So Be It

By: Pauline Jurisprudencia

How is adulting exciting to most? When everything I want is to never leave the coast; that safe land of shelter and comfort and dependency, call me a coward but that’s how I want things to be. Everyone’s keen for freedom and independence, but isn’t that something that birthed from vengeance? Of a defi ant heart that never knew freedom as a child, always restricted, always limited, always had rules to abide. So if that’s the defi nition of liberty, then I don’t want it. Comfort, safety, assurance, and me– that’s what fi t. Because what’s more alluring than not having to fend for yourself? Not always needing to battle the world and the harsh reality by thyself. But maybe these are just the thoughts of an anxious and intimidated child; one whose perception of the outside world is defi led; one who, when faced with trivial inconvenience, will fl ee; one who’s not ready for what’s beyond her safety net– well, that’s me.

And realizing this now, yes I know, it will be inevitable, it will never go. One day, I’d have to be an adult and face the reality of it, but I’ll face it with courage and the mantra: what will come, then so be it.