April 2022 :: Gonzo

TABLE OF CONTENTS VOLUME 46 NUMBER 1 APRIL 2022 * HAPPY BIRTHDAY OFM!

07 From The Editor 08 •OFM Breaking • Ketanji Brown Jackson selected as Supreme

Court Justice • Ukraine Invaded, U.S. Sends Aid • Parents of Trans Kids in Texas at Risk of Legal

Interference

11 OFM Health

• You Need No Excuse to Dine with Drag Queens

12 OFM ART

• Q & A With The Horny Stoner • The Agony and Ecstasy- Eudaemonia

16 OFM DINING • The Magic of Mushrooms

18 OFM CULTURE

•'Lady Buds' Introduces Badass Women in the

Cannabis Industry • Mike Ruiz Embraces His Inner Leather Daddy i n

New Photo Project

28 Gonzo

• Mushie Mommas Usher in a New Era of

Psychoactive Care • The Psychedelic Boom and Social Equity • The Decade of Gonzo • Gonzo: and Its Impacts Today 4 OFM APRIL 2 0 2 2

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34 Gallery 44 OFM Thoughts • Beyond the Binary • Queer Girl Q&A

49 OFM Style • Beauty Beat

• A Lesson In Spring and Summer Fashion

50 OFM Cannabis • Special Cannabis

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60 OFM Music • Metal Meltdown

• Kings Elliot Riding High After Release of

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62 OFM Astrology 66 OFM Lust • April Horoscopes

• A Groovy Orgasm

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FROM THE EDITOR

“Going, Going, Gonzo” When I was in high school, I wanted nothing more than to be Hunter S. Thompson. It didn’t matter that I was a chubby, mousey scene kid coming out of her awkward phase and still learning about sexuality and drugs. I had found my calling. I loved to write, and I liked weed and psychedelics, and I wanted my entire life to be an adventure, just like HST. Then, I went to college and started learning all kinds of things: the problematic aspects of the gonzo narrative: how it centers the male gaze and the cis, white experience, as well as how feminism and queer theory intersect with everything in the world, and my own journey to understand myself.

Of course, today, I don’t fancy myself to be a modern-day HST, like I thought I would back in high school. But I can’t ignore the groundwork that his legacy has led to, for better or for worse: Cannabis journalism and other alternate narratives are accessible and possible, and we can’t forget that. Thompson lived right here in Colorado and made a local impact.

And now, today, we are still embracing the gonzo legacy of sharing news and culture, but from an even more intersectional, inclusive lens. The legacy of gonzo lives on in the work we’re doing to free incarcerated cannabis prisoners, legalize psychedelics, and embrace the healing change of unlearning racism and homophobia.

So this May, whether you’re gonzo and sober, puffing on some flower and reading up on mushrooms, or simply adventuring and living your best life, we’ve got a narrative for you.

-Addison Herron-Wheeler

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Ketanji Brown Jackson selected as Supreme Court Justice

By Ray Manzari President Joe Biden has nominated federal appeals court Judge Ketanji Brown Jackson to be the first Black woman to serve on the United States Supreme Court.

Introducing Jackson at the White House, President Biden says, “I believe it’s time that we have a court that reflects the full talents and greatness of our nation.”

If approved, Jackson would be the court’s second Black justice; Clarence Thomas, a conservative, is the other. She would replace retiring liberal Justice Stephen Beyer and will not sway the court's 6-3 conservative majority.

The SCOTUS has large landmark decisions underway as it considers abortion rights, voting rights, and affirmative action in college admissions.

In response to her nomination for supreme court justice, Jackson thanks President Biden and says, “I’m humbled by the extraordinary honor of this nomination. If I’m fortunate enough to be confirmed as the next associate justice of the Supreme Court (of the) United States, I can only hope that my life and career, my love of this country and the Constitution, and my commitment to upholding the rule of law and the sacred principles upon which this great nation was founded, will inspire future generations of Americans.”

Her nomination is awaiting confirmation by the Senate, where democrats hold a majority by a 50-50 margin, with Vice President Kamala Harris as the tie breaker. Party leaders have promised swift but deliberate consideration.

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Ukraine Invaded, U.S. Sends Aid

By Ray Manzari

On February 24, Russia initiated an all-out attack on its southwestern neighbor, Ukraine. The large-scale military invasion is the result of a conflict dating back to 2014. The war has caused at least 8,100 deaths, and 870,000 have been displaced, according to Reuters.

Both countries entered peace talks in late February; however, Russian armed forces continued to bombard residential areas of the Ukrainian city Kharhiv during negotiations. Talks have ended, seemingly without a breakthrough, though both sides agreed to talk again.

Both the U.S. and other Western allies have imposed the harshest financial sanctions in history on Russia and have continued to build on these penalties as the fighting continues. Western countries agreed as of February 26 to block some Russian banks from SWIFT, a global messaging system which prevents blocked banks from making global transactions. Already, Russia’s economy is reeling from the impact of these penalties.

Ukrainian officials have accused Russia of war crimes after reports of shelling an orphanage and kindergarten outside of Ukraine’s capital, Kyiv. Across Ukraine, thousands of civilians are enlisting to defend against the invasion. An estimated 18,000 weapons have been distributed in the Kyiv region.

The U.S. has so far maintained that it will not involve troops in any Ukrainian conflict, though up to $350 million in military aid to Ukraine is on its way, and the U.S. has stationed 7,000 additional troops in Germany . outfrontmagazine.com 9

Texas Governor Greg Abbott is calling on licensed professionals, such as doctors or family therapists, as well as members of the general public to report instances of minors receiving gender-affirming medical care.

The directive was part of a letter Abbott sent to the Department of Family and Protective Services, calling on it to “conduct a prompt and thorough investigation” of any reported instances of children undergoing “elective procedures for gender transitioning.”

The letter followed an opinion released by Texas Attorney General Ken Paxton which stated that allowing minors to receive gender-affirming care such as puberty blockers, hormone therapy, or surgery is considered child abuse under the state’s law.

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Texas Legislature chose not to pass a bill last year that would make providing such care to minors a felony alongside physical and sexual abuse. Paxton’s opinion is an interpretation of an existing law, and while it cannot change the law itself, it can affect how it is enforced.

Parents of Trans Kids in Texas at Risk of Legal Action

By Ray Manzari

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The White House, which has recently stepped up in response to anti-LGBTQ legislation, spoke out against Abbott’s directive in a statement to the Dallas Morning News.

“Conservative officials in Texas and other states across the country should stop inserting themselves into healthcare decisions that create needless tension between pediatricians and their patients,” Karine Jean-Pierre, deputy principal press secretary for the White House, tells the paper. “No parent should face the agony of a politician standing in the way of accessing life-saving care for their child.”

While supporters of restrictions on gender-affirming care argue that minors cannot consent to care that includes permanent changes to their bodies, all major medical organizations, including the American Medical Association, the American Academy of Pediatrics, and the American Psychological Association assert that gender-affirming care is medically necessary for transgender youth and is backed by decades of research.

The Endocrine Society, an international medical organization for the field of endocrinology which includes the study of hormones, says in a statement that Abbott’s directive “rejects evidence-based transgender medical care.”

The Magic of Mushrooms

By Zachari Breeding, MS, RDN, CSO, LDN, FAND

At their core, mushrooms are a type of fungus (not a vegetable) that grows on soil or its own food source (such as dead trees), where the mushroom gains its nutrients to thrive.

Nutritionally, mushrooms offer various fibers and nutrients such as polysaccharides, amino acids, indoles, polyphenols, B vitamins, and carotenoids (a form of vitamin A). While these nutrients offer no calories—they only come from protein, fats, and carbohydrates—the benefits seen in eating mushrooms have been regularly substantiated in the medical world for a variety of contexts.

In Cancer Certain types of mushrooms (maitake, shiitake, and reishi) have been shown in animal studies to have an anti-inflammatory and immune-boosting benefit. These studies show stimulation in the activities of immune cells and free radicals (which can stop tumor cells from growing and promote their death). These benefits have been associated with several types of cancer, including breast and prostate, when used along with cancer treatment (such as chemotherapy) and a nutrient-dense meal pattern.

This is really no secret, though.

Traditional Eastern medicine has touted the use of mushrooms in promoting health for centuries.

The first reported use of medical mushrooms for anti-inflammatory benefit goes as far back as around 500 B.C. While there is currently no hard data to show that these benefits are proven in people, there is absolutely no harm in

consuming these mushrooms, and there is no known toxic level for eating them as a regular part of the diet.

In Mental Health An emerging but relatively concealed benefit of certain other mushrooms, known to some as “magic mushrooms,” is found in the realm of brain health and mental illness. The compound found in these mushrooms is called psilocybin, which is a potent psychedelic. The effects of psilocybin vary depending on the amount consumed, the individual person’s metabolism, and the type of mushroom used.

Currently, research is limited because of laws preventing FDA approval for use in studies, but many researchers are forging ahead with clinical trials to change the landscape of science in this field. While traction for FDA approval does seem to be gaining steam over the past couple years, the world of magic mushroom research has gone back to the 1950s.

studies have reported a “radical reframing of reality,” helping them to become “unstuck” from their normal ways of thinking and believing.

The future of psilocybin research will delve into how psychedelics affect behavior, brain function, learning and memory, the brain’s biology and mood, and look into psychological and behavioral disorders such as opioid addition, Alzheimer’s disease, and anorexia nervosa.

Scientists and physicians alike stress caution with tolerance, lack of standardization of psilocybin in “street shrooms,” and overall safety with continued unfettered use.

The future of mushrooms in the medical world, however, shows promise as to how we deal with ailments plaguing people for generations.

Consuming psilocybin is seen to directly impact the central nervous system and cause neuroplasticity, or the ability for the connections made in the brain to change, which feels often like a life-changing event or epiphany for the user. This impact, along with talk therapy, can be a breakthrough for many people facing depression, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), nicotine addiction, alcoholism, and cancer-related psychological distress.

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By Rachel Galstad Photos Courtesy of Horney Stoner

It’s that time of year where we celebrate the national stoner holiday, 420! And there’s no better way to celebrate than with The Horny Stoner herself: Anna Dee. She’s a dildo-dealing babe who's also slanging out the cutest, and not to mention most affordable, smoking products that you’ll be dying to add to your collection. If you’re a fellow Bud Slut, this womanfounded pleasure palace will be your new obsession.

From the toys and variety of pieces, to the sexual health advice and hilarious content, ya girl does it all.

How did you come up with the Horny Stoner?

So, I've been with my fiance for about 10 years, and he's always been the stoner expert. For example, he taught me how to use a rig and how to roll a blunt, so that's been his hobby. But for me, I was a stripper when I met him, and I was also a cam girl. Now I've transitioned to OnlyFans, but I clearly exude sexuality. And all of my friends who are in the sex worker space, they also smoke. It's just so interesting to me that these are two different worlds that collide, but we don't talk about them meshing a lot. It took me a while wondering what it should be named: “kinky cannabis" or "backdoor bongs.” But when I thought of Horny Stoner, it just clicked.

How does it feel to build a woman-founded pleasure palace?

Honestly, I wouldn't want it any other way. I feel like working from home for almost a decade has been my love shack. So, being able to build my life and curate it how I want is freeing; I couldn’t be stuck in a cubiclestyle form. I need to wake up to rainbows, unicorns, and bongs everywhere. Being a female-founded business, 1 2 OFM APRIL 2 0 2 2

you know, can be hard. There's a small percentage of women who succeed. And the percentage of small businesses that succeed is also so small. So as I continue to succeed and grow, I exude and share that we're female founded because it's so important to inspire other women-owned small businesses trying to make it.

What made you mix an adult toy store and smoke shop?

After coming up with the idea and merging those boundaries, two lanes become one road. It shocked me how viral we quickly went and I realized, like, “Oh my god, I just made an untapped market, or this is a niche that no other website mixes the two.”

You know, you have your sex shops, you have your pot shops, but didn’t have a combo of the two. I just always imagined in my head this strip club and weed shop mix. So that's the next endeavor to do it in physical form, because it just makes sense.

Do you have anything special in store for 420?

420 is basically our Black Friday, or Green Friday.

The deals will be just as good as around the holidays.

Our “stoner collection” will be buy one, get one 42 percent off, and we will be doing daily product drops as well as daily gift card giveaways on our Instagram, @thehornystoner. It's a great time for us to celebrate and help people get prepared for the holiday and create these unique experiences for fellow Budsluts. “Tobacco products” are more accessible than when I first celebrated 420. We were hiding in a closet or hotboxing in a van out of a milk jug, so it's really cool to see the evolution. Now I make dick-shaped bongs for all the girls, gays, and theys to compliment their cute little Euphoria outfits.

What’s your favorite item(s) currently in the shop that you just can’t wait to turn people on to?

The one I always gravitate to is our princess water pipe. I'm one of those people who's obsessed with color shifting, holograms, and rainbows, so I think it's really cool whether you're smoking in or outside you get the best of both worlds, and they're just beautiful to photograph.We also have a lot of silicone pipes, and again, when I was younger, those really weren't around.

But nowadays, if you’re in a space where you don't want to bring a giant glass bong, they're unbreakable, and they're really easy to clean. We just launched a collection of handmade, carved coconut pipes made in Hawaii. A lot of them have explicit artwork on them. We have a “Serpent of Adam” pipe that is in the shape of an apple and the snakes coming out of this beautiful vulva.

What does healthy sexual expression mean to you?

It’s freedom; it’s vulnerability; it's empowerment.

When I think of the word “healthy sexual expression,” I think about the first time we are taught about sex, and it's usually a very traumatic experience.

Never learning how or what tools you can use, not teaching about how to climax, and sometimes trying to figure out how in really unsafe ways.

So teaching how to express that is beyond important, same as couples having healthy expression sexual expression, it’s crucial and it's critical. So, not only does our brand provide tools, but we also provide education on how to push those boundaries. And we offer education to show the full spectrum of sexuality, because a lot of us are not reaching our fullest potential. It's a shame when you have the ability to heighten your pleasure and to maximize it.

Why do you believe it’s important to highlight LGBTQ representation?

Because it is necessary, period. We aim to represent all people, everyone deserves pleasure. Especially if someone is transitioning and perhaps doesn't have the full education or knowledge of the different types of pleasure they can have. We feel it's really important to offer beyond our products.

Representation is a way for someone to connect and explore their identity. Also, for those who don't identify as LGBTQ, it's great to highlight this so that we can provide positive insights normalization to their lives and their sexualities and have a really safe platform for them to express themselves, because not only day-to-day, they may not feel safe expressing themselves. But being sexual is such a vulnerable thing; it's very fucking scary.

And even myself, being pansexual, just buying and researching these products has made me feel a lot more empowered to share that to my community. You know, 10 years ago, I would have been scared as shit to wear a strap-on, and now I have, like, 10 different kinds. I also wanted to note it’s important to me we hire sex workers, people who have weed offenses, and single moms to work for us and give those people equal oppurtinites.

What kind of topics do you cover in your blog?

In our blog, we aim to have a diverse amount of topics to touch on. We use our blog posts as an outlet for our community to have access again to those educational resources regarding sexual health and wellness. Recently, we discussed cervical cancer and the importance of getting frequent screenings; we also touch on how to use certain sex toys such as vibrators and glass wands, and how to achieve those orgasms. Especially with tools you may not be familiar with, and different materials, we feature temperature/sensory play by freezing or heating up sex toys. Our community has responded really positively to our blog posts, and they appreciate us for making these topics that have been deemed so taboo, so we are also working on providing more blog posts.

How does The Horny Stoner provide inclusivity?

I think it's important—Our whole vibe on our website is not to be fucking boring. I think again, when you go into a head shop, it's catered to a white male. They might even treat you like you don't know what you're talking about. At The Horny Stoner, we’re going to take into account and provide an option for every aesthetic. Our products are inclusive for all sexualities and genders, and we provide a blend of different categories. Even our clothing line sizes range to 5XL to embrace all body types.

Do you have any words for your fellow Bud Sluts?

Don't be ashamed of your sexuality; continue the conversation of breaking your boundaries, and remember foreplay, honesty, and communication are so important in the bedroom. We also need to break the stigma that stoners can't be successful. It’s really uplifting and empowering being able to provide a platform for people who smoke weed and people who like to have sex. We’ve taken back the use of “slut” as an empowering term, and I think it's really giving a big “fuck you” to people who aren't talking to their kids about sex or people getting arrested for weed.

Anything else you’d like to plug or mention?

I'm the host of a top-charting show called The Slutrepreneur Podcast. We endorse sex positivity there, definitely the horny side of things. We also have two other sister stores, Alien Outfitters, which is out-of-this world clothing, accessories, and future fashion. We also have a self defense store for women called Blades For Babes. Protection is so important, especially to young females; it's a clear problem. So giving, the tools to make people feel safe and to talk about safety.

Follow The Horny Stoner at hornystoner. com or on Instagram @TheHornyStoner.

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The Agony and the Ecstasy: Eudaemonia Art and words By Christopher La Fleur

The purpose of art is two-fold: to wage war and expose truths. As queers, our mere existence is a radical statement of incredible importance. You are a marvel—something fierce to be celebrated and embraced

early on that once I opened the closet, I would not be able to close the door again. The origin of one trauma stemmed from another. Removing one box in the closet would cause them all to tumble out.

The best art is not always beautiful or easy. Like you, it is confronting and ready to be embraced. It wages war on the mind. As artists, we use it to wage war on the status quo, on the standards and expectations beaten into us; we wage war on conformity and the present in order to make way for unexpected futures.

There would never be a good time to do it, so I opened the door and never looked back.

We spend our lives in hiding before we spend our lives guiding. To understand who we are, we need to embrace all of the personal battles won and lost.

My newest collection, “Eudaemonia,” leans into that agony and ecstasy of being. After the pain of growth, we enjoy flourishing in the sunshine of love. It’s the sequel to “Personal Vision of Hell,” the first collection in a series of forthcoming bodies of work.

The intention of “Personal Vision of Hell” was always to break me. Like you, I’ve been through much—all of it unaddressed trauma. In order to grow, I needed to wage war. I needed to confront my darkest moments and reconcile them.

I had a panic attack the night before my exhibition and spent the evening in a hospital bed.

So much hurt, anger, and pain poured out of me. The creation of “Personal Vision of Hell” was terrifying. I knew

With that collection, I explored suicide attempts, drug-addiction, body dysmorphia, and anxiety. I made friends with the pervasive feeling I would never be deserving of love. I would never, ever be good enough. I spent my life feeling bound by expectation and guilt, so I leaned into that.

The reception to this body of work was fantastic. It was my first soldout collection. I knew very few of my guests that evening. After the smoke cleared and the panic subsided, I met strangers who’d gone through the same things I had. I met strangers who hadn’t, but who understood a different truth after viewing the work.

In all the rubble, I found space to build something new. There was so much room in my heart and my mind. I had no idea what to do with the freedom; the only answer was to grow into a person I was proud of becoming.

Therapy was the best option to become this person. With help, I learned to build boundaries and live a values-based life. I found self-awareness that wasn’t the voice in the back of my head. This kid, this dirty addict, found hope and authenticity worth protecting.

The hardest part of creating a new collection is always finding the narrative, finding the why. It takes the longest. Artists rarely struggle with technical ability.

They struggle with how to wrestle with the truth.

Following up “Personal Vision of Hell” with “Eudaemonia” is the next chapter in a story of growing, living, and finding joy. I want to embrace progress and reject the cycles of violence we inflict on ourselves. I want to celebrate evolution and share stories that inspire people to make change in their own lives.

So many people want to be free.

They’re ready to start their new chapter, they just don’t know how. Regardless of your talent (you do have one, I assure you), find an art form. Art is the offramp you need right now. It’s a critical tool in the process of self-actualization.

“Eudaemonia” wants viewers to know that, whoever you are, however broken you are, whatever you’re battling: There is always a way out. I know you feel like it’s all falling down, but there is always a new life waiting for you.

Your life is a radical statement— please, please don’t take it. Your light matters too much. Find eudaemonia; stand in your power.

“Eudaemonia” arrives March 12.

Visit christopherlafleurarts.com to learn more.

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By Robert Meyers-Lussier “Kenny: What do you guys want?

"Brian: Get some … sour cream and onion chips with some dip, man, some beef jerky, some peanut butter.

Get some Haagen-Dazs ice-cream bars, a whole lotta of chocolate. Gotta have chocolate, man. Some popcorn, pink popcorn, graham crackers! Graham crackers with the marshmallows, little marshmallows with little chocolate bars, and we'll make some s'mores, man. Celery, grape jelly, Cap'n Crunch with the little crunch berries; pizzas, we need two big pizzas, man, everything on 'em; water, a whole lotta water and ... Funyuns.

"Kenny: That's it?”

-Half Baked, 1998 If you just smoked some weed or have eaten an edible, it probably doesn’t take long before you’re consuming all the junk food in sight. You’re not alone. One of the most talked about effects of marijuana is the spike in appetite, better known as the munchies. The term munchies first appears in Charles T. Tart’s famous 1971 study, "On Being Stoned," where 150 marijuana users were observed and their cravings for sweets were noted by researchers.

So, what exactly is happening to your body—and your appetite—when you’re high?

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The Science What is in marijuana that causes this phenomenon? It's all connected to the body's endocannabinoid system, which helps regulate the brain, immune system, sexual function, metabolism, and mood.

Jeff Chen, director of UCLA's Cannabis Research Initiative, says the endocannabinoid system can be thought of like a series of keyholes.

THC, the main chemical compound in marijuana that causes the sensation of being high, is like a key. When a person consumes marijuana, the THC "turns on the engine of our cells and tells it to do certain things," Chen informs us. One of those things is building an increased appetite.

Further research suggests that THC interacts with ghrelin, a hormone secreted by the stomach that stimulates appetite. THC also increases the release of dopamine, which enhances the pleasure of eating. In addition to making food more enjoyable, dopamine can lower inhibitions.

How hungry you feel depends on the amount of marijuana you had and how you consumed it. When you smoke a joint, the level of THC in the blood is higher and leads to more munchies than if you were to eat an edible. Because edibles must be digested, whatever food is already in your system is going to slow down the absorption of THC until it finally reaches the brain.

There is a "food pyramid" for the munchies phenomenon!

According to Pot Mates (potmatespdx.com), there is a food pyramid that formulates the food groups for the munchies: Sweet: Sweet foods are irresistible and instantly delicious. Candy, chocolate, pies, cakes, and ice cream are just some examples of sugary delights. You’re not going to feel great about your choices the next day if you don’t plan ahead. Prepare a munchie stash, and you never have to worry about going without. Stick to the snack sizes whenever possible.

Salty: Salty foods are a cornerstone of the four food groups because salt makes everything taste better.

Pizza, Funyuns, Doritos, Chex Mix, and pretzels are mainstays of salty sensations. As with sweet foods, try to manage your portion sizes with snack sizes to avoid the adverse health effects of eating too much salt.

Chewy: Chewing is like exercise for your mouth! And chewing will help your salivary glands counteract the dry-mouth endemic to some stronger strains. Try chewing on some sugarless gum, Twizzlers, gummy bears, Rice Krispies treats, or caramel. It turns out, most things that are chewy are also sweet.

Crunchy: Think potato chips, crackers, popcorn, even carrots and celery (if you are feeling adventurous). Their satisfying crispiness will be a welcome reprieve after all that chewing.

Some crunchy foods are sweet and salty, so feel free to mix and match!

What we should crave Ideally, you should be eating fruits, vegetables, and grains. To satisfy those cannabis-induced cravings, try choosing healthier options that still have sugars or salts like granola cereals or baked chips instead of fried.

When you’re high, it might seem impossible to stop wherever your stomach leads you, but try being preemptive and setting out your snack options ahead of time, so you don’t choose the unhealthiest food options.

When you go shopping, choose bags of trail mix, roasted vegetable chips, or pre-cut fruit.

Here are some alternatives to your favorite’s worth considering, with some help from Way of Leaf (wayofleaf.com): Sweet and Crunchy: Roasted nuts in honey, chopped fruit, and vegetables in a little peanut butter or a low-calorie dressing of your choice.

Savory Snacks: Lightly buttered popcorn Chocolate: Squares of dark chocolate (the darker, the better) Chips and Dip: Pretzels and Greek yogurt (or salsa) Sweet: Vanilla ice cream with fresh strawberries Above all, have a few things prepared before you start using marijuana.

And enjoy!

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The Queer Life Amongst Rosie the Riveters

By Sarah White

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nsurprisingly, it took a war amongst men to begin the liberation of women.

The beginning of women’s liberation commenced with women tactfully using a hammer and solder, driving automobiles like buses and taxis, handling businesses' financial accounts, and wearing coveralls or pants. Much like today, some fragile masculinity was threatened, as a number of men refused to work with women during the WWII era. But for the enlightened and fearless few, the men came to be cognizant of the fact that yes, women can indeed skillfully utilize a tool, drive a car, count money, wear pants, and she was damn good at it!

The men who stayed behind from the war and worked with Rosies alleged they could tell if a man or a woman constructed a particular piece of ship because the women were much more precise and thorough with their tasks. Women excelling at “a man’s job” was not just during working hours but also after hours in the bedroom with other women. The Rosies were riveting with queer sex, gender-fluidity, expres-

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sion, and culture. The men were away, so the queer Rosies could finally play.

The World War II era was a remarkably liberating period for women and teen girls, as families changed and women entered a work force previously held by men. Women were looking for entertainment, work, and companionship as their sons, husbands, and lovers went off to war.

Women from all over the country flocked to Richmond, California, a Bay Area city neighboring San Francisco, to become a Rosie.

There, she entered the industrial workforce, earned her own wage, and found companionship and romance that was incomparable. Pursuant to Benes in the book entitled The Sex Effect, for the first time in some of these Rosies' lives, they heeded to a new word—a word which not only termed the disparity that had prowled clandestinely within her, but also validated there were other women like herself: lesbian.

Thousands of women defense workers and service women moved to the Bay Area to break free from the rural and strictly constructed home ties and shed from heteronormative lovers, and presented themselves with new freedoms where a woman could fully be herself and discover she was not alone. A lesbian woman met her first same-gender lover when she joined the service or joined the war effort by becoming a Rosie.

Queer women were taking charge of their lives by making a complete change in how one dresses, works,

socializes, and loves in the absence of men; and these women were thriving with validity.

The liberation of women’s nonconforming sex and identity did not cultivate in the Bay Area and throughout other defense plants without a cost. Allying with Canaday in the book entitled The Straight State, homosexuality was deemed perverted, psychopathic, and thus illegal at the time. LGBTQ people, including the queer Rosies, could face dangerous consequences like arrest, expulsion from families, loss of housing and jobs, and direct violence. It was for this purpose of safety the queer women gathered, socialized, and loved in private.

unabashed woman, who had the audacity to assert her right to live in public as a lesbian, made it easier for other queer women to find each other and more difficult for the heterosexual community and culture to discount them. It was her state of grace and her worthwhile fight.

Subsequently, as the war ended and the men returned home, the queer women, still under a blatant and treacherous chokehold of heteronormitivity and patriarchy, went back into the closet and held their secret and sacred love for women close to their heart, never to be authentically cherished by another woman again. These indispensable women kept their queer lives and experiences to In consonance with the themselves like an oath.

Rosie the Riveter World And like any sanctified War II Home Front Nation- vow, many of these lesbian al Park, when the queer stories go untold and Rosies needed to find undocumented, damagcompanionship and coming the archives of queer munity, bars and lounges history. played a vital role as a safe gathering space. Cocktail World War II symbolized bars, lounges, nightclubs, an era of extraordinary and cafes tailored to queer challenge and change in Rosies, as they were set sexuality, gender norms, free to dress in sparkling and social norms. The hues of femininity, maswar created a space in culinity, and androgyny which queer women could and able to show romanopenly exist, recognize tic affection toward each each other, and produce a other while basking in culture all their own. The entertainment of fabulous Rosie the Riveter National and groundbreaking drag Park in Richmond, Califorqueens and kings. Illicit nia is welcoming all queer affairs and covert meetstories from all surviving ings were the only routes Rosies and family and for the queer women to friends. Rosie the Riveters feel that things were good, were an eclectic group of right, and real. women who shared a diverse experience of AmerThe increase of women icans on the home front companionship, unescort- and all female narratives ed by men, indubitably deserve to be amplified expanded the existence in glory for future generof lesbians during the war ations to pay homage for and post-war America. The evermore.

‘Lady Buds’ Introduces

by Denny Patterson

Badass Women in the Cannabis Industry

All Photos Courtesy of Lady Buds Movie LLC

Best known for her scripted short films, award-winning LGBTQ writer, director, and producer Chris J. Russo took a major career leap and released her first-ever feature documentary last year.

Chronicling the legislation and commercialization of cannabis after California passed Proposition 64 in 2016, Lady Buds offers an insightful journey into the lives and work of six courageous women who are connected to different aspects of the cannabis industry. Through Russo’s lens, not only does she showcase underrepresented voices but she challenges stereotypes, highlights issues women face in the industry, and reveals how small cannabis businesses fight to compete against larger corporations.

Russo says she couldn’t help but be intrigued and curious about the women involved in the cannabis industry.

“When I saw that Prop 64 was on the ballot in 2016 and that it was going to create legalization for not only medicinal use but recreational use in California, I knew we were going to see a major change in the way people thought about cannabis and the economy,” she explains. “I began to research, and to my pleasant surprise, I saw that several women were involved in the industry. I came across a statistic saying 36 percent of leadership roles were held by women, and I was like, ‘That’s a lot.’ So, my curiosity led the way, and I started going to networking events for women in cannabis.

"They were very inspiring and passionate about the plant, and I was just enamored by these women. My curiosity piqued even more, and I started to interview women in the (cannabis) space. I knew that there was a story here. I knew that we were going to watch a historic moment unfold in California.”

Although Russo interviewed more than 100 people throughout Lady Buds’ four-year journey, six women are ultimately featured: second-generation cannabis farmer Chiah Rodriques; retired school principal Sue Taylor, who dreams of opening a cannabis dispensary; Latinx queer activist Felicia Carbajal; entrepreneur Karyn Wagner; and cannabis pioneers Pearl Moon and Dr. Joyce Centofanti, also known as “The Bud Sisters.”

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Russo knew she wanted to include subjects from all walks of life including mothers, businesswomen, and elders.

“I was very thoughtful about the casting, if you will,” she says.

“I wanted to have a diverse range of voices from different backgrounds, races, ethnicities, statistics, and areas of the cannabis supply chain. To me, it’s important to represent voices that aren’t often given the chance to speak, and cannabis has a fraught history with the War on Drugs, targeting Black and Brown people. It was very important for me to include a wide variety of voices in the film.”

At every turn, these trailblazing women are working to reduce the stigma around cannabis and reveal that it is much more than a plant—It’s a community. Captivating, educating, and above all, inspiring, Lady Buds has received nothing but high praise from audiences.

The film currently holds a 100 percent critics’ rating on Rotten Tomatoes.

“I cannot tell you how blown away and grateful I am to have that rating,” Russo says. “I didn’t know what to expect when the film was released. I knew that I told a really good story, and it was very compelling, but the fact that audiences of all ages are connecting to the film is very rewarding. I think cannabis touches a lot of people, and everybody has a different relationship to the plant, but I kind of feel that cannabis is almost the backdrop of the film. The film is really about these women and their strength to overcome these intense obstacles. It’s a dream come true that audiences and the press have been so supportive.”

In addition to women empowerment and achieving dreams against all odds, Russo also feels that Lady Buds is a critique on capitalism.

“I hope a lot of the takeaway from the film is that people think about buying local, supporting local communities, and questioning where they spend their money,” she says. “How we spend our money is a political act.”

Even though Russo is not involved in the cannabis industry, she has had a personal relationship with the plant since she was 14 years old. It is a part of her wellness routine, and she has always enjoyed how cannabis enhances her creativity.

During the four years of making Lady Buds, Russo enjoyed Arcanna flower grown at Rive Txai Farm in Mendocino, specifically Lemon Fire OG and Wookie Cookies. She also lived on Kikoko teas and Garden Society chocolates, but her go-to for microdosing is Kiva Petra mints.

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“I was surprised by how wonderful this community is and how they are all about giving back,” she says. “It was wonderful to learn about the history, and it’s kind of funny because my journey was very much parallel to their journey. It was very much like, believe in your dreams; don’t stop; make it happen as a filmmaker; raise the money; tell your story, and stay true to what you believe in. That’s what all these women were doing: raising money for their companies, fighting to stay alive in an industry that was very difficult for women, and we all inspired each other. I think that’s the message of the film, and for me, it’s also, don’t give up on something that you really believe in.”

After Lady Buds’ fantastic theatrical run in the fall, the film has streamed on Amazon and iTunes, and it is now airing on Starz. Russo is currently developing a couple spinoff projects, including a scripted feature and a series focusing on Taylor’s life journey to open a dispensary that’s focused on the needs of senior citizens and leaving a legacy for her family.

“I’m very excited about the projects that are being inspired by the film, and I’m excited to tell more stories of the courageous women in and out of the industry,” she says. “I come from a scripted background, but I’m looking at all projects right now to direct and produce, so it’s an exciting time.”

For the latest news, updates, and to connect with Russo, visit ladybudsmovie.com.

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Mike Ruiz Embraces His Inner Leather Daddy in New Photo Project

By Denny Patterson 2 4 OFM APRIL 2 0 2 2

International fashion and celebrity photographer Mike Ruiz, who has been featured on America’s and Canada’s Next Top Model, RuPaul’s Drag Race, and several other reality television shows, has turned his lens toward a community that has contributed so much to LGBTQ history.

This new portrait series, entitled “The Leathermen Mike Ruiz Project,” focuses on the beauty and diversity of the leather community, while also showing that it’s not just about kink and sex. Ruiz posted an open call in October to leathermen of all ages, races, sizes, and backgrounds to appear in these stunning images, and many men volunteered, seeing the importance of sharing their love of leather and what it means to them.

During his travels and sessions, Ruiz bonded with these burly men and saw how free and empowered they are, which granted him the power to let go of his own person hang-ups about sex and relationships. As the series grows and evolves, so will the discussion and understanding of what it means to wear leather as a form of self-identification instead of just a sexual practice.

Ruiz took some time to talk more about “The Leatherman Mike Ruiz Project” with OFM. It will eventually culminate into a book and multiple gallery showings, but above all, Ruiz hopes the project will become a time capsule that will keep the leather community’s rich history and traditions alive for future generations.

What inspired you to begin this project?

What inspired me to start was my desire to embark on a little self-exploration journey. I was celibate for the entire pandemic, and I was going a little stir crazy (laughs). I’m introspective about a lot of stuff, but I was focusing on my life, how I wanted to move forward, and how I wanted to come out of the pandemic. I’m all about the experience, and I want to have as many heightened experiences as possible. That includes a little fetish and BDSM. I met somebody, and he kind of introduced me to that world, and then he started to tell me about the history of the leather community. There was a lot of stuff that I didn’t know about.

I started to do some research, and I was just fascinated by it.

I’ve always been fascinated and drawn to the aesthetic, but I didn’t know about the history and the contributions the leather communities made to the overall LGBTQ community.

From that, I was thinking, “I’d love to hear stories and actual accounts of what these guys went through and what their journey was like through the 80s and 90s.”

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What better way to do that than reach out, talk to them, and photograph them?

That’s what I did. I made a post on Instagram calling for anyone active in the leather community and saying, “I’m starting this series of portraits. Reach out to me if you’re interested.” I thought I’d get maybe three people, but the floodgates opened, and I received a lot of responses from legit leathermen who have been active in the community for years. This was very educational for me, and I had great conversations with them before I even started photographing.

So, that’s what prompted this. It started out as a little self-indulgent self-exploration, but it ended up morphing into me documenting the journey of these men, who have such intense and amazing stories.

Some people believe that the leather community is dying. What are your thoughts on this?

I think it’s changing, but I don’t think it’s dying. It’s too deep and profound to die. It’s like saying because the gay community has integrated into the mainstream, gay culture is going to die out. It’s absurd to say something like that. It’s the same for the leather community.

What is it about leathermen and the community that you find so attractive and appealing?

Having come of age in the 80s and feeling the brunt of oppression on the gay community back then, I perceived it necessary to overcompensate by being hypermasculine. A lot of that was Tom of Finland-influenced, and that was my point of reference of the aesthetic. Not only was that a point of reference for my development, but it was also a point of reference for what I became attracted to. The uniform, the military aspect, the authority type figures—I was always influenced by that, and it's manifested throughout my career in various ways from other shoots, but it was always at a distance. I feel with this project, I’m really integrating into the mindset and lifestyle of the community. It’s been very stimulating.

I know that the series will culminate into a book and multiple gallery showings, but what are some other long-term goals?

I’m going to just continue doing it. I’m very proud of this series, and I’ve met some amazing people, and I’m amazed that it has snowballed into this thing. I’m getting a lot of interest from the Tom of Finland Foundation, and I’ll be doing a solo exhibition with them in June. It’ll be their first one coming out of the pandemic. I’ll also be doing one at the Leather Archives and Museum in Chicago, and another in San Francisco, so there’s a lot of moving and shaking with this project, which I’m very excited about.

I also want to shoot in Europe because the leather community is very active in cities like Berlin, Antwerp, London, and Paris, so I want to shoot around Europe and continue it. It’s like documenting, and I’ve been receiving so many emails from leathermen around the world wanting to participate, or they’re feeling excited that somebody is doing a project like this. They feel like they’re being seen because it’s a very diverse thing. I’m not sexualizing or objectifying these men; I’m celebrating them. It’s about them, not about fantasy. I do find these men super attractive, but I’m respectful and not crossing any line (laughs).

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Mushie Mommas Usher in a New Era of Psychoactive Care

By Addison Herron-Wheeler

Mushrooms have been a lot of things to a lot of people: a psychedelic portal, a healing medium, a vice, an accidentally ingested substance, a Schedule I drug. Now, in 2022, people are claiming the healing narrative of mushrooms, coming together in community and collaboration to celebrate their power. We chatted with Cristina Alfonso, a sun coach in the world of mushrooms, about how these fungi can give us more than a good time.

How did you get into psychedelics, and how do they help you?

My first time ever trying psychedelics was in middle school with a classmate. We did acid, but let’s just say that experience was unpleasant. Perhaps I was just too young and mentally unprepared. I got really into psychedelics when I heard about the clinical trials at Johns Hopkins and New York University about psilocybin helping with depression, anxiety, and alcoholism. Not that I have any of those symptoms, but I wanted to give it a try, because as you know, living in Los Angeles can be so stressful.

I wanted to enhance my productivity, creativity, and be more in tune with my surroundings, and I read of a woman that microdosed with psilocybin for those reasons. Since I started microdosing more than two years ago, it has helped me stay focused, and I feel like my life has gotten better, mind, body, and spirit. I am more in tuned with my surroundings and, most importantly, with my family. I do want to mention that microdosing isn’t a magic fix; you MUST do the inner work, along with the medicine, for it to work. It takes time and patience. It does not take away our emotions, but it helps guide on our healing journey. The inner work can often be the most difficult, but I guarantee you, it is the most rewarding.

Why is advocating for them important for you?

Advocating for the use of psilocybin is very important to me. Since I started guiding a community on how to microdose magic mushrooms, I learned that most of the people I was helping were on some type of prescription medicine; most were on antidepressants, and that made me even more passionate to help the community.

Don't get me wrong; I would never tell someone to get off their meds completely, and I always advise them to consult with their doctor/psychiatrist first. Psychedelics have shown great promise in treating mental-health conditions, and I want to be part of the voice to bring that awareness. I’m also witnessing my fellow Filipino community advocating for magic mushrooms, and I couldn’t be happier. Mabuhay!

What are your qualifications in the medical and psychedelic sector?

I don’t have any qualifications in the medical/psychedelic sector. I guide a community on how to microdose psilocybin only, based on my experience and massive research on how to properly use the medicine. I still believe that many need proper guidance and mental training, and that’s where psychedelic therapy from a professional comes in. I used to get very intimidated when people came to me for help or guidance, but they felt comfortable with me. I don’t charge money or anything.

I’m just happy to help my people!

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"Mush love!"

How do you feel about legal mushrooms and their benefits?

Legal mushrooms are amazing. There are psychological benefits to taking legal mushrooms, especially the use of lion’s mane (brain food), reishi (enhancement of immune system), chaga (potent antioxidant), turkey tail, cordyceps (supports natural energy), and so many other fungi. However, they are to be used in moderation, and I strongly advise to do research based on your symptoms prior to consumption. I love stacking my microdosing regimen with cordyceps for that extra boost of energy. Total game changer!

What is the biggest barrier you see folks facing to getting help with mushrooms?

The biggest barrier I see folks facing to getting help with mushrooms is the stigma behind this amazing medicine.

Truth is, there is still a stigma. There are social and legal obstacles, and because of that, some folks are afraid to resort to this natural pathway … sadly!

How can mushrooms help marginalized folks, queer folks, women, people of color, and others who need extra help?

We need to decolonize psychedelic pharma. While I’m happy that psychedelic medicine is becoming mainstream, it may still bring inequalities to our community. We must bring awareness to where these sacred plant medicines originated from.

What would you like to see the world of magic mushrooms look like in 10 years?

I’d like to see the world of magic mushrooms legal in 10 years (sooner I hope), so that it is easier to access. I’d like to see this replace prescription medications because I truly believe that magic mushrooms are the natural antidepressants. I do believe that 10 years from now, the world will be aware of the psychological benefits of mushrooms and their role in curing specific health issues and diseases like mental health, depression, etc.

Is there anything else you'd like to add?

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The Psychedelic Boom and Social Equity: Colorado and Beyond

By Keegan Williams

As cannabis continues its boom across the United States and beyond, with states across the country continuing to ease criminal penalties and usher in a new era of legal medical and recreational cannabis, the phrase “social equity” often comes up.

In an effort to right the wrongs of the War on Drugs and its effects on communities of color, lawmakers are attempting to write their policy to inherently include historically disenfranchised communities. It’s been met with mixed reception in states around the country, as advocates wonder if the new reform measures are truly doing enough to put these communities at the forefront of the legal cannabis movement.

Getting Up to Speed: A Primer on Psychedelics and Their Place Today To understand where we are today, it’s helpful to look back at where we’ve been.

While psychedelic drugs include a wide variety of natural plants and synthesized substances, one of the main players in the conversation is psilocybin, the psychedelic component of “magic mushrooms.”

A comprehensive 2021 report from the Psilocybin Mushroom Policy Review Panel, prepared for the Denver City Council, dives further into the history of psilocybin, noting the human settlements dating back to at least 500 It has also ushered in another conversation surrounding B.C. and as far back as 9000 B.C., have used psilocybin mushthe use of psychedelics, especially focused on how psycherooms. Psilocybin is found in more than 200 varieties of delic medicine can be used to aid mental health treatments. mushrooms, occurring naturally on every continent but Denver was arguably one of the regions that signaled the Antarctica. psychedelic revival in the U.S. and beyond, as it decriminalized psilocybin back in 2019.

Psilocybin is known for its capacity to “induce states of altered perception,” a feeling that folks may not otherwise be The cannabis industry today, despite equity measures, is able to reach, though it does not cause physical addiction, often headed by large companies with heavy wallets and cravings, major psychological disturbances, delirium, or white folks; many people are still serving prison time for amnesia. The effects generally last four to six hours nonviolent cannabis offenses while professionals turn prof- depending on the dose. its doing the same thing.

It’s been historically recognized not only as a source of This leaves psychedelic activists wondering how psychedel- nutrition but as a way for people to address individual and ic reform can incorporate equity, especially given the rich communal psychological and social issues. Psilocybin wasn’t history of psychedelic medicine among Indigenous commu- reintroduced to the West on a broader stage until the 1950s, nities. when investment banker and amateur mycologist Robert Gordon Wasson published his photo essay, “Seeking the To answer that question, we chatted with Shelby Hartman, Magic Mushroom,” in LIFE magazine. He recalls his particithe co-founder and CEO of DoubleBlind, a biannual print pation in a ritual with María Sabina, the first contemporary magazine and media company focusing specifically on Mexican curandera who allowed Westerners to participate psychedelics and the untold stories surrounding their use in the purification and communion ceremony, velada. as this modern-day boom persists.

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Following psilocybin’s growth in popularity through the 60s, The Controlled Substances Act of 1970 classified them as a Schedule I drug, which not only halted the legal, ceremonial use of the substance but also stopped the successful university-level research that was working to prove the safety and efficacy of psilocybin-assisted therapies.

Denver approved a city ordinance to decriminalize psilocybin with Initiated Ordinance 301, the Denver Psilocybin Mushroom Initiative, by less than 2,000 votes in 2019. Since then, California cities like Oakland and Santa Cruz made the “planting, cultivating, purchasing, transporting, distributing, possession or use” of entheogenic compounds the lowest law enforcement priority.

A Conversation with DoubleBlind CEO and Co-Founder Shelby Hartman

(Note that these laws are broader than Denver’s applying to all entheogens including ayahuasca, iboga, psilocybin, and any other forms of psychedelic compounds derived from cactus, plant or fungus.)

Oregon also made history in November 2020 as voters passed the Oregon Psilocybin Program Initiative, allowing for limited licenses for manufacturing psilocybin products, facilitating psilocybin services, and for testing psilocybin products. The Oregon Health Authority is now working to develop standards to provide these services to adults 21 and older, and licenses are expected to be issued this year.

Even with this small sample, the approaches around psychedelic reform vary abundantly, so how does that translate to conversations surrounding equity? Spoiler alert: It’s not a simple answer.

Breaking Down the Current Psychedelic Movement Moving forward and looking at equity specifically can be challenging because there are many different factions with-

in the psychedelic movement and a lot of varying opinions of the best way for this to unfold, Hartman says.

One major difference between psychedelics and cannabis in this regard is that many saw decriminalization of cannabis as the first steps toward legal cannabis: first decriminalization, then medical legalization, then recreational legalization. Hartman notes the psychedelic movement has a lot of activists who are promoting decriminalization as an alternative, or even in opposition, to the FDA-approved, drug-development model.

“There’s this idea that, if you can grow mushrooms in your house and not be prosecuted for it, then that is going to be the best way to ensure that people can have access to this medicine, and they can take it how they want to take it rather than having to go through a doctor, get a prescription, maybe it will or won’t be covered by insurance,” Hartman says.

Activists are also pushing for the broader decriminalization of all drugs. Hartman says, when we solely focus on the psychedelic community, it often includes some of the most privileged, so when we begin putting resources and money outfrontmagazine.com 31

toward decriminalizing only psychedelics, it can actually exclude a lot of people who are being criminalized for their use of other drugs that are not considered “psychedelics.”

“Oregon decriminalized all drugs at the ballot box in November, and that was seen as a huge win for the broader criminal justice movement, as opposed to a lot of the initiatives we’re seeing now which are focused specifically on not just the decrim-

inalization of psychedelics but decriminalization of ‘natural’ psychedelics,” Hartman says, nodding to Oakland and adding this model is “proliferating the fastest across the country.”

Other activists are looking to decriminalize all psychedelics, saying that we’re potentially creating an arbitrary distinction between what’s natural and what isn’t.

In conversations surrounding equity, Hartman says we must think about who will actually be able to access these medicines for healing and how we can correct the harm caused by the War on Drugs, “so that we don’t end up in a situation where cannabis is legal and all these people can buy it at their dispensary, but there are still tons of people who are incarcerated for doing exactly what people are making millions of dollars doing now,” she says.

In terms of drug development and accessibility, it sometimes takes hundreds of millions of dollars to move a single drug through development and FDA approval. If we look at psychedelics in a for-profit context, it means that pharmaceutical companies will need to answer to investors, who expect a return on their investment when that drug gets to market, which in turn affects the pricing and accessibility.

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nonprofits or benefit corporations, whose values prioritize access over profit? In reality, is it even doable for nonprofits exclusively to raise enough money to move a drug through the FDA-approval process?

Companies like Journey Colab have built Indigenous reciprocity into its model, creating a trust that holds 10 percent of the company’s founding equity, designated to share its success with community stakeholders, including Indigenous communities, “to increase equitable access to care and recruit employees and partnerships,” its website states.

Hartman notes that the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies (MAPS) came under heat in recent years because they established a for-profit arm, but it’s a benefit corporation, with the continued aim to innovate their model and increase access. The long-term results of this move remain to be seen, and Hartman harps on the fact that, once again, this conversation is complicated.

some capacity,” Hartman says. “Also, I think almost every attorney that I know of—who is doing really smart, interesting work around this in the psychedelic space—also does cannabis law, and also has been involved in this since before most states legalized medical marijuana.”

Both are historically stigmatized plants and fungi with a history of ceremonial use, and those who care about access and equity don’t want to see either overregulated. Though, the two have very different uses that must be taken into account when we talk about opening availability to the broader public. Generally speaking, a person can smoke some weed and still function, but taking a certain amount of psychedelics is usually a different story. In that way, Hartman says the systems will need to be different, including the types of public education that we put into place surrounding psychedelics.

While cannabis reform is still in progress, and far from perfect, Hartman says that she’s unsure if we would be having the same conversations around equity and access if the cannabis industry hadn’t come first and experienced its own growing pains.

Part of this is because of the overlap between the two communities.

Colorado is making moves to pave the road ahead, with Decriminalize Nature Boulder submitting a ballot initiative to decriminalize entheogenic plants and fungi (not including peyote) statewide back in January.

The group says the decriminalization initiative will open the door to increased opportunities for dialogue, research, and education that will help to inform future policy surrounding these medicines.

Proponent and activist Nicole Foerster specifically references the initiative as a stride toward equity: “Without decriminalization and the security it allows for affected communities to more effectively organize, regulatory models will make it difficult for the most disadvantaged groups of our population to continue to access the natural medicines they safely use to heal. To address this, we are advocating for a simple change to existing laws around these controlled substances.”

“There’s a lot of the activists who are involved in the decriminalization stuff who were involved in, or still are involved in, the cannabis industry in

As exciting as it can be, looking at the strides in research, the success stories surrounding psychedelic-assisted therapy and the ease of PTSD and

“We can talk all day long about like equity and access and reciprocity, but when it comes down to the mechanics of actually creating a business that centers these values, and also can like operate and have the resources and capital necessary to scale within this inherently oppressive economic paradigm that we're all a part of, it's very challenging.”

Psychedelics in the Midst of Cannabis Reform and the Road Ahead

symptoms surrounding treatment-resistant depression and more, Hartman says psychedelics aren’t a panacea; they aren’t for everybody, and they won’t fix your problems overnight.

“That’s literally why we started DoubleBlind, and we have so many articles, courses, and webinars for folks who are interested in doing shrooms, microdosing—Whatever anyone’s interested in, we’re just a wealth of free information, and we’re always available to support people.”

This conversation can also intersect with folks in the LGBTQ community, whether a person is coming into their identity or struggles with their family or friends’ acceptance. Hartman says that psychedelics can potentially show promise for the issues queer people often face, or are more prone to. Though, she notes there’s a lot more that must be explored surrounding the intersections of psychedelics and queerness.

“Just because psychedelics help like people in the general public who have treatment-resistant depression doesn't mean that they're necessarily going to help people who are queer, who have depression that's caused by very particular circumstances, but I'm hopeful, and there are definitely cool communities and retreat centers and things that are popping up to support people who are queer. Hopefully we'll just begin to see more and more of that.”

For more psychedelic information and resources, check out DoubleBlind at doubleblindmag.com or on Instagram @doubleblindmag.

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Going, Going, Gonzo

“Too weird to live, too rare to die.”

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“Buy the ticket; take the ride.”

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The Decade of Gonzo

By Richard William Guerra AKA Ranch

I want to take this opportunity, in this special edition of this legendary publication, to state what I have said many times over the last decade: The gonzo ethos and energy is needed now more than ever before.

What was once a raw and personal style of a countercultural reporter and a journalist is now available to to all, to anyone who intends to tell a story in an effort to shed light on the truth of our shared humanity and who hopes to make an impact in the effort against injustice and corruption now can.

With the 2007 financial crisis, COVID-19 pandemic, and the events leading to the war raging in Ukraine, the whole world is realizing that all the leaders of all the parties in all the major counties are a bunch of sneaky, corrupt, hypocrite fucks playing games with our livelihood and our lives.

Most of us humans don’t want to kill each other, and we are able to see the inside of war via the internet like never before. Everything can be exposed and leaked in terms of the truth behind why all this baffling, inhumane, and often disgusting stuff is happening. All of the sensationalist talking heads and politicians, on the left and right, can be found out in their corruption by following the money surrounding them. This is the decade, in the 20s, that I believe we need every one of us to live gonzo, to get creative and fearless in our effort to shed light on the swine.

To me, gonzo is not about reckless abandon and substance abuse, but instead is marked by the courage to be experimental and to understand firsthand what society is experiencing, no matter how dark or taboo.

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Gonzo isn’t exclusively a printed writing style but is instead a first-person, participatory, and personal approach to journalistic content created in any medium.

(I for one label my poetry, social media content, and podcasts as gonzo.)

Gonzo is not just reserved for one middle-aged, white male running around the 20th century United States but is instead now truly a tool of Freak Power as an inclusive, open-source way of sharing the world through anyone’s eyes.

Finally, gonzo is not about Fear and Loathing but is instead about Fear and Loving (more on that later).

I was born in 1988, currently 33 years old, a millennial to my core, equidistant from both the Gen X and Gen Z cutoffs. I stared at Good Morning America when the Towers fell in 2001, at 13 years old; that day never left me. On February 20, 2005, when I was 16, I remember the moment in AP biology class when my friends—two identical twins whom I had started to experiment with cannabis and psychedelics with—were devastated to hear that Hunter S. Thompson was dead.

Later that year, I watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas for the first time with my older cousin Amy, after attending Austin City Limits, my first music festival.

Up to that point, I had lived a fairly sheltered, albeit creative, life as a studious kid, shaken by D.A.R.E. and on the track to study to become an orthodontist. After I read Fear and Loathing–along with Bukowski, Dostoevsky, and Huxley–I knew I needed to alter my track and study journalism at a university.

As a college undergraduate attending school positioned in the center of a big city I’d never even been to, I would have abused drugs and alcohol at all the various concerts and blacklight-drenched frat parties, but after identifying as a poet and gonzo journalist, it started to become a part of my identity.

I co-created the online festival culture and electronic music publication LostinSound.org, which operated from 2009 to 2019. We were known for our gonzo accounts of festivals and the music scene, often touching on controversies and highlighting the changing psychedelic landscape of that decade. The festival, jam band, and electronic scenes are where the spirit of Thompson, and his work lived on most robustly.

Throughout that time, and in the years since, I realized that what has continued to deteriorate and disappear in the hearts of many people is trust and respect for media outlets, newspapers, and the companies that run them. There aren’t any Edward R. Murrows or Walter Cronkites today. The spirit and tenacity of Rolling Stone and even early VICE Magazine is not present in any of the major publications.

The internet in all its glory and ease, has evolved into a place where every voice, every web article, every YouTube vlog can all be dismissed as untrue or marked by a hidden agenda.

Usually that agenda is profiting, gaining more views and clicks via misleading headlines or conflict and drama stirring ideas.

Hard news, the facts, what’s happening out there today—People often have more trust for information from gonzo livestreams like Unicorn Riot and videos shot on the scene via

cell phones (@jonfarina). I have come to believe that what people need to read now are more publications and media outlets that are showing personal accounts of the experiences and identities that the writers are truly living. This content should be intended to build readers and the global society up, not tear it down with bombast and disrespect. I’ve been developing my own concept and blog, Fear and Loving (F&L), to be a place for just that.

I believe that millennials and Gen Z in particular have the least trust or belief in media and are lacking voices in media that they can relate to. OFM was one of the first media platforms to elevate LGBTQ people, people of color, the sex positive. I want to see F&L be all of that.

I want it to allow writers to speak on their mental health, their experience with substance experimentation and abuse, and all the wild confusing love we are all trying to navigate in this world. Every voice possible, other than those of hate and judgment, speaking out in the gonzo typeface.

Fear and Loving, and all new media sources, should be built as co-op decentralized businesses, in my opinion. Run by and owned by those voices and hands who are manning the ship and keeping its intention and focus un-corrupted by corporatization, greed, and compromised values.

The ability for information and ideas to zip around the internet at all times in every moment is any malicious global power’s worst fear; this is the time we create a new way to share and fight back together with Love not Loathing.

“Gonzo isn’t exclusively a printed writing style but is instead a First-person, participatory, and personal approach to journalistic content.”

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Gonzo: The Unique, Immersive Journalism Style and its Impacts Today

By Keegan Williams

Even in a standard issue of these very pages of OFM, you’ll typically find a collection of different styles of journalism and literary works, from columns, investigative pieces,and features to poetry. This issue, we’re giving extra attention to one style of journalism that’s proven to be highly influential in the realm of culture and media as a whole: gonzo journalism.

Gonzo journalism features the author as the main protagonist, inserting them fully into the story as the main character experiencing the action. It’s through their portrayal of events, from their own lens, in which readers discover the information being conveyed. These stories are often presented through a lens of social- and self-critique, with the writer’s personality and their subjective truths often proving to be more important than the actual “facts” of the story.

This also often leads to an exaggerated or profane aspect to the writing, and the tone and style might also embrace humor and sarcasm.

It’s hard to bring up gonzo journalism without talking about Hunter S. Thompson, who is credited as the founder of gonzo journalism and best known for his most famous book, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. The 1971 book displays Thompson’s highly subjective blend of fact and fiction, as the protagonist, Raoul Duke, and his attorney, Dr. Gonzo, descend on Las Vegas in pursuit of the American dream, all the while navigating through a drug-induced haze and reflecting on the failures of the 1960s’ counter-cultural movement.

In addition to Fear and Loathing, Thompson’s first published book, Hell’s Angels: The Strange and Terrible Saga of the Outlaw Motorcycle Gangs helps to show the importance of gonzo journalism in portraying the bigger picture, with gonzo journalism often diving further into specific spaces and cultures to paint a broader picture and better understanding of its subjects. The book features an up-close and raw look at the Hells Angels motorcycle club during a time when the gang was highly feared and had been accused of numerous crimes.

The 2015 Guardian article “Why gonzo journalism is crucial to our understanding of cities and their tribes” discusses this specific and profound impact of gonzo journalism. Author Bradley L. Garrett references that today’s news cycle, or even with multiple points of view through streamed footage and smartphones, often risks stories being boiled down to the most spectacular components, like a Hollywood film.

Rather, Garrett says gonzo journalism helps people to understand the nuances of deep-rooted conflicts and cultures, especially relevant today in the coverage of police work, protests, and social issues. Garrett says the best kind of socially engaged journalism “is rooted in participation, spiked with empathy, and resists being reduced to spectator fodder.”

And there’s a reason why gonzo journalism isn’t standard: Immersing oneself into another space, especially one that has the potential for violence or conflict, can be inherently dangerous. When Hell’s Angels first came out, the New York Times described Thompson’s portrayal as “a world most of us would never dare encounter.”

Garrett also notes that going into a story head-first as a journalist can cause one to lose sense of the broader picture, and that staying in a space for too long might mean a journalist changes based on their experiences. Though, as noted above, that’s part of the point.

That’s not to say bringing subjective experiences to stories doesn’t come with its share of problems. As we mention Thompson, it’s well worth noting that he was considered and often appeared homophobic. One account from a Rolling Stone editorial assistant named Tobias Perse, who was helping Thompson with his story on polo, recounts that he suffered through Thompson’s “rages” for months, resulting in Perse’s inclusion in the story as a sort of creepy, simpleminded character whom he nicknamed Queerbait, despite Perse’s protests.

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jittery young man. He said, “My name is Tobias, but my friends call me Queerbait.”’ Over four months, I cut Queerbait every time I sent it back to him, and every time, he’d change it back. I finally had it cut in the copy department just before we closed the issue,” Perse recalls.

E. Jean Carroll’s biography also details Thompson’s troubled relationship with his gay brother, whom Thompson refused to visit when he was dying of AIDS, along with his queer-bashing and wife-beating. Reading some of his material, it’s also clear that some of the content he discusses and potentially participated in is problematic, though one could argue that once again harkens back to the purpose of gonzo journalism— It’s not necessarily supposed to be pretty, and it can be just as homophobic and misogynstic as the subject behind the pages.

The bias—no matter how ugly—can be, and often is, part of the bigger story.

Collaborators widely found Thompson to be insufferable and very difficult to work with. In discussions of his legacy, critics note the act of centering oneself as the “main character,” propping up one’s voice and perspective as invaluable and crucial to the greater work, touting “authenticity” and one’s own public persona, can lead to this unappealing demeanor Thompson is known for.

And many have argued that gonzo journalism today has shifted and doesn’t necessarily follow some of the same patterns and principles that Thompson adhered to. One 2020 editorial from Norfolk Daily News, “Gonzo journalism practiced now more than ever, but without a name,” argues exactly what the title suggests.

It references the work of TV broadcasters like Jim Acosta of CNN and Sean Hannity of Fox News, as Acosta “likes to make himself part of the story at press conferences” during Trump’s presidency, rambling and trying to “score political points before asking a question.” It references Hannity’s Trump features, where he avoids asking tough questions to instead list the president’s talking points.

The editorial also references that many news outlets have increasingly editorialized in news stories and lean heavily on biases.

Even specialty publications like OFM aren’t immune to this truth. As journalists, we’ll always aim to report the news as objectively as we can, though we make it no secret that we are queer AF and don’t tolerate queerphobia or transphobia; we stand by women, against misogyny, and for reproductive healthcare access; and we will continue to stand up for BIPOC folks and against white supremacy. Inherently, those truths are going to tell you a bit about the content we cover and the tone we’ll carry.

Though, of course, this is maybe an adjacent conversation, not gonzo journalism itself. Today, it might not even be called gonzo, as some favor the adjacent term “immersion journalism,” which can be seen in modern-day examples like Super Size Me, various offerings from VICE, and podcasts like This American Life.

Critics will argue that the writer’s credibility and neutrality weakens when they partake in this type of journalism, and it’s also not always the most practical in execution, given our 24/7 news cycle and expectations for immediacy. Though, it’s tough to refute that we will learn something if we take some time to fully dive into a space or culture that we otherwise might limit to a quick sound bite or news blurb touting the flashiest highlights.

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Gonzo Edition

Queer Girl Q&A

with Eleni Stephanides

: My partner smokes a lot of Q weed and prides herself on being very chill. The problem, I feel, is

that a lot of why she’s able to function in this way is because I pick up much of the slack for her. I would love to sit back and put my feet up, but unfortunately, the clothes and dishes don’t wash themselves, and the floors won’t magically expunge their accumulated dirt. How can I get her to put more effort into not just our shared home, but our relationship in general? Maybe I want to be the one smoking a blunt sometimes. **Disclaimer; I am not a therapist! My qualifications are an undergraduate degree in psychology and a deep interest in human relationships.

These, combined with years of reading and lived experience, leave me feeling at least qualified enough to discuss these topics on a bare-bones level. Most of what I share here I have learned from credentialed psychologists, who are considered experts in their field. : It sounds like the two of you are A caught in the over-functioner/ under-functioner dynamic—one that I,

too, have found myself in several times.

According to counselor Janice Williams, “Overfunctioning is a term where one person habitually takes responsibility for ensuring the smooth functioning of their relationships. They are the ‘fixers,’ the ‘rescuers,’ the ‘reliable,’ ‘responsible’ ones. They have difficulty holding back and allowing others to ‘fix’ their own problems. In taking on more responsibility, they may get burnt out.”

In contrast, “under-functioners hold back, take on less responsibility, can be disorganized, and have learned to allow others to make their decisions.”

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relationships, over-functioning led to frequent frustration. I often felt alone in the partnership—like I was doing all the heavy lifting, while the other woman was just lackadaisical and along for the ride.

In her book, Extraordinary Relationships, Roberta Gilbert writes that in a balanced system, “Each person takes full responsibility for what belongs to them in order to make that relationship work properly.”

Neither role is right nor wrong; both have blind spots and valid perspectives. Understanding the roots of why we tend to fall into one or the other can be helpful, though.

In my case, for instance: Growing up as the baby of my family who was coddled and overprotected much of the time, I think, led to me craving a polar opposite role wherein I had more power and agency.

Thereafter, I unconsciously sought women who treated me in a way that would never provoke feelings of disempowerment. Consequently, they tended to be more passive and less direct in their communication.

And yet, with them—despite the outsized amount of emotional labor I felt I was dedicating—I never felt voiceless. I never felt my autonomy wrested from me.

What was your role in your family growing up? How were you treated? What beliefs did you form as a result of this, and what behaviors did you adopt to help the world feel safer and more navigable? It’s likely that these early experiences have influenced your present-day behaviors and approach to relationships.

As far as navigating the dynamic moment to moment: The more you shift your role in it, the more

space it gives to your partner to shift theirs in turn. Step back so that she can meet you in the middle.

For you as an overfunctioner, this may mean temporarily withstanding more anxiety as you let go and allowing space for another to step it up—but with the longer term payoff of stronger connection in mind.

Meditation can help guide you into that headspace. So can any number of relaxation techniques, including (since you mentioned your partner smokes) cannabis consumption! (I personally don’t react well to THC, but I know plenty of other people for whom it has a very mellowing effect.)

Remember that not all of this is completely on you, though; you can’t control your partner’s behavior, but you can share your feelings about how her actions impact you. When she is receptive to it, during a calm moment, you might gently discuss alternative ways of responding with the goal of both of you feeling like your needs have been met.

Some actionable steps psychologists suggest for underfunctioners include connecting with their thoughts and feelings when they find themselves tempted to shut down—either that, or voice that they need some space (often UFs skip this step, jumping straight to immediate withdrawal).

Perhaps you mention these in your conversation with your partner.

This barely scratches the surface of the over-functioner/underfunctioner dynamic; for more indepth exploration, read work by Harriet Lerner, who was one of the first psychologists to discuss this idea in her book, The Dance of Anger.

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Unlinking Gender Identity and Gender Expression

By Keegan Williams

If you’ve kept up with this column so far this year, you might have seen my recurring mention in reference to the label nonbinary itself, that it is a indication of what people are not (binary), rather than being its own, definitive category or a third gender. As we make a further dent into the year and continue these discussions, I figure it’s worth taking a step back to talk about labels and how they can be useful, or not.

Nonbinary folks sometimes use a number of other terms to describe their gender: agender, genderfluid, genderqueer, gendernonconforming, demigirl/boy, the list goes on. It mirrors the conversations we see around sexuality, with terms like pansexual, demisexual, even queer, outside of terms like gay, lesbian, and bisexual.

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me, either. Queer felt comfortable in its ambiguity, in the same way that nonbinary feels to me now.

For me, people get the information they need about me with my use of these terms, and it doesn’t necessarily need to go further.

Before I had really told that many people about my gender, I thought about adopting “genderqueer” for myself. I told myself, “My gender is queer, right? That’s how I feel.”

I had a conversation with one of my nonbinary friends around that time, who pressed me a little more about the adoption of the word “genderqueer” for myself. It’s sometimes defined as someone who doesn’t follow binary gender norms, cis or trans. Bear in mind, I’m defining the word in relation to this column partially to make a point. Some might ask how that definition differs from nonbinary or gender-nonconforming, and some genderqueer people might have a whole other conception of what that word means to

them aside from that definition.

“Sure, but what does genderqueer even mean for you?” my friend posed.

Sometimes I resonate with that term, but my gender sometimes feels fluid. Some days, I don’t feel like any gender at all, just dressing and showing up in the world in the way that best feels right to me.

For me, it feels most flexible and enveloping by calling my gender nonbinary and leaving it at that. In addition to being aromantic and embracing that label once I realized it described me, words like queer and nonbinary in relationship to myself not only best describe my experience but leave me the most room to explore these elements of myself.

This all makes me think of some of the conversations happening, largely online, surrounding nonbinary folks as more and more began coming out over the past few years. I saw people on TikTok creating a “put a finger down” challenge for nonbinary people,

Beyond The Binary with prompts like, “Put a finger down if you’re named after an inanimate object; put a finger down if you’ve had an undercut or mullet; put a finger down if you want top, bottom surgery, or HRT; put a finger down if you have tattoos.”

This sort of generalization irked me as much as it irked a lot of other people, for obvious reasons.

It’s also a stupid TikTok trend, but it does speak to the larger idea of forcing people into gendered boxes and asserting characteristics, performance, and expectations on them.

Conversations like this helped to create this assumption that all nonbinary people are androgynous, fit neatly somewhere “in the middle” of men and women (an idea around gender I reject in favor of something more three-dimensional, not just a line from one side to another). They also assert that men and women, cis or trans, must perform their gender in a certain way, which opens a pretty dangerous Pandora’s box.

This ignores the extremely complex nature of people, their cultures, their race, their lived experience, the fluidity of identity over time, and truly, the very reason many people are leaving the binary behind. We’re not trying to fit into a new category; we’re saying no to the expectations surrounding gender altogether and forging a new path.

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Going back to the abundance of terms folks use to express their identity, it’s important to remember that these are tools—They are not bound, fixed, definitive mechanisms that strictly bind every person who uses them. They help an individual to express themself in the world, but it stops being as productive when we start saying, “Oh, but how are you nonbinary?

You have (some specific specific feature that isn’t gender exclusive to begin with).”

Use the gender and sexuality labels for yourself that best describe your experience and allow for further self-exploration. No one can take your identity and experience away from you; what we’re not going to do is use these tools as a mechanism to dictate how others “should’’ show up in the world. If we do that, we’re clearly missing the entire point.

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By Angel Omar Rivera

Beauty Beat Spring Skin Ingredients Now let’s be honest: As comfy and cozy as the winter can be, it is such a slog on everyone’s skin. Be it the enormous dry patches, flare-ups, or, in rare cases, over-compensation of sebum, the winter time really is hard on skin and leaves people in the dust (... y skin).

Never fear—The spring is not just a time for perennials and a certain Jewish carpenter to revive, but your skin, too, can go through rebirth. Be it moisturizers or serums, even a cleanser, look for the ingredients below to help bring life to dull, flakey, and congested skin.

Fruit Enzymes

Fruit enzymes, also known as proteases, are a beautiful way to get your skin looking smooth and radiant. As opposed to using a full-on “acid,” fruit enzymes break down protein bonds on a topical level on the skin, making it an effective and gentle way to chemically exfoliate dead skin from the face and creating an instant brightness and healthy glow to the face, that is easily maintained. Look for products that wholly market themselves for the fruit enzymes in them, and you will be glowing in no time.

Snow Mushroom

Tremella fuciform is a strain of fungi known more commonly as snow mushroom, and it’s a holy grail ingredient in skin care. This mushroom is highly praised for its similar properties to hyaluronic acid and its ability to pull and retain moisture into the skin. Not only that, its smaller molecule penetrates the deeper, giving you full-bodied hydration, and it’s / packed with vitamins and antioxidants that help with hyperpigmentation and inflammation. It’s also another sensitive skin go-to!

Amino Acids

Yes! Those same acids you get from eating meat or highprotein vegetation are important for the skin. These are the building blocks for our entire body including our skin, helping replenish peptides and firming the skin.

There are essential amino acids that we all need, but don’t sweat it. Skin care companies will source the best kinds (usually arginine, lysine, and glycine) to help give your skin a boost while also helping reduce signs of aging.

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Rose and Rose Extracts

A rose by any other name is a delicate flower tightly wrapped in color and beauty. That beauty can be yours if you incorporate rose or rose extracts into your skin care. Roses are packed with vitamins A, C, D, and E giving it a brightening and rejuvenating property like no other. Even using rose water as a toner or midday spray will have dramatic benefits for your skin’s health, as rose is also an anti-inflammatory.

Camellia and Camellia Seed Oil

These beautiful pink flowers that grow on small trees are a fatty acid dream. Both camellias and camellia seed oil are packed with oleic acid and omega-9 that has all the fatty acids our face (and body) need to be youthful and moisturized, containing even more oleic acid avocados! This fatty acid is light-weight and moisturizing and will help reverse signs of aging that comes from dry skin. Plus, camellia japonica can help protect from damage from pollution.

These five skin savers can be used year ’round, but are best used to help make your skin look like new. Like all ingredients, it’s best to patch test on your forearm or jawline to see if any reaction happens on your skin before use. Using just one or a cocktail of these ingredients will make your skin, and your spring, a little brighter.

A Lesson In Spring and Summer Fashion

By Angel Omar Rivera

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t may seem obvious to some people what spring/summer—or most commonly read as S/S— fashion is, but not everyone is aware of its importance.

The newest and latest trends in color, textile, and pattern are expected but will also include a lot of “return” for fashion houses. The sort of garments that will be “hot” to own and wear during the spring and summer seasons is emphasized, though it is more of an evolution in what is worn.

Most notably, the S/S showcases and fashion shows that take place give a glint to the future of what is in and what will stay “in.” Seasonal fashion showing is simple: Take what you know, and distill it to a better version.

When I speak of distilling the “better version” of ideas—It is not to reinvent fashion. Yes, there are a lot of new things to be seen, but the best ideas that are had during the creative process are put together and further define a timeless style that is unique to a house or designer. Some of the most renowned and recognizable houses in fashion will abide by simplicity ( for the most part) and refine the ideas they have had from the season before.

S/S Fashion Week usually takes place mid-to-late September around the world before the full swing of fall/ winter fashion. The reason that S/S is shown during the start of the fall is because all things shown during these shows are the future in fashion.

Anytime you attend or see fashion

being shown off and out, a majority of the time, the idea is to give the attendees and viewers a taste of what is to come and what to expect.

This is one of the only industries where the work created is not just shown for hubris but innovation and synergy.

Fashion is shown to inspire and display roadmaps for other fashion houses and solo creators to follow. Be it in the present or beyond, creativity in fashion is meant to inspire your rival, and in turn, yourself.

Mind you, not all shows for S/S will be similar, but you can always count on seeing some ideas and textiles that are common and even cliché for the season. Textiles like light and arid cotton, linen, rayon, or cloth with eyelets are common.

Breathability and comfort is the name of the game for the warmer seasons, but houses like Moschino, Mugler, and Comme des Garcons will opt to be more outlandish, not because they want to be contrarians, but because they want to stay true to their roots or “house codes.”

When you study fashion, even in a casual sense, you can get a feel for what sort of designs and textiles are favored by fashion houses. Notably, a “look” they are trying to market to their clientele is what is to be on the hunt for.

Of course, the style and functionality is important for S/S fashion, but the clientele are the keystone. The reason we see a return to form during S/S is so houses can tweak the looks they are

known for, so they can retain clients while simultaneously expanding their share in the market. Simply put, the idea is to make sure that their clothing is iconic is paramount.

If every designer or every house was to try and create a brand new look every fashion season, there would be no staple to what the “Chanel look” is or the “Dior Woman.” The success of fashion is not just camp or avantgarde; it’s not always “brand new.”

It’s the reliability and core values of a house that are important for S/S fashion; it is the rebirth of fashion.

“The success of fashion is not just camp or avantgarde; its not always ‘brand new.’ its the reliability and core values of a house that are important for S/S fashion; it is the rebirth of fashion.”

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After that first pull on a blunt or vape, or after you’ve consumed an edible and had a few shrooms—with the stem, always with the stems—the time has come for a bingeworthy television show, perhaps a movie that can take the high to the next level. Before the list reveal, grab yourself some snacks (rule of thumb: Always contrast the munchies to maximize food craving satisfaction). Below is a compiled list of must-watch TV shows and movies while stoned.

Stoned Streaming That Serves

By Brandon Jamil

Movies: Alice in Wonderland (2010): Directed by the marvelous Tim Burton, what’s not love? Seriously. The imagery alone will have your imagination running wild. Now, off with their heads.

Avatar (2009): Avatar offers an all-star cast, direction by James Cameron, and has the full entertainment package: a decent storyline, great character development, love, and enough drama that keeps your interest while high. Not to mention the graphics and emotional depth will surely keep you satisfied and engaged.

Interstellar (2014): To the moon and back again, this is an incredible movie that is simply otherworldly, literally. The ethereal soundtrack and cinematography aid for a good shroom and edible trip. I highly recommend a hybrid THC product for this movie.

I Am Jonas (2018): If you’re feeling a bit sentimental, I Am Jonas is a great LGBTQ film that depicts young Jonas (9 years old) exploring his sexuality with boys from his school. The storyline progresses into Jonas (his 30-year-old self), and the younger Jonas and older Jonas collide. Take some indica, and get into your feels.

Moonlight (2016): An epic, LGBTQ, POC movie that anyone can enjoy, Moonlight is complex and visceral. It tells a story of how characters of color navigate ethnic expectations and grapple with the realities of identifying within the LGBTQ community. Watch it just because you’re high and want to become engulfed in good culture.

Ride or Die (2021): This film features a highly dramatic storyline that is relatively relatable for most viewers. The story is about a woman in an abusive relationship with her husband, and her friend helps her leave. The friend also helps her come out with a special secret. Sativa flower all the way with this movie.

TV Shows: Schitt’s Creek: This is great for a comedic relief, offering up the story of dysfunctional family relationships and romantic relationships, and a lot of dry humor. Perfect to watch with indica, especially after a long day when you need a giggle and gag.

RuPaul’s Drag Race: Comedy, lighthearted competition, and creativity. From bitchy queens to runway to the famed “lip sync for your life” to the mechanics of the production and performance—Just pass the blunt and gawk at their gowns.

Pose: Pay homage to the girls and our ballroom mothers who stood before us. This show is a perfect way to indulge in a chocolate edible, if applicable. Also, this sentimental and emotionally captivating storyline pairs well with a hybrid flower that will help you take a stroll down memory lane.

Cartoons: Just for laughs.

Q-Force: This Netflix comedy is an action-packed animated show featuring steamy (animated) nudity and lightheartedness.

Q-Force takes place in West Hollywood, and the LGBTQ characters are spies.

Love + Death + Robots: Welcome to the dark, twisted, animated fantasy with a splash of suspense and drama thrown into the mix. This show is great if you’re looking to change up the monotonous TV routine and try something fun and entertaining.

It’s also great on a hybrid flower paired with shrooms.

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Ripple Celebrates High Hydration and Healthy Habits

By Ash Trego

Photos Courtesy of Ripple We are in an age when self-care is a lifestyle, and #organic, vegan, and gluten-free are the magic buzz words found on the packaging of everything from cereal to baby diapers. Amid this time of re-evaluating our lives and habits, there is another product that is getting more attention than ever and, as a result, is also getting a long overdue and much-needed makeover: cannabis edibles.

It was the 92-year-old grandmother of one of Ripple’s co-founders, who inspired its creation.

Grandma’s friends were talking about medicinal marijuana, and she was curious about trying it for pain management.

Her grandson was able to locate a pot brownie from a friend for her to try.

Realizing that the 100mg of THC contained in the entire brownie would be too much for her, he cut it into small pieces for her to try. This got cofounders Justin Singer and Jeremy Goldstein thinking about the real need for a more userfriendly edible that was fast, reliable, and just a great product altogether.

Hence, Ripple was born.

Edibles are becoming increasingly mainstream, and it’s safe to say that most consumers who partake in cannabis, in one form or another, have tried them.

New dispensaries are constantly popping upin legalized states. But what exactly are these

shops peddling to the public?

Sadly, many people have only experienced stinky, oddtasting, and unpredictable edibles. And how does the lay person discern one product from another, and what to expect once ingested?

A single gummy, or one dose, may claim to have 10mg of THC, but what exactly does that mean? Does it vary from brand to brand? How is that dose going to affect each person with predictability? These are all valid concerns that most people would not want left to chance with no real data or guarantee behind the product.

Edibles are typically a blend of different strains, not just indica or sativa. Unfortunately, there are many a budtender whose knowledge on these things is limited. Ripple stands apart because they have done the testing using “groundbreaking human research” conducted independently

by Colorado State University researchers and published in the peer-reviewed, openaccess scientific journal Pharmaceuticals. All of this legwork was done with the intent of being able to assure that their process, from beginning to end, was thought-out, proven, and exactly what they claimed it to be. And they’ve got the documentation to back up the claim. Science, baby!

The founders and hardworking staff at Ripple decided to put their time, money, and knowledge of food science into creating a line of delicious, fast-acting, precise and intelligently made edibles. In fact, to make sure the science of Ripple was exact they did human studies subjects by way

of blood testing to map out the absorption profile of THC in the body and the ability to discern the speed at which it was becoming active in the bloodstream.

Taking this data and combining it with extensive scientific research, and innovation, the crew at Ripple have managed to create the only proven, fastacting edibles on the market.

Ripple is water soluble, quick, and delicious (or tasteless, depending on which product you are using). Ripple kicks in in about 10 minutes and provides the consumer with a clean and relaxing experience.

Also due to the process of extracting the terpenes (the cause of the marijuana flavor and scent), Ripple does not smell. Terpenes are naturally occurring compounds found in many plants including marijuana but also in many plants used in aromatherapy.

The Ripple line-up includes the “dissolvable” that you can add to about anything to make it an “edible.” The QuickSticks come in cute little packs and can be easily transported or taken directly on the tongue.

And the gummies! Ripple gummies are so tasty and come in flavors like honey lavender, watermelon, blood orange, and others and are so, so yummy! Within each category, there are varying flavors, dosages, and blends for different applications, be it pain, insomnia, relaxation, etc. And the buyer can rest assured that Ripple has done the science to deliver exactly what they claim to.

senior food scientist at Ripple. Hathaway attended Ohio State University for his Bachelor‘s and then his Master’s of Food Science degrees. He says that watching Bill Nye the Science Guy as a kid is how he became interested in chemistry. So that, combined with his love of food, is what led him to combine these two specialties into a career.

He says, “It was like a light went off in my head when I found out I could make the science of food my life’s work.” Drew’s passion for his craft is evident, as it is in all of the employees I had the pleasure of meeting at Ripple. He says that the work he does with the company is rewarding because the science, innovation, and going the extra mile really make Ripple a new inspirational entity in this rapidly expanding industry.

Ripple is one of the top-selling lines of cannabis products in the state of Colorado, and if your local shop does not carry it, ask them to. You’ll thank me later.

On a recent visit to the Ripple lab, I got to meet Drew Hathaway, who is the

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Dabbing 101:

The Basics, the Culture, and LGBTQ Inclusivity Behind the Scenes

By Erica Buehler

Dabbing: It’s been around for a little while now, enjoying a popularity explosion in the mid-2010s and becoming an irresistible challenge for THC connoisseurs and engineers alike.

While dabbing itself is a relatively new phenomenon, the goal of maximizing THC consumption via those precious, precious oils found in cannabis plants is one that’s been achieved time and time throughout history.

The Basics of Dabbing The precursor to dabbing as we know it today began with putting Moroccan brick hash into joints and bowls to vastly increase the cannabinoids burned, which resulted in about 3 to 4 percent THC smoked. Today, that number is much closer to 30 percent.

Then, once the 90s and 2000s rolled around, folks started toying with using hydrocarbons like butane and propane to extract those oils once again, this time resulting in hash oil (and a THC percentage of around 80 percent). And the experimenting just kept pushing forward from there.

Jacqueline McGrane, senior vice president of business development for Boulder Creek Technologies in Arvada (and total cannabis expert), says, “It was really in the 2000s when you started to see an explosion of bubble hash— which people used to call ‘earwax’— and which we now refer to as wax or moonrock. That was the explosion of dab culture: finding all the ways to vaporize instead of adding hash oil to biomass material or doing other crazy things. This is when we started to see these beautiful dab rigs and butane cans and torches and self-heating nails.”

To back up a bit, McGrane is the person to talk to if you know nothing about dabbing. She’s been in the cannabis industry for more than a decade, doing work all over the United States and internationally, from South America to Europe to Asia. And she’s gotten a firsthand look at the industry’s total 5 2 OFM APRIL 2 0 2 2

transformation, watching a mostly medicinal product become legal recreationally and take over the globe (more than it already had, anyway).

“To see where the industry has gone, from its beginning to where it is today and see its development and that of the consumer space has been an incredible experience.”

So, back to dabbing. What is it, exactly? McGrane simplifies it to “the vaporizing of cannabis concentrate, composed of terpenes and cannabinoids,” AKA trying to

Compared to our Moroccan hash hippies of the 70s, that’s a huge leap.

This discovery of the potential for a greater high is really what kicked off the surge of amateur engineers building insane-looking dab rigs. The mesh of creativity and efficiency resulted in some seriously impressive (and sometimes dangerous) methods of dabbing.

“It’s been this crazy progression since the early 2000s, when you saw this interest in dabbable products,” McGrane says. “The biggest products used to be wax and shatter made with butane and propane in a can.”

McGrane goes on to say that the early 2010s is when the burgeoning of vape products entered the market and dabbers went wild making new, interesting products to give them each an edge. Everything from “flash freezing” (using liquid nitrogen) biomass (cannabis) and then extracting from it to turning bubble hash into rosin was a chance at creating a newer, better method for the ultimate cannabis experience. But one fact holds true, according to McGrane: “One of the essential things about dabbing is that the product you’re going to get is directly related to the material.

Dabbing is a reflection of the plant; the best dabs come from the best plants.”

Dab Culture

get the most out of the cannabis plant without actually lighting anything on fire. “You end up with a higher quality but a very intense experience,” McGrane says. “If you’re just trying to get what’s most special about cannabis and want to do so in a way that’s clean and concentrated, dabbing is the way to go. You might be getting something like 90 percent THC and 8 percent terpene.”

McGrane has been in the cannabis industry for a long time. As such, she’s seen it grow to what it is today—and has taken notice of who was there when it was budding and who is there now. On the whole? That population doesn’t look a whole lot different.

“Cannabis, at least in the beginning, was a lot of ‘cannabis bros,’ a bunch of dudes with beards wearing Grassroots California hats. Like, I had five of those hats. I’m a queer woman—I don’t wear ballcaps—but I wore them. It was almost necessary to wear one to be included,” McGrane laughs.

She goes on to say that, back in the day, the industry was predominantly ruled by “bro culture” but was still very accepting. “It was a bunch of misfits who were growing in their basements and selling illegally in the Safeway parking lot,” she says. “I felt so accepted from the very beginning.”

But McGrane’s experience differs slightly from that of the “bros” she mentions, primarily because she entered the space living as a cisgender, heterosexual male who fit in easily with that culture. But she transitioned while fully immersed in the cannabis industry and received an incredible amount of support and acceptance.

“I transitioned with the support of Karin Lazarus of Sweet Mary Jane. She is this beautiful person who was and is so accepting. She was so supportive, and I leaned so hard on her. Everyone else was super chill about it, too.”

McGrane goes on to say that while she finds the industry very accepting and credits her own success as proof of that, she also hasn’t met any other trans women who hold a senior title or design products or manage facilities. “It’s queer friendly, but there aren’t a lot of queer people,” she notes.

Still, McGrane has definitely noticed a change in the major players of the cannabis industry as it’s evolved, but it’s not one that she particularly supports.

“There used to be a significant amount of women owners and a lot of women in the industry in general,” she says. “But as the money has come into the industry, nowadays a lot of cannabis has been taken over by rich, older white men representing giant corporate entities.”

She says that previously, the industry was much more diverse and exciting—There was a shared buzz over people connecting with their passion for cannabis and also with each other; the legalization of cannabis and the sheer explosion of the industry (turning it into a prime-time moneymaker) forced out a lot of that passion.

“Back then, you never met a person in the cannabis industry that didn’t smoke weed every day. Now I see people all the time that have never smoked, but they’re the vice president of a company,” McGrane says.

Nevertheless, McGrane has hope for the future of the industry—mainly that it will return to its more diverse, passionate roots.

“We need to get more queer people in the industry.

What we really need is more women, queer, and BIPOC processors and scientists. For me, I’m like, ‘Where’s the big advertisement with a woman in a lab coat?’ I don’t care abouts a woman in a bikini—I want to see a woman running a giant machine in a processing facility.”

She encourages anyone who is interested in the industry—particularly women, queer people, and BIPOC folks—to find a resource in someone who is already in the industry who can help.

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Gonzo Goodies to Perk Up Your Spring From indica to sativa, from flower to vapes, and all the way back down that river of feel-good magic to some tasty edibles, we have all the goodies you need to stay lit, gonzo, and groovy this spring.

Select Cliq Pods As pods become more popular, Select has introduced Cliq. The battery-pod-combo is sleek, portable, and fits into the palm of your hand. Unlike traditional THC vaporizers, the pull is impeccably smooth and provides thick clouds without harshness.

Paired with their premium cannabis oil, I tested the Lemon Crush indica-dominant strain. Instantly there was a euphoric sensation that works for daytime productivity or nighttime relaxation. Cliq comfortably brings the best of Select’s high-quality oil and innovative hardware into the hands of cannabis consumers, while the strong magnetic pod and device connection ensure a secure fit that closes with a signature “click” sound. Select did not disappoint with the design or the quality when it comes to this new product.

California Corner Lime Cannabis Co. Blue Raspberry Gummies — I will be the first to judge the mythical flavor that is “blue raspberry,” though, when it comes to Lime Cannabis Co.’s gummies, I don’t have anything bad to say. Perfectly sweet with zero hashy taste, this cannabis consumer had no trouble eating these tasty temptations, complete with a perfectly chewy texture. The high hit me fully within about an hour of eating the gummies and felt very even-keeled, as if I could turn around for a night out or a movie in.

For fans of cannabis edibles that pack a punch, and fellow blue raspberry connoisseurs, don’t miss these!

Afghan Breeze Syringe — The full-spectrum oil syringe is one of the most versatile methods of cannabis consumption you can get your hands on.

Even the label says, exclamation included, “Add syringe to anything! Apply to pre-rolls, blunts, bowls, drinks, food, dab it, and much more.” The oil is already activated, meaning if you aren’t down to smoke or dab—no problem. I tried the oil in a joint, which added a citrus-pine one-two of flavor to my flower without making the taste overbearing. It definitely packed a punch, initially feeling like more of an active high and settling in over time to feel a bit more relaxing. I definitely recommend picking up this syringe if you’re looking to add an additional punch of potency to your smoke (or smokeless) session!

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22 Red New Flower Line If you’re stopping by California any time soon, the new line of 22 Red flower should not be missed. Specially hand-selected for high quality flavor profiles and terpenes, you aren’t going to want to skip out on these delicious strains.

There is something for every mood!

Good Stuff Cannabis Drinks Good Stuff is a California staple for anyone looking to sample some tasty beverages from the sunshine state. Whether your vibe is more lemonade, limeade, or pink lemonade, with the hot weather coming back, it’s time to crack open a cold one, whatever that means to you.

Cannabis Delta Extrax: Delta-8 Sour Diesel Infused Preroll and Delta-10 Green Cush Disposable Vape Delta-8 Sour Diesel Infused Preroll — Sour Diesel has been a fan favorite since the 1990s, and for good reason.

This sativa strain gets its name from the very pungent, diesel-like smell you’ll sense immediately upon opening the bag. The uplifting, dreamy, cerebral effects make this strain the perfect choice when you need to have a clear mind and have your creative juices flowing. No couchlock with this strain; expect to get everything on your to-do list done and then some! If you’re looking to smoke up before a night out, look no further.

Delta-10 Green Cush Disposable Vape — The Green Cush Premium Delta-10 THC Disposable is double the size of their other Delta-10 THC Disposables. At two grams of distillate, you’re getting a great-tasting Green Cush that has a tangy and citrus flavor, along with other fruit tastes. This indica-dominant strain has the perfect balance of flavor that is accompanied with a body sensation that’s commonly associated with indica strains.

Frost Exotic Cannabis Blue Gelatto 41 Blue Gelatto 41 is a Frost Exotic Cannabis speciality hybrid with a euphoric and relaxed high. This sweet treat’s taste and terpene profile is earthy, citrus, and fruity. We can’t get enough of this unique flower, and you can’t get this special cross and flavor anywhere else.

ebb Pink Lemonade Choose your own high with ebb, an innovative, fast-acting THC dissolvable that mixes into any food and beverage to create a THC-infused edible. Delicious in water, and a gamechanger in smoothies, just mix it in and mix it up. ebb Pink Lemonade is blended with real lemon, antioxidants, and all-natural flavors to bring true refreshment and relaxation.

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Reviews Cheeba Chews Live Rosin, Strain Specific Green Apple Taffy Infused with high-quality live rosin, solventlessly extracted from the strain Ice Cream Cake, these edibles have a sweet yet tart taste that produces more calming and sleepy effects. These taffy bits are chewy, as the name implies, but oh-so sour and sweet, the perfect compliment to relaxing after a long day.

COOKIES CBD Caps Caps Daytime Clarity — Cookies’ Clarity capsule consists of invigorating lion’s mane and cordy cepsmushrooms alongside mood-lifting CBG, CBD, and Energy terpene blend. Perfect for any time of the day, the precise, non-psychoactive formula is designed to sharpen mental focus and boost energy.

Caps Nighttime Bed Head — Cookies’ Bed Head capsule consists of a five-in-one blend of immunityboosting organic mushrooms, CBD, CBN, and Calm terpene blend. The relaxing, non-psychoactive formulation promotes rejuvenation and restful sleep, making it a perfect complement to any evening routine.

Cookies Fish Scale Flower

Davinici MIQRO

A cross between Gelatti and The Menthol strains, this sought-after strain is a collaboration between Cookies and Compound genetics. While a subtle high to start, Fish Scale’s effects come wave after wave, resulting in a strong high. We couldn’t get enough of this strain and will definitely be reupping.

The Davinici MIQRO is a small, sleek, and sophisticated loose leaf vaporizer crafted to fit your lifestyle. We have packed all of the flavor, quality and precision that DaVinci is known for into the smallest premium vaporizer on the market today. The MIQRO is the perfect choice for the microdoser or light user. If you’ve been wanting to jump into vaping flower, or if you love flower but want to stop smoking, this is what you’ve been waiting for.

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Cannabis Reviews Ripple Ripple Sleep QuickDissolves:—Nobody likes tossing and turning.

By combining clinically proven fast-acting technology with the sedative properties of THC and CBN, Ripple Sleep products may help ease you into a restful night’s sleep. Add unflavored Ripple QuickDissolves powder, with a 2:1 ratio of THC to CBN, to your favorite nightcap, for a nighttime edible only you can dream up.

Ripple Sleep QuickGummies— If you prefer gummies to a late-night beverage, these tasty treats have you covered.

Ripple QuickGummies have a 2:1 ratio of THC to CBN and a delicious Berry flavor to lull you into dreamland

Sugar High Chocolates and Gummies

Ripple Mixed Berry QuickSticks— Feel the berrylicious flavor unfold with the deep, ripe flavors of pomegranate and the dark-berry acidity of açaí—plus a warm, sweet pop of justpicked ripe strawberries that lingers just the way you want it to.

Sugar High Chocolates — Inspired by iconic American treats like Oreos and Kit-Kats, Sugar High’s decadent chocolates are handcrafted with the highest quality cannabis distillate and individually wrapped for convenience. Sugar High chocolates are available in Sea Salt Caramels, Chocolate Peanut Butter Pretzel Bites, Cookies Bites, Classic Milk Chocolate, White Chocolate Cannafetti, Vanilla Wafer Bites, and Classic S’mores varieties. And yes, they really do taste like those delicious snacks you crave, just with a special kick.

Sugar High Gummies — Made from the finest ingredients, these gourmet gummies are individually wrapped for easy sharing and come in a number of varieties including: 1:1 THC/CBD Assorted Flavor and 1:1 THC/CBD Assorted Flavor Gummies, Watermelon Hybrid Gummies, Assorted Flavor Indica, and Assorted Flavor Sativa Gummies.

Tropix

Veritas Fine Cannabis Live Resin Cartridge

Crafted with innovative extraction and refinement techniques, Tropix line of hybrid distillate vape cartridges are made with premium-quality, all-natural terpenes to provide the most flavorful and pleasurable experience imaginable. Each 500mg cartridge comes in four tropical flavors, including Blue Razz, Fruit Punch, Lemon Lime, and Strawberry. While some flavored vapes leave you wanting more effects and less empty flavor, the THC taste cuts through this one a bit in the perfect way.

Even my husband, not a fruit vape stan, said it smells great.

Colorado cannabis OGs Veritas Fine Cannabis (Colorado’s original craft cannabis brand) and Native Roots Cannabis Co. (Colorado’s leading dispensary chain) have teamed up to launch an exclusive line of live resin vape cartridges available at Native Roots retail locations across Colorado, starting at $65. Featuring small-batch, artisanal cannabis hand-nurtured by Veritas, these cartridges represent the only concentrate product in the market using fresh-frozen flower from Veritas. The 1000mg cartridges incorporate medical grade borosilicate glass, along with ceramic mouthpieces and heating elements. Seven best-selling strains were selected for these cartridges, which include Papaya Cake, Sour Diesel, Big Bubba Diesel, GG #4, Garlic Breath, Tart Pops, Bananaghani, and Ice Cream Cake.

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Kings Elliot Riding High After Release of Personal Debut EP, ‘Chaos In My Court’ Photo Courtesy of Karolina Wielocha

The London-based artist is riding high after the release of her anticipated, debut EP, Chaos In My Court. As we make a dent into this new year, she says 2022 (so far) has been a “really nice surprise.”

“It’s probably the first year I’ve not set myself 1 million achievable goals, so it feels like the best year yet,” she says.

Forging a path forward in music has been a long time coming, Elliot says, peering back even to her preschool days and noting she’s always wanted to write music, to be an artist. She moved to London as soon as possible to pursue her career in music, working multiple jobs over the last six years, which finally culminated in the release of her debut EP, making the journey “so worth it,” she says.

Listening to Chaos In My Court feels like witnessing an artist who is already very sure of their sound, each song flowing into the next, distinctly their own but holding a sense of unity through the person behind the mic and lyrics.

Elliot notes her love for music from the 40s and 50s, particularly sad songs that have a “magical, 6 0 OFM APRIL 2 0 2 2

beautiful yet eerie vibe.”

“I basically infuse all my songs with it as much as I can—It makes everything feel like a different world somehow,” she says.

The new EP features previously released songs, “Call Me a Dreamer,” “I’m Getting Tired of Me,” “Dancing Alone,” “Bitter Tonic,” along with the new track, “The Outsider.” She says the new single is an “anti-anthem” for anyone who never fit in, those who feel like they are watching a world unfold before them.

“There was one night in particular when I got dragged out by friends to a club … I was feeling like a pauper at the palace. I just sat and observed everything and I went home that night and started writing this song.”

Referencing the EP as a whole, Elliot says that chaos has been “ever present” in her life, and she’s never known how to function any other way.

“To be honest, (Chaos In My Court) is all about living with borderline personality disorder,” she says, “how I experience living with myself, being in relationships and just getting through life.”

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She hasn’t been shy about addressing her BPD and anxiety disorders in the past, even releasing accidentally filmed footage of herself having a panic attack for her music video, “I’m Getting Tired Of Me.” The collection of tracks act as a world she’s always dreamed of creating for her own escape, and with its release, those who need it are able to join Elliot there as well. And so far, it seems like that space is needed. Elliot calls the EP’s reception “so incredible,” pointing to her pride in making this first body of work.

“It’s something I’ve always wanted, and for people to connect with the music the way they have is more than I could have ever asked for.”

This year also marks a number of other shifts for the artist: She performed “The Outsider” on TV in January, which caused the song to hit number one on iTunes in Germany.

She calls that experience “very strange and surreal,” referencing the polarizing feelings surrounding sharing one’s talents with the world.

“Part of me is like, ‘How is anyone letting me on TV?’ and the other part of me is like, ‘Damn right,’” she says.

That’s not to say she doesn’t have a long list of accolades already: She’s accumulated millions of global streams, spins on BBC Radio 1, BBC Radio 6, and KCRW, along with praise from Consequence, Teen Vogue, Billboard, Clash, Wonderland, The Line of Best Fit, COLORS, and Lyrical Lemonade, even social support from the likes of Resse Witherspoon, Dixie D’Amelio, Lewis Capaldi, and Milky Chance.

Looking ahead, her second EP is already in the works.

For the first time, she’s able to produce and mix all the new songs without working other jobs on the side, allowing her to be fully immersed in the process, and she’s loving every second of it.

For new and returning Kings Elliot listeners, she says she hopes to create a world for people to escape to and to show that there is a beautiful side to sadness.

“There is something so comforting and healing in it,” she says. “If there’s any way I can play even the tiniest part in destigmatizing mental health, then my ‘mission’ feels accomplished.

For more from Kings Elliot, find her on Instagram @kingselliot, Facebook @itskingselliot, or her official website, kingselliot. com.

Metal Meltdown Sex, Drugs, and Rock ‘n’ Roll

By Addison Herron-Wheeler

I was raised by a father who loves old-school punk and rock, as well as music criticism from the likes of Lester Bangs, Hunter S. Thompson, and all the other old greats.

Once he realized I wasn’t to be a “typical daughter,” that I would prefer to stay up with him listening to CDs and reading music commentary to going to a football game, he started to pass on the musical and critical greats to me.

And I devoured all of it: old, reprinted issues of the punk zine Sniffin’ Glue, old copies of Rolling Stone, Black Sabbath records, rock star biographies. As I got older and developed my own taste, I discovered heroes like the late, great, Mick Faren, whom I related to because he wrote about activism and rock, but also wrote sci-fi on the side.

So, while other tweens and

teens grew up with girl and boy bands, the Disney Channel, and coming-ofage romance novels, I grew up with the Sex Pistols, the Ramones, Black Sabbath, Deep Purple, and a bunch of music critics.

While a lot of this clearly had a very positive impact on who I am today, there was one clear narrative I was receiving from all of it: rock stars were men, often unattractive men, who sought out women, often using them as sexual objects or blurring consent lines. While they did that, they were overconsuming substances; trashing hotel rooms; and centering their cis, straight voices.

As I’ve grown to embrace the metal community and my real-life career as a music writer and bassist, and even as I unlearned behaviors to

become a functioning and responsible human, I rewrote the rock star narrative in my mind. I’m on stage looking out at the crowd. Afterwards, I’m going to smoke a bowl with my band and my friends, have a beer, singular, because work tomorrow, and then go home with my loving partners. I won’t be smashing anything, human or equipment, or doing hard drugs, but I will be reveling in the adrenaline rush that comes from playing a show.

So, if you’re like me, and you grew up with a rock star narrative around any of the things you love, let’s rewrite our experience together. You can still live that fantasy in the spotlight, but you don’t have to center yourself or hurt anyone else to do it.

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Horoscopes April 2022

By Alanna L.P.

Welcome to Alanna L.P.’s Uplifting Horoscopes. These are very general readings that will resonate with many but not all of you. That’s OK! Take away what makes sense, and leave what doesn’t behind. If you want a deeper understanding of what to expect this month, read your sun sign, your rising sign, and your moon sign.

You can find what these are by going to cafeastrology.com to get a free birth chart reading.

Aries Happy birthday, Aries! This is your month! Life is flying by, and this is an exciting time for you!

But don’t jump into things too fast. Drop your ego and show yourself some compassion. This could change how you see an entire situation Mantra: I control how this year goes.

Cancer You may feel spread thin and overcommitted. It’s OK to pare down. If you’re feeling bogged down in a partnership with a Taurus, Capricorn, or Virgo, it may be time to say goodbye. Whatever you let go of this month, know that you’re making room for new opportunities.

Mantra: I’m weeding my garden so new things can grow.

Leo It’s time to get those bad habits under control, Leo! Show that special someone you’re serious by tackling addictions and vices that are hindering the relationship. You may hear something shocking from a relative. Don’t think too much about your reputation if a family or close friend comes at you.

Speak your truth with a loud roar!

Mantra: “I don’t give a damn about my reputation.” – “Bad Reputation” by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts

Virgo Taurus It’s time to see who has your back in your network, dear Taurus. But take a moment to consider if you’re asking too much of people. Your public image could be in need of a makeover if you are.

You CAN be the change you want to see in the world, but you need to let go of expectations.

Mantra: Life is full of surprises.

Gemini

You’ve undergone so many transformations, dear Gemini. Keep being open to change, and you’ll become as beautiful as a butterfly. The changes within are inspiring you to change the world, so get out and get involved! You’re capable of anything you put your mind to in this state of flow.

Mantra: “Do what your soul speaks to you.” – “What Your Soul Speaks to You” by Massive Attack

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Disappointment may come knocking this month, dearest Virgo. If you find a job or relationships abruptly ending, use this newfound extra time to get healthy! If someone you had a falling out with comes back around, listen with compassion to what they have to say. But don’t be a doormat. This person needs to know that you’re hurting, too. You can forgive someone without letting them back into your life. Do what’s best for you.

Mantra: “In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him well enough to defeat him, then in that very moment, I also love him.” – Ender’s Game by Orsen Scott Card

Libra Continue to take space from toxic family members or roommates. It’s OK to say “enough is enough.”

You’re becoming the person you want to be, and that’s a beautiful thing. It’s time to focus on YOU! Mantra: Every day, I’m becoming a better version of me.

Scorpio This month is all about finding new ways to connect with people, Scorpio. Open your heart and follow your bliss. Pour love into all your interactions, but don’t give more than you’re getting back! You can show someone you love them and protect your heart at the same time.

Mantra: Trust is the foundation of relationships.

Sagittarius Turn to your family and friends if you’re in need of love and support this month, Sagittarius. Cut your losses, and go after your passions in hot pursuit! Self-care is important, so make sure to give yourself some much-deserved pampering!

Mantra: I love me.

Capricorn You may feel inspired to make changes in how you present yourself to the world. These changes could lead you to making new and influential connections. Nurture these new relationships, and more wonderful things will grow. If family issues are holding you back, it’s time to ask for what’s yours.

Mantra: My life is in full bloom.

Aquarius The future is all yours, Aquarius. Take a big jump, feet-first, into the future! Your dreams keep manifesting, and it feels almost too good to be true. But in order to level up, you may have to confront your shadow self. Talk with a trusted family member or friend if you’re feeling intimidated by your own power.

Mantra: I am becoming.

Pisces You’ve been on a journey of self-love, and it’s paying off, Pisces! You’re winning hearts and taking names. This could lead to being presented with a new leadership opportunity.

Don’t be so modest. You deserve all the success that comes your way. Embrace it!

Mantra: My destiny has arrived.

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5660 W. Colfax Ave. Denver (720) 669-3470 Facebook- @lipstickdiscoteque

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aving Adam come over has been something I’ve been wanting for a while now. His older sister used to watch us when we were younger.

I was coming home from work and noticed he lives two doors down from me now. I walked over after work yesterday and invited him over to catch up and maybe listen to records.

When I saw him outside mowing his lawn, I noticed he was built like a brick house. The sweat dripped down his chest, and I had to remind myself to stop staring. The shorts he wore were totally far-out, and they definitely showed me more than I think he wanted me to see.

I heard a knock at the door, and I knew it was him. I quickly stood up and noticed I was starting to get excited, so I adjusted and ran

I couldn’t believe how sexy Adam was, and now he was here, sitting in my house. His clothes were so tight they almost looked painted on. He licked the end of the paper and finished rolling the joint. As he licked the paper, I felt the hairs on my neck rise and my heart begin to race.

He passed me the joint and told me he was happy I invited him over, and I replied, so was I. He told me he was hoping I was going to when he noticed me staring at him before. I suddenly turned red and started to say I’m sorry, and he grabbed the joint and asked me if I’ve ever had a “shotgun.” I told him no, and he moved in closer. He took a big inhale and pulled me close as he placed his lips on mine and slowly blew the smoke into my mouth. Even when I knew all the smoke was in

He stood up and told me to undress him. I passed him the joint and was more than happy to grant that request. When I finished, he grabbed a few pillows off the couch and made a small pile on the rug.

He took one more hit and placed it in the ashtray. He pulled me over to the pillows and asked me to lay over them with my ass in the air.

I kneeled over the pillows, and I heard him spit a few times into his hand and onto my hole. He started off slow and teased only at first. As he entered, I felt a tingling pulsing throughout my body. I’ve never in my life been happier than I was at this moment.

The more he pulled me in, the louder I got. With both of my hands, I grabbed the carpet neck to the pillows and pushed my hips back

A Groovy Orgasm

By Alex Burnel

to the door. I paused and took a deep breath before opening the door. Could this man before me be Adam? Could he be the same Adam I remember? The man standing before me was more beautiful than David Cassidy or Bert Renalds.

I realized I wasn’t speaking for what seemed like forever. Adam asked, “Everything OK?” I told him of course and invited him in. He told me I had a groovy place and started taking a look around. I walked over to the record player and threw on “Time in a Bottle.” As we were catching up, I grabbed a small keepsake box of mine, and we sat down at the table.

I opened the box up, and Adam could now see the marijuana that he was clearly smelling. I asked if he wanted to join me, assuming he wouldn’t call the man and rat me out. Instead of answering me, he pulled the box over and began to roll a joint.

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my mouth, he held my face close a second longer than he needed to.

I released the smoke and inquired if I may ask a personal question, and he told me he didn’t mind me dippin’ in his Kool-Aid. I asked if he was into men. And he replied, “Well aren’t you?” I told him, “Well, of course, but I’m also into women.” As he placed his hand on my thigh, he told me, “I don’t see a problem.”

He took a big hit and handed me the joint, then got down on his knees. He turned my chair to face him and slid his hands slowly up my legs. He unbuttoned my pants and pulled them off, along with my underwear. He started to go down on me, and my head flung back.

I couldn’t believe how good this felt. Those lips, those lips I never thought I’d be able to enjoy being close to, were now enjoying me.

to give him more to work with.

He began to shake as sweat was dripping off his body and onto my back. He gently clawed my back as he thrusted with his full force. With his last couple thrusts, I couldn’t hold back anymore. I had the loudest orgasm I can ever remember having.

He leaned in as he slid out and kissed my back. He rolled onto his back and he pulled me in close. I told Adam I was glad he could come over, and I hoped to see him again.

He just smiled and said, “Groovy.”