SOCIAL ISSUES For the sake of society.
THE GREY By: Moon Aziza I wonder, does everyone have a story about that time they had sex when they didn't really want to? When they did it for lack of a hassle as opposed to the fact that they actually wanted to be close to this person in this moment‌ And if so are they as affected by it as I am? When you have... one human being, and you have another human being, and you have these energies, these two bodies. And you have something as personal and as fragile and as intimate as sex... every single time means something. I don't think it matters if you've been having sex with this person for two weeks or two decades, if you've had sex with them 20 times or 2000 times. When another human being takes control of you, takes ownership of your most cherished parts... it steals something from you. It's been weeks, maybe months, I can't get it out of my head. I can't see it any dimmer, I can't feel it any less, I can’t distance myself from that night. He probably doesn't even remember what night it was. Is it easy for you? In, out, in, out... like a workout routine. I can't wash myself clean of you. I can't erase the feeling of dirtiness. I wanted to earlier that night. I wanted you so bad. We had decided that we wouldn't discuss anything heavy until tomorrow, that tonight we would just be happy and in love. I couldn't help it though, I brought it up on the street car ride back to my house. You got angry, and you got distant. And I felt 44
