Moments

[Moments]

sometimes it is the little moments that make my body yearn for your touch more than the heavy moments between us.

like when you make me breakfast and tea in the morning to start my day. like the way you smile when you laugh [with more than just your mouth, even your eyes and teeth smile too]. like when you pick out my clothes so we both match. or like when you sing along to a song on the radio [i keep note of the name] and turn to me and stare. like when i am in the shower and you come through the bathroom door to brush your teeth.

i’ve realized that all of these little things, these moments that we share between us, these are the ones that keep me going. the moments that make me love you even more than I already did two minutes ago. the moments that i am so full of love that i can't stand still any longer. i clench my fists but i let the love flow.

the touch we share is always hidden and buried in the dark blankets of night. we know that

the day is never ever safe. when you touch me i am home and secure..

but when i am safe i feel dangerous and when i am in danger there is some sense of normalcy to it all that i don’t always understand. the lightest kiss or touch sends my body into a series of trembles and in those moments there is nothing i want more than you. i crave your soft warm touch and i want to return it. sometimes [and these are the purest moments] there is nothing stopping me from loving you.