Loving My Inner Child, Loving Myself

By Susan Binnie

The day I realized that my inner child needed love was the day I realized that I too needed to be loved. I do not even have to close my eyes anymore to remember the day when I started to get intouch with my higher self. I was doing work with a very gentle man I like to call my Spirit guide. He helped me reach a high level of self awareness. Going through the emotions and levels for being more in tune with self and more intune with inner peace.

It was early in 2018 and I had a vision of being on a swing. A swing made of golden rope and a seat made of two very large hands. Hands of God holding me and allowing me to be young at heart! Allowing me to be anything and everything I was meant to be. I felt a calm and a high level of peace. The vision was so real I decided to drawit out. It warmed my heart and the heart of my guide. We were both moved that day. Moved more than I ever thought possible. Little did Iknow all of that was about to change.

It was the middle of March and I was going to an event with a new found friend. We were both entrepreneurs and shared a love of story. We realized we were registered for the same event and decided to go together. We had lunch and discussed what it would look like to work together, then entered an event which would turn out to be one of the biggest turning points of my life. It did not take long for me to realize that it was an event full of entrepreneurial women. Close to 200 women in one room in Edmonton, how is that possible, there are not that many entrepreneurs in Edmonton… wow was I misinformed. That is a much longer story, a story for another time…

During the event the facilitator shared her unique abilities and how she worked with clients. She had a woman on stage that she took through many emotions and brought out many strengths. When she was done she asked if there was someone that wanted to come to the microphone in the middle of the room and share what they observed. Having been quite moved I wanted to, however I felt that someone else should. As I looked around the room I realized no one else was putting up their hand, or getting up to move in to speak, I decided that I wanted to help her out so I put up my hand.

There were so many signs it was meant to happen. She called on me and as I got up she invited me to the stage. I was walking up very confident and determined. I felt each step hit the ground strong and courageous. As I got to the first step to get on stage my foot started to tremble. Then the next step, and the last. My feet felt like jelly underneath me. I felt a hand on my shoulder and heard the question; How old are you? I realized my biggest fear of having my inner child come out on stage was about to happen.

My words still echo in my mind… “I am six.”

She assured me that I was safe and protected. In the moments that followed, I went in and out of my six year old self alternating with my adult self. I shared fears and was in a state of vulnerability like I had never shared on stage. At one point I realized there was a massive audience of people looking at me and I cried. I cried ugly tears and at the same time spoke so profoundly that the moment is still remembered by many.

I know it is a time in my speaking career that I will never forget.

Firstly because if I can survive that, then I can survive and be stronger anytime I step on stage. And Secondly and most importantly because I realized that the vision I had days prior was not a vision of God's hand holding me, it was my older, adult self, holding me and loving me. Protecting me and dispelling the belief of a time when I was six and believed that I was not pretty enough, not good enough, not worthy and would never be loved. The moment when the thoughts of self love were truly introduced to me. I shared the vision I had and told everyone about the picture I had drawn. When I got home I wrote words on my drawing. The words were so clear in my mind... I knew what my job was. My job was to love myself and those I am meant to connect with.

It was the start of my journey to heal from all the stories I was stuck in... the life of the victim I kept myself in. I am the victor of my life and so can you be… when you heal from the stories that have you stuck, you can be, do and have anything you want. It all starts with a Vision of what you want, setting smart goals to get there and aligning the stories inside of you!

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