第五期
上帝，祢为我翻阅圣经 文：许莉盈
晚间，听完家人娓娓道来遭遇的始末，我的 心情，由连绵细雨转变为雷电交加，久久无法平 静。 坐在电脑前，随手播放一首诗歌《叫我抬起 头的神》来缓解内心的悲愤。我，很需要。一如 既往，我开始提笔与上帝沟通，但这回，我是找 上帝——理论。
公义何在？
上帝，祢还为我翻阅圣经。 天啊，简直不可思议！这是我第二次体验到 上帝的真实同在。再次泪崩——喜极而泣。 上帝是又真又活的神； 祂是怜悯慈爱的神； 祂是垂听祷告的神。 感谢上帝如此爱我和我的家人。虽然事情还 没圆满结束，但我们已经得到上帝莫大的安慰。 我们愿意等候上帝的安排。 “我的心哪，你当默默无声，专等候神，因 为我的盼望是从他而来。” 诗篇62：5
在这充满魑魅魍魉的世界，尔虞我诈和仗势 欺人的恶性循环，简直令人发指。上帝，难道祢 不能挪走吗？ 诗歌持续播放，银幕上出现：“一宿虽然有 哭泣，早晨我们必欢呼……” 我无暇理会。 脑袋里填满了伸张正义的理念，只想到： 反思： “在我敌人面前，你为我摆设筵席，你用油膏了 1.当有困难时，你会先找人投诉谩骂，还是找 我的头，使我的福杯满溢。” 诗篇23：5 上帝倾心吐意呢？ 当我翻阅圣经时，说巧不巧，是刚才我听的 诗歌内容 “一宿虽然有哭泣，早晨我们必欢 2.你愿意耐心等候上帝的旨意，还是依靠自己的 聪明呢？ 呼。” 诗篇30：5b 正当我从铅笔盒拿文具做笔录时（没有离开 座位），在不经意之下，我的圣经被风吹翻到诗 后记.: 昨晚(5月18日) 在妈妈小组线上分享后， 篇37。映入眼帘的竟然是：“当止住怒气，离弃 要谢谢Kheng How姐妹告知MCO Momentz周刊， 愤怒，不要心怀不平，以致作恶。因为作恶的必 鼓励我分享见证，归荣耀给上帝。 被剪除，唯有等候耶和华的必承受地土。”诗篇 37：8 – 9 上帝要我止住怒气，免得我犯罪。霎那间， 我的心降服于上帝的训诲，因祂允许作恶的必被 剪除，唯有耐心等候，必有欢呼。等等，不对啊！ 我明明是要记录诗篇30，怎么会来到诗篇37呢？ 这时候，我才回过神来。打从听诗歌到翻查圣经， 上帝一直都在引导我，与我同在。
Issue #5
God, You Flipped the Bible for Me By: Corlynn Kho | Translated by: Yap Kin Fai
In the evening, after listening to the whole story of my family’s encounters, my mood changed from moody to furious, and I could not calm myself down for quite a long time. I sat in front of the computer and randomly played the song "The Lifter of My Head" to ease my inner grief; I desperately needed to. As always, I started to communicate with God by writing to Him, but this time, I wanted to argue with God.
This is not righteous! In the world full of evil, the vicious circle of fraud and bullying are simply outrageous. God, can't you just remove it? As the song continued to play, and the lyrics "Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning..." appeared on the screen, I couldn’t be bothered. All I had in my mind was the idea to uphold justice. I only thought of: "You prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows." Psalm 23:5 When I flipped through the Bible, it happened that it was the content of the song that I had just listened to: "Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning...". Psalm 30:5b Just when I took the stationery from the pencil case to take notes (without leaving my seat), my Bible was blown to Psalm 37 by the wind inadvertently. What came into view was: "Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret - it leads only to evil. For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land." Psalm 37:8-9 God wanted me to stop my anger, lest I sin. Suddenly, my heart surrendered to the teachings of God, because He allowed evildoers to be destroyed, but for those who hope in Him, there would be cheers. Wait a minute, that is not right! I clearly wanted to record Psalm 30. How did I come to Psalm 37?
Only then did I realise. From listening to songs, to searching the Bible, God had been guiding me and being with me.
God, You even flipped the Bible for me. Oh my God, it's incredible! This is the second time I have experienced the true presence of God. I teared again, out of joy. God is a true and living God; He is the God of mercy and love; He is the God who listens to prayer. Thank God for loving me and my family so much. Although the matter is not over, we have been greatly comforted by God. We are willing to wait for God's arrangement. "Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him." Psalm 62:5
Reflections: 1. When you are in difficulty, will you first find someone to complain and rant, or will you seek God and pour out your heart to Him? 2. Are you willing to wait patiently for God's will, or are you going to rely on your own wisdom? P.S.: I would like to thank Sister Kheng How for telling me about the MCO Momentz newsletter after I shared about this in the online Mother’s Cell Group last night(18.5.2020). Thanks for encouraging me to share my testimony and give glory to God.