be angry. She's with Caiden in Illi, talking about finding me. I had hoped that she changed, hoped that she finally cared. I was wrong. I sob. I sob for Zehra, who I couldn't save, for my people, who wanted more from me, for my dad, who fought for me. And I sob until I fall into a sea of gold. This time when the land calls for me to fall deeper into its energy, I do. When I was born I was bathed in Emeren’s golden river. My name is Zemira, a song. My father was a fighter and my mother was a deceiver. But I’m not. I’m nothing and everything, all at once. I'm the flower that bloomed, but also the quiet in the air. I onced wondered if I was the villain or the hero. If I would have a happy or sad ending. But now I know. I create and I bloom bright green flowers all over Shantei, Zehra’s favorite. I destroy the empty buildings and states, and create mountains and valleys. I call to those I know would treat Emeren well. I forgive and offer my assurance to those who would need it. I watch and I wait. The land constantly urges me to lose myself completely in it. But still I stay. Because I’m not sure if I'm ready. Because I'm still not sure if I want to leave at all.
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