Overcoming Abortion By Elder Toni D. Goodlow
There was one thing that enabled me to take flight and spiral upwards above the shame, guilt, and torment of having an abortion.
Two weeks pregnant, scared, confused, angry, ashamed, unemployed, and selfish I decided the only way to remedy the problem was to have an abortion.
I was 19 years old, immature, and definitely not financially or mentally ready to care for a child. I was still a child myself. Honesty, I did not want children nor did I want to be a single, unwed teenage mother.
Four weeks later, I was on my way to the Clinic to terminate the pregnancy. As we approached the clinic, Pro-Life protestors yelled at us from on both sides of the streets leading up to the front door. I cried uncontrollably while walking the green mile to the entry of the door as people held up photos of aborted babies and shouted “Jesus loves you”.
I did not consider the consequences of having unprotected sex with my boyfriend at the time because we were young and “having fun”.
That is where the seeds of guilt and shame took root due to my decision to kill an innocent human being. After the pregnancy was terminated and sat in the recovery room, I felt empty on the inside. I asked myself if I would emotionally recover or if God would ever forgive me for this heinous crime committed. When I returned home later that morning, I went to my room, sat on the bed, and talked to the Abba about the abortion.
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