Effects of Affects Effect, an Operations Affect, an Making
execution on the matter of influences made external disposition on me
of
my on the
body. me. body. feel.
Child, I was. Once, We were. Tabulas rasas of matter where to mold and generate emotional bodies. To the dispositions of this external circumstances, not yet independents of states and dependent on others for survival, we were at sake of others constitutions, entangled to those closer to our body ; we were made by the functions of those in the peripheries of our beings. By default, that was our destiny and no other option was a choice but to stay, on the shelter, on the comfort, on the attention, on the security, on the safeness of having a home where to stay and food to eat everyday, of having a community and where to belong, of having rituals and activities to be part of, of caring and being cared for, of having people with whom to share live and be. Until, aching in the body this sick love. That one that was never given, that one that was never there, that one that was worn in disguise on gestures of hollow figures of selfish production. The mire of that universal love that should have been pouring from every soul is in you than me, is in my body than is in yours, is in the matters of feelings. Yet, Yet,
affects affects
effects effects
differently are
in different
every in
body. everyone.
My body is a recollection of the times of neglectful love and disorganized caring it has been given. My body is a content of stocked emotions informing me of my defective capacities for healthy loving. My body is an archaeology of ghosts, that now gone, still hunt my thoughts. My body lives in the consequences of a devastated and still ill civilization. I live with the possibility to choose how to affect otherwise in order to effect a different result than mine. In other to be fulfilled, I’ll accept my body and it’s journey through it’s changes I’ll affect my body with respect and love eternally and above all I’ll appreciate life as it is generous and unpredictable with gratitude and forgiveness I’ll approve myself with compassion and understanding for my mistakes and the lessons to be learn I’ll give attention to every detail, circumstance, thought that makes my present because that all that I have.