spotlight For this reason a miscarriage can be very lonely. hurdle I would have to overcome. Little did I know how much anxiety trying to get pregnant again would bring. The first time around, my husband and I had easily conceived and did not have any worry or stress that it would happen. However, it is now close to a year since our miscarriage and we are still not pregnant. Our due date (which would have been a few weeks ago) was a particularly difficult time, I had hoped to at least be pregnant by then to ease the pain. That has not been able to
be the case and so I must continue to be patient and try to enjoy the wonderful life that I do have with my incredible husband, family, friends and colleagues, and a job which I absolutely love and where my students make me smile and laugh. I know that I have to be very mentally strong and let nature take its course, but it is easier said than done.
a miscarriage does change you forever. The reality is that miscarriages are very common and part of many women's journeys. However, just because miscarriages are 'common' does not mean that women and men affected should not be allowed to grieve their loss and be emotional whenever they need to be. I definitely am.
Each month of failing to get pregnant is extremely frustrating and disappointing, and although I feel I am at a much better place with all of this, I am aware that I will forever be left with this fear. A fear of losing my baby again and wondering, "Was it something I did?". A fear of choosing baby names or furniture for the baby's room too soon. Unfortunately,
I hope that this article helps anyone going through the same situation as us to know that you are not alone. That you are in all of your right to feel the way that you are feeling. That once you start talking to others about it, you will realise how many people have gone through the same experience as you and come out the other end with beautiful families.
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