Holy Hush

Part VIII

BY DEBORAH WATSON

Women World Leaders is pleased to present Holy Hush, written by Deborah J. Watson. Deborah is the Executive Director of Studio222films.com and curator of the Branson International Film Festival. A writer, producer, and director in the film industry, Deborah uses her talent to reach hurting people with a message of hope.

Holy Hush is written as an allegorical narrative based on scripture and Deborah’s Christian worldview. Rebekka, the main character that we are traveling with, is on a journey of making a life decision of living with or without her husband, Aaron. Progressing through this difficult time, Rebekka notices the “little things” circling her life and leading her to a decision. As the story unfolds (Holy Hush began in the January 2021 edition of VOT), we see this thirty-something-year-old city girl steal away into the wilderness to search the heart of God. Along the way, Rebekka is introduced to unexpected characters who seem to be leading her on a journey of discovery.

A first pounding wave. She grabs the edge of the boat and rises to face the impending storm. “I forgive you, Aaron!” she screams as loud as she can.

It’s as if her breath pushes against the raging wind and forces the sailboat out to deeper waters as they clear the rocks and point break. The instant calm overwhelms her as she collapses to the deck of the boat.

Rebekka clutches her chest and curls into the fetal position near the captain’s feet. She weeps like she hasn’t wept since the day the doctors told her she could not carry children. The day when great disappointment and anguish encapsulated her soul as the doctors revealed they would have to perform a complete hysterectomy to remove the cancer.

She had held onto hope for so long, only to have it ripped from her arms with the final attempt to save her life. It was a decision she couldn’t make on her own but had to allow her husband Aaron to make with her.

Weeks later, the doctors informed her of their success. Her body was cancer-free. Now adoption was their only option, if they really wanted to have a family.

The captain steers the boat into the waves, and they gently rock Rebekka back and forth. But a motion that should bring comfort delivers even deeper sorrow.

Rebekka crawls to the corner of the deck and sits up, clutching her legs as she rests her chin on her knees and begins to hum, then sing the lyrics to Chris McClarney’s song, “Running After You.” “Deep calls to deep. Here in the roar of Your waterfalls, as the waves of Your peace wash over me.” She quietly sings, reflecting on the meaningful words.

The spray of a wave splashes on her face as she looks up toward the calming waters and continues to hum the rhythm to the song.

“Hope calls to hope,” the captain joins her.

“Deep in my bones, there is an agony; I am aching for You. Nothing else will do.” Rebekka continues singing.

“My soul thirsts for You. I need You. Would You break through? My soul thirsts for You…” The captain and Rebekka sing together.

For the first time, Rebekka looks at the captain. She truly looks at the captain, and she sees the reflection of Aaron’s face for a moment before the captain turns away.

A peace like she has never felt since that dreadful day everything changed begins to comfort her and soften her heart. She stands and walks toward the captain and rests her hand on his shoulder.

“Take me home,” Rebekka whispers.

The captain complies as he kills the engine and hoists the sails to allow the wind to carry her home.

What We Learn…

One of humanity’s darkest life journeys is the path of grief. It matters not if it’s the loss of being able to carry a child, the loss of a loved one, the loss of a job, or the loss of a future dream. It’s a place and a time when emptiness can leave us alone and incomplete. Yet in those moments, God meets us there. He loves us and cares about us so much, He’ll do whatever it takes. All we have to do is turn and look towards Him for direction. “If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. Now my eyes will be open and my ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place. I have chosen and consecrated this temple so that My name may be there forever. My eyes and my heart will always be there.” (2 Chronicles 7:14-16 NIV)

Is Jesus the captain of our ship? If He is, we can look into his face and let Him carry us home. Even if home is where our heart was broken. He is there with us, every single step of the way. If you have not heard Chris McClarney’s song “Running After You,” please search it out and let it be a part of the healing of your soul.