Colours of Visibility

This is a story of being totally STRIPPED NAKED

BY SARA DI FLOW CO-FOUNDER, FLOW NETWORK

A journey of transformation and the challenges I faced in accepting who I came into this world to be, and what I hope to leave behind when I’m gone. This is a journey of unravelling thousands of generations of programming about what it means to be a woman, to be human and to be set free.

Pretty soon after this photo was taken my world began to fall apart.

Why? Because I needed to embody the intentions I set at this photoshoot, to be an anchor of a golden age.

Gold represents transformation, presence and power. Transformation is like an alchemical process that takes something dense and heavy and makes it gold and light. Ascension is actually a journey of descending into the body and into a knowingness of the power our presence has on earth. Anything not founded on integrity will crumble.

Everything in my world that did not hold to this gold standard I’d intended for myself came to the surface to be examined, transmuted and loved. Including my understanding of love itself. I had learned love was conditional.

As with many humans, I suffered with body dysmorphia and many other insecurities, anxieties and traumas. I was constantly striving to be someone else, somewhere else, other than here and now, in my body and on this earth. I never felt allowed to simply be.

I was constantly trying to fit in by looking outside myself for validation, direction, security and love. I was doing nothing but giving my power away and therefore I was completely out of touch with what being me even looked or felt like.

To become gold one must take one’s power back and understand the responsibility that comes with stepping into that power.

It took years of being in denial about the changes I knew, somewhere inside of me, I needed to make. As much as I wanted to disrupt the status quo and rewrite the story of being human, there was deep fear, guilt & shame. I was terrified of upsetting people I loved. At some level I knew claiming my power would disrupt my whole world. Up until recently I spent most of my time outside of my body, in my head and in the realities of the other people I was trying to please.

Why? Because I was conditioned to believe that not disrupting the status quo was safe and loving.

That belief was slowly killing my spirt and making me sick.

It took a few experiences of feeling deeply betrayed by people I loved to decide I needed to completely cut all ties with my past and abandon the life I knew, in order to save myself.

Little by little I stripped away what no longer served me and my deeper needs. This set me up for a beautiful and messy identity crisis.

Through this crisis, which some refer to as a dark night of the soul, I recovered my authentic power and learned that it is love. I learned what unconditional love is, and that it starts with me. I faced off with all the ways I had denied, suppressed and disowned my true nature.

The journey of transformation has very little to do with outer appearance, goals or accomplishments. It’s about transforming inside and being completely present and self aware of what’s longing to be seen deep below the surface. It’s about recovering our true essence and shining that out in the world.

The deep journey through denial, betrayal, abandonment and crisis is what set me free. It’s how I began to embody who I was always meant to be. This is the glow of gold. A grace filled revealing of our soul’s greatest gift to the world. An integration of past experiences, fragmented parts that were once unloveable and inherit wisdom laying dormant beneath a protective shell.

Through my process of reclamation, Flow Network was birthed.

A Network and conscious community of new earth leaders, way-showers and creative professionals who have their own stories to tell and resources to share to support others through the messy and often lonely process of transformation.

As messy as transformation can be, it is a beautiful art. Life is a beautiful art, an ever evolving and expanding dance of pure potential, joy and pleasure.

I believe our stories and visions are a survival guide for someone else and key to share and weave together in these times we are meant to thrive through.

UbU - You be You, is the founding motto of this network and the radiant energy required to create a new world built on a solid integral foundation.

When you are embodying the truth of your soul, freedom and joy will emanate naturally - and that is gold!