To Find the Light

Krist Montilla

I lived for the 5 AM sunrise, Lived for the air that felt nice. Dreamed of the world to be bright Yet we cannot have it always right. It seems like yesterday I was filled with happiness. Seen through the window glass, my invisible audience. As I danced around the living room with delight, Sun rays seeped through the cracks, my spotlight. But it happened, my already heavy heart, empty soul, The feeling of wanting to be in the dark all alone. As the darkness getting a bit comforting for my liking, Slowly consuming me, will I be able to escape from it? And why is this feeling happening so sudden? I just want my life, but I also do not... But still, I do not... I thought, This is getting to me too much; I want it to end.

“Leaves fall from the trees, and it regrows back in time, So as the flowers, fruits, and it will be fine. The moon with its phases, clouds that become gray, comes the rain everything does feel too much, too sad, but it is never vain.”

Sudden mixed feelings happen in a while, but it has an end, The source of happiness, also ends, but it comes back again. To embrace the gray, cold, heavy feeling, Is to find a light in the dark and remember a thing worth living. This idea, I learned it the hard way, Finding hope amidst the challenging state. “It is okay to not be okay.” I stare at my reflection, A reminder to myself, a beautiful manifestation.