Pattra 2016 : Connected World by NTU Buddhist Society

pattra 2016 Connected World

pattra A Publication by NTU Buddhist Society One Stop @ SAC, 50 Nanyang Avenue NS3-01-03 Academic Complex North Singapore, 639798 Facebook : facebook.com/NTUBS Email : buddhist@e.ntu.edu.sg Website : clubs.ntu.edu.sg/buddhist

Connected World

EDITOR’S NOTE If you are familiar with computer terms you should know about the term server and client. The Server is the center of computer communications. Usually, the client needs permission from the server in order to access some files. However, the word “server” actually comes from the word “serve”. The server is the one who serves and the client is the one who receives the service. As social beings, we interact with one another. In our lives, we play a lot of roles - as a student, as our parent’s child, and a lot more. Some people are good at communication while some people are not very good at it. In this newsletter, we will view some relationship roles and how to be better in interacting with other beings. Lastly, I would like to thank the publication team and also everyone who supported this magazine. I would also like to thank you for reading this magazine. Relax, and enjoy. Ryan Eka Cahaya Editor-in-chief

Table of Contents Editor-in-chief Ryan Eka Cahaya Writers Cindy Suryautama Joandy Leonata Pratama Olivia Agatha Layout Designers Anthony Morgan Tjoe Jaka Ong Willson Nicholas Special Thanks to Dr. Ang Beng Choo NTUBS 34th Committee

Management Committee People who are behind NTUBS for this semester

NTUBS Events Past Events and Upcoming Events

Article Buddhism and Dating

Article A Guide on How to Love Yourself

Article 9 Misconceptions about Buddhism

Article Practising Buddhism while Developing Relationship

Recipe Vegetarian Recipe

Poem The Ripple of the Cripple

NTUBS 34TH MANAGEMENT COMMITTEE

Tan Jun Guang Dedrick Kelvin Metta Director Event Director The Metta team is the one who encourages NTUBS members to participate in volunteering activites. They conducted the metta visit and also Little Bodhi Outing. Hope you enjoyed the events!

Ong Zhi Huang Fellowship Director

Ryan Eka Cahaya Publication Director

Have you already been in Kalyana Mitra group (Monggalana, Sariputta, Mahakassapa, Ananda)? Itâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s the fellowship team who makes sure that nobody gets left behind in NTUBS.

The publication committees are the ones who took the pictures during NTUBS events in hope to preserve the memory of NTUBS. Besides, this magazine you are reading is created by the publication team

The event team is the one who conducts the investiture as well as NTUBS upcoming events such as NTUBS Night and Vesak Day. Hope to see you there!

Thomas Lee Ming Zhi Dharma Propagation Director The ones who conduct Dharma Class every Friday are the committees of DP team. Also, the DP director is the camp master of the upcoming Dharma Camp

Dian Bakti Vice President (Event) As the leader of the event team, Vice President (Event) oversees the Event and Metta portfolio.

Marshall Valiant Lugan Vice President (Dharma) Vice PresidentDharma is the advisor of Dharma Team, which consists of Dharma Propagation, Fellowship, and Publication.

Mellita Angga President

Melvina Honorary Treasurer

Su Yuet Ching Sheryl Welfare Director

The president is the one who leads and oversees every activites in NTUBS. With her vision of “bringing Dharma closer to us”, NTUBS has moved forward in a better direction.

Who is the one in charge of NTUBS’ money? Of course it’s our treasurer. She is the one in charge of NTUBS’ fund and budget.

Did you enjoy the exam supper? It was a success thanks to our welfare team. Also, the welfare team prepares the refreshments in every Dharma Class and contacts companies for the stuff in our goodie bag

Elmer Augustinus Trisno Honorary General Secretary As the leader of the Support Team, he oversees the treasurer, resource, marketing, and welfare directors in carrying their duties. Cheong Qi Yun External Liaison Director One of our solo fighters, she is the one who has been canvassing for NTUBS’ fund and maintaining cordial relationships between NTUBS and other Buddhist organizations

Finnie Tesiana Marketing Director

Felix Putera Tiosanna Resource Director

Have you seen NTUBS’ posters around NTU or on our social media? The marketing team is the one who designs the posters. Besides, they are also in charge of the social media of NTUBS.

Resource team is the one who takes care of the logistics of the NTUBS events. Thanks to them, every NTUBS event went smoothly. 6

NTUBS PAST ACTIVITIES AND EVENTS CAMP NIRVANA SINGAPORE Date: 12-14 August 2016 Venue: Fo Guang Shan and Pulau Ubin Camp Nirvana Singapore is NTUBS annual orientation camp. It is a platform for NTU community to know more about NTUBS and have fun while also learning Buddhism. This year, CNS was held at Fo Guang Shan Monastery. The activities included Dharma Talks and fun games. Besides, we also went to Pulau Ubin for some outdoor games.

WELCOME WEEK AND WELCOME TEA Date: 11 August 2016 Venue: North Spine and Function Hall

Welcome Week and Welcome Tea are the platforms for NTUBS (as well as many CCAs) to introduce itself to the community of NTU. In the welcome tea, we had fun games and song singing to welcome freshmen to our society

INVESTITURE aND AGM Date: 26 August and 2 September 2016 Venue: Lecture Theatre 20 AGM was held at the beginning of the semester to review the activities and financial report of NTUBS in the past one year as well as to elect new committees. It was followed by investiture in the next week, which marked the official end of the 33rd committee and also the beginning of the 34th committee.

DHARMA CLASS AND DHARMA TALKS In this semester, NTUBS has held five Dharma Classes and one Dharma Talk. The topics range from who Buddha is to the different traditions of Buddhism (Theravada, Mahayana, and Vajrayana). We invited some venerables who are relatively new speakers to our society, such as Ven. Chun Hui, Ven. You Deng, and also Ven. Gebse Lobsang Yonten to share some Dharma knowledge.

Dharma Class 1: 09/09/2016

Dharma Class 2: 16/09/2016

Dharma Talk 1: 23/09/2016

Dharma Class 5: 21/10/2016

Dharma Class 4: 14/10/2016

Dharma Class 3: 07/10/2016

Mass Photo Session in Dharma Class 1: Who is Buddha?

Refreshments in Dharma Class 2: The Essence of Buddhism

Dharma Sharing by Venerable during Dharma Talk 1: Have you set your spiritual goal?

Sharing Session in Dharma Class 3: Inspiring Life Story of Chulapanthaka

Mass Photo Session in Dharma Class 4: HAHAHA The Laughing Buddha

Song Singing Session in Dharma Class 5: Nagarjuna and the Realization of Emptiness

SUNDAY CULTIVATION Date: 09 and 23 October 2016 Venue: Nanyang House Seminar Room Besides the weekly events every Friday, NTUBS also held additional events on Sunday. The topics in sunday cultivation are less about the theoretical Buddhism and more about the practical application, from the practice of Meditation to sharing of Dharma knowledge.

Meditating on Sunday Cultivation

Internal sharing session

Brother Xin Zhao, the speaker of Sunday Cultivation 1

METTA VISIT Date: 23 October 2016 Venue: Oasis Animal Shelter, Pasir Ris Talking about more practical applications, NTUBS encourage its members and NTU population to volunteer and propagate loving kindness to all beings as well. This semester, NTUBS held a volunteering event in Oasis Second Chance Animal Shelter. Not only it was useful for the community, it was also a fun and thought-provoking experience.

Volunteers cleaning the

animal shelters

The Metta Team, the organizer for Metta Visit

Volunteers help cleaning the shelters

MANAGEMENT RETREAT Date: 30 September - 2 October Venue: Kong Meng Shan Monastery Management Retreat is a threedays event for the management committee. In this event, the management committee of NTUBS was trained to be a Buddhist Leader. Also, this was the time when the management committees opened up with each other.

MC listening to Dharma Talk

EXAM SUPPER Date: 28 October 2016 Venue: Hall 13 Function Hall Exam Supper is the perfect time for NTUBS members to destress before the exam period. We had steamboat and song singing together. Besides, there were also goodie bag distribution to wish for the welfare of the member. At the end, it turned out to be very interesting and different from the previous years, but it definitely succeeded in achieving its purpose.

Song Singing

Mass Phototaking

INTERFAITH DISCUSSION Date: 18 October 2016 Venue: Lecture Theatre 7 NTUBS was invited by NTU Muslim Society to share about each belief to each other. It is a good platform to have a better understanding of other religions. Besides, we can ask questions about Muslim teachings while also clearing some doubts about Buddhism.

Mass Photo Taking in Interfaith Discussion with NTUMS

COMMITTEE DAY Date: 15 October 2016 Venue : Around NTU Committee day is an annual event held for the committee to know each other in hope to foster fellowships among the committee. The committees had a lot of fun playing together and also dancing to PPAP. Besides, in the evening we had a sharing session where we opened up ourselves to one another to know more about each other spiritually.

Balloon Game

Group Bonding

Mass Photo Taking

Ice-Breaking Session

LITTLE BODHI OUTING Date: 07 December 2016 Venue: LBSCC and Gardens by the Bay LBO is another volunteering event of NTUBS in this semester. This year, we brought children from Little Bodhi Student Care Center (LBSCC) to Gardens By the Bay to play games and have fun. Not only as a volunteering event, it also serves as a reminder of our inner child and I believe that both the participants and children gained something from interacting with each other.

Volunteers and LBSCC children

Playing games with children

UPCOMING EVENTS Jan

Dharma Camp 2017 - Meaning in Dharma

Buddhism Awareness Week

Feb

BS Night

Exam Supper

May

Vesak Day Celebration

Aug

Compassion in Action

And Many more, Dharma Talks Dharma Classes Sunday Cultivations Senior Appreciation Party Camp Nirvana Singapore

To love and to be kind - There is nothing surprising about this Buddhist teaching. As Buddhist, have you ever wondered how a Buddhist should act while dating? Well, here is a brief information on how Buddhist teaching can be applied to dating.

Respect your partner as we respect ourselves. Value your partner as we value ourselves. Yet, do not allow any sacrifice from any of you.

As a Buddhist, we are taught to spread compassion. There are a lot of ways to express Know and accept oneself before starting a your compassion towards your partner. One of them is to simply value their opinions and relationship decisions. Yet, do not forget your own voice, Figure out what you like, what you have and as both you and your partner are equal beings whether you have what it takes to commit yourthat live, breathe and are subject to the same self. Don’t try to search for your partner only law of nature. to fulfill something that you don’t have – this Grow and evolve together, rather than will only end up in a dependency and unbalasking only your partner to be better anced relationship. Instead, when you understand and accept yourself fully, you can be in a Being equal also means not to force only your co-supportive relationship. partner to be better, but to grow together. Both of you can try to analyze each other, not 13

Buddhism and Dating Written by: Olivia Agatha

to find who is at fault when a problem arises, but to find what role you and your partner takes in causing the problem, no matter how big or small. Then, try to do the right effort together. First, the effort to prevent any evil thoughts. Next, the effort to abandon evil thoughts – thoughts of finding faults in each other, thoughts of being egoistic, or any evil thoughts there may be. Next, the effort to develop thoughts of good-will – thoughts of wishing for each other not to be hurt because of the problem, thoughts of wishing to improve

“Relationship is about two individuals who maintain their own lives and create another one together” - unknown -

and find a solution that won’t hurt anyone. Finally, the effort to maintain those thoughts of good-will. The only thing that is constant is change. Each present moment is to welcome future and let go of the past. There are always ups and downs in life, so as in a relationship. Problems and quarrels can happen, but as long as there is future, there is a chance to fix them and let go of them. To let go doesn’t mean to pretend to forget about them without fixing anything. To let go simply means to leave them where they belong – the past. Yet, don’t forget to come up with a solution for a brighter future.

Be positive as you try to respond according to what you think. Cultivate the right thoughts, for they determine your actions and speech. Psychologically speaking, when you think that you are bad, you may feel the need to just prove the world that you are bad. When you think that you don’t have what it takes to make your partner proud of you, you will only lose confidence in yourself and feel down. When your partner says that you are beautiful or great, believe it and stay positive. Do not let your ego win against your love for your partner. Buddhism teaches about selflessness. This too applies to how you should treat your partner. Yet don’t let your partner dominate the relationship. Don’t forget that communication is essential. In case there is something different between you and your partner, try to find out what both of you want and need and whether there is any solution that gives both of you a happy way to enjoy your days.

“In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you” -Buddha-

These tips may sound cliche, but these tips may help you in having better relationships. Also, these tips might be applied in other relationships as well, such as friendship. At the end, the basic is simple. If we develop kindness and let go of our ego we will excel in any relationship.

You yourself must strive The Buddhas only point the way - Buddha

illustrated by : Ryan Eka Cahaya

Written and Illustrated by : Cindy Suryautama

First of all, I’d like to clarify that the guides do not follow any certain order. They do not reflect the degree of importance, nor are they arranged in a certain sequence.

I recall there was a legit experiment which shows that our facial expression can affect our mood. So the next time you’re feeling under the weather, try smiling.

Now, let’s get into the topic. As the theme for our Pattra magazine this time is about relationships, I think it would be nice to explore a little bit on our relationship with ourselves. The first one on the list is to count your blessings. Believe it or not, this is easier said than done. When our life goes comfortably, it is so easy to take things for granted. For example, during the exam period, we might complain of why we need to study so hard. Guess what? Having to go through this process means that we are privileged enough to afford education, which is extraordinary. Counting our blessings can instantly make us happy about the things around us.

During my time in university, it dawned upon me how important it is to have a hobby. Well, it is not restricted to just hobby. It can be a side project, it can be a special routine that you set for yourselves, it can be anything that gives you excitement, something to look forward to. These hobbies provide a sense of value to ourselves. It serves as a reminder that life is much more than just scores and grades. And when we feel motivated again, it’s time to get back to study! HAHA Of course, it does not makes sense for us to work in our entire life. Our body has a limit and optimum level to function. Once in a while, it is important to take time off and just relax. I have a friend who told me that finding balance is very essential. And indeed, it is. While we are concentrating on coursework, we should not leave out social life and healthy lifestyle. I personally believe that coursework, social life, and healthy life are connected to each other and are not mutually exclusive.

Travelling seems like a clear way to reward ourselves. But it goes beyond just that. Apart from taking a break from our daily routine, traveling also exposes us to new stuff. By getting exposed to different cultures, we become more aware that people may have diverse perspectives and ways to operate. Thus, we will have better understanding of other people which in Last but certainly not least, keep a positive turn makes ourselves more accepting. Traveloutlook and stay true to yourself. Life is full of ling doesn’t always have to be in grand scale ups and downs and like going abroad. “Accept yourself, love yourself, and keep we need a healthy If you usually take amount of positivity moving forward. If you want to fly, you MRT, try taking a have to give up what weighs you down.” to get us going. It bus. If you usually is like what the old study in your room, -Roy T. Bennettquote says, “Expect try studying in the the best, prepare library. If you usualfor the worst”. When things actually go wrong, ly eat at canteen A, try eating at that new café. there is no need to beat ourselves up. But As cliché as it may sound, being kind to oththen, it doesn’t mean that we should live in the ers makes us happier. It brings good vibe, and illusion that everything is just right while runnothing bad has ever come from doing others ning away from the reality. Acknowledging that a favor. So does smiling and greeting people. In there’s room for improvement, that is the way fact, it takes less muscle to smile than to frown. to love yourself.

2. Buddhists Pray to god

1. Buddhists pray to statues The shrine found in Buddhist homes or temples is a focal point of Buddhist observances. At the center of the shrine, there is usually a statue of the Buddha. This statue may be made of a variety of materials such as marble, gold, wood or even clay. The statue is a symbol that helps people recall the qualities of the Buddha. If there is no statue, an image of Buddha can also be used to replace the symbol.

Buddhists don’t pray to a God, they pay respect to Buddha. Nevertheless, they do have devotional meditation practices which could be compared to praying. For example, the sharing of merit is a practice where one dedicates the goodness of one’s life to the benefit of all living beings as well as praying for a particular person.

9 Misconcept

6. Karma is law of action-reaction

7. Buddhists are vegetarian

8. Buddhism is a religion

Nowadays, people use the term karma to describe the principle of cause and effect. Karma in Buddhism simply means action driven by intention. In Buddhism, the term Karma is often accompanied by the term vipaka. Karma is the cause which leads to vipaka, which is the result. In Buddhism, karma plays a core component in the cause and effect mechanism to create an effect (vipaka).

Buddhists do not have to be vegetarians as Buddha Gautama never taught his disciples to be vegetarians. Some Buddhists choose to be vegetarian because it reminds themselves of the first precept which is to abstain from killing. By being a vegetarian, we are indirectly helping to prevent animals to be killed (based on the law of demand and supply), and also reminding ourselves to respect life.

Buddhism is not really a religion in a sense. It is more of a philosophical way to see life. In Buddhism, there is a term “Ehipassiko” which means “come and see”. Before deciding to take the path of Buddhism, one should investigate and understand the value of Buddhism. One should follow the path of Buddhism only if it makes sense, not because it is told by someone else.

5. Buddhist and Chinese Culture

3. Buddha is a god Buddhas are not Gods. Gautama Buddha did not claim that he was a god, the child of a god or even the messenger from a god. He was a man who was awakened and enlightened, and he taught that if we follow his example, we could also be enlightened. No one saves us but ourselves. We ourselves must strive, Buddha only show the way.

4. Chanting is Praying Chanting is not praying, much less a form of mysticism, as asking for a blessing or help is not the way of Buddhism. Most chanting is done as a way to recite sutras (written works attributed to Buddha) to help keep them in mind via repetition.

Many Chinese folk culture practices have been integrated into Buddhism in several countries. However, this Buddhism is not the original Buddhism taught by the Buddha and in fact is often discouraged. For example, burning mantra paper was not taught by Buddha. However, it serves as a reminder that all belongings from the previous life cannot be brought along in the next lives. Therefore it is still been practiced until today.

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Buddhism Written by : Joandy Leonata Pratama

9. Buddhist practise Buddhism to go to heaven There are thirty one planes of existence in Buddhism, including that of humans’. There are four realms “below” ours and twenty six realms “above” ours. However, The time a sentient being spent here is not eternal and the being is still accountable for rebirth in another realm. Buddhists practice Buddhism in order to relinquish the cause of suffering (dukkha) and to enter Nibbana state where the law of cause and effect does not apply.

FYI The five precepts : 1. I undertake the precept to abstain from killing 2. I undertake the precept to abstain from taking things not given 3. I undertake the precept to avoid sexual misconduct 4. I undertake the precept to abstain from false speech 5. I undertake the precept to abstain form anything that causes intoxication or heedlessness

Practice Dharma in

Building Relationships Written by Dr. Ang Beng Choo

According to Buddhism, all beings prior to their enlightenment, are reborn again and again in one of the six realms: gods, demi-gods, humans, animals, hungry ghosts and hells. Human realm is the only realm where one could learn and practice to attain enlightenment. Every human birth is precious as it is more rare than the chance of a blind turtle raising its head to the surface of an ocean once in every 100 years and sticking its head into a small hoop. We are lucky to be born in the human realm and even more lucky to be Buddhists. We should catch hold of this precious opportunity to learn and practice Dharma to step forward in our journey to enlightenment. This is an interrelated and interdependent world. Maurice Maeterlinck, the author of “The Life of the Bee”, said, “If the bee disappeared from the surface of the earth, man would only have four years left to live” (before hunger consumes 21

us). Thus, our well-being and existence depend on the environment, even on something as small as a bee. After the Buddha attained his enlightenment, he stood in front of the Bodhi tree, gazing at it for seven days in meditation, to show his gratitude to the tree for having sheltered him while his striving for enlightenment. The Mangala Sutta enumerates gratitude as one of the highest blessings. To me, gratitude is the first teaching of the Buddha through his own action. He taught us to be grateful to the four groups, namely, our parents, teachers, nation and all beings. In every rebirth, we have our parents, family members, teachers, relatives, friends, enemies and all beings contributing to our well-being. If we practice gratitude, our ego, greed, hatred, jealousy and suspicion will reduce automatically. Gratitude in thought could further be expressed in speech and action to establish a good relationship and mend bad relationship.

Then we will have more friends than enemies. Speech is an effective tool for communication. It includes listening and speaking. It could make or break a relationship. We are often upset or angry due to unpleasant words. Anger and anxiety affect not only our health but also our rational thinking. The Dhammapada tells us that those who silent sit are blamed; those who often speak are blamed too. There is none in the world unblamed. There never was, there’ll never be, nor now is ever found, a person blamed perpetually or one who is wholly praised. So, don’t worry those cruel words or bad attitude towards us. Every encounter of problem or difficulty makes us either bitter or better. We can choose whether we want to be a victim or winner.

In a winter, the sun and wind had a big argument on who was more powerful. When they saw a man wearing winter coat and hat, they decided to take up a competition for the man to remove his coat and hat. The wind acted first. It blew harder and harder, but the man held the grip of his coat and hat tighter and tighter. At last, the wind gave up. When the sun took over, he started with a warm smile. The man felt comfortable. As the sun became warmer and warmer gradually, the man felt more and more of the warmth. He started to remove his muffler, then his coat and winter hat. Harsh ways had failed and gentle ones suceeded. Thus, the Buddha advised us to “use gentle words instead of harsh words”.

To maintain close relationships, we should watch our tongues and say the right things. But it is not easy to control our tongues. The best way is to think through the questions advocated by the Buddha before opening our mouth. They are: “Is what we are going to speak true?” “Is it beneficial to speak ?” “Is it acceptable to the audience?” and “Is it the right time to speak?” If the answers are positive, it is right speech. In addition to right speech, right action is also very important for a good relationship. A smile will bring people closer as smile is an international language to say “I like you”. Let us smile and say “hello”

Dr Ang Beng Choo, PhD in Applied Linguistic. Serving education for more than 30 years as a school teacher, a school inspector, a curriculum and textbook developer, a teachers’ trainer, a university lecturer and an administrator. After her retirement, she has been helping in volunteering work on social education to give talks and lectures. when we meet others. Say “sorry” when we are wrong. Say “please” when we need others’ help. Say “thank you” after others have helped us. Lend a listening ear to others who are facing difficulties. When a comment or suggestion is needed, be mindful of our language and use gentle words. Also extend a helping hand whenever and wherever it is needed. Then a harmonious society surrounding us and a peaceful world will emerge.

Vegan Recipe

Mock Chicken Salad This simple tempeh salad really does resemble chicken salad. Itâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s great in sandwiches or atop green salad.

Yield

4 servings

Time

30 minutes

Tools

1. vegetable steamer 2. knife 3. bowl 4. wooden spoon

Ingredients

1. 8 oz tempeh, cubed 2. 1/2 c mayonnaise or tofu mayonnaise 3. 2 T soy sauce 4. 1 stalk celery, finely chopped 5. 1/4 c red onion or 2-3 green onions, minced 6. 2 T parsley, minced 7. 1/2 c pecans and/or walnuts, minced

Direction

Steam the tempeh for 20 minutes, then let cool for 10 minutes. Meanwhile, combine the remaining ingredients. When the tempeh is cool, stir it in. Chill and serve

Source : https://www.theveggietable.com/blog/vegetarian-recipes/salads/chinese-seitan-salad/

POEM

The Ripple of The Cripple Written by : Olivia Agatha As we live in this earth, we tend to take the earth for granted. This poem reminds us on how much humanity has changed the earth, hence to remind us to cultivate the earth. Once in dark, foreign, faraway, rarity, A being called ‘The Ripple’ dwelled as a deity A being blessed of immense beauty Known to the surrounding sanity, As a goddess of incomprehensible divinity, Divinity that ripples expandingly with purity Carrying the melody of the nature, A scenery calming the lost soul of any culture, A lushful of her and it cleanses any unhealthy failure A hotpot of vitamin and nutrient to nurture Loved by and loves any creature A friendship of innocence she never fails to tend, A friendship of no end, Full of care and defend An enormous family she never fails to embrace, A family of thick blood as a trace, Full of warmth like a fireplace, Yet not too much to cause a craze Yet comes brewing, a greedy storm Claiming for a revolution beyond the norm, Benefits of monetary value seems to conform And the bond starts to deform Yet comes swallowing, an ignorant tsunami Building a wall of blindfold to blasphemy Drowning her pain with laughter of her archenemy Digging out her anatomy Turning her into a dreadful mummy

Yet comes falling, an angry landslide Anger of unsatisfactory supporting more fight Anger of competition with nowhere to hide Scarring her even more “bona fide”, Staining her even more “bona fide” Yet the three poisons block the bond And the telepathy fails to be fond No comprehension No care, only disputation No defend, only collision No longer a goddess of beauty, No longer ‘The Ripple’, She now turned into ‘The Cripple’ Still hoping for redemption upon the sinners, Still warning them to reminisce about the past, Still trusting the existence of an unbroken friendship Still wishing for her family to look back, Or may be this is the best? “Let me crave for more sorrow, For my family and friends to find the true joy” The Cripple thought? “Is this how I want to end everything?” The silent thief thought The silent killer thought I thought