Diary of An Insomniac Part 3

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Haunted - Diary of an Insomniac Part Three

“Dream as if you’ll live forever.

Live as if you’ll die today.”

-James Dean

How many days now?

Can’t be sure.

Certainly over a week.

Ten…maybe twelve days…

Wandering aimlessly.

Without sleep.

Without rest.

Or peace of mind.

Trapped in a state of living death.

All spectators in life’s journey.

Destination‌

Seeking answers to questions we barely

I join the other lost souls in this great city.

understand.

Unknown.

I can’t go on like this.

My mind’s on fire.

Body’s all achy.

Senses are dull one moment… heightened the next.

What the--?!

I’m jumping at shadows.

Feels like the world is unfolding around me in slow motion.

Hallucinations caused by fatigue…?

Gotta relax.

Or am I just going crazy?

Get away from here.

Logic dictates that eventually I will fall asleep. My body’ll simply…shut down.

Collapse from exhaustion.

I just gotta hang in there till then.

At least that’s what I tell myself.

That man.

The haunting look in his eyes…

It’s like looking in a mirror.

My God. He's Gonna--

An apparent suicide.

That’s what the conductor calls it as he helps the local authorities with the grisly task of scouring the scene for dismembered body parts.

A gruesome spectacle played out in front of displaced passengers.

Having stared death in the face, I can’t break free of its gaze.

Now I’m the one who’s haunted.

Only now I wonder…

…

What if

What if when I finally do fall asleep--

--I n ever

wake

up?