s y o u h av e e v e r se e n . He l o o k s a t y o u , a n d say s, � S i nc e t hi s i s t he o nl y c a b we s e e fo r t he l a s t 5 m i nut e s , c a n we j us t s ha re i t t o g e t he r ? I c a n' t w a i t i n t he ra i n fo r t o o l o ng , a nd yo u s ho ul d no t e i t he r.” T ha t w a s th e ma n o f y o u r d r e a m t h a t j u st ta l k e d t o y o u . Hi s v o i c e w a s j u st e x a c tl y h o w y o u i ma g i n e d i t to b e , A n d o n c e ag a i n y o u r w o r l d tu r n s l i k e a mo v i e . Ev e r y t h i n g g o e s i n a sl o w motion, and they get silent.

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you do not see why you should not go with the guy of your dream. you do not want to take the risk being with a stranger in a cab.

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ďż˝ As a ( normally ), logical person, you would usually do something that is safe for you and you would always listen to your brain. You would normally not even think twice ab out the answer, it would just b e a straight, â&#x20AC;&#x153;Hell, no!â&#x20AC;? but this time it's just different. Your brain is still telling you that this handsome man might just b e a criminal, or anyone who would just b e using you. Or the worst scenario, if everything go es well with you both, just like in any love movies, then what are you going to do? Most handsome men would probably just b e a heart breaker.

w h e n you a r e b u s y ta l k i ng to you r h e a rt , you r b r a i n i s s c r e a m i ng fo r you to l i st e n to i ts c o nc e r n s a n d a l s o , i ts f e a r . You then are lo oking at him for a little bit. You know that it is not possible that someone who has such warm eyes would ever have the heart to hurt anyone. Then your brain says that it is possible, everything is possible. He seems concern about your doubts, then he tells you that it's okay if you do not want to share the cab with him, he totally understands. He says he just thinks that the most efficient thing to do. He then offers you to take the cab and that he is willing to wait in the rain for another cab.

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taxi !

( his voice )

Your heart and brain are still fighting and you know you have to answer so on. You do not want to lo ok like an idiot.

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you j u st b r o k e t h e f i r st ru l e o f t h e b o o k , a n d a l m o st t h e s e c o n d o n e to o . I f y o u d e c i d e n o t to g o b a c k a n d t o t r y g i v e i t a n o t h e r sh o t to f o l l o w y o u r g u t f e e l i n g . I t i s y o u r d e c i si o n . I f y o u sto p h e r e , t h e n t h e sto r y i s g o i n g to g o t h i s w ay. He o p e n s th e d o o r f o r y o u a n d h e h e l p s y o u p u t y o u r l u g g a g e in t h e t r u n k w h i l e h e l e ts t h e ra i n p o u r i n g o n h i s b o d y. He l e t s you i n a n d b e f o r e h e c l o se s t h e d o o r, h e say s: " I re a l l y w a nt e d t o g e t t o k now yo u. I w a s j us t t hi nk i ng yo u a re the p re t t i e s t g i r l I ha ve eve r s e e n." Yo u a r e n o w l e f t w i t h r e g r e ts a s y o u r t a x i d r i v e s aw ay f r o m him w h o i s sta n d i n g i n t h e ra i n a l o n e a n d so a k e d .

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the at coffee shop | lon d on h e i s m a k i ng you l aug h s o h a r d , you r sto m ac h h u rts . you b ot h j u st c l i c k . Yo u h av e n e v e r b e e n ta l k i n g so mu c h i n my w h o l e l i f e w ith so me o n e t h a t y o u j u st me t a n h o u r a g o . He i s v e r y f u n ny, a nd mo st i mp o r ta n tl y, h e u n d e r st a n d s y o u r c o r k y j o k e s a nd he l a u g h s w i t h y o u , n o t a t y o u . Th a t i s so me t h i n g th a t a st ra ng e r u su a l l y d o e s n o t d o . Yo u r st o ma c h i s ti c k l i n g a g a i n , a n d y o u r h e a r t i s st i l l b e a ting f a st . You c an' t stop smil in g , a n d y o u k e e p o n wis hing t h a t y o u r b e st f r i e n d w i l l st ay l o n g e r i n h e r o f f i c e so y ou ca n sp e n d l on g e r time with h im i n th i s c o f f e e sh op. Th e c o n v e r sa t i o n j u st f l o w s. Yo u f i n d o u t t h a t h e i s g oing to st ay w i t h h i s a u n t f o r a c o u p l e mo r e d ay s i n L o n d o n b e f ore h e a d i n g b a c k to C a mb r i d g e t o g o b a c k t o sc h o o l . He i mp re s s e s y o u i n e v e r y w ay. He i s g o o d - l o o k i n g , c h a r mi n g , f u n n y, a nd he i s sma r t . Yo u l e a r n a l o t f r o m t a l k i n g to h i m i n t h e l a st hour.

h e m a k e s you f e e l s o m e t h i ng t h at you h av e n e v e r f e lt b e fo r e w i t h a n y ot h e r g u y . Th e f e e l i n g i s so st r o n g , i t k i n d o f c r e e p s y o u r b ra i n out. I t k e e p s o n te l l i n g y o u to st o p t a l k i n g t o th i s g u y a n d r un aw ay a s f a st a s y o u c a n b e f o r e y o u f a l l i n l o v e w i th a g u y w ho live s t h o u sa n d mi l e s aw ay f r o m y o u . Your brain is telling you that it will never work with him, yet your heart is screaming out telling you to keep on talking to him.

So yes, I did run up on the escalator that was going down. It was so embarrassing!

Hahaha. You must be kidding me! It was actually quite an exercise, you know!

Hahaha. Oh my, you are so hilarious. I can not stop laughing! Yo u r e a l l y t h i n k i t w a s funny?

Of course! Who would not think that was funny? A lot of people think that I was just really dumb and being childish.

Well, to hell what people say. I really think that story is hilarious.

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i t k e e p s o n y e l l i ng ou t t h at h e c ou l d b e t h e o n e t h at you h av e b e e n l o o k i ng fo r . W hile your brai n and heart are figh t in g w it h each o t h er, y o u r pho n e ri ngs, and you see y o u r fr ien d 's n am e cal l in g o n y o u r scree . You pi ck up th e ph o n e an d s h e s ay s s h e is go in g t o b e the re very so on to pi ck y o u u p. Yo u think that i s the si g n fo r y o u t o s t o p h an gin g o u t right n o w an d g et back to reali ty. B u t t h en h e as ks if y o u w o u l d w a n t t o g iv e hi m your nu mb er s o t h at h e can h an g o u t wit h y o u w h i l e y o u are sti ll i n London. You feeling says that you have to see this guy again, no matter b ec ause i t k no w s t h at t h ere is d efin it ely s o m e th i n g b e tween you two. Yet yo u r b rain is s t o ppin g y o u ju s t b eca u se i t thin ks that long di stance r el at io n s h ip will n ev er wo r k.

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you think that would just be a ridiculous thing to do. you do want to see him again and see where this could go.

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Are you going to give him your number?

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you h a d a g r e a t n i g h t w i t h h i m a n d you d o n ' t wa nt t h i s dat e to b e ov e r e v e r . He walks y o u h ome t o y o u r f r i e n d 's p l a c e , a f t e r th e g r e a t ti me y o u b o t h ju s t sh a r e d th a t n i g h t. Th e n i g h t i s b e a u t i f u l , y o u d o n' t kn o w wh e t h e r i t 's b e c a u se o f y o u r mo o d o r n o t, b u t y o u are en jo y in g eve r y se c o n d o f i t. He i s h o l d i n g y o u r h a n d v e r y t igh t , ju s t like h o w y o u l i k e i t . Yo u r h a n d f e e l s so ti n y a n d w arm in s id e h i s h a n d . Yo u r h a n d i s se c u r e a n d sa f e th e r e , i t d o es n o t wan t t o c o me o u t e v e r a g a i n . He m akes y o u fe e l p r e c i o u s, it mak e s y ou fe e l l ik e h e jus t do e s not wan t to l e t y ou go, a n d t h a t h e w i l l n o t ev er l et y o u g o . Tim e go es b y s o f a st e v e n t h o u g h y o u a r e tr y i n g t o w a l k a s s lo w as y o u can. W i t h o u t y o u b o th e v e n n o t i c e , y o u a r e a l r e a d y in fro n t o f Nadi r 's p l a c e . He l o o k s a t y o u i n th e e y e , a n d h e giv es y o u t h e s w e e te st smi l e . W h i l e h e i s sti l l st a r i n g a t y o u r ey es d eepl y an d h o l d i n g y o u r h a n d t i g h tl y, h e l e a n s h i s b o d y t o ward s y o u an d h e k i sse s y o u v e r y so f tl y. Yo u clo s e y o u r e y e s, a n d y o u c a n f e e l y o u r h e a r t t r e mb l e s w h e n h is l ips l an d o n y o u r s, a n d th a t's w h e n y o u k n o w f o r su r e t h a t

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city cab |london o nc e h e sta rt e d ta l k i ng , e v e ry t h i ng j u st f l ow s . i t ' s j u st l i k e ta l k i ng to a f r i e n d .

so.. . are you going home or are you visiting london? We l l , I a m v i s i t i n g m y b e s t f r i e n d n o w, i t 's h e r g ra d u a t i o n

cool cool. from what university? where are you visiting from? Cambridge. I am from San Francisco. What about you?

born and raised in . but going to school here. i just came back from visiting my family in turkey though. such a long trip! I bet! How did you enjoy your trip though?

it was really good. i got to see my grandma, and my mom who is currently living there for a couple of months. the food was also amazing, so i really should not complain about the trip at all. H a h a . We l l p r o b a b l y y o u s h o u l d n o t . I t j u s t s o u n d s l i k e a n a m a z i n g t r i p

are you staying with your friend while you're here? Ye s . I a m g o n n a b e w i t h h e r f o r t h e n e x t 7 d a y s o f m y l i f e

are you guys close? by the way, i actually go to cambridge too. who is your friend? maybe i would know her. He r n a m e i s Na d i r. Ho w f a r a r e y o u f r o m g ra d u a t i n g ?

i know her! she used to date my roommate and we used to always party together a couple semesters ago. Are you serious? What's your name? Mayb e she mentioned you b efore. And which one is your roommate, by the way?

i am john and my roommate is oliver. did you ever hear anything about us? haha.

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A a a a a I k n o w Ol i v e r ! A n d y o u m u s t b e t h e o b n o x i o u s r o o m m a t e w h o i s a l s o a DJ.

obnoxious!? that's what she told you about me!? H a h a h a h a . I a m j u s t j o k i n g . S h e t o l d m e y o u a r e a DJ. T h a t 's a l l I k n o w a b o u t y o u .

would you like to know more than that? haha. okay, i will tell you one interesting fact about me. and you have to remember. are you ready? H m m h h h I g u e s s I a m n o w. Wa i t , w h y d o I h av e t o d o t h i s ?

just listen, i was a fat baby. when i was born i weighed 13.5 pounds! Hahaha. That's what you always tell p eople when you first intro duce yourself!? Hahaha.

i have to make a good impression, you know. H a h a h a . Yo u a r e v e r y f u n n y.

you make me want to be funny I a m n o t g o o d w i t h c h e e s y l i n e s . I r e a l l y d o n o t k n o w w h a t t o s ay n o w.

well you don't have to say anything. just give me a smile.

and

I did smile

and that's how he makes you smile

op t : 1

you want to ask him to go to coffee shop with you. y o u w a n t t o t a k e i t s l o w, s o y o u j u s t a s k h i s n u m b e r.

g o to _ .

What are you going to do now?

g o to _ .

op t : 2

ďż˝

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o l l ow y o ur h e a r t

so you decided to give it to him,

and he p age : no

texted you.

“would you go on a date with me later on tonight ?” in the

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t h at ' s w h at h e s a i d o n t h e t e x t m e s s ag e . h e s a i d a d a t e , a dat e w i t h h i m , to n i g h t . Th i s g u y i s d r i v i n g y o u c ra zy — i n a r e a l l y g o o d w ay. No one ha s e v e r ma d e y o u f e e l th i s w ay, a n d y o u a c tu a l l y a r e l oving it. A f t e r h a n g i n g o u t w i t h h i m t o d ay, y o u k n o w t h a t y o u do lik e h i m. Th i s i s a c tu a l l y t h e f a ste st t i me t h a t so me o n e su c c e e ds in c o n v i n c i n g y o u t o l i k e t h e m. Yo u u su a l l y d o n o t g e t i mp r e sse d t h a t e a si l y, b u t h i m t houg h, h e i s j u st so d i f f e r e n t f r o m a n y o th e r g u y s y o u k n o w. Hi s p e r so n a i s so str o n g a n d h e i s j u st ... c h a r mi n g . Af te r t h i n k i n g o f t h e g r e a t ti me th a t y o u h a d t o d ay i n t h e cof f e e sh o p , y o u r h e a r t i s b e a t i n g f a st, a n d a l l y o u w a n t to d o is jus t t o se e h i m a g a i n , a s so o n a s y o u c a n . Yo u r b ra i n i s so f r e a k e d o u t t h o u g h . A s mu c h a s y o u w a nt to s e e h i m, y o u r b ra i n i s so w a sh e d o u t b y e v e r y th i n g e l se a r o und you t h a t i s te l l i n g y o u n o t t o d o i t . Na d i r, y o u r b e st f r i e n d , t e lls you t o b e l o g i c a l , a n d t o t r y ma k e so me se n se . S h e s a ys , " W h a t a r e y o u g o i n g t o d o w i th h i m o n c e th e s pring b r e a k i s d o n e ? Yo u sa i d y o u a r e n o t e v e n r e a dy f or a r e l a ti o n sh i p , h o w a r e y o u g o n n a d o a l o n g d is ta nce r e l a ti o n sh i p ? Th i n k a n d st o p f e e l i n g . L e t's j u s t have f u n , l o o k f o r g u y s th a t a r e j u st g o o d f o r a f l i ng he re . P l ay w i t h th e m, d o n' t g e t se r i o u s, si l l y." Yo u k n o w th a t w h a t Na d i r i s say i n g i s p r o b a b l y r i g ht, a nd n o r ma l l y, y o u w o u l d d e f i n i te l y t h i n k t h e sa me w ay a s h er.

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t h i s t i m e t h oug h , you f e e l s o m e t h i ng i s j u st g o i ng to b e d i f f e r e n t w i t h h i m . It seems li k e it r eally kn o w s t h at in t h e en d , e v e r y t h i n g i s goi ng to b e amaz in g wit h h im .

y o u ju st c an f e e l i t . .

Now th e opti o n is y o u rs . To go w it h h im an d t h e r i sk i s t o fall i n love wit h h im t h en h av e a l o n g d is t an ce r e l a t i o n sh i p , or not to ri sk it , an d ju s t ign o re t h is rar e f e e l i n g th a t i s happ eni ng wit h y o u .

op t : 1

i do not see why i should not go with the guy of my dream. n o w ay. h a n d s o m e g u y s a r e h e a r t breakers. why bother?

go to_ .

Are you going to go with him?

go to_ .

op t : 2

so you decided to go with him, and

y o u h av e p age : no

so much fun.

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p age : no

When

you close

your

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laughing next to him, holding his hand

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you see him.

yourself,

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i t 's a m i x f e e l i n g , b u t i t 's a positive feeling too. is it possible to fall for someone ..

this fast?

p age : no

o l l ow y o ur h e a r t

so you spent most of your time there with him, and

now you are torn and confused . p age : no

y o u d o n' t k n o w w h a t t o d o ,

which way to go,

y o u a r e

torn

a l r e a d y.

what you feel with him

feels so beautiful.

you feel comfort, and love, something that just d o e s n o t h a p p e n to you. as much as you enjoy your time w i t h h i m , and how

much f u n you have with

him,

y o u d o n' t k n o w what's going to

h a p p e n a f t e r. you are so scared t h a t t h i s i s going to end.

and you are

terrified to lose him a l r e a d y .

Keep on going to the next page

on your last day in London,

and he p age : no

texted you.

am anoth fling you ?

i just er for

of course NOT.

op t : 1

“n o , o f c o u r s e t h e r e i s s o m e t h i n g m o r e b e t w e e n y o u a n d m e .” “y e s , i t h o u g h t y o u w o u l d k n o w t h i s w a s j u s t a f l i n g .”

go to_ .

What are you going to tell him?

go to_ .

what?

op t : 2

so you went to a date with him, and

had

a wonderful time.

p age : no

every wher e

| london

Yo u w er e picke d u p b y h i m i n f r o n t o f Na d i r 's p l a c e . On t h e t ext m es s age he sa i d , w e a r so me t h i n g c o mf o r ta b l e a n d d o n o t t r y t o lo o k s ex y. S o y o u a r e w e a r i n g y o u r mo st c o mf o r ta b l e s prin g d res s and y o u r f av o r i te r e d sw e a te r. Yo u ma k e su r e t h a t y o u s t il l l o o k go o d a n d h e w o u l d sti l l b e a ttra c t e d t o y o u . He picks y o u up f i v e mi n u t e s e a r l y, a n d h e su r p r i se s y o u a s h e co m es wit h a v i n ta g e Ve sp a sc o o te r ! Th a t sc o o t e r i s y o u r fav o r it e t h in g i n t h e w h o l e w o r l d a n d y o u h av e a l w ay s w a n te d t o r id e o n it . You c a n' t b e l i e v e th a t h e p i c k s y o u u p w i t h th a t. He t ells y o u t o h o p o n a n d o n c e h e ma k e s su r e y o u a r e si t ti n g co m fo rt ab l y an d sa f e l y, h e sta r t s d r i v i n g aw ay f r o m Na d i r 's pl ace. Wh en y o u a sk h i m w h e r e y o u g u y s a r e g o i n g , h e t e l l s y o u t h at h e is go ing t o ta k e y o u to h av e f u n . He th e n p u l l s o n e o f y o u r h an d an d p u t i t a r o u n d h i s st o ma c h . He sa y s, " Ju st m a k i ng s ure yo u a re no t g o nna fa l l a l o ne . Ha ha ha ." T h en h e l au ghsâ&#x20AC;&#x201D; w h i l e my l i p s j u st sh a p e th e b i g g e st a n d h appies t s m ile I h av e n o t h a d f o r t h e l o n g e st ti me . Th i s g u y i s d efin it el y s p eci a l .

h e i s j u st m a k i ng you r h e a rt wa r m , fo r t h e v e ry f i r s t t i m e i n you r e nt i r e l i f e . He t o o k y o u t o a l l th e p l a c e s y o u h av e n e v e r b e e n to . Th i s i s act u ally t h e t hi r d ti me y o u h av e e v e r b e e n i n L o n d o n , a n d i s act u ally t h e fir st t i me y o u h av e e v e r d o n e th i s mu c h a c ti v i ty ! Su r pris in gly, he t a k e s y o u t o a l l t h e p l a c e s t h a t y o u h av e a l w ay s w an t ed t o go t o , b u t n e v e r g e t th e c h a n c e to . I t 's s o weird , it j u st f e e l s l i k e h e k n o w s e x a c tl y

an d

w h at y o u li ke w ha t y o u w a n t ,

h e is ju s t like y o u r o t h e r h a l f t h a t h a s a l w ay s b e e n mi ssi n g . Wh en ev er y o u a r e w i th h i m, y o u f e e l c o n te n t . Th e e a si e r w ay t o d es cr ib e it is t h a t,

he complet es y o u. .

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and i my

put

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him.

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y o u a r e j u s t g o i n g t o t h r o w i t a w a y. you see no point in keeping it. you absolutely want to keep it because you want to see him again.

g o to _ .

What are you going to do with his number?

g o to _ .

op t : 2

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What are you doing with this?

Fo r t h i s o n e , y o u have to make some more effort than just making a decision. If you truly want to call him, connect the dots, and call the number for real. Whatever he says on the phone, follow him. Yo u w i l l s e e w h a t is going to happen next, very soon.

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and there is this guy who keeps on clinging on to you. a l l y o u w a n t i s j u st t o b o u n c e a n d se e h i m ...

It was

such

a boring n i g h t and it was ra i n i n

go to_ .

g .

op t : 1

you are going to call him and ask if he wants to do anything tonight. you are just going to go with this guy you see in the club.

go to_ .

op t : 2 p age : no

o l l ow y o ur h e a r t

What are you going to do now?

s o y o u l e f t t h e p a r t y,

and you p age : no

called him

on the

phone

| l ondon

Yo u r watc h i s showin g it was t wen t y m in u t es pas t mid ni gh t. You are wo n d erin g wh at h e m igh t b e d o in g. Yo u are h opi ng th at h e is n o t o u t t h ere s o m ewh er e hitti ng on other gi rls , b u t y o u are als o h o pin g t h at he is not asleep yet s o y o u can go an d s ee h im . T h e phone h as b een ri ng in g fo r a co u ple o f t im es , an d when you are ab out t o h an g u p, y o u h ear h is v o ice o n the oth er li ne. Yo u d o n' t kn o w wh y b u t s o m eh o w y o u j ust automati c al l y s m ile. He says, â&#x20AC;&#x153;Hey you.. I'm so glad you called! How is your night going so far? Are you having fun?â&#x20AC;? S o you are telli ng h i m w h at is go in g o n w it h y o u , an d ho w your ni ght was. Yo u get q u it e aft er y o u t ell y o u r s to r y. You want to ask if h e wan t s t o go h an g o u t w it h you soon or not, but you want to see whether he is going to ini ti ate someth i ng. He the n says, A s much as i w a n t to se e you r ig h t n ow, I th in k yo u should go hom e w ith N a d ir. You c a m e h e re f or he r, and I do n't w a n t to ste a l you a w a y f rom h e r t onight . W hat if I com e tom orrow a n d p ick you u p and we can hang ou t a s lon g a s you w a n t? Yo u are ac tu ally sur pr is ed b y h is s u gges t io n . Yo u ho nestly do not k now wh et h er y o u s h o u ld b e h appy tha t h e cares ab out Nad ir, o r t h at y o u s h o u l d feel o f f ended that he do e s n o t w an t t o s ee y o u n o w. Yo u r brai n starts to come u p wit h r eas o n s o f w h y h e d o es n o t want to see you . He m igh t b e wit h an o t h er gir l rig ht now, and mayb e t h at 's w h y h e d o es n o t w an t to see you now. Then you r h eart i s s t art in g t o ar gu e wit h y o u . He do es sou nd li k e a swe et gu y, an d h e ev en car es ab o u t y o ur fri end. Tomorr o w is n o t t o o lo n g fo r n o w, y o u fe el th at you would b e ab le t o wait u n t il t o m o rr o w. B esi des, h e sou nds l ike a gen t lem an . He co u ld ju s t com e an d use you if he really is a jerk, but he prefers to see you in the daytime.

Hey.. I am so glad you called! What's up? Hi! What's up with you? My night has been pretty d i f f e r e n t . I t d i d n' t g o a s how we want it to go,really

Really? Why? What happened? A lot of our friends just bailed out on us. And the party was just lame too.

Oh I'm sorry. So what are you going to do now? I d o n' t k n o w. T h a t 's w h y I called you. What are you doing right now?

I'm just home doing some coding. Start up on a project early. Where is Nadir? She gets kind of wasted. She i s i n t h e b a t h r o o m n o w.

Maybe you should take her home and I will pick you up at nine in the morning?

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op t : 1

you feel that he is right, and you should do what he says. you think he is just lying to you, just like how other man would do.

go to_ .

What are you going to do now?

go to_ .

op t : 2

so he was more than just a fling,

then he p age : no

a sked you.

what at the

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he still wants to keep in contact with you even though you are a p a r t .

You have come this far with him. You already told him that there is something more than just a fling. What else would hold you back from giving your skyp e name to him? At this p oint, you should just give it to him without even thinking to o much ab out it. First of all it is just a skyp e account. If it do es not end up as how you want it to be, you could just delete his account from your skype. Yes, it is as easy as that. At least right now you feel that you should give it to him, because you want to talk more to him, and you know that skype is the only option that you have for not. It's either via skyp e, or you both are just probably going to b e talking on the phone all the time â&#x20AC;&#x201D; which is worse. You do want to try, even though you never really trust long distance relationship, but with him, you have a hope it might work. So yes, your only option right now is just to give your skype name away to him. Because your heart is lo cked, and you still want to get to know him better even after when you fly back home.

Keep on going to the next page

is your name ? p age : no

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s k y p e |san francisco Ev e n t h o u g h y o u a r e b a c k i n S a n Fra n c i sc o , a n d h e i s a ll the w ay i n L o n d o n n o w, y o u b o t h sti l l k e e p i n c o n ta c t . Th o s e days y o u sp e n t w i th h i m w e r e t o o p r e c i o u s to b e th r o w n away jus t l i k e th a t, a n d h i m足, h e i s j u st to o f i n e to b e j u st a sp r i n g bre a k f l i n g . Mo st o f a l l th o u g h , y o u r f e e l i n g , i t i s j u st w ay t o o s trong to b e n e g l e c te d . S i n c e th e f i r st n i g h t y o u g o t b a c k i n S a n Fra n c i sc o , h e h as ne ve r st o p p e d t a l k i n g to y o u o n S k y p e . Ev e r y si n g l e d ay, h e w ould sp a r e so me t i me f r o m h i s b u sy sc h e d u l e a t l e a st to say hi. He w o u l d c ra c k so me j o k e s w h e n y o u say y o u a r e f e e l i ng low, a n d h e w o u l d w h i sp e r y o u g o o d n i g h t w h e n y o u a r e f a lling a sl e e p w h i l e y o u b o t h a r e ta l k i n g .

he then just becomes the reason of your h a p p i n e s s in your life . I t h a s b e e n a l mo st tw o mo n t h s si n c e y o u l a st saw h i m. And his b i r t h d ay i s c o mi n g u p so o n . He te l l s y o u o n e d ay o n sk y p e tha t th e o n l y w i sh h e h a s i s

just to se e you a gai n ,

b e f o r e y o u g o h o me f o r y o u r su mme r b r e a k . He w a n t s you to c o me se e h i m. Th e r e i s a l so n o t h i n g e l se y o u w a n t t o d o b e s ide s se e i n g h i s f a c e . A s mu c h a s y o u r h e a r t say s th a t y o u sh ould g o, y o u r b ra i n i s th i n k i n g w h y c a n' t h e b e th e o n e w h o c ome s to S a n Fra n c i sc o a n d se e y o u ? Ev e n th o u g h h e sa i d h e w as bus y, b u t y o u a r e b u sy t o o , a n d y o u a r e sti l l w i l l i n g t o se e h i m .

so you gave him your skype account,

and you skype with him

op t : 1

you want to see him again, and you know he really wants to see you too. you think that he should be the one who comes for you.

op t : 2 Yo u are so torn b etwe en t w o b ecau s e y o u r h eart h as b e e n waitin g u nti l the day yo u get t o s ee h im again o n e d ay. Pa r t o f y o u wa nts to go th ere so b ad , b ecau s e y o u s im pl y ju s t w a n t t o se e him. Besi des, you k n o w t h at s eein g h im is go in g t o ma k e y o ur relati onshi p stronger. Yo u b o th h ave not seen each o t h er fo r a w h ile, an d if y o u g o ho m e f or th e summer, t h en it s eem s l ike al l t h e effo rt t ha t y o u b o th have p u t are goi ng t o b e s u ch a w as t e.

becomes

the rea son

of your h a p p i n e s s . . Ev en th ou gh you want to go t h ere an d s ee h im t h o u gh , as a w o ma n y o u s till thi nk that i t's a m an's jo b t o go ch as e h is w o m a n . A n d a pa rt of you want j u st him t o b e craz y o v er y o u .

g o to _ .

What are you going to do now?

g o to _ .

p age : no

so you decided to lie and told him it was just a fling

and he p age : no

no longer smiles.

the a i r p o r t you said the word yes , his smile | l o n d o n when just disappeared . he got quiet . He tells you that i f i t is ju s t an o t h er fl in g fo r y o u t h en y o u b o th sho uld probably j u st n o t s ee each o t h er again . He t e l l s y o u i f what you say was for real, t h en y o u s h o u ld d el et e h i s n u mb e r rig ht now, i n front of h is face. He l o o ks v ery s erio u s , b u t mo st o f all, he l o o k s . . . h u r t.

Yo u really do not k no w w h at t o d o , b ecau s e it h u rt s y o u t o se e him mad b ecause of t h e l ie y o u t el l . Yo u ju s t s t an d up i n f r o n t o f hi m, you do not ev en d ar e t o t ake o u t y o u r ph o n e, n e i t h e r d o y o u dare to lo ok at him in t h e ey es . It is p ai nfu l to stand in a s il en ce like t h is wit h h im st a r i n g a t y o u wi th hi s hurtful ey es . T h e h e b reaks t h e s il en ce. He s ays, â&#x20AC;&#x153; We ll, t o me it w a s m ore th a n ju st a f lin g . I th ou g ht yo u fe l t t hat way t o o. I g u e ss I a m ju st n ot g on n a se e you , no r t a l k t o yo u anymore , bec a u se it wou ld ju st b e too h a rd . T h a nk yo u fo r spe nding t ime w ith m e w h ile you we re h e re .â&#x20AC;? He then turns arou n d an d s t art s t o walk aw ay fr o m y o u . Yo u can feel your b o dy tr em b les an d y o u r t ear is fo r m in g u p . Yo u r heart i s telli ng your feet t o m o v e an d go fo r h im , an d te l l h i m that i t was all j ust a lie, an d t h at y o u act u ally kn o w th a t t h e r e is someth i ng b etween u s . Ye t your brai n i s sto ppin g y o u r feet fro m m o v in g. I t k e e p s o n sayi ng that i f you go fo r h im , t h en ev er y t h in g is ju s t g o i n g to b e so compli cated, and in t h e en d y o u are ju s t go in g t o get h u r t . A n d the p ai n would prob ab ly b e wo r s e t h an t h is .

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y ou a re goin g to go f or h im. y ou ca n't los e h im like th is . y ou w a n t to try f irs t. y ou a re ju s t goin g to let h im go. it s ou n ds like th e righ tes t th in g to do.

g o to _ .

What are you going to do now?

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broke your heart to see him sad. . .

Th e n h i s f a c e c o me s u p i n y o u r mi n d . He l o o k e d so h u r t , i t h urt y o u to o . Yo u d o n' t w a n t y o u r l a st me mo r y o f h i m to b e h i s f a ce w h e n h e a l mo st c r i e d . A c t u a l l y, y o u d o n' t w a n t t h i s t o j u st b e me mo r y. Yo u w a n t t h e st o r y o f y o u b o th to c o n t i n u e , e v e n w he n y o u a r e a p a r t f r o m e a c h o th e r. Yo u r h e a r t i s te l l i n g y o u to j u st tr y i t o u t a n d y o u b o th ca n f i g u r e i t o u t l a te r. Yo u a r e g o i n g to g ra d u a t e so o n , a n d so is h e . M ay b e th e l o n g d i st a n c e r e l a t i o n sh i p c a n g o f o r a c o u p l e of mo n t h s b u t t h e n a f t e r t h a t w h o k n o w s y o u c a n mo v e t o L o n don, o r may b e h e c a n mo v e t o A me r i c a . Yo u h av e a l w ay s w a n t e d to g o t o L o n d o n , a n d may b e th i s i s a sig n that you are going to go there. He i s g o i n g f u r th e r aw ay a n d y o u r e y e s a l mo st l o st h i m, you r e a l l y h av e t o d e c i d e w h a t y o u w a n t t o d o w i th t h i s. Fo r now, j u st sh u t y o u r b ra i n , a n d de cide with your gut fe e ling , w i t h .. your intuition.

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if only

s t o p r eg r e t t i ng .

fo l l o w e d my and

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h im Yo u h ave b een bac k in San Fran cis co fo r alm o s t t h r ee mo n th s n o w. And every si ngle d ay s in ce y o u go t b ack, t h ere is n o t o n e day go by wi th ou t you r egr et t in g y o u r d ecis io n . Yo u r h e a r t i s achi ng every ti me yo u r em em b er h is face b efo r e h e w a l k e d away from you that t im e. Yo u sti ll rememb er yo u lo s t h im in t h e cr o wd s , an d t h a t w a s th e time when you fi nall y r ealiz ed y o u ju s t m o s t pro b ab ly di d the

s t up i d e s t m i stake in y ou r lif e.

It has almost b een t h ree m o n t h s n o w an d y o u kn o w i t's t o o late for you to get b ack an d t r y t o reach h im . Yo u h av e b e e n wanti ng to text h i m o r cal l h im ev er y d ay, b u t y o u kno w t h a t y o u rui ned you r c h an ce, an d n o w t h er e is n o t h in g e l se th a t y o u c an do, bu t j u st m o v e o n e. Yo u j ust k eep on wi s h in g t h at y o u co u ld t u rn b ack t i me , a n d that you cou ld j u st c h as e h im wh en h e was walkin g aw ay f r o m y o u, so th at would n ev er l o s e h im ev er.

the end.

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so when he kissed you, you decided to kiss him back,

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hyde park |london he took you all around the city

a l l d a y since this morning .

Th e l a st sp o t h e t a k e s y o u t o i s Hy d e Pa r k . I t i s so b ea utif ul o u t si d e to d ay. Th e su n mu st b e i n a g o o d mo o d n o w, a nd s o mu st t h e w i n d . Th e y b o th se e m so h a p p y f o r y o u b o th , a nd it j u st se e ms l i k e th e y c o mp r o mi se t o b e h av e t o d ay so tha t you b o t h c a n e n j o y t h e d ay. He i s h o l d i n g y o u r h a n d w h e n y o u a r e w a l k i n g . He so m e time s p u ts h i s a r m a r o u n d y o u r w r i st , a n d y o u w o u l d smi l e e v e ry time h e d o e s th a t j u st b e c a u se y o u f e e l mo r e sp e c i a l . Yo u f i n a l l y f i n d a p e r f e c t sp o t f o r y o u r p i c n i c to d ay. A p pa re ntly f r o m h i s ma g i c sc o o t e r, h e ta k e s o u t h i s w h o l e p i c n i c setâ&#x20AC;&#x201D; tha t h e say s h e b o r r o w s f r o m h i s g ra n d ma so t h a t h e c a n h ave f un w i t h me t o d ay a t th e p a r k . A f t e r g e tti n g e v e r y t h i n g r e a d y, h e l e t s me si t a nd g e ts c o mf o r t a b l e . Th e n a f te r h e ma k e s su r e I a m si tti n g c o mf orta bly, h e j u st t h r o w s h i s h e a d o n my l a p , a n d h e l ay s i t t h e r e . For the n e x t h o u r s, w e j u st ta l k a b o u t e v e r y t h i n g . A b o u t y o u r l i f e , y o u r h i sto r y, y o u r b e l i e v e s, y o u r p e r sp e ctive s about life, your philosophy, and of course, you hear his side too. Yo u b o t h a r e l a u g h i n g so mu c h w h e n y o u l i st e n t o t h e f unny sto r y h e i s te l l i n g y o u , b u t w h a t i s mo r e a ma zi n g i s t h a t w he n y o u a r e te l l i n g h i m a b o u t y o u r a mb i ti o n s, y o u r g o a l, your mo t i v a t i o n , h i s f a c e g e ts l i t u p . He g e ts e n e r g i ze d to o .

that kiss was the best kiss y o u h a v e e v e r h a d . e v e r.

Yo u b oth are lyi ng i n t h e s u n , en jo y in g t h e d ay, en j o y i n g e a ch o ther's c ompany. Yo u h av e n ev er felt t h is go o d b e f o r e . Ev e ryth i ng j ust seems p er fect . Yo u are in t h e cit y w h e r e y o u hav e always wanted to liv e in . An d m o s t o f all, y o u are w i t h a g uy that you h ave alway s b een d ream in g o f an d l o n gin g f o r. Yo u close you r eyes to e m b race al l t h e p o s it iv e en erg y a r o u n d y o u, and wh en you op en t h em , y o u s ee h is face s o clo s e t o y o u . H is wa r m eyes are lo ok in g at y o u . So warm , s o t en d er, s o g e n t l e . He g e ts closer slowly an d y o u cl o s e y o u r ey es again as h e k i sse s y o ur lips softly. You r b o d y feels s par kles , an d y o u can f e e l so much happ i ness you feel like fly in g. An o ld l ady p asses by an d s h e s m iles at y o u b o t h . She s a y s, â&#x20AC;&#x153; Yo u b o th lo ok so well toget h er. Yo u ar e go in g t o m ake b ea u ti f u l ba bie s togeth er, tru st me.â&#x20AC;?

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We b o th stare at eac h ot h er ad lau gh s o h ar d . Yo u can' t b e l i e v e so me o ne says that to you b o t h t h at h av e o n l y kn o wn each o th e r fo r a cou ple of days. Bu t t h en y o u b o t h s m ile, an d it ju s t f e e l s like y o u u nderstand wh at each o t h er 's feel al r ead y.

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ignore the feeling and just have a one night stand with him. you want more than just a fling so you kiss him back.

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does this really mean that i really i have

What would you do with your feeling?

go to_ .

l i k e him ? never

felt this

way before about a man. it's just every single time

our skins touch, i f e e l t h a t

che m i s t r y , it's like there's a little spark coming out as the result of t h e f r i c t i o n o f our skins. w h y w o u l d i have this f e e l i n g to a man that i barely know? should i let this feeling g o i n g , or should i

let it go?

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so you decided to still lie and go back home,

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nd.

s t o p r eg r e t t i ng .

feel

ins i d e , ( you said)

another meaningless sex when will this ever end? you hate this hollow inside your heart. you feel so empty .. so dead

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d u r i n g y o u r f l i g h t y o u r o n ly t h o u g h t wa s j u s t t o g e t o f f t h e p l a n e , so y o u c a n g e t se r v i c e o n y o u r p h o n e . Yo u r e g r e t say i ng tha t t o h i m. I t k e e p s o n p l ay i n g i n y o u r h e a d , a n d y o u c a n' t k e e p o n te l l i n g y o u r b ra i n h o w stu p i d i t i s to l e t y o u ma k e such a d e c i si o n . Yo u r e a l i ze t h a t y o u r f e e l i n g f o r h i m i s so r e a l , a n d so true , and

you will never know what is going to happen

until you try.

Yo u a r e f i v e mi n u te s aw ay f r o m l a n d i n g , a n d y o u r h e a rt is p o u n d i n g . Yo u a r e sc a r e d th a t a f te r a si x - h o u r f l i g ht, he mi g h t a l r e a d y c h a n g e h i s mi n d a n d th a t h e w i l l n o t g i ve you a n o th e r c h a n c e . He mi g h t b e t o o h u r t to e v e n p i c k u p your c a l l . Or h e mi g h t a l r e a d y d e l e te y o u r p h o n e n u mb e r ! All of t h e b a d th o u g h ts a r e sta r t i n g to t a k e o v e r y o u r b ra i n a g a in. Th e n y o u a r e st a r t i n g t o u se y o u r h e a r t a n d tra c k b a c k on the r e a so n o f w h y y o u w e r e e v e n c o n si d e r i n g to c a l l h i m w he n y o u l a n d . Th e r e a so n w a s b e c a u se :

you re g re t le tting h im g o , .

a n d th a t y o u d o n o t w a n t to l e t h i m g o b e f o r e y o u e v en try. Yo u w a n t t o g i v e th i s a sh o t , o r e l se y o u k n o w th a t y ou a re g o i n g to r e g r e t i t a g a i n , p r o b a b l y f o r e v e r. Yo u a r e sta r t i n g t o th i n k a b o u t a l l th e g o o d th i n g s th a t the y d i d t o g e t h e r. Th e y a l l ma k e y o u r h e a r t f e e l w a r m, a n d the y a l l ma k e y o u w a n t to smi l e . A n d th e y ma k e y o u mi ss h im. . . Yo u c a n' t b e l i e v e y o u h av e n o t se e n h i m f o r o n l y se v e n hours , a n d y o u mi ss h i m a l r e a d y. Yo u w a n t to se e h i m a l r e a d y. Your mi n d i s f u l l o f t h e me mo r y o f y o u a n d h i m, i t h u r t s. Wha t if y o u d e c i d e d t o c a l l h i m, t h e n a l l y o u w a n t t o d o i s j u st to s e e h i m, b u t th e n y o u k n o w y o u c a n' t ? A s y o u r mi n d g e t s b u sy t h i n k i n g a b o u t y o u r d e c i si o n , your p l a n e l a n d s a n d y o u g e t y o u r se r v i c e b a c k o n y o u r p hone . Yo u t u r n i t o n , th e n y o u a r e st a r i n g a t i t f o r t h e l o n g e s t time t h i n k i n g o f w h a t y o u sh o u l d d o . Yo u k n o w e x a c t l y w h a t y o u r h e a r t w a n ts, a n d y o u k n o w if you g o w i t h y o u r h e a r t, th e n th e r e i s g o i n g to b e a b i g c h a ng e in y o u r l i f e . Yo u h av e n o t h a d a n y th i n g se r i o u s f o r so l o n g, a nd n o w w h e n y o u f e e l t h a t y o u a r e r e a d y t o j u mp i n t o so mething se r i o u s, h e i s a l l th e w ay o v e r t h e r e . Yo u k n o w i t i s g o i n g to b e h a r d , a n d i t i s g o i n g to t a k e a lot o f e f f o r t a n d e n e r g y, b u t y o u h e a r t d o e s n o t se e m t o m ind it. Yo u r b ra i n d o e s mi n d i t, b u t th e d e c i si o n i s a l l y o u r s.

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h e h a s to kn ow a b ou t y ou r rea l f eelin g a n d y ou ca n decide on w h a t to do la ter. y ou a re a f ollow er of y ou r b ra in , a n d y ou a re goin g to s tick w ith itÂâ&#x20AC;&#x201D; it's safer.

g o to _ .

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Which one will you f o l l o w, y o u r heart or brain?

g o to _ .

So you go there to s u r pris e h im fo r h is b irt h d ay b e f o r e y o u go bac k home. Wh en h e s ees y o u r face, h is ey es g e t b i g g e r and he h u gs you an d carr ies y o u in s id e h is h o u s e. He l o o k s so happ y, i t mak e s y o u ev en h appier. You are goi ng to b e t h er e fo r t en d ay s . Yo u kn o w y o u a r e goi ng to h ave. . the t i m e o f y o u r l i f e wi th the man of yo u r d r eam . He says he i s goi ng t o in t r o d u ce y o u t o h is paren t s w h o a r e comi ng to vi si t for h is grad u at io n . Yo u b o t h t alk a l o t a b o u t your relati onsh i p an d h o w it is go in g t o w o r k in t he f u tu r e . He tells you th at h e is go in g b ack t o New Yo rk, and th a t y o u b oth c an defeni tely s t ar t a s t r o n g r el at io n s h ip s o o n . He do es tu rn ou t t o b e t h e m an o f y o u r life. Yo ur f e e l i n g do es not li e to yo u . Yo u ju s t h av e t o b e b rav e t o f o l l o w i t , and whi ch you m u s t h av e d o n e u n t il y o u can g e t to th i s page. Congratu lat io n , an d n o w y o u ju s t h av e t o a p p l y th i s pri nci p le and car r y it wit h y o u in y o u r r eal life.

that's him and me kissing!

he is

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one

so you decided to go see him for his birthday, and

you both are meant together p age : no

the end.

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