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Line Tjørnhøj

Anorexia Sacra (2006)

5 female voices, 1 male voice & double-bass Dur. 60’

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Line Tjørnhøj Anorexia Sacra (2006)

5 female voices, 1 male voice & double-bass Dur. 60’

ABOUT ANOREXIA SACRA

... Trusting in no one and agreeing with no one insofar as he might want to dissuade you from pursuing your founding purpose or might place a stumbling block in your way, preventing you, in that perfection with which the Spirit of the Lord has called you, from fulfilling your vows to the Most High.

(Saint Clare of Assisi to Agnes of Prague 1235translation Joan Mueller)

Background:

Clare of Assisi - founder of the most extreme ascetic medieval order “Poor Clares” - died in 1253 from anorexia. At the time of her death she was highly respected and admired. She is the most well known of a group of medieval female ascetics who - according to contemporary psychiatric understanding - practiced behavior commonly associated with eating disorders. They were strongly connected to the mysticism of the time as a religious movement and they saw strict asceticism as the only true way to unify with Jesus Christ as his heavenly brides.

Our contemporary western culture - in a cult like manner - pays tribute to the perfect appearance of the body, personified by models on catwalks and becoming evident through Hollywood presenting infantile “thin”-looking “superstars”. In the context of western “abundance” anorectics fear to drown in their own fat and they present their “holy icons” as “thinspiration” on the proana websites (pro = professional – ana = anorexia). Back then and now “control” and “willpower” are the keywords for the anorectics and back then and now they exchange proana tips – existential and spiritual thoughts and written poetry. Leaving family, the psychiatric system and friends behind in a completely powerless and voyeuristic position, anorexics take a tour de forceoften for years - alone with their pain and suffering –and quite frequently tragically ending in death.

In her work, Line Tjørnhøj strives to confront this tangible, human-caused “pain” and transforms that energy into a reconciling and creative musical expression.

Human suffering can take so many forms and the only “instrument” that is truly capable of displaying this wide spectrum of emotions is the human voice - both staging the drama, forming the words and simultaneously bringing comfort and healing

This is possible when singers dare to extend their vocal expression beyond pure singing and integrate basic authentic sounds of their voices into the expression: sounds that normally express extreme conditions such as pain, great joy, satisfaction and devotion.

This is how the drama – Anorexia Sacra - comes to life on stage.

The libretto of Anorexia Sacra consists of extracts from Clare of Assisi’s letters and other medieval writings that were blended with Line Tjørnhøj’s lyrics. She got her inspiration from the writings on the proana websites and attempted to build a poetic bridge, and a textual collage, respectively, spanning more than 800 years of time.

The libretto is especially pointing out the powerless situation parents and treatment initiatives found themselves in when confronting the enormous power and will of self-starvation. It displays the aspects of thoughts and feelings expressed through compulsive self-destructive behavior. But mostly it is the story of a father who watches his beloved daughter starving herself to death.

“ANOREXIA SACRA”

Libretto by Line Tjørnhøj

1. (Death Knell) (text: LT)

The Nuns are comforting and praising Clara lying on her “deathbed” on the table. They drink their coffee.

Nuns:

“Drinking coffee, heavenly, shimmer... shimmering light - take a cup of coffee.

Wonderful, shimmering light, one should not be afraid of death, for death will come to Wonderful Trust – entrust it all to mama Sound the Death Knell Welkin, well Hell seems to be on earth, well, one should not be afraid of death Ecclesia, lactans mama mater, Magna mater, Ecclesia.”

Flash Back

2. (Entering) (text mosaic from web & bible: LT)

Clara finds her inspiration on the world wide web and is confronted with her fathers view on her.

Web friends:

“Entering the disordered nation. Welcome in a disordered nation, this is a disordered nation. ProAna for you...thin...thinspiration...you are just starvelous.

ProAnaNation for you. It is beautiful...the pure truth... Get fascinated...get you thinspiration...thin...thinner....

thinnest...

Fat cow...fat disgusting cow...take a look at yourself... “leave...leave this disordered nation”

“Angel.... angel.”

Father:

“I want my little girl...shave, shave your pubic hair... shave...

(God): “Carrier of light – beloved of thee Father –The dying and the reborn light of heaven.... Defying your Father?? Mating with sin?? Breeding death!!!”

Clara:

“

Feedings through a nasogastric tube, vomiting, exercise regime, control, laxative abuse, cramps and gas”

“Leave...leave this disordered nation”

3. Adipisci (textmontage: from web & Clara of Assisi Letters: LT)

Clara writes a letter to her internet proana friends –her father is watching. Trying to stop her.

Father: Venerabilis et sanctissimae Virgini (venerable and most holy virgin)

Clara!

Clara:

Clara indigna, Clara inutilis adipisci cum reverentia aeternae felicitatis gloriam

O soror- immortal domina (I unworthy and useless Clare, writes you with respect and wish that you oh sister will attain everlasting glory)

Web friends:

H2O is, without a doubt, the dedicated Ana’s best friend. It neutralizes stomach acids, quells tummy growls, cleanses your entire system of toxins, flushes out fats

Drink your water ice cold to burn even more calories as your metabolism must exert extra energy to balance body temperature and gets you through the next hour or two.

Starving, stuffing, cutting, purging, running, stuffing, cutting, binge.... Control! The only truth - true power, great, great enough to create order, order in life ...starving, stuffing, cutting, purging, running, stuffing, cutting, binge chaos life - in control, life chaos life chaos - controller - beyond power chaotic life great power.

First thing you’ve got to remember is liquids to have a successful purge. Most people use their fingers – one probably won’t work, three is for more advanced, ...so start with a nice easy two. Insert fingers into throat. Now what you’re trying to do is recreate “ reverse peristalsis” - this is the opposite of swallowing which involves contractions of the esophagus. Massage the back of the throat or make a kind of jabbing motion. Long nails? Cut ´em. Hurt like hell unless you know what you’re doing.

Clara:

I am beautiful - I am perfect - I am the implication of the “thing”: thin! Hunger is a feeling - taste the feeling - taste the hunger feeling - the thin thing Fucking ignorant wanarectics - how dare you insinuate that any of us photo shopped our pics???? Clearly you know nothing about anorexia. Because if you did you’d have known that the way I look is not even that thin for a fucking anorectic!!! My body is a piece of artwork - it displays “pain” in a visual esthetic way Here is your dose of reality............you sad little ignorant wanarexic.... this is me...........this is anorexia .........this is what I look like

4. Speculum (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT)

Clara stands for the mirror

Nuns:

Pone mentem tuam in speculo aeternitatis

Pone animo tuam in splendor gloriam (place your mind in the mirror of Eternity, place your soul in the radiance of Glory)

Clara:

My breast, a big black hollow, hold me, proana wisdom, I am pure. Let me be my body.

Nuns:

Amor suavior, et omnis gratia elegantior (His love is sweeter and his grace more elegant)

Father:

You are just, just a child. You will die for this? Shimmering – you are my light – Satellite, Celestial body, My shine is a poor reflection of you.

Nuns:

Quem cum ameveritis casta estis, virgo estis. Pone cor cor tuum figura divinae, et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine dimagin divinitatis ipsius. Pone cor tuum figura divinae et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine divinitatis ipsius ei.

(If you love him, you are chaste, you are a virgin. Place you heart in the figure of the divine substance and transform your entire being into the image of divinity through contemplation)

Father:

Reborn light. Divinity – pure force, like a star. Radiating beauty.

5. The Vow (Text: LT)

Clara takes a Vow on her loyalty to Anorexia

Anorexia:

Never underestimate my power. I can make you feel high. Invincible.

Clara:

Everyone lies. They say I am too thin. They say I don’t eat enough. See them! See them laughing, behind my back.

Anorexia & Clara: (the Vow)

Lei di kee due is the due, due i kelek rulesion lek, a de tomp le le mes tomp, yt row em ho mu it ho (Nonsense)

Anorexia:

Obedience, or I will make you feel guilty as hell.

Clara:

I have nothing but you. I won’t let you down. I am an inept and fumbling slave. Satiate my desires! I need to surrender to suffer pain.

have overcomed your pangs of concience, atoned your sins, and left you earthly desires, your soul will be touched by heavenly confidence one sweet dawn“)

Clara:

The pure power of hunger enables me to produce oils, wine and other miraculous substances from my pores. I defy the limits of human suffering through extreme physical austerities and transcend the mortal world through my miraculous talents. Food is a substance that transit the boundary between me and not me... And this is a struggle to resist an ascribed identity I found my lover - I am the only person who will enslave me completely.... I am seductive and sadistic ...enjoying to manipulate my mind and brutalize my body...I surrender to suffer humiliation and indignityabuse and punishment And I confess.... confess it all to me...

7. Dies Irate (Text: Dies Irae & LT)

Clara’s father tries to get her into “control” again. Making himself a shameful victim.

Father:

Dies irae – Dies illa. Solvet saeclum in favilla. Quid sum miser tunc dicturus? Ingemisco tamquam reus. Culpa rubet vultus meus Judex ergo cum sedebit quidquid latet apparebit: nihil i nultum remanebit.

Clara: Lacrimosa

Father: Mihi quoque spem dedisti

8. Ave Maria (Text: Ave Maria & LT)

Clara is brought into a psychiatric hospital –calling her mother for help and flirting with and manipulating the psychiatrist calling him “god”, well aware of her own beauty.

Nurses psychiatrist:

Ave Maria gratia plena, dominus tecum benedicta tu in mulieribus et benedictus fructus ventris tui Jesus, Sancta Maria mater dei ora pro nobis peccatoribus nunc et in hora mortis nostra amen.

Clara:

6. Minne (Text : Mechtild v. Magdeburg & LT)

Clara’s moment of self-realization

Nuns:

Eya minnen dú, wilt du wisen wielich din weg. Ja lieber heliger geist. Lere mic da. Eyya minnen du. Seele. Du kúmest ´ber die not des rúvens. Úber die libin der welt morgens in dem sussen touve das ist inne keit.

(„Eya, beloved soul, would you like to know your lot?“ „yes holy spirit – tell me“ „Eya beloved soul! When you

God is present in his power of manhood, the desire of the loins, gathered in two brooding tabernacles. God stands before his creation, excited...two brooding tabernacles holding the trunk, erect strong and upright...God ploughs his field...God breeds his seed, his sacred breath.... she gives herself. “My creation be of thee.... and the word became flesh.

Clara’s mother comes to visit. She admires Clara as an angel that she needs. She cannot face the facts, and is unable to help in any way.

Clara: She loves me...she loves me not.... she loves me...she loves me not

Clara’s mother:

Lightning angel – golden shadow – softly spreading protecting wings

Tender tough – close to my heart – sore and open I give in and cry

Angel – how come you chose me – Angel – close to my heart

Angel – ease my heartache – Angel – don’t leave me tonight

Blissful lips – golden shatter – in my darkness you lit a light

Like a kiss – close to my heart – golden shadow – you tempt me to fly

Angel – how come you chose me – Angel – close to my heart

Angel – ease my heartache – Angel – don’t leave me tonight

Clara:

I promise to love you, to respect you, to be always faithful to you – and never to forsake you till death do us apart!

I promise to respect you, to give you matrimonial obedience, to be always faithful to you – and never to forsake you till death do us apart. What God has joined together, let no man tear asunder

Clara’s mother: Daylight coming – morning breeze – hear you whisper soft in my ear

Lightning light – stay in my heart – Golden Angel don’t fade away

Angel – how come you chose me – Angel – close to my heart

Angel – ease my heartache – Angel – don’t leave me tonight

10. Binge (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT)

Clara is released from psychiatric hospital and her compulsive behavior increases dramatically and takes her on a tour de force between refrigerator and toilet. She binges

Clara:

I am binging; purging…food…more I need more

Nuns:

Hostia humanae, o paupertas, O beata paupertas. (Human sacrifice. O poverty! O beautiful poverty!)

Clara: This is my hostia humana, Where is the loo, I need to kneel, till the eats? comes up. Love me! Look…I atone for my sins. Love me!

Anorexia: You broke our pact! Kneel! Spit blood and slime. Fingers in throat. Atone my girl …atone!

Nuns:

O filia, benedicta quoniam dilectionem. Nulla Nullatemus posset exprimere lingua carnis filia (O my blessed daughter! The love I feel for you is for me not possible to express with my carnal tongue)

Clara: I am binging….I am binging.

Anorexia: Kneel …Fat cow… Binge! – purge! – binge! – purge!..

Nuns: Filia benecita ad te habeo dilection o pia Lingua carnis

Clara: Loo….love me! Loo…. love me…

11. Valete (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT) Clara is back on her deathbed surrounded by father and nuns

Nuns:

Valete in domine et oretis pro me. Toto animo et cordis afectu magis sanctisimam. (Fare well with the Lord and pray for me. You have indeed with whole heart and soul chosen the holiest)

Father: Self-starvation, Holy war. Tormentor...Purify!

Clara: I am starving – my jihad is starvation –

Nuns:

Self-starvation – it is holy war. Victorious holy war –she sacrifices.... sacrilegious.... she sacrifices....

Purification...

Clara: Sin...sin.... sin....

Father: She dies for me. She did choose a holy path.... cry my heart out...

Nuns: Paupertatem et corporis penuriam elegitis. Sponsum nobili quivestram virginitate immaculatam custodiet

9. Angel (Text: LT)

custo illaesam immaculatam. (You have chosen poverty and physical want. Accepting a noble spouse, who will keep your virginity always immaculate)

Father: Cry my heart out!! Don’t.... don’t you dare.... I can’t let you die.... My heart...my “Morningstar”.... “Quod tenes teneas....” my “Heart” “Morningstar”.... let go of your crusade.... Cross! Cross! Cross! ”...“quod tenes teneas...”

Clara: ....illaesam immaculatam...

Scene 1: "Death Knell" - nuns doing a coffee ritual.

Soundscape: turning spoons slowly in cups, hitting cup with spoon, slurping coffee, placing cup on teller, changing place for the cup. This in a percussive way.

      Double Bass ppp leggiero flautando q = 50 Db. poco accel. 8 S1 Db. q = 100 16 mp leggiero q = 100 S1 Db. /ua/ "reinforced harmonics" mp /si/ /njo/ /i/ /kua/ /di/ /ja/ /jo/ /mjo/ /kjo/ /lai/ /dy/ /sjo/ 23 S1 S2 Db. /je/ /ki/ /jo/ /i/ /moi/ /y/ /nau/ /ja/ /sje/ /mo/ /i/ niyou/ /io/ /my/ /o/ Drin king - cof fee29 mp     ponticello estremo arco

                arco     molto legato                                              sotto voce /aa/ ad lib.                                                                                                                                                                       

should not /b/ be a fraid - be a fraid - of death

for

death will come to

      S1 S2 Db. /mmm/ hea ven - ly - Shim me - ry - shim me - ring - light Take a cup of 34 S1 S2 A1 Db. cof feep Won mf der - /f/ ful - Shim me - ring - light 38 pp mp leggiero mp S1 A1 Db. One

42     gliss.     "airy multiphonics" one exhale gliss. ord.         /aa/ ad lib.   sul pont.                                                                                                                                                                          2

    S1 S2 A1 Db. /wo/ /on/ /der/ /e/ /e/ /e/ /er/ /mmm/ /d/ Drin mp king - cof fee - /mmm/ hea ven - ly - shim me -46 p p S1 S2 A1 A2 Db. ry shim me - ring - light f /mam/ mp /moar/ /njo/ /o/ /o/ /a/ Ma51 f mp Mamp Ma  sotto voce     /aa/ ad lib.   gliss.                 gliss.   ornamental       /aa/ /aa/    /aa/ /aa/                                                                                                                                3

    S1 A2 Db. ma /mjong/ p /ja/ ja/ /njoar/ /mir/ /kja/ /you/ /ni/ /sau/ /dyi/ /mjie/ /nje/ 55 ma p /ua/ /si/ /njo/ /i/ /kua/ /di/ /ja/ /jo/ /mjo/ /kjo/ /lai/ /dy/ p S1 A2 Db. /i/ /rin/ /ja/ /mm/ /ja/ /mm/ /miyu/ mf /na/ /so/ /ka/ /kau/ /na/ /won/ /on/ /der/ /e/ /e/ 59 /sjo/ /je/ /ki/ /jo/ /i/ /moi/ /y/ /nau/ /ja/ /sje/ /mo/ /i/ niyou/   reinforced harmonics     sim.           reinforced harmonics    sim.                                 ord.                                                                                                                                                             4

    S1 S2 A1 A2 Db. /e/ /e/ /er/ /der/ ful 63 /ven/ mp /hell/ Drin mf king - cof fee - /mm/ hea ven - ly - Shim me -/io/ /my/ /o/ /ful/ mf /ven/ mp /hell/ mf S1 S2 A1 A2 Db. ma maf 67 ma ma - - ma maf ry shim me - ring - light Trust en trust - it all to /mm/ Ma ma f ma ma - - ma maf mp                   ord.       molto vibrato       molto vibrato                                                                                                                                         5

sound

the death knellsound the death knellsound the death knellsound the death knell sound the death knell

"speech"

Welkin, well Hell seems to be on earth

sound

the death knellsound the death knellsound the

sound the death knell sound the death knell sound the death knell

well one should not be afraid of death

death knell sound the death knell sound the death knell sound the death knell sound

    S1 S2 A1 A2 Db.

72 mp /moaro/ mf

S1 S2 A1 A2 Db.

  quasi bells

       humming   "reinforced harmonics"    

poco stringendo

    quasi bells           stringendo a tempo: q = 100                   humming      

                                                                                                                                                                                               6

    S1 S2 A1 A2 Db. Ec "falsetto" senza vibrato p cle - si - a - lac tans lac tans ma 79 Ec "falsetto" senza vibrato p cle - si - a - lac tans lac tans ma mp /mm/ /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ /moar/ the death knell sound /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ /moar/ molto legato p S1 S2 A1 A2 Db. ma ma mama ter Mag na ma ter - ma ter- E cle si a83 ma ma mama ter Mag na ma ter - ma ter- E cle si a/aa/ /aa/ /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ ma /aa/ /aa/ /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ /mm/ /aa/ ma        /aa/                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           7

    S1 S2 A1 A2 Db. lac tans mf 87 lac tans mf Drin mp king - cof feema ma Drin mp king - cof feep S1 S2 A2 Db. 89 /mmm/ hea ven - ly - /mmm/ /mmm/ hea ven - ly - /mmm/ ppp                    airy lunga                     "heartbeat" hitting DB body with handpalm s.p.e. lunga                                                                                      8

Flash back

Scene 2 "Entering"

Dagmar finds her inspiration on the "world wide web" and is also confronted with male view on her.

ca. "40"

lento "pouring ice cubes into water"

"taking ice cube with 2 hands into mouth"

ca. "20"

"pouring water into mouth"

ppp

"breathing" (a hiiii) X 10

sul ponticello estremo

ca. "40"

cue from S1

pulsefeeling:

heartbeat hand on body q = ca 100

lento

walking on stones

accell.

ca. "20" pp

    S1 S2

Bass

S2 A1 A2

Db. 

Double

Dagmar







(s.p.e)



 dis "sotto voce" or  - - der gliss. "speech" mf

t t t ter! ter! ENTER!  En "sotto voce" ter pp - en en ter - en en ter - en en ter - en en ter - en en ter - en  "sotto voce" mp en te - ring - the dis or - der ppp gliss.                                                              

EeeenTeeeeRrrrrr

*ProAna

just

    S1 S2 A2 Dagmar Db. S1 S2 A2 Dagmar B. 

"belting"

in a disordered world. This is a disordered world "speech" mf  En gliss. ter fff - en ter mp En f mp dis dis ord  dis or - de - red f - world  this mp is a 3 3  pppp gliss.  "stonerunning"  Wel mf come - come in trem. 

"stonerunning"

welcome

 En f dis "multiphonics" incl. high pitch airy fry or - der - Oh trem. mp 3  I mf want my "multiphonics" incl. deep throat sounds lit tle                                                                                         10

for you? Thin... thinspiration. You are

STARVELOUS "speech" quasi commercial

through a nasogastric tube, vomiting, exercise regime, control laxative abuse, cramps

    S1 A1 B. S1 S1 S2 A1 Dagmar B. Db.  rub stone against mirror  Get mp fas ci - na - ted In spi - ra - tionmolto vibr. gliss. mf  girl p shave shave your pu bic ca "10" - hair shave your pu bic hair shave  throwing stones ff  gasping sounds of vomiting gasping  Proooo proana nation FOR YOUUUU  IT IS BEAUTIFUL !! ......... THE PURE THRUTH  feedings

and

 shave ff pu bic - shave you pubic hair pu bic - hair pu bic pp s.p.e.                                                          11

gas

"speech"

Thin

"speech" agressive

Fat cow.......... Fat disgusting cow aaaaad ...take a look at yourself!

"sprechstimme"

Leave the leave the leave the disordered nation

bic - shave your pu bic - hair hair pu bic - shave hair

s.p.e. trilling glissandi in crescendi with subito stops in accentuato

sotto voce calling mp gel - An gel  molto vibr.  p

An sotto voce mp mi - ne - Do mi - ne - Do mi - ne - Do mi - ne

                                                                                                

imperativ Leave! leave this nation! leave this disorder ! disorder disorder disorder disorder "whisper" sul tasto molto lento arco gliss.

    S1 S2 A1 Dagmar B. Db. 47 S1 S2 A1 Dagmar B. Db. 

a  p hiii "multiphonics" with throatsounds ff a  p hiii ff a  p hiii ff 

quasi commercial

thinspiration thin thin thinner thinnest thinspiration





airy multiphonics molto vibr.  pp

fff  l.h. Bipizz. 



disorder disorder disorder

arco



Spatial notated Each part relates loosely to one another freely quasi sweedish "kulning"* "herdcall"  Do

      52 S1 B. Db. 58 S1 Db. S1 Dagmar B. Db.  Kjo f ru - - - Kjo ru - hei ju  Carrier of light - Beloved of thee Father.....The dying and the reborn light of heaven..... "falsetto"   i kjo ruZbpizz  arco f mp ff mp fff  quasi "bells" THIN thin THIN THIN thin thin THIN p freely "speech"  "agressive" F K K K F F F F He e e F K K Ng kng gg LLLL   "operatic" lento Defying your Father??....   arco f quasi vibrato or tremolo "ornamental" pppp                                                                                          13

molto slow vibrato molto pontic.

  B. Db. 

pp death  ppp molto lento

mating...mating with sin. Breeding death...death....death

"crying thin and soft falsetto" 

gliss. gliss.     14

Scene 3: "Adipisci"

Dagmar writes a letter to her internet proana friends - her father watching, trying to stop her.

rubato free feeling, respecting the character of the inhales

    q = 80 S1 S2 M-S A1 A2 6 S1 S2 M-S A1 A2            /a/ 

mp with

/hmm/ /a/  /hmm/ sempre     /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o//hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/   /a/  mp /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/       /hn/ mp /år/  /hmm/      mp /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/      /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/   /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/  /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/                                                                                                                                                             

    9 S1 S2 M-S A1 A2 B. 12 S1 S2 M-S A1 A2 Dagmar B.      /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/   /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/  /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/  Ve p "operatic" ne - ra - bi - li - - et       /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/   /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /a/  /hn/ /år/  /hmm/   /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/   /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /ah/ /o/      Dag mf -mar in dig - sanc tis - si - mae - Vir gi - ne f                                                                                                                                                                                              2

    16 S1 S2 Dagmar B. 22 S1 S2 M-S Dagmar                                                            pp gliss. gliss. vir gin na voiced implosive [ß]  Dag mari nu - ti - lis - /o/  A digliss. pis civoiced implosive [ß]   pp vir gi mf - ne - vir pp gi ne - - /o/ pp   /a/  pp /hmm/ /a/  /hmm/ O   Vir pp gi - ne - vir gi - ne - O    /hn/ pp /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/ /hn/ /år/  /hmm/  cum re ve - ren - ti - a - /au/  pp /au/  /au/  ae ter nae - ae ter pp O                                                                                                                        3

      26 S1 S2 M-S Dagmar 31 Dagmar Db. 37 q = 40 q = 40 Dagmar B. Db.                  /a/  /hmm/  "falsetto" /o/ mp /a/  /hmm/ /a/  /hmm/  Vir  -    /hn/ /år/  /hmm/      fe mf li ci ta tis - O  pp glo mf ri - am - /o/  glo ri - agliss.  ornamental "reinforced harmonics" b.c. with tongue flutter and velum vibrato /mm/ gliss. /moaae/ "lament" "multiphonics"lunga    pp   f  /o/  so /o/  - ror   Dag mf a mar ff   ppp sul pont.   l.h.pizz arco                                                                                                                                 4

    41 Dagmar B. Db. 42 S2 Dagmar B. Db.  im m m mi mor tal - Do mi - na - na na ni ni  A "sotte voce" p di - - - - - - pis - - -   Vir mf - - ni mi - mi"multiphonics" "lament" articulated in slowmotion " fry" /au/  f  ci mf ff a Ae mp ter   l.h.pizz arco gliss.                                                                                                                            5

quasi commercial "speech"

quasi instruction

 gin ff "falsetto" O pp

quasi instruction

"speech"

mp 

p mf

 /au/  /au/  "falsetto" O pp  "speech"

with vibrating vocals

the thing - the thin thing - feel the real thin thing -

 

= 40

S1 S2 M-S A2 Dagmar B. Db. 

All should be placed "aside" so that the ear can zoom in on individually text DB follows Clara mp

"speech"

H2O is, without a doubt, the dedicated Ana´s best friend.

mp 

ﬁrst thing you´ve gotta remember is liquids to have a succesful purge.

So in order for you to purge, your esophagus has to contract several times

"speech" "recitando"

starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing

subito

starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing

 ni ff "falsetto" O pp voiced implosive [ß]  gliss.

mp sul pont.

Feel

aproximate tempo

                                6

spatial notation - related to text all rest "relative"

It neutralizes stomach acids, quells tummy growls, cleanses your entire system of toxins, ﬂushes out fats,

Most people use their ﬁngers – one probably wont work, three is for more advanced, ...so start with a nice easy two.

before the food can come back up – it can take a while, but dont worry you will improve.

starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing

I am beatyful - I am perfect - I am the implication of the "thing": thin!

Drink your water ice cold to burn even more calories as your metablism must exert extra energy to balance body temperature

Insert ﬁngers into throat. Now what youre trying to do is recreate ”reverse peristalsis”

quasi commercial

"speech"

Massage the back on the throat or make a kind of jabbing motion.

Control! the only thruth - true power, great, great enough to create order, order in life

Hunger is a feeling - taste the feeling - taste the hungerfeeling - the thin thing

 what is lanugo - ladies and gentlemen - lanugo ladies and gentlemen is hair - long black hair -

    S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar Db. accel. S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 



 pp mp f 



mf 

 pp mp f                                             7

"speech" ironically

and gets you through the next hour or two - this is the opposite of swallowing which inwolves contractions of the esophagus.

Long nails? Cut ´em. Hurt like hell unless you know what your doing.

chaos life - in control, life chaos life chaos - controller - beyond power chaotic life great power.

Fucking ignorant wanarectics - how dare you insinuate that any of us photoshopped our pics????

clearly you know nothing about anorexia. Because if you did you´d have known that the way I look is not even that thin for a fucking anorectic!!!

my body is a piece of artwork - it displays "pain" in a visual esthetic way

Here is your dose of reality........

you sad little ignorant wanarexic.... f mp this is me..........this is anorexia............this is what I look like

       

S2 A1 A2 Dagmar Db. 56 accel.

Dagmar Db. Dagmar Db. rit. Dagmar Db. 

q = 40



 ff

"shouting"  mp f flautando  s.p.e. mp  

mf  mp ff 

mp mf

 mp  p   

                                                                                                                                      8

4. Speculum (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT)Dagmar stands for the mirror

Nuns:Pone mentem tuam in speculo aeternitatis Pone animo tuam in splendor gloriam (place your mind in the mirror of Eternity, place your soul in the radiance of Glory)

Dagmar:My breast, a big black hollow, hold me, proana wisdom, I am pure.

Let me be my body.Nuns:Amor suavior, et omnis gratia elegantior

(His love is sweeter and his grace more elegant)

King:You are just, just a child. You will die for this? Shimmering – you are my light –Satellite, Celestial body, My shine is a poor reflection of

Nuns:Quem cum ameveritis casta estis, virgo estis.

Pone cor cor tuum figura divinae, et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine dimagin divinitatis ipsius.

Pone cor tuum figura divinae et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine divinitatis ipsius ei.

(If you love him, you are chaste, you are a virgin.

Place you heart in the figure of the divine substance and transform your entire being into the image of divinity through contemplation)

King:Reborn light. Divinity – pure force, like a star. Radiating beauty.

 = a short audible inbreath meant to give a percussive effect

    q. = 60 q. = 60 Alto3 Double Bass 7 A.1 A.2 A.3 Db.     



     Po ne - men   fz pizz. fz fz fz fz      Po ne - men te m - tu      po ne - men tem - in spe  te m - tu po ne - men te m - tu  po ne - men tem tu am in   fz fz p                                                                                                                                                                                                    

spe cu- lo ae ter 2

po ne men tem- tu am in po ne men tem

te m - tu

molto vibrato ni - Po ne - men te

m - tu am - po ne - men

stringendo ne - men tem - tu am - in spe cu - ae ter -

po ne - tu am - cu ae ter gliss. -

Po ne - men te m - tu po ne - men

tu am - po ne men tem - tu am in po ne men tem -

m - tu am - po ne - men te

m - tu am - po ne - men

molto vibrato er - ni                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

    12 A.1 A.2 A.3 Db. 17 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.2 A.3 Db.                                  



 



 



  fz arco leggiero   

  

 



 

po ne - men te m - tu 

Po ne - men te m - tu po ne - men 

cu lo - ae   arco leggiero

ta tis

po ne - men tem - tu am -

m - ae ter ni -3

men tem - ae ter ni

te m - tu

molto vibrato b.c. cu - lo - ae ter - ni - Po ne men

spe

 - tu am in po ne men tem -

m - tu am - po ne - men te

m - tu am - po ne - men

  21 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.2 A.3

 



 







 



 



Db. 

ni ta 

tis - po gliss. ne men te                                                                                                                                                                            

Po ne - men te m - tu po ne - men

cu- lo - ae ter - niA

gliss.

a ni - ma - a ni - /ni/ /ni/ a

a ni - ma 3 - ah

  25 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.   tas A

gliss.

  tas a 

   po



  te



  spe

tempo p  /ni/

  tem

   

   /ah/

tempo po ne a

- men tem - tu am - in spe cu- lo- /ah/    sf                                                                                                                                                                                                                4

ni - a ni - ma - a ni - ma -

ne - men te

m - tu am - po ne - men

m - tu

ne men te

m - tu am - po ne - men te

/ni/ /ni/ ter /ni/ /ni/ /ni/ /ni/ ae ter - ni -

p ne - me tem - a ni - ma - a

ni ma

  29 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.    /ah/ ni ma - a ni - ma - ma a ni - ma - ae ter   a ni - ma

- ma - a - ni - ma - ae ter ni  te 



  m



   /ni/ /ni/ /ni/ ter /ni/ /ni/ /ni/ /ni/ ae ter - ni /ni/ /ni/ /ni/   a ni - ma - a gliss. a ni - ma 3 a ni - ma   ni ma - /ah/ a ni - ma - a ni - ma - a ni - /ni/ ma   a ni - ma 3 /ah/ a ni - ma 3 - a ni - ma - /ah/  ae ter                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     5

m - tu am - po ne - men te

m - tu am - po ne - men

tu am - po ne - men te

m - tu am - po ne

men te

gliss. /ah/ 6

 m - tu am - a ni ma 

gliss. /ah/   ae

      mp

 a

gliss. ni ma -

 a ni     ni ta - ae

gliss.

ter ni - ae - ae ter - ni - ae ter - ni - ae ter - ni - tas -

ae ter - ni ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae

m tu am - po - ni ma                                                                                                                                                                                               

  33 S.1 S.2 M-S.

Db. 

 

A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. 



ter ni - ae - po ne - men tem - tu am - in spe cu - po ne - men tem -

ae po ne

gliss. - men tem - po ne -

te  

ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae ae

  38 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Db.   tu

 -

ne - men

- tu am - in spe cu   men

- men

- po ne  ma /ah/  a ni ma - /ah/ ae 3 3 3   /ah/  a ni magliss. /ah/ a ae 3    ae ter

ta - ae

 - ae gliss.   ae

  mp gliss.                                                                                                                                                                               7

am - in spe cu

po ne - men tem - tu am - in spe cu - po

tem

tem - po ne - po ne

tem

- ni -

ter - ni - tas - ae ter - ni - ta -

  43 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db.   fff 3 3 3 3     3 3 3     3     ae ae ae ae ae    ae 3                                                                                                            8

  46 q = 90 q = 90 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.                       /ih/ gliss. gliss.     b.c. (bocca chiusa) sempre mm p mm   ae ae ae ae mm b.c. (bocca chiusa) sempre p mm     /o/ "velum-vibrato" e = e quasi bells a tempo /ng/ /o/ /ng/ /o/ /ng/ /o/ /ng/ /o/ /ng/ b.c. c. tongueflutter /mmm/ my soul         leggiero pizz. p arco richochét pizz. richochét arco 3 3                                                                                           9

    50 A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db. 55 A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.   mm mm mm mm mm   mm mm mm mm mm mm mm   /mmm/ b.c. sim my breast hol low big /g/ unvoiced /g/ black /k/ sim. /k/ /a/ a na  pizz. arco richochét pizz. arco richochét pizz. arco richochét 3 3 3   mm mm mm mm   mm mm mm mm mm mm   wis dom - Hold me hold me feel trill   pizz. arco richochét pizz. richochét arco "trilling" pizz. arco richochét 3 3 3                                                                                                                                                                                 10

am - in spe cu - po ne - men tem - po ne - men tem - po ne - men tem -

ne - men tem - tu am - in spe cu - po ne - men tem - po ne - men tem -

po ne

ne men tem - tu am - in spe cu - po ne - men tem -

    59 e = e e = e A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db. 65 q. = 60 q. = 60 e = e e = e S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.                                  po p ne - men tem  mm mm mm mm     mm mm mm mm mm mm     my f pain see mp my soul love me I p am pure   pizz. arco pizz. sul G arcogliss. pp pizz. richochét arco "trilling"  3          po p ne - men tem - tu am - in spe cu - po p ne - men tem - tu am - in spe

         po

- men   tu



  po p



   po p

             f                                                                                                                                                                                                              11

po ne

  70 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db.     you mp will die ff     you mp are just a child     you mp will die die for this   men      men Ga mp Ga bri - Ga bri - el  Ga mp bri - Ga bri - Ga bri - /el/ /el/    "sotto voce" You mf are just You are just

child You will die                                                                                                                                              12

  74 S.1 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.      An gel -    An gel -  Die! gliss. Die! An gel An gel gliss.3 3   bri el - bri el - Ga Ga Ga - bri   /el/ /el/ Ga bri - Ga bri - /el/ /el/   Die /d/ /d/ /d/ die /d/ /d/ /d/ /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/ /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/   die ff for  this?                                                                                                                                                                         13

  78 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.   gliss. Die mf Quem mf 3    Die gliss. Quem mf 3   Die gliss. Die f Quem mf 3   Die Die gliss. gliss. Quem mf 3 3   Die leggiero mf po ne - cor et po ne - cor et  3   /el/ /el/ Ga /ah/ Ga /ah/ Quem mf   /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/ /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/ /i/  /h/        Shim f me -   leggiero mp                                                                                                                                                                                        14

cum a me - ve - ve ri - tis - ri tis - ri tis -

cum a me - ve - ve ri - tis - a me - ve - ve ri - tis -

cum a me - ve - ve ri - tis - /ah/ /ah/ my mor ning - star

cum a me - ve - ve ri - tis -

et trans form- et trans form- po ne - cor et po ne - cor et

et trans form-

cum a me - ve - ve ri - tis - a sta es tis

ring you are my light My heart

  82 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db.  

 

"falsetto"

 

   



 

 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   15

  87 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db.   Lumen pp gliss. mp  lumen   Lumen pp gliss. mp lumen           lumen gliss. ord. gliss.   et trans

- po ne - cor et   vir go es tis vir go  Lu   my Mor ning - star                                                                                                                                                                                              16

form - et trans for ma - et trans for ma - et trans for ma

  92 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db.   f /moar" mp /a/ "falsetto" "reinforceds harmonics" /moar" /a/ "falsetto"   /moar" mp /a/ "falsetto" "reinforceds harmonics" /moar" /a/ "falsetto"    "reinforceds harmonics"       Sa mf te - lite - ce les - ti - al - bo dy   po ne - cor et po ne - cor et

ne - cor et et trans for ma - et trans for ma  men f        Sa mf te - lite - Ce les - ti - al                                                                                                                                                                               17

mf 18

My shine re flec - tion of you re

mf flec - tion of you

po ne - cor et po ne - cor et et trans for ma - et trans for ma - po ne - cor et

bo dy My shine re flec - tion of you

re mf flec tion of you

"reinforceds harmonics" /a/ /yo/ /nyi/ /yi/                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

  97 S.1 S.2 A.1

B. Db.  

 

A.2 A.3

/moar/  

"reinforceds harmonics" /a/ /yo/ /nyi/ /yi/      

mf  

/moar/  

ne - cor et po ne - cor

legno battuto avec un poco "crins" arco

sim.

nae - et trans for - ma - te ip sam - to tam - in i ma gi ne di vi

ta tis

ip si

et trans

    102 e = e e = e S.1 S.2 A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db. 107 S.1 S.2 Db.                   Po mf ne - cor cor tu um fi gu ra - di    Po mf ne - cor tu um          po

                    mf col

mf   vi

  fi gu - -ra

for

  p sim. mf p sim. mf p                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            19

di vi

nae

ne cor cor tu um - fi - ra di vi - nae - et trans form - te ip sam 20

Po ne - cor cor tu um fi gu ra - di vi - nae - et trans for - ma - te ip sam - to tam -

te ip sam to tam - in i ma - gi - ne i ma - gi - ne di vi -

mf ne cor cor tu um - fi gu - ra - di vi - nae - et trans form - te ip sammf trans form - di  sim. mf p

mf                                                                                                                                                                                              

Po sim. mf p

mf trans form - di sim. mf p

  112 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Db.  

 

      et

 

Po      et

in i ma gi ne di vi - ni - ta - tis - ip si - us - Ey

ni ta - tis - - ip si - us - Ey

in i ma - i ma - go - di vi - na - Ey

vi na ip si - us - Ey

in i ma - i ma - go - di vi - na - Ey

po ne - cor et po ne - cor et

vi na ip si - us - Ey

  118 e = e e = e S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db.                  

 mf Quem mf  

    



  

          Re mf born  sim. mf p  leggiero mp                                                                                                                                                                                21

cum a me - ve - ve ri - tis - ri tis - ri tis

et trans form - et trans form - po ne

cor et po ne

cor et

et trans form

Di vi - ni - ty - pure force

et trans form - et trans for ma - et trans for ma - et trans for ma - po ne

cor et

    123 S.1 A.2 B. Db. 128 S.1 A.2 Dagmar B. Db.  

"falsetto"  



 

    Lumen pp gliss. mp  lumen  

light

   /moarniy/ mf /moar/ f "falsetto" /a/ p /a/   like a star    Ra di -                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          22

ne - cor et po ne - cor et po ne - cor et et trans for ma - et trans for ma

    133 S.1 A.2 Dagmar B. Db. 138 S.1 A.2 B. Db.   f /moar" mp /a/ "falsetto" "reinforceds harmonics" /moar" /a/ "falsetto"  

  /moar/ mf /a/ "falsetto" p /a/ /moar/ "reinforced harmonics" mf /a/ /yo/ /niy/ /yi/ fff   ate ah beau ty -    /moar/ "reinforceds harmonics" /a/ /yo/ /nyi/ /yi/ mf   po ne - cor

et trans for - ma  di vine                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 23

et po ne - cor et

  141 S.1 A.2 Db.      et trans for - ma                                                     24

feel high in vin ci ble

I dont eat e nough - See them See them laug hing - be hind - my back

leggiero (quasi "mass")

      q= 40 Bass Double Bass 6 Dagmar B. 12 Dagmar

e =

18 Glass. B. Db.                  

 Ne "sob" ver

make            "sob" Eve mp ry

  you

     say

   /lei/ alle unisont /di/ /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/   /lei/ Anorexia: /di/

mp /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ sounding inhale /a/  /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/   mp gliss. gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                          

e = 180

180

Anorexia:

- un mp der - es ti - mate my po wer - I can

one - lies They say I am to thin They

      21 Glass. B. Db. 24 Glass. B. Db. 27 Glass. B. Db.   /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ /a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/   /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/  sim. /lei/ /di/ /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/   richochét gliss. gliss. gliss.   /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/ /lei/ /di/ /kee/ /du/   /a/  sim. /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/  sim. /lei/ /di/ /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/   gliss. gliss. gliss.   /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/   /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ /a/  sim. /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/    gliss. gliss. richochét gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                      2

    30 Glass. B. Db. 33 Glass. Dagmar B. Db.   /a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/   /lei/ /di/ /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ /a/  sim. /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/   gliss. gliss. gliss.   /mu/ /it/ /ho/ gliss.    Ah "lament" f (voice break) ff /ai/ f /ai/ /ai/ /ai/ /ai/ /ai/ /ai/ ff sim.   /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/    gliss. mp gliss. f mp f gliss.                                                                                                                                           3

    36 Glass. Dagmar B. Db. 39 Glass. Dagmar B. Db. q = 40 42 B.                 /mo/ mf /a/ gliss. - /mo/ /a/ gliss.mp /ne/ /le/ /lei/ /di/ /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/     /lei/ /di/ /kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/   mp f gliss. mp  gliss.   O A tempo pp "sob"   /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ /a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/ ff   /due/ /i/ /ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ /a/  /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/ f   gliss.  gliss. gliss. f   O A tempo pp "sob" Anorexia: be digliss. mf ence p "falsetto" mf  or mp "falsetto" I will make you feel                                                                                                                                                                                                        4

    52 Dagmar B. 61 Dagmar 68 e = 120 rit. rit. q = 140 q = 140 Dagmar Db. 75 Dagmar 81 Dagmar                  I "sob" mp I have   guil ty guil ty mf as "sob" mp hell    no thing - but you I wont let you down let you down I have no thing - I 3   wont let you down      I  f "sprechstimme" am  an  in  ept  - and     p     fum  bling  - slave  Sa  ti  - ate  - my  de  si  - res!  - I   need  to  sur  ren  - der  - to  suf  fer  - pain  to  suf  fer                                                                                                                                                    5

The pure power of hunger enables me to produce oils, wine and other miraculous substances from my pores

nen - dú min dú se le - wi ilt - du wi is - sen - wie lich - din weg

nen - dú Wilt du wis sen - wie lich - din weg

dú min dú Wilt du wis sen wie lich din weg

I defy the limits of human suffering through extreme physical austerities and transcend the mortal world through my miracoulos talents.

    q = 90 Soprano1 Soprano2 Mezzo-soprano Alto2 Dagmar 6 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.2 Dagmar               Dú p mf      Ey mf ya min nen dú    Ey mf ya - min nen - dú Ey ya     Ey mf ey ey ya min nen dú    "speech"

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f   min nen -

      min

  min

 

dú

nen

                                                                                                                              

Ja lie ber - he li -

Ja lie ber - he li - ger - he li - ger - geist Ja

lie ber - he li - ger - le re - mich

Ja lie ber - he li ger he li - ger - geist

Food is a substance that transit the boundary between me and not me......and this is a struggle to resist an ascribed identity

    13 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.2 Dagmar 20 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.2 Dagmar     he li - ger - geist     

      

ger

"falsetto" mp

 

     

  es f  mf  dú Se  es f Ey ya ey min nen dú Se  es ord. f Ey mf ya - min nen dú Se      min mf nen dú Se     Ey mf ya ey ya min nen dú Se                                                                                                                                                              2

I found my lover - I am the only person who will enslave me completely....

    26 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.2 Dagmar 33 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.2 Dagmar   le ff Du p mf ku mest - ú ber - ú ber - die not des rú wenf Ú mp ber  le ff Du p kum mf ú ber - ú ber die not des rú wen  le ff Du p ku mf mest   not des rú wens f Ú ber - die   le f Du p kum mf ú ber - ú ber die  ú mp ber  le f Du p kum mf ü ber - ú rú wenf   pi ne gliss.ff  Ú mp ber - die lie bin    der bi te    pi mp pi ne   ú mp ber - die lie   die pi ne  bih mp te ú ber - die lie bin  die pi ne

                                                                                                                                                                      3

Des mor gens - in dem su sen tou ve

Des

mor gens - in dem súes sen tou ve

I am seductive and sadistic ....... .....enjoying to manipulate my mind and brutalise my body...... ....I surrender to suffer

das ist die be sclos - sen - in ne - keit

das ist die die be sclos - sen - in ne - keit -

humiliation and indignity - abuse and punisment

and I confess .... confess it all to me...

    39 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 Dagmar 45 S.1 S.2 Dagmar Db.           der welt "sotto voce"

    "sotto voce"

  bin der welt  mf         mf      der welt      

 

Ey mf      pp                                                                                                                     4

    50 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.2 Dagmar Db. 54 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 Dagmar Db.     Ey mf ya min nen dú gliss.      Ey mp ya    Ey mf ya min nen dú min nen  Mun "sotto voce" mf dus se ne - scit no men il li mors   ya min nen - dú Ey ya min nen  mp pizz.   p nen dú gliss.   min nen - dú gliss.    dú     An "sotto voce" ji mf - ha Shekhinah: vatt se lett ha sha - ron - sho sha nat ha am ma kim 3   Mun dus se ne scit no men il li mors   dú Wilt du wis sen - wie lich - din weg                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             5

mors 6

de ei! spon sa! Sich wie schoen´ sin

Ja lie ber - he li - ger

Ke sho shan na been ha - ho - him - keen ra, aj - ja - tiib - been

Mun dus se ne - scit - no men il

Ja lie ber - he li - ger - he li - ger - geist

óv gen - sint Sich wie schoen sin óv gen - sint

sa 

rose Sha

"falsetto" mp lie ber - he li - ger - le re - mich es

Ke ta bo - ah - ha - ba                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

    58 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 Dagmar Db. 61 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 Dagmar Db.  

 

   /ah/ mp /ah/ sempre  

3  

 

   

    es    

3  li



 

hab ba nåt  

    64 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 Dagmar Db. 67 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 Dagmar Db.   Vi de ei! spon sa! Vi de ei!   f Ey ya ey min nen dú     ha ja tiib been hab ba nåt - Häd di - a i - all 3   ron ro rose and the li ly 3   ord. f Ey mf ya - min nen dú         Se le -ff Du p kum mf     be et - had ja - ji - in - väd dig - lå - al la - ji.  of the val val - leys 3   Se le ff Du p ku mf                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   7

Mun dus se ne - scit - no men il

- - ú ber die not des rú wen -

al la - ji - a ha - va - aj ja tiib - been hab ba

Die min ne - sol(l) sin mort

I am the rose of Sha ron - rose

  70 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.  

  ú ber

   

3 

 

3   mest  not

rú wensf Ú                                                                                                                                              8

des

  73 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.   li mors Mun dus se ne - scit   der bi     nåt /ah/   lich Mort   and the li ly of the val 3   ber die pi mp  bih mp te    /a/                                                                                                                                                          9

  76 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.   no men il li mors Mun dus   te   Vi de ei! Vi de ei!   Vi de ei! Vi de ei!   lich Vi de ei! Vi de ei! Vi de ei!   val leys 3   ú ber - die lie bin - der welt                                                                                                                                                                                10

    79              S.1 S.2 A.1 A.2 A.3 B. Db. 83 A.1 A.2 A.3 Db.                                                    /ah/ pp                   "humming" freely (sweedish feeling) /mm/ p          "humming" freely (sweedish feeling) /ah/ p         I am p the rose 3                  pizz. pp      of Sha -ron rose  and the                                                                                                                                                                                               11

    87 A.1 A.2 A.3 Db.           90 M-S. A.1 A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.          sim. sim. sim. gliss.   li ly of the val val leys 3 3    Tran fix - my heart  sim.     leys    trans f fix my heart with the wounds /a/ fix  molto legato molto ponticello arco                                                                                                                                                                                                                          12

      93 M-S. Dagmar Db. 97 M-S. Dagmar Db. 100 M-S. A.3 Dagmar Db.  trans fix -

heart trans fix - my heart  my heart

heart /a/ trans fixmy my heart   trans fix - my heart lullaby gliss.  trans fix  my heart re pp pen -

pen - tance re  re   molto vibr. gliss.  re pp pen - tance - re pen - tance - re pen - tance re  re    sempre                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                13

tance - re pen - tance re

    102 Voice2 M-S. A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db. 104 Voice2 M-S. A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.   /ae/ "lament" ff freely sempre "æ"  ma lullaby ma - sig ger gliss.  re pp pen - tance - re pen - tance - re pen - tance re  re         /ae/ "lament" ff freely sempre "æ"    du skal so ve - nu ma ma - si "fry" ger molto vibr. gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                14

    106 Voice2 M-S. A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db. 108 Voice2 M-S. A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.   du skal so ve - nu ma ma - si ger gliss.gliss.              f  du skal so ve - nu ma ma - si ger gliss.           f                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                15

    110 Voice2 M-S. A.2 A.3 Dagmar Db. 111 A.2 A.3 Dagmar   du skal so ve - nu                    re pen - tance re pen - tance                                                                                                                                                                                                              16

Dies Irae scene 7

in "comments on the score" you will find the explanations on special voice effects.

this notehead means "airsound" - exhale sound around the tone. like just before an airy onset

It should create the effect that the tone dissapears in air and come back in a soft onset (analog effect for DB - very noisy tone quality)

this is exampels of sound depending on the possibilities on site

in wooden shoes dragging an iron shovel

  molto lento q = 40

Soprano1 Soprano2 Mezzo-soprano Alto1 Alto2 Voice Dagmar Bass  

 /o/ ppp  /o/    ppp

 /i/ ppp voicing on inhale /o/ /o/ /o/ as  whisper hes  /i/ ppp /o/ voicing on inhale as  whisper hes  /myior/ "reinforced harmonics" mp    Dies ff i  ppp walking

percussive

scraping

sounds

 ppp "reinforced harmonics" /o/ mp                                                   

  4 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice Dagmar B.  /m/ /o/ /m/ /o/ /u/ whisper /K´iiyu/ whisper  as  whisper hes /a/ whisper as  hes  - /u/ /K´iiyu/  /a/ /s/ /a/ /s/ /a/  /o/ /u/     /ning/ "velumbell" pp  rae Di es i  stop walking scraping wiht shovel   /myiour/ ppp mp  p                                                                                       2

  8 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice Dagmar B. Db.  /K´iiyu/ Dies whisper /ss/ Dies whisper /ss/ il la - il /i/ i whisper rae   - /a/ il la - /rr/ di es - /i/  /a/ /m/ /a/ /m/ - /o/ di es  /a/ /m/ /a/ /m/ - /o/ /o/ /di/ /es/ dies /i/ /rae/  mp /o/ Dies Dies /es/  rae Sol ol vet  /K´iiyu/ Dies senza vibrato mp i  mf rae Dies p il mf la - Dies gliss. /t∫/     arco s.p.e. pp                                                                                                                     3

  12 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice Dagmar B. Db.  la di es - /i/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ mp /i/ 3  /i/ /i/ /i/ molto vibrato /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /ei/   /o/ molto vibrato /rr/  /rae/  mf   di es - - /o/ pp  et et et kneeling at stones hitting them against each other scraping with them    sol mp "sotto voce" vet 3  p mp s.p.e.                                                                                                      4

  15 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice Dagmar B. Db.  gliss. /ht/ mf sol ppp vet sol - - (i)/n/ mp /ht/ sol ppp vet /ht/ /ht/ /ht/ /a/ gliss. 3  sol ppp vet Sol  sol ppp vet sol  /a/ sol gliss. vet gliss.  et in in kneeling at stones - still  sae clum f -gliss. (i)/n/  mp /t∫/ f sol mp ve vet  mf p                                                                                                                                        5

  18 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice B. Db.  vet /ss/ /o/ /ss/ /ss//ss/ /o/ /l/ sol 3  /so/ /ay/ (i)/n/ /ay/ /ss/ sol  ve ve ve vet /ht/ /ht/ /ht/ /ss/ /o/ /o/ /ay/ /o/ /ht/ /ht/ /ht/ /i/(n) /i/(n) 3 3 3  ve /t/ p /t/ /t/ ve ppp /t/ /t/ /t/ /i/(n) /i/(n) /o/ 3 3   vet    in in in  ve ve 3 vet f /i/(n) p /t∫/ f  (i)/n/  mp /t∫/ f   mf  pp pizz. f                                                                                                                                        6

  21 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 Voice Dagmar B. Db.  vet sol vet mi serff /o/  sol ve ve ve vet vet /ei/ 3  /o/  sol vet p /d/ /d/ /o/ /ay/    sol ve - sae p mi - - ser - /f/  mi 3 3 sol sol sol sol  sol mp vet sae clumff  /sol/  sol mp vet sae clum - Fa ff "shouting" 3  p flautando s.p.e. arco mf stop sound p gliss. stop sound p molto vibrato gliss.  s.p.e.                                                                                                                       7

  25 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice Dagmar B. Db.  mi ppp ser - /f/ mi ser - /f/ mi ser - /rr/ mi ser - /rr/  mi whisper ppp ser /o/  rage /d/ /d/ /ai/ /ai/ /ai/ /i/  /oh/ ppp wrath /o/ /an/ /o/ /ger/ /o/ /o/ /o/  ser /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser mi mp ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi ser mi ser mi ser f ff actions throwing scraping etc  Fa dolce mp /a/ pp "falsetto"  (f)/a/  "glottal onset ingressiv (f)" “multiphonics" ff lunga  Subharmonics!! gliss.                                                                                                                                                                        8

  29 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 Voice Dagmar B. Db.  mi ser - /rage/ mi ser - /mm/ mi ser - /mm/  /år/ /ah/ /ah/ /ah/ 3 mi ser molto vibrato pstop sound mp /o/ molto vibrato p /fii/ mp sim.  /o/ /tai/ /o/ /tai/ /o/ /di/ /o/  /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser mi ser mi still  "speech" MORIBUNDUS! p  gliss. pp                                                                                                                  9

  32 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 Voice Db.  /di/ mi ser - /di/ solves mi ser - in  di solmolto vibrato ves mf sim. /o/ ppp as whisper hes - as hes /d/ /d/ /o/ in /o/ in /o/  /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser ser mi ser                                                                                                  10

  35 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice B.  mi serwhisper in act mi ser - act mi ser mf mi p ser - /ah/   sol vewhisper death molto vibrato /mm/ /o/ mi  ser - /o/  in /o/ whisper death /o/ whisper act /o/ /mm/ mi /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /f/  mi ser - /o/ /mm/ /f/   /am/ "glottal onset ingressiv (f)" “multiphonics" /am/ - - - - - - mi ser sae -  "reinforced harmonics" /tam/ - - -                                                                                                                                    11

  38 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A2 Voice B. Db.                                                  mi se ri - se ri - se riwhisper sigh /ei/ sigh whisper ing - /g/ sigh  /mm/ death  /o/ death  /n/ /n/ /n/ /na/ /u/ molto vibrato stop sound /o/ 3  ser /o/ mi ser - na ture /o/ /o/ be whisper ing mi se - ri mi ser - /ture/ mi ser - /ff/  /am/ /tam/ nat. - - /quam/ - tam mf  sae - sae - sae - /quam/ In mf co - tam ff 3  mp arco l.h. pizz. f  l.h. pizz.                                                                                                                                                                                                   12

  42 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 Voice B. Db.                                                          /g/ whisper wrath   mi serwhisper rise   sigh ing  /o/  /fo/ /o/ 3   na ture   blush whisper /o/ /rr/ of /o/ /ai/   /ff/ rage whisper mi se - ri  mi ser   sum mf leggiero sum /tnk/ mi ser - sum sum /tnk/ sum sum /tnk/ dic p tu - rus - dic tu - rus mf - sum sum /tnk/  mf arco sul pont. arco mf l.h. pizz. p arco molto pontic. mf                                                                                                                                                                                           13

    q = 90 48 q = 100 q = 100 S.1 S.2 Voice B. Db. 52 S.1 S.2 B. Db.                                   er mf go gliss.    er go er go - er go - in in   In ge - mis - Ju "falsetto" pp dex - er go - In ord. f - er "operatic" mf go - cum se de sul pont. l.h. pizz. arco Zbpizz arco pp f arco mf s.p.e. leggiero gliss.  cum gliss. la tet gliss. - - re bit gliss. cum se la tet bit quid quid - la tet - ap pa - re - bit gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                   14

    55 rit. rit. q = 90 q = 90 S.1 S.2 B. Db. 59 S.1 S.2 B. Db.          ni hil gliss. - ni hil gliss. - tam quam gliss. - cul pa - ru bet - ru bet cul pa ni hil - i nul tu re ma - ne bit "reinforced harmonics"  /tam/ /quam/ gliss. gliss. gliss. mp  ff   rubet ff   me senza vibrato re ord. us - /t∫/ f cul mf pa ru bet - /vul/ "reinforced harmonics" 3 - mf  f                                                                                                                                                                                                                   15

    63 rit. rit. B. Db. 69 q = 40 e = 160 e = 160 S.1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.                                    /tus/ me ord. us molto vibrato sum leggiero pp sum /tnk/ mi ser - sum sum /tnk/  p f p f p         er mf go - cum se gliss.     mf mi ser - mi ser  stand up   er mf "operatic" go - cum se de sum sum /tnk/  Mi f hi - quo que senza vibrato - spem de dis - ti - de dis - ti ff - er mf "operatic" go - cum se de    col legno battuto p leggiero gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                              16



gliss. la tet

gliss. - re bit

bit quid quid - la tet - re bit gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss.  ni hil 

gliss. - ni hil 17

gliss. - ni hil -

gliss. ni

gliss.

gliss. mi ser

gliss. -

mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi sermi ser - ni hil - mi ser - ni hil - mi ser -

ni hil - ni hil - ni hil ni hil - - gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss.

mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi serbit quid quid - la tet - ap pa - re - bit                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

    75 S.1

Dagmar B. Db. 80 S.1 A2 Dagmar 

B. Db.  

de bit

gliss. quid quid

gliss. - ap pa

    85 S.1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 90 S.1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.            ni hil - mi ser ni mf hil - mi se - - ri mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi ser - mi serni hil - mi ser - ni hil - mi ser - ni hil ni hil - ni hil - ni hil - ni hil - ni hil  mi    mi ser  mi ser  ni hil - ni hil - ni hil - ni hil                                                                                                                                                             18

Scene 8: Ave Maria

Dagmar is brought into psychiatric hospital - calling her mother for help, and flirting manipulating the psychiatrist calling him "god", well aware of her own beauty Psychiatrist: 

arco pp  

nunc

mp a ve Ma ri

mu li e ri bus et be ne dic tus fruc tus ven tris tu i je sus sanc ta ma ri a ma ter de i o ra pro no bis pec ca to ri bus

et in ho ra mor tis nos tra a men A mp ve Ma ri a gra ti a ple na do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in

3                                                                                                                                

      q

Bass Double Bass 4 Dagmar B. Db. 7 Dagmar B. Db. 

=70







  a A a

A ve 

mp Ma ri a gra ti a ple na do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in 3 3 

 



gliss. ma ma gliss. ma

Ma ri a A a

ve Ma ri a

nunc et in ho ra mor tis nos tra a men A mp ve Ma ri a gra ti a ple na do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in

  

p ma - /ja/

A a ve Ma ri

mu li e ri bus et be ne dic tus fruc tus ven tris tu i je sus sanc ta ma ri a ma ter de i o ra pro no bis pec ca to ri bus

                                                                                                                                                                                                        2

      10 A1

 

Dagmar 

Db. 13 

Dagmar B. Db. 16

Dagmar

Db.

mp ma -



mu li e ri bus et be ne dic tus fruc tus ven tris tu i je sus sanc ta ma ri a ma ter de i o ra pro no bis pec ca to ri bus

ma ri a gliss. - ri a Ma ri - a -

3 3 

Ma ri a 

"falsetto" ma

ord. mp

    19 S1 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 23 S1 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.     Ma mf  /ja/ /ja/ Ma i a Ma ri a ri  Ma i a Ma ri a ri  a A a ve Ma ri  nunc et in ho ra mor tis nos tra a men A ve ma ma be ne dic ta   ri a Gra ti a ple e na vibrato f  Do mi nus te  a ri a Ma ri a gliss. ri a 3  a ri a    3  a A a ve Ma ri a  sanc ta ma ter de i ho ra mor tis A ve ma ma                                                                                                                                                                                                      3

    28 S1 Dagmar B. Db. 32 S1 S2 Dagmar B. Db.  cum Be ne di ic ta a tu Ma ri a Ma ma  A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a Ma ma ma ma ri a Ma ma ma ma ri i  be ne dic ta Sanc ta ma ter de i ho ra mor tis   ri a A ve vibrato f Ma ri a   A ve vibrato f Ma ri a  a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a Ma ma ma ma ri a Ma ma ma ma ri a  Ho ra mor tis no stra a men a a 3 3                                                                                                                                                                                  4

    36 S1 S2 A1 Dagmar B. Db. 39 S1 S2 A1 Dagmar B. Db.  Sa f stringendo San ta Ma  Ma f ma ri a o rant Sa 3  p a a a a f a p a a a a a a a f  Ma ma ma ma ri a Ma ma ma ma ri i a A ve  men A men a ve ma ri a gra ti a ple na   ter De f De i o  Ma ter de i    mp a  a  a a ff  mp a  a  a  a ff  Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ri a Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ri a  do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in mu li e ri bus et be ne dic tus fruc tus                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          5

    41 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 44 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.  ra Ma mf ma Ma ri a   ra  mf Ma ri a a  a mf Ma ma a ter de i o ra Ma ma ri a   Ma mf ma  Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ri a    ven tris tu i je sus sanc ta ma ri a ff Ma mf ma de i o ra ma ma   Ho ra mo tis No stra A men   a  A men  Ho ho ra A a 3 men  A  a a men      a A ve a men gliss. gliss.  Ho ra mor tis no stra A gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                    6

    q = 80 q = 80 48 S1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 51 S2 A2 Dagmar Db.               mand mf doms kraft  skipping a rope creating the "beat" sempre /go/ "speech" mf /go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ continue skipping till bar 311 god is his po wer - of man hood - the /de/ /de/     gliss. left hand pizz. arco mf "reinforced harmonics"   Light senza misura pp   mf     /mm/ p  /de/ /de/ /de/ /de/ sire of Gods loins                                                                                                                          7

he - red - in two broo ding ta ber - nac les - He stands be fore his cre a - tion -

- tedthe lust of gliss. his loins /g/ /g/ /g/ god lust in two broo ding -

ta ber - nac - les - two broo ding - ta ber - nac - les - hol ding - the trunk e rect -

      56 A2 Dagmar Db. 60 S1 S2 A2 Dagmar Db. 64 S1 Dagmar Db.                                          /moar/ /mm/ /mim/ /mim/ /mim/ /mim/ /moar/ /mm/ /mim/ /mim/ /moar/ /mm/ /mim/ /mim/  gat

/ex/   ex mp

ff  ex mp ex

f loin mp lust lust ff  /moar/     ex

     /ta/

/ta/ /ta/ /ta/ 

/ex/

ex ex ci - ted -

lust

ci ted

"falsetto" mp

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    8

pp "reinforced harmonics" 9

pp "reinforced harmonics" 

strong

and up right -

/bree/

breed his seed his sa cred breath

his seed letting go of skipping rope his seed his

pp "reinforced harmonics"     

"falsetto" mp right/moarniyor/                                                                                                                                                                                                            

God ploughs his field God

    68 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar Db. 72 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar Db.                         

   

    /moarniyor/

 

 f

gliss. God mf   /bree/ mf /bree/

trunk  /moarniyor/ ppp     /moarniyor/ ppp   /moarniyor/ ppp  breed

strong and up right"falsetto" p sa cred breath

up  

    76 S1 S2 Dagmar Db. 80 S1 S2 A2 Dagmar Db.                              be mp thee    be mp thee  she "speech" mf gives her she gives her to be of be thee   f      f word mp God Ga bri - el - svin -ging lil   /moarouniyor/  ff                                                                                                                                             10

    85 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 89 S1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.  wo mp man God ff  wo man - /a/  li ly - /a/  God ff    mp God ff  /a/  li ly - /a/  wo man gliss. - /a/  li ly gliss. -    /hi/ /a/  /hi/ /a/    wo man - /a/  li ly - /a/  wo man - /a/  li ly p gliss.  breed breed Ga bri el   /a/  wo man gliss. - /a/  li ly gliss. -  /moaroar/ "reinforced harmonics" p  God breed breed God gliss. gliss. breed gliss.  /a/  wo mangliss. /a/  li lygliss. /a/  wo man gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                                11

    92 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 99 S1 S2 A1 A2 B. Db.  mp Ga bri el f "reinforced harmonics" /mm/ ppp b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue ad lib. gliss. gliss.  seed mp gliss. gliss. f /mm/ b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue "reinforced harmonics" ppp ad lib. gliss.    /mm/ "reinforced harmonics" b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue ppp ad lib. gliss.  b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue /mm/ ppp ad lib. 

creation be of

flesh "speech" f     /a/  li ly - /a/  wo man  /mm/ "reinforced harmonics" b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue mp ad lib. gliss. gliss.  gliss. gliss. gliss.  gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss.    gliss. gliss.     gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                                    12

thee - thee became

      105 accel. q = 90 q = 90 S2 Db. 112 S2 B. Db. 116 S2 A2 B. Db.        poco a poco crescendo e stringendo a fine A mf ve Ma ma  gliss. mf  ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma    A mf ve Ma ma ri a   ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma     ma mf ma ma ma  A ve ma ma ri a ma ma mom A                                                                                                                                                                                                                13

    120 S2 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 124 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.  ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma  ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma Ma ma     /mor/ "sob" mf  ve Ma ma ri a A ve ma ma ri a A ve mom   A mf ve Ma ri a A  ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma  A mf ve Ma ma A ve Ma ma A ve  ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma  /i/ /jord/     A ve Ma ma ri a A ve ma ma ri a A ve                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               14

    128 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 132 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.  ve Ma ri a A ve Ma  ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma  Ma ri a A ve Ma ma A ve Ma  ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma  /mor/ /i/ /jord/    mom A ve - Ma ma ri a A ve ma ma   ri a A ve Ma ri a  ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma  ma A ve Ma ri a A ve Ma ma  ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma   /mor/ /i/ /jord/   ri a A ve mom A ve Ma ma ri a                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          15

    136 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db. 139 S1 S2 A1 A2 Dagmar B. Db.  A ve Ma ri a  ma ma ri a A ve Ma ma ma ma ri  A ve Ma ma A ve Ma ri a  ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma    /mor/  A ve ma ma ri a A ve mom mor   a  a   a   /i/ /jord/  i a                                                                                                                                                      16

Scene 9: Angel

Dagmar´s mother comes to visit. She admires Dagmar as an angel that she needs. She cannot face the facts, and is unable to help in any way

ca "120" quickly

Dagmar at the table waiting for her mother to come

Dagmar sets the table for the "eucharist" - preparing her "deathbed" with coffee cups, spoons, coffeepot etc for the nuns - letting the activity of the setting creating a soundscape

mp spoken while plucking the petals of an ox-eye daisy

"speech" she loves me.... she loves me not..... she loves me.... she loves me not ......she loves me...... she loves me not

col legno battuto

she loves me.... she loves me not..... she loves me.... she loves me not ......she loves me...... she loves me not

"speech" altered with "sprechstimme" & "falsetto"free pitch anchored to note: d

ning - an gel - gol den - sha dow - Soft ly - spre ding -

      Dagmar q = 140 q = 140 9 Dagmar Db. Dagmar Db. 25 S.1 Db.        

 

 

ff  

  arco     Mother:  p Light  

  "walz"

                                                                                                         

col legno battuto

      34 S.1 Db. 42 S.1 Glass Db. 51 S.1 Glass Db.  pro tec - ting - wings Ten der - touch close to my heart sore and o pen - I    give in and cry mf f An "falsetto" p gel - how ord. come you chose me mf       /a/ p gliss.   arco gliss. gliss. gliss. col legno battuto   An gel - close to my heart An gel - ease my heart ache - An  gliss. sempre gliss.                                                                                                                                                        10

gel dont leave me to night

lips

In my dark ness - you lit a light Like a kiss close to my heart

Gol den - sha dow - you temp me to fly

how come you chose me An gel - close to my heart An gel - ease my

        60 S.1 Glass Db. 70 S.1 Glass Db. 78 S.1 Glass Db. 87 S.1 Glass Db.  

sim. p ful -

gol

- sha

  gliss. gliss. gliss.   arco gliss. col legno battuto 

Bliss

den

dow

    

mf An "falsetto" p gel  gliss.   arco gliss. gliss. gliss. col legno battuto  

  gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                11

heart ache - An gel - dont leave me to night

I promise to love you, to respect you, to be always faithful to you, and never to forsake you

until death do us part.

What God has joined together, let no man tear asunder.

- gel how come you chose me An gel - close to my heart

        96 S.1 Glass Dagmar Db. Db. Dagmar Db. 121 S.1 Dagmar Db.  

  gliss.               f   arco gliss. gliss. gliss.   "speech"

  pizz.  

 

gliss.     

"falsetto" p

    ff            pp  col legno battuto                                                                                                                                                                                                              12

An gel - ease my heart ache - An gel - dont leave me to night

Day light - co ming - mor ning - breeze Hear you whis per - soft in my ear

Light ning - light stay in my heart Gol den - sha dow - dont fade a way -

          131 S.1 Db. 141 S.1 Glass Db. 150 S.1 Glass Db. 160 S.1 Glass Db. 168 S.1 Glass  

  arco gliss.  

      

    arcogliss.  

gliss. gliss.  

ff gliss. gliss.            gliss. gliss.    gliss. gliss.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             13

freely ornamentet ff

freely ornamentet

Scene 10: Bing

Dagmar is released from psychiatric hospital and her compulsive behavior increases dramatically and takes her on a tour de force between refrigerator and toilet. She binges.

      q. = 70 q. = 70 Dagmar Double Bass 5 Dagmar Db. 10 S.1 S.2 A.3 Dagmar Db.      Bing

ff I mf am bing grace notes: "multiphonic fry"  /b/ /b/  /b/ /b/ purge more   mf  more  /f/ /f/ food more I´m pur ging  me more more /b/ bing I purge f /p/ purge more  mp  3   Hos mp ti - ae - hu ma - nae - O pau per tas 3   Hos mf ti - ae - O pau f per tas be mf  Hos ti - ae - hu ma - na - O be a - ta - pau per tas 3  bing ff This f is my hos ti - ae - hu ma ornamental 3   mp                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 

to kneel now

till all my "eats" comes up

Love

me! Look I /a/ a tone - for Love

    15 S.1 S.2 A.3 Dagmar Db. 21 Dagmar Db.  be a - ta - pau per - tas - /o/ /o/     a ta O sanc ta /o/    3  Hos ti ae - hu ma na - /o/ /o/        

 ff s.p.e.

mp p ord. 

Where

is the loo I need

con molto vibrato

sotto voce mp

 mf 3                                                                                                                                                                                                    10

me!

    26 S.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db. 32 S.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.              /ah/ pp sempre ad lib.    /ah/ pp sempre ad lib.   Love p me       Anorexia: You agitato con dolore mf you broke our pact!   mf       blood mp gliss. f  Kneel Spit gliss. blood and slime spit ting ff mp molto pontic. gliss. p                                                                                                                                                                                                     11

    37 S.2 A.3 Dagmar B. Db. 43 S.2 A.3 B. Db.          ff   blod mp gliss. f blod mp gliss. f    blood mf fingers mp in your mf throat  ff   pp "belting" senza vibrato gliss. fff     A mp tone - my girl ´tone gliss. "belting" con vibrato ff my p "falsetto" girl  pp ff pp                                                                                                                                                                           12

I am drow ning - in my own fat Hun ger - pain - I need some food

      e = e e = e 49 S.2 M-S. Dagmar Db. 54 S.2 M-S. Dagmar Db. 60 S.2 Dagmar Db.                  O mf sotto voce fi li a be ne - dic ta - quo ni - am - di



sotto voce

a - ta - fi li - a - be ne - dic ta - O be a ta -

binge 3  mp  lec ti o - nem - Nul f con dolore la - te - nus - pos set - ex pri fi li a - O o     3  I changing

/b/ binge I Anorexia: On  f (shouting) "speech" & "sprechstimme" your  knee  Fat  Cow!  Bing!  ff Purge!  Bing!    mf   me re lin gu - a gliss. - car nisff fi mp li - a fi p li a  Purge!  Bing!    Dagmar: Love mp ord.     mp 3 3                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    13

I /b/

character to:

      66 S.2 Dagmar Db. 70 S.2 M-S. Dagmar Db. 75 M-S. Dagmar Db.          be ne - dic - ta - ad te ha be o - di lec ti - o - o pi mf - Love Love me I Love me Love /m/ /m/ /m/ /m/  gliss. gliss. gliss. f  a   Lin mp gua car nis     joyfull humming mp sotto voce  /m/ /m/ /m/ /m/ me /m/ /m/ /m/ /m/ me   Loo mf loo   mp  gliss.  3  love w c - Love me I  Love me I   molto pontic. con molto vibrato ff                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     14

81 Db. 85 Db.  leggiero pp 3  gliss.  3                                                                15

    q = 100 q = 100 Soprano1 Double Bass 10 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 Db.               

Valete

is at her death bed surrounded by father, mother and nuns    O Mother: pp "falsetto" "lament" O           mp  Va pp le p te      Va pp le p te      Va pp le p te          Self mf star - va - tion      pp p                                                               

Scene 11:

Dagmar

  20 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.   in Do mi - ne - et or   in    war mp pp    in Do mi - ne - et or   self star - va - tion - It is ho ly - ho ly - war      I mp am star ving - star ving - /oo/  my ji had - /oo/   dy ing - /oo/  my ji had  star va    She self star va - tion - /oo/   Ah mf"sob"                                                                                                          2

  28 S.1 S.2 M-S. A.1 A.3 Dagmar B. Db.                                   re tis f        ho ly war f          war pp      re f tis pp            pro mp me p   tion f war pp  mp pro me p   Ho ord. ly f - war pp  /ah/ "sob" f p   f sul pont. fp gliss. mp s.p.e. p                                                            3

    36 S.1 A.1 A.3 B. Db. 44 S.1 A.1 A.3 Db.                                  Vic mp to - ri - ous - ho ly war Cry mf for her She sa cri - fice 3          /ah/          /ah/    Tor mp men  tor - Pu ri fy! p     pp mp p mf   Sa cri - li gi ous - She sa cri fices - Pu ri      f p                                                                                                                                                                           4

      51 S.1 Dagmar B. Db. 60 B. Db. 69 S.2 B. Db.   fi ca tion - tion            Sin mp Sin Sin very slow

"falsetto"

/ah/

  /ah/ p "falsetto" Self mf star - va - tiongliss.   Dies mp for   pizz. f ppp arco  p   me She mf did

a mp ho ly - path ho ly fm.v.   leggiero mf     To mf to - a ni mo et cor dis    cry mp my heart out                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           5

performed onset from "airsounds" into

into ord.

choose

ho ly - path

out Dont! dont you dare!

    79 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 B. Db. 88 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 B. Db.          /i/ /(h)a/  /(h)i/  /(h)a/    a fec tu ma gis sanc ti - si - mam Pau mf         /i//(h)a/   /(h)i/  /(h)a/             Pau mf         Cry  f cry    mp   /(h)a/ /(h)a/  /h)i//(h)a sempre              per ta - tem - et cor po - ris - pe  /(h)a/ /(h)a/  /h)i//(h)a sempre              per

- pe  my

I                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       6

ta - tem - et cor po - ris

heart

    96 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 Dagmar B. Db. 104 S.1 S.2 A.1 Dagmar B. Db.                 nu ri - am - E le - gi - tis - spon                nu ri - am         E le - gi - tis spon sum  I can´t let you die My mp heart Mor  mp mp                  sum no bi - li - qui ves tram                    no bi - li - qui ves tram     ning star Quod f te nes - te ne - as ff   f                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                7

    113 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 B. Db. 121 S.1 S.2 A.1 A.3 B. Db.                  Vir mf gi - ni - ta te                    Vir mf gi - ni - ta -  mp My f heart Mor ning  mf                 f im mf ma cu la f - tam gliss. - cu mf sto3                te Im ma - cu - la - tam   star Let mf go let go of your cru sade - Cross!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         8

    129 S.1 S.2 A.1 Dagmar B. Db. 138 S.2 A.1 A.3 Dagmar B.                                                 di et - cu sto - il la - e - sam - im                   Il mf la e - im ma ff  Cross! Cross! Quod te nes - te ne - as gliss.     ma du - la - tam                Star va - tion - self star - va - tion - Star Star Star va - tion   cu mf late ff                                                                                                                                                                                                                     9

  145 S.2 A.1 Dagmar B.   im ma - cu - la - tamf                 ff   Self mf star - va  Self Star Self star - va  tion Star f                                                                                      10