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Angel Tully, Ilanda Tran, Gabriela Fannia, Edie Hopgood, Erin Constable, Jackie Zhou, Akira Kerr, Sarah Louise, Felice Lok, Shabnam Sidhu, Deana, Gitika Garg, Xenia Sanut, Tess Kent, Hailey Jordan Liemena, Saskia Mortarotti, Gloria Lau.

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Alyssa Maggio, Ilanda Tran, Jennifer Hoang, Edie Hopgood, Saskia Mortarotti, Jackie Zhou, Sama Harris, Fae Gehren, Madison Marshall, Sydney Reyes.

We would like to acknowledge the traditional owners of the land where Esperanto has been created, the Boon Wurrung and Wurundjeri peoples of the Kulin Nation as Traditional Owners and Custodians. We pay respect to their Elders past, present and emerging. Sovereignty was never ceded.

CONTENTS

I Did *The Thing*

Words by Shabnam Sidhu

My Coming Out

Words by Deana

Dopamine Dressing

Photography, Styling, Descriptions by Ilanda Tran, Editing by Jackie Zhou

Built To Fit Your Body

Words by Gitika Garg

A Dedication To Vivienne Westwood

Words and Art by Edie Hopgood

Say My Name

Words by Akira Kerr

Say My Name

Words By Jackie Zhou

Take Up Space

Artwork by Jennifer Hoang

Fangirls: A Personal Review

Words and Artwork by Saskia Mortarotti

Hey Siri, Play ‘Main Character Energy’

Words by Hailey Jordan Liemena

Full STEM Ahead

Word by Felice Lok, Artwork by Sydney Reyes

Alchemy On The Menu

Words by Gabriela Fannia, Artwork by Sama Harris

I Am Woman, Watch Me Lead

Words by Angel Tully, Artwork by Madison Marshall

Inked.

Words and Images by Xenia Sanut

Grace Bell Nails: Beauty That Doesn’t Profit Off Insecurity

Words by Sarah Louise, Photography by Alyssa Maggio

Slay: Define and Use In A Sentence

Words by Tess Kent

The Instructors Nickname Was Crash

Words by Erin Constable

Photostory: Street Art

Photogrpahy and Captions by Fae Gehren

Confessions from Chaotic Contiki Tours

Words by Gloria Lau

Editors’ Note

BOLD is bursting with energy, it’s big, loud and proud. For this edition we wanted to see creativity, imagination, and big ideas shine!

Our contributors have shared their stories of bravery, reflected on moments of incredible confidence and celebrated groups that have been marginalised. The BOLD edition is all fastpaced and full of life — from fashion to street art, to heartfelt stories of personal triumphs. Our team is so proud to give you BOLD.

I did *The Thing*

Words by Shabnam Sidhu @sidhushabnam_

“How can a body be safe when it’s only a body? How can we expect that no stranger will be tempted to torch an empty house?” (Lilian Fishman, Acts of Service)

I waited twenty-two years to do the thing… and like most people who’ve not done the thing, I placed it on a pedestal and worshipped it. The idea of doing the thing consumed my thoughts erratically. I wildly fantasised about it creating idealistic narratives about participating in it with just about anyone, anywhere, at any time of day.

My peers spoke at length about how they had done the thing as teenagers and were now doing it like it was a normal and pleasurable way of living. I yearned to do it, to fill the void my thoughts had created about it in my head.

Part of me could not bring myself to do the thing unless it was with someone I loved. I wanted to feel like I had found something, and that there would be a sense of ease, happiness, and even humour in doing it. The other part of me just wanted to get it over with.

I couldn’t figure out what I wanted. I knew I had to face it in whatever circumstance it presented itself this would be the only way I could figure out why I craved it and whether it was worthwhile.

One day, on a random Thursday, at 4pm, I did the thing.

I had sex with the first man who thought I was pretty and desired me in a way I’d never felt before. In retrospect, the way I thought about him wasn’t actually the way he was. It was explicitly obvious to everyone else, but me, that he fancied what I was rather than who I was. His craving of what was so obvious about me my body lured me into what would be the most brutal yet transformative experience of my physical and mental self.

Having taken a long time to work up to it, due to my insecurities and anxieties around sex, the convenience of it happening on a whim felt very transac-

tional. As it happened, I couldn’t help but think how fleeting pleasure is. Pleasure was quickly replaced by a wave of sadness. As it ended, I grieved everything but the sex itself. The act didn’t feel life-changing physically, but it did emotionally. I mourned the irreplaceable loss of innocence and the inherent impermanence of my relationship with the person I had sex with.

It shouldn’t have hurt me in the way it did as the choice was mine. Instead, it was knowing that I did not have the experience I had dreamt about that felt like I had given up a part of myself to someone who did not deserve to witness me at my most vulnerable. It dawned upon me that it wasn’t sex I had fantasised about all this time. It was the desire to be admired beyond my physicality, to be lusted for emotionally, and to be cared for incessantly even after the act was over.

I know my thoughts are limited to my own experience, but when they say having sex for the first time is anything but life-changing, I’d disagree. Doing the thing did not change me physically but the brief intimacy I shared with someone is what my body remembers. The feeling of lust, desire or even love that led up to having sex, triggered a rush of oxytocin to my brain that enabled me to put aside rational thought and trust whatever was happening in the moment.

I believe my experience of having sex for the first time, and the initial feeling of regret afterwards, was due to the belief that it was meant to be a memory I had to cherish forever. As time went on, I’ve come to realise that just like most experiences people go through for the first time, having sex is just one of many. Whilst my initial inquiry into sex was messy and emotional, it taught me something invaluable: I want to be desired for what is deeper than the superficial.

My Coming Out

Words by Deana @deanastepanian

There was no singular light-bulb moment that came with accepting I was Queer. I always kind of knew that I was, and knowing weirdly felt just as thrilling as it did daunting. As a kid, I had fixated on several celebrities, none of which were men. My walls were plastered with posters of Miley Cyrus and Lady Gaga, and later, my ‘guilty’ pleasure was watching coming out videos by lesbian YouTubers. Countless friendships blurred the lines between what was platonic and romantic, and any attempt at forming a relationship with a man felt unnatural.

Along with all the doubting and shame-fuelled anxiety, I began to digest the fact that I would have to come out sooner rather than later. At the time, ‘Tumblr’ was an online space where I could digitally connect with Queer users and communities. One night, I got a message from a New Zealander girl who was also closeted and experiencing similar emotions. One thing led to the other, and slowly an online relationship started to form.

Moongirl1998 is typing…

Moongirl1998: Can we call over Facebook? I want to hear your voice.

Phone-calls escalated into video-calls, and after a few months things began to move even more quickly.

Moongirl1998: I just booked my flight from New Zealand to Sydney. I can’t wait to finally meet you.

When it comes to sapphic stereotypes, the U-Haul trope dominates. The trope suggests that our first dates last three to four business days, and after that we’re usually ready to seal the deal by moving in together. While we weren’t at the age where we could do that, a quick trip across the Tasman Sea had to do for a little rendezvous. The issue here was that I had no idea how to escape my family for six whole days and nights. Low and behold, after a few selfishly calculated conversations, my parents believed I was signing up for a Christian study camp during school holidays. I used the one studious friend I had as my accomplice, and despite not being religious or very well-behaved at school, I was sure my plan would succeed.

Like most good stories, it involves a series of nail-biting events. So, fast-forward to the morning I was leaving for “study camp”. Everything was going to plan until my mum called the number on the camp

website to check I was enrolled. “Of course, she did,” I thought. This was unequivocally unlike me. My mother’s intuition never failed her, and she knew I was up to something.

After hours of defending my story, nothing was adding up. So, I lied and said I was actually planning to go to a friend’s holiday house, instead of telling the truth. I ended up grounded. Around 12am that same night, my heart felt like it was situated in my throat as I quickly reached for the closest notepad and a pen. I couldn’t not see the girl I had been speaking to for months, and she hadn’t just flown to another country for no reason. For something I had so anxiously deliberated on for years, I splattered the words onto paper before thinking of any of the consequences. I had to be quick though, because my best friend was about to show up at my house and drive me to an apartment complex in the city.

“I’m leaving home for a few days to be with my girlfriend from New Zealand”. I placed the letter on my bed and ran straight outside with a very poorly packed travel bag. This impulsive moment, which now feels like a fever-dream, forced me to brazenly act fast in the name of love (or what felt like love, at least).

After ditching my phone and living out my very chaotic Queer fantasy, I returned back home and was expecting the worst outcome. My inkling had been wrong, though. Dad needed no words to express his acceptance, and instead, greeted me with a warm, long hug. After approaching my mother, who had been curled up on the couch worried, her face signalled nothing but a sense of pure relief. There was a lot to discuss, and fill them both in on, but in that moment, they were just thankful I was back home safe.

No two coming out stories are the same, and I feel for every Queer person whose family may not be as accepting as mine. Truthfully though, the coming out saga never seems to end. Whether it’s new co-workers or new friends, I’m constantly sharing this part of my identity with others. Each time more proudly, too.

My advice for anyone struggling to take the leap would be to start by telling your friends and those outside your family, if it’s safe to do so. Access any LGBTIQA+ resources and media that you can, and attend any local events in your community. If you don’t have the support of your family, I assure you that there’s a big and beautiful LGBTIQA+ community waiting to love you when you’re ready.

Day 1

A bright outfit for a day at my internship. I kept it professional with a collared shirt and plain dress, and then added character with a cardigan I crocheted.

D ress: hand-me-down

shirt: hand-me-down

CarDigan: handmade shoes: Clarks

neCklaCe: OHTNYC

earrings: handmade

ring: hand-me-down

DOPAMINE DRESSING

Editing by Jackie Zhou @cowboydepopp

Day 2

My attempt to become an optical illusion while spending a day out with a friend. Although not maximalist in colour, the accessories, patterns, and colour blocking make this outfit visually interesting.

overalls: Dangerfield

top: hand-me-down

shirt: op shop

Bag: op shop shoes: Windsor Smith Belt: hand-me-down

armwarmers: handmade

neCklaCe: OHTNYC

earrings: Lovisa ring: hand-me-down

Day 3

A day out op shopping and crafting with a friend. Something cosy and colourful to be a pop of fun in dreary weather, with my own handmade sweater and legwarmers to act as inspiration for the day’s activities.

Dress: op shop

sweater: handmade legwarmers: handmade earrings: handmade shoes: Windsor Smith Clips: Miniso

Day 4

A layered outfit for dinner out with friends, to account for the changing weather over the day. I was feeling mostly reds and blues, with the addition of various textures and patterns adding that maximalist touch.

pants: Dangerfield

shirt: hand me down

JaCket: op shop

suspenDers: op shop

Bag: hand-me-down

Beret: op shop

shoes: Clarks

earrings: handmade

Day 5

Something in more muted tones for a day on my own doing some work and wandering. The clashing patterns and materials give the outfit some interest while still being more toned down than other days.

Dress: op shop

top: hand-me-down

Coat: op shop

Boots: Windsor Smith

sCarf: Kmart

Bag: hand-me-down

neCklaCe: OHTNYC

earrings: handmade

Built to Fit Your Body

Words by Gitika Garg @avantgarg

Fashion remains an industry that touches the lives of all in one way or another. Put simply everyone wears clothes and everyone deserves to feel confident and comfortable in them. It comes at no shock that, despite this, the reality of fashion tends to lie far from this.

Historically speaking, fashion has been notoriously exclusive; it favours a certain type of body shape, size and colour on runways, in magazines and other forms of fashion media and discourse. That being said, in recent years, we’ve definitely come a long way from the standard white-tall-blonde-size 6 image.

Today, people of all different kinds of bodies, ages and abilities are (slowly) becoming a part of conversations surrounding fashion and challenging the ‘golden standard’ of beauty we’ve been taught to worship and idealise. This change has been long awaited and campaigned, and when I say change, I’m not just talking about clothing brands catering to beyond a size 16. Inclusivity cannot simply be reduced to size, it must be considered from all points of the design process and final product. Equal access extends to skin tone, gender and physical abilities, just to mention a few.

Here is a timeline which outlines just some of the models who have pioneered change in the past decade:

2017: At just 19-years-old, Halima Aden became the first hijab-wearing model to be signed with IMG. Also 2017: American model, Ashley Graham, became the first size 16 cover star to American Vogue

2018: South Sudanese-Australian model, Adut Akech, became the second woman of colour to ever close a Chanel couture show.

2020: British model Ellie Goldstein, then just 18 years-old, became the first model with Down Syndrome to model for Gucci.

2021: Aaron Rose Philip became the first black, transgender, and physically disabled model to catwalk using a wheelchair for a major luxury fashion house.

These are just some of the proponents of change that jump to mind, modelling the future of fashion (no pun intended).

While many brands and institutions have boarded a brief ride on the diversity train capitalising off the buzz of inclusivity, sustainability and ethically made garments genuine progress speaks louder.

Let’s outline some brands that have signalled acceptance of all bodies within the fashion space and encouraged a message of self-love. Importantly, they don’t solely focus on function. Rather, they truly consider fashion as a whole both what’s trending and timeless. Here are some innovative brands making real change:

‘Skims’ founded by Kim Kardashian

This wildly popular shapewear brand created by Kim Kardashian has changed the way people feel when wearing intimates. Its instantly selling-out ‘Fits Everybody’ collections are designed in nine different skin tone shades, that are available in sizes between XXS to 5XL. Aside from being buttery-soft and comfortable, the diverse range is, as the name suggests, flattering on everybody.

‘Selkie’ founded by Kimberley Gordon

As we’ve established, size does not dictate style and wearing ‘plus-size’, especially, doesn’t make you any less fashionable. ‘Selkie’ is the American clothing label pioneering ethereal femininity with a whirlpool of dreamy dresses, corset tops and jackets. Think bows, tulle and lacey goodness. And the garments are crafted up to size 5XL.

‘Tommy Adaptive’ by Tommy Hilfiger

In 2020, Tommy Hilfiger launched a line of adaptive clothing designed to meet the needs of people living with a disability making history as the first mainstream brand to do so. Keeping its signature sports-luxe aesthetic, the collection was designed with slight modifications such as side zips, magnetic closures, and easy-open necklines.

‘Asiyam’ founded by Asia Hassan

Closer to home, Melbourne-based label ‘Asiyam’ is adding a modern spin on modest fashion, with collections featuring delicate draping and luxurious fabrics. As seen on their Instagram page @asiyam.au, the brand showcased oversized silk coats, flowing dresses and vibrant patterns at the Afterpay Australian Fashion Week in 2022.

‘The Iconic’

Moving from the runway into stores, an inclusive shopping experience is also an important pillar of genuine and meaningful inclusion. Sydney-based online fashion retailer, ‘The Iconic’ wears the crown with a Modest Edit as well as an Adaptive Edit featuring local Australian brands Christina Stephens and Jam The Label both designed with independent dressing and fashion-forward self-expression in mind.

The concept of greater inclusivity within fashion also tugs at the prospect of exponential growth. According to a 2022 IBISWorld market research report, the Australian plus-size clothing industry is worth over $1 billion alone. From a marketing perspective, naturally, people are more likely to buy when fashion represents who they are. There’s no denying that fashion is getting better at being for everyone. It’s important to acknowledge how far we’ve come, but arguably more necessary to understand that there’s still a long road ahead when it comes to holistic inclusivity. Where are luxury brands’ diverse ranges? What about bringing these inclusive labels into mainstream department stores? Difficult and uncomfortable conversations like this are a launchpad for lasting change within the industry. An industry that will be, one day, built to fit everybody.

A Dedication to Vivienne Westwood

Words and Art by Edie Hopgood @edie.hopgood

As a fashion lover, in my eyes, there is no one more iconic in the fashion industry than the late Dame Vivienne Westwood. Her passing came as heartbreaking and shocking news to the fashion world nay the whole world. We have lost yet another fashion icon, among the likes of Andre Leon Tally, Thierry Mugler and Issey Miyake, who have also tragically passed recently.

Westwood, quite literally, built her brand from the ground up, and has cemented herself within history as one of fashion's most innovative figures. Her designs pushed the limits of fashion, politics and gender never fearful of challenging the status quo. Best known for her punk iconography during the 1970s, Westwood integrated the aesthetics and values that shaped punk music and the punk movement, into fashion. To this day, her designs are all incredibly sought after pieces and have paved the way for many trends, subcultural styles and couture looks over the years.

In my opinion, one of the craziest parts about Vivienne Westwood’s design career is that she was completely self-taught she was a school teacher before she tried her hand at fashion design1. Westwood first started her fashion career by opening a stall selling second hand 1950s vintage clothing and records, with her then partner, Malcom McLaren. From there, she went on to own her own infamous (and ever changing) store in London with McLaren. This store began as ‘Let it Rock’ and it was then rebranded with skulls and crossbones as ‘Too Fast to Live, Too Young to Die.’ During this time, the two were prosecuted under the 959 Obscene Publications Act for producing provocative t-shirts, to which they responded with even more provocative t-shirts, in their newly rebranded store, now titled ‘Sex.’ This store was described as “unlike anything else going on in England at the

time,”and sold itself as, “rubber wear for the office.”2 Following this, McLaren began managing the ‘Sex Pistols’, and when their song, ‘God Save the Queen,’ hit number one on the music charts, the shop reopened once again as ‘Seditionaries.’ While owning this store, and famously dressing the ‘Sex Pistols’, Westwood created pieces that “transformed the straps and zips of obscure sexual fetishism and bondage into fashion, and inspired a D.I.Y. aesthetic.”2 In 1980, the shop was again renamed to ‘Worlds End’. This name remains to this day, and is now one of many boutiques that was opened under the Vivienne Westwood brand. Her passion to create was never driven by making money or having a brand that was deemed popular she was passionate about championing for conversations surrounding underrepresented issues. This led her designs to be provocative, erotic and political. Westwood is best known for her avant-garde designs which worked to define the fashion scenes of both punk and new romanticism. These respective styles transitioned over the years, in which she started out using iconographies of punk and street style such as raw, deconstructive designs. Later, she moved on to things such as Savile Row tailoring techniques, British fabrics, draped dresses, boned corsets and exaggerated bust or hip garments and 17th and 18th century art within her designs.3 Another iconography, that is now considered an iconic Westwood feature, is tartan and Harris Tweed. Vivienne even went as far as to create her own tartan and clan, named MacAndreas, for her ‘Anglomania’ Autumn–Winter 1993/94 collection. This clan was acknowledged by the Lochcarron of Scotland, the process of which usually takes 200 years.4

1 Encyclopaedia Britannica. ‘Vivienne Westwood British fashion designer’ https://blog.viviennewestwood.com/history/1971-1980/

2 Vivienne Westwood. ‘430 Kings Road: 1971-1980.’ https://blog.viviennewestwood.com/history/1971-1980/

3 Vivienne Westwood. ‘The Early Years: 1981-1987.’ https://blog.viviennewestwood.com/history/1981-1987/

4 Vivienne Westwood. ‘Anglomania: 1993-1999’ https://blog.viviennewestwood.com/history/1993-1999

I have decided to dedicate this piece to Westwood, because alongside so many others in the world, I see her as one of my biggest idols. She dedicated her career to changing how fashion operates in many ways, and remains a constant advocate for social justice even after her passing. This was central to her brand, with her clothes communicating messages surrounding sustainability in fashion, climate change, and even criticising capitalism. Political messages were interwoven into her pieces, accessories, campaigns and runways, and she was a regular facilitator and attendee of protests.

Westwood was an incredibly outspoken public figure despite her high profile and never shied away from using fashion as a form of rallying for change and rebellion. This was unusual for her time, and especially for a brand of such notoriety. These actions have encouraged modern day brands to think similarly, and take on sustainable practices and values within their own production, rather than just preaching about it on the surface. She was a true pioneer.

Since moving to Melbourne, I now have so many more sources for inspiration and opportunities that have allowed me to hone my love for fashion more and more. Living in a city known for its creativity and style has been invigorating and has allowed me to grow into my skin when it comes to how I express myself through my clothes. I have always known of Westwood and her designs, and have always been inspired by them, but I think now that I live in Melbourne, I have grown to understand her messages and ethos on a deeper level.

Westwood’s unapologetic attitude, lack of desire to simply ‘fit in’, in an industry that places so much value

on superficial looks, was something that I consider incredibly influential within my journey of finding my own style (a journey that I am admittedly still on).

Growing up in a smaller country town for most of my life, I often found that having an expressive taste and/ or appearance was typically frowned upon. Little old me almost felt caged into a style and appearance that I never truly felt comfortable or 100% myself in. I had always aspired to be a stylish and effortlessly dressed city dweller (which I think was jump started through my too early introduction to Tumblr). However, being in an environment where I felt I was going to be judged for this really stunted the rate at which I began to explore my own style. Beyond this, the values that I have learnt through Westwood have also helped me to have a deeper understanding of and appreciation for ethics and sustainability within fashion. There are things that I am proud to say that I make a conscious effort to think about with every purchase that I make. Especially for when I enter the industry myself, I will definitely aspire to, like Vivienne, keep sustainability and ethics at the forefront of my practice and consumption, always.

We have lost an incredible woman in Vivienne Westwood, someone who reshaped the fashion industry completely. She started from humble beginnings and built an empire for herself. She never sold herself or her ethics out to be recognised alongside other big names of the industry. She instead built her own success on her terms, and that is something that I find so admirable. If only more people thought the way she did, the world, and the fashion industry, would be a better place.

Say My Name

Words by Akira Kerr @akira.kerr

I was sitting in Year 7 English. We were combined with another class, so there were close to 50 people in the room. The bell for the last period had just gone, and everyone was slowly making their way into the classroom. It was towards the start of the year, I didn’t know a decent portion of those people, so I sat tentatively with my small group of friends. I realised that we had a substitute teacher. Crap. My stomach churned and turned itself inside out. It was uncomfortable. She started to mark the roll, I followed along as she read out the names, with the rhythmic ‘yep’s’ that preceded. Two more people. One more person. And as she got to my name she paused. The flow discontinued and the room silenced. “… Akria? Akiria?”.

“It’s Akira.”

This was Wodonga, and I was one of the few non-white people at the school, or anywhere in the town for that matter. My name is by no means unpronounceable by the average English speaker. It’s relatively user-friendly, as my parents actually took into consideration if my siblings and my names would be pronounceable by English speakers.

“It’s phonetic” is something I’ve heard myself say a lot to those who are confused. There are a myriad of ways that people have interpreted how the 5 letters that make up my name should sound together: Akira with a long “I” sound. Akira with a short “I” sound. Or some people, to make it somehow easier for themselves, decided to drop the first ‘A’, dubbing me “Kira”.

Until I went to university there were only a handful of people who would actually pronounce my name in the way it was intended, the Japanese pronunciation. So, I grew to introduce myself with the long ‘I’ variation, a very Aussie variation. Over time, hearing my name pronounced correctly began to sound weird if it wasn’t accompanied by other Japanese words. People asked me how it was supposed to be pronounced and it was embarrassing when they clumsily tried to parrot me.

So, the question I ask myself is, was my automatic anglicisation of my name an effort to cater to others for easier pronunciation? Or was it me denying my cultural identity in a barely noticeable way? Should I have unapologetically told people the correct pronunciation all along? Was alienation from my own ethnicity and culture, through enabling the mispronunciation of my name, my own doing after all?

In school, I always struggled with my ethnic identity. I would make self-deprecating Asian jokes before someone could do it to me first. I felt guilty for not having enough Asian friends. Even now, I don’t feel deserving of calling myself Japanese until I have conquered the language.

But, analysing the way that living as a half-Asian person in a predominately white regional town makes me feel, has helped. Slow and steady exploration of my own culture has finally allowed me to recognise that the way I am half-Japanese is the right way for me.

The first step for me was including my whole name in Japanese in my Instagram bio, alongside little Australian and Japanese flags. Then, starting to include my middle name, which is my mum’s maiden name, on documents and forms where it would be publicly seen. Whereas before I would refuse to disclose it for fear of it being mispronounced.

My name, I can now say, is something that I think is so cool. It’s something that automatically signifies my identity. My full name, Akira Shimote Kerr, is symbolic of the unique experience I share with other members of the ‘not quite one race not quite another, but still whole’ community. I am proud of my name it holds a history, it holds a sense of recognition and it helps me reconcile with my unique identity. And what I want to say to my parents every day is “Thanks for giving me a sick-as name”.

Say My Name

Words by Jackie Zhou @cowboydepopp

“How do you pronounce your surname?”

I never really immediately knew how to answer that question. My mother told me it’s pronounced ‘zoo’ but when they say my chinese name, 周晶晶 (zhōu jīng jīng), it’s pronounced differently. ‘Zhou’ has more of a hollow sound, like the back of my mouth is forced to open in order to say it correctly.

Except it wasn’t forced. It was never forced. It came to me so naturally. But for a lot of my current friends, pronouncing it in a way that sounds more traditionally accurate proves difficult, because these are the sounds of a language completely unfamiliar to them.

For the majority of my childhood, ‘Zhou’ has been more of a ‘zoo’. I know a lot of second-generation immigrants that I grew up with, or even know now, who whiteify the pronunciation of their name.

This is a natural response when you’re trying to assimilate in a society that coerces you to believe that your culture, language and traditions make you different [derogatory].

But it does make you different! I’m sick of believing that making my name easier to pronounce so white teachers don’t embarrass themselves and me when calling my name to an assembly of students and coworkers doesn’t make me different. Having to adjust the way I say my name for others inherently makes me different, in fact.

I learned very quickly that my best attempts of cultural assimilation changing the way I dress to whatever the popular kids were wearing to school, changing the way I say my name, emphasising my Australian accent, walking away from my parents when they spoke Mandarin in public were all futile because I will always be perceived as different. The way I look is enough to immediately elicit a response in people’s heads about who I am as a person, even to those who know me the most.

It took me a long time to realise that that’s okay. Being immediately associated with stereotypes sucks ass, obviously, but how other people judge me as a person doesn’t matter because, throughout my life, I have learned to build a core identity in myself. No other person can take that from me. Building strength in my relationship with myself took a long time, and will likely be a journey I embark on for the rest of my life. But what matters is that I know who I am, and how other people perceive me is up to their own life experiences, prejudices and perceptions.

I have met many Zhou’s since my childhood, each introducing themselves with a different pronunciation. ‘Zow’ and ‘Zh-ow’ are among some of them. I am left conflicted on knowing what to say and how to say it in a society where the traditional Chinese pronunciation is extremely difficult for native English speakers.

But, I love that my culture, and the name that I have been given, makes me a little different. I love that, as an adult, I can root my identity in where my parents come from, while branching out into a person who I can shape and mould in my own way, on my own terms. All while calling two very different places home.

Take Up Space

@jenniferhoangs

Artwork by Jennifer Hoang

Fangirls: A Personal Review

Words and Art by Saskia Mortarotti @sas.horan

‘Fangirls’ is an energetic, bright, and pop-filled musical with a hidden feminist undertone. Throughout history, sexist narratives have shamed women for their interests and hobbies. Whilst male’s strong reactions towards sports and other male dominated hobbies are validated, society pushes the idea that fangirls are obsessive, hysterical, and naïve. By recognising fandom as powerful and validating of women’s passions, ‘Fangirls’ stands up against patriarchal notions and prevails.

‘Fangirls’ embraces the concept of fandoms and helps audiences understand fan culture, showing the fun of being a part of a diehard community, through comedy. The musical achieves its aim of encouraging audiences to consider how impressive it is that fandoms can hold so much space, and influence.

The plot of ‘Fangirls’ is rather simple. It follows the story of tween Edna, as she navigates school life, whilst being a part of fictional fandom ‘True Connection.’ It focuses on Edna’s obsession with the lead singer of the band, Harry. In Edna’s attempt to escape her home life, she and her online best friend, write fanfiction. The story shifts between real life and fantasy as they write about taking down enemies and spending time with Harry.

‘Fangirls’ is more than a story of being in a fandom. It is a coming of age story. Through the themes of identity, community, and friendship, it’s a story of reclaiming the label of ‘fangirl,’ and changing its negative connotations. Whilst it may be a story young fangirls relate to, it’s also a story wider audiences should go out of their way to watch and experience.

The writer of the musical, Yve Blake, is a name that I guarantee we will see appear more in the future. Through her ability to create catchy and uplifting show tunes, Blake encapsulates fandoms’ earnestness. ‘Fangirls’ creates desire for young female talent to come forward and be recognised, as women in the arts continue to push for space and acknowledgment. Blake is truly an inspiring woman. It’s interesting to speculate on what other stories can be told from voices that haven’t yet had a platform to share.

The cast of ‘Fangirls’ is oozing with talent. Many familiar faces feature in the musical as stars from ‘The Voice’, alongside actors from the Australian television Netflix series revival ‘Heartbreak High’ demonstrate the impressive talent of young Australians in the film and theatre industry.

The set is subtle, however still energetic and dynamic, as screens display videos behind the cast. The set is complemented by dramatic blue, pink, and purple lighting, and shimmery, holographic costumes.

The musical nods directly to the ‘One Direction’ fandom with its representation of the character ‘Harry’. Interestingly, in a famous interview with Rolling Stone, ex ‘One Direction’ member Harry Styles stood up in defence of fangirls, expressing how important and powerful they are. He reminded the interviewer that teenage girls are the future and claimed “teenage-girl fans… they don’t lie. If they like you, they’re there. They don’t act ‘too cool’. They like you; they tell you. Which is sick!” This statement holds true.

The shamelessness and authenticity of fangirls are a testament to their dedication, and it is where their power comes from. It is through their honesty, sense of self, and care for each other, that fangirls truly do rule the world.

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‘Main Character Energy’

Words by Hailey Jordan Liemena @haileyjordanlie

‘BRAVE’, by OOHYO

One artist that I’ve been really into recently is the South Korean synth-pop singer, OOHYO. Her 2019 release titled 'BRAVE' is about persevering through life’s challenges. OOHYO’s music deviates from the mainstream norm, providing a refreshing and unique sound to the music industry. I distinctly remember listening to it for the first time last year, and I can confidently say that it was one of the most interesting finds. As an artist, OOHYO has previously stated that her goal was to connect with her listeners through relatable themes and emotions. Her music has become a source of comfort for her fans, as she implies that we are all in this together. The line “Is it true that even tears can turn to gold?” reminds listeners that even the most painful and challenging experiences can turn into lifelong lessons and values. It is an empowering track that encourages its listeners to face the future with courage and optimism.

‘Rain On Me’, by Ariana Grande and Lady Gaga

Is a playlist complete without Ariana Grande and Lady Gaga's powerful vocals? 'Rain On Me' is a dance-pop anthem that sings about the power of one's confidence and individuality. The song consists of a perfect blend of dance-pop, electro-pop, French house, and Eurodance elements. It’s an instant hit amongst listeners and made its way to the top of my playlist in 2020. The song celebrates the beauty in finding strength to overcome personal struggles and heartbreaks.

This is synonymous with the singers’ own experiences, and is perhaps one of the key reasons why it resonates with many. The line “Gotta live my truth, not keep it bottled in” encourages listeners to be unapologetically themselves in a world that says otherwise. It is a bold declaration of self-confidence that dares you to openly express yourself in the most authentic and honest way possible. Wash it away underneath the pouring rain, let it all go and dare to be authentically you.

‘After The Storm’, by Kali Uchis feat. Tyler, The Creator & Bootsy Collins

Next, we have 'After The Storm' by Kali Uchis featuring long-time collaborator Tyler, The Creator, and Bootsy Collins. The smooth and dreamy R&B track sings about the power that comes from believing in yourself. The song reminds listeners that good things never come easy and that strength is always found within. The line “So if you need a hero just look in the mirror, no one’s gonna save you now. So you’d better save yourself” encapsulates this perfectly. As humans, we often feel the need to look to other people to solve our problems. When in fact, the solution lies within ourselves.

Music comes in many shapes and forms, and is capable of evoking one’s deepest emotions. That is why music has become such an integral part of my life. I hope it will continue to be for the years to come.

Sometimes we all need a bit of main-character energy to kick-start our day.

Full STEM Ahead

Words by Felice Lok @felicee.eee

Artwork by Sydney Reyes @sydneyreyesss

There are many things worth celebrating in life: birthdays, waking up in time to watch the sunrise, and of course, those who are making strides during their time at uni to make an impact. STEM is an acronym referring to research in science, technology, engineering and mathematics. Below, two talented Monash students share how they’re going full STEM ahead in their engineering degrees, dedicating their time to some quite phenomenal work to better society.

Judy Li

4th year Mechanical Engineering and Biomedical Science student

What’s your specialisation and why are you passionate about it?

I'm specialising in Mechanical Engineering, and I enjoy it because of the wide range of skills and theory we learn. Mechanical Engineering also has such a diverse range of applications, from designing and manufacturing prostheses in the healthcare industry, to developing systems that could one day be implemented in a Mars rover!

What extracurricular activities and work have you been involved with at Monash?

I've tried to actively involve myself in extracurriculars that will allow me to meet like minded individuals and discover what I'm passionate about. Being involved in the student teams, Monash Nova Rover and Monash Young MedTech Innovators, has led me to meet so many amazing students and academics who are so passionate about what they do.

I've also been very lucky to have participated in two research programs, the Healthcare Innovation Summer Scholarship Program and Summer Research Program, both of which have allowed me to learn a tremendous amount from such incredible researchers and engineers.

Outside of academia, I've also explored other extracurriculars Monash has to offer, such as the Monash Taekwondo Club and peer mentoring programs.

What do you think has been your proudest achievement as a STEM student?

I think my proudest achievement so far has been my recent summer research project with CREATElab, where I focused on developing a reproducible manufacturing technique for a component of a cardiovascular medical device. It was such an eye-opening opportunity to experience what it was like to work in a research lab and learn about the incredible work other researchers were doing. I learnt so many new skills while developing existing ones. Being able to contribute towards the production of a medical device as an undergraduate student, albeit a tiny amount, is something I am very proud of and will cherish as I continue my studies!

What impact do you want to create on the world through your work and skills?

I hope that one day I'll be able to apply the knowledge and experience I've gained throughout my time at university to help solve problems that are affecting us and our planet. I’d particularly love to be involved with the development of more inclusive and accessible medical technologies.

Michaela Sykes-Turner

4th year Mechanical Engineering and Industrial Design student

What’s your specialisation and why are you passionate about it?

My specialisation is Mechanical Engineering, and I'm passionate about it because it is applicable to so many different things, which I get to learn about and witness first hand in Monash Motorsport. I find electric motors especially interesting, although I definitely have a heap more to learn about them!

What extracurricular activities and work have you been involved with at Monash?

I have spent most of the last few years spending as much time as possible in Monash Motorsport. We're a student engineering team here at Monash, and we design, build and compete with Formula Student race cars in Australia and overseas. This year I'm the Chief Executive Officer of the team, so the majority of my time goes towards that. It's a lot of work (minimum 25 hours a week for general team members!) but it's a great experience and a lot of fun.

What do you think has been your proudest achievement as a STEM student?

My proudest achievement has been being part of Monash Motorsport. Being a part of a team that designs and builds such complex vehicles, and works so hard, has forced me to continually learn and improve myself every day.

What impact do you want to create on the world through your work and skills?

I'm still not certain what I want to do after university. I would love to do something around cars, aircraft, or motorbikes, but in reality I don't know [exactly] what. I would like to work in a high-performance environment, and pitch in to help improve the engineering field as a whole. I would especially like to see more engineering happening again in Australia, and further growth in engineering of renewables technology.

So, there you have it two talented STEM students and their inspiring stories of hard work, passion and perseverance. Now let’s throw the question to you: what impact do you want to make through your studies or work?

Alchemy On The Menu

Words by Gabriela Fannia @gabrielafannia

Artwork by Sama Harris @designs_by_sama

Do you think your tastebuds are more sophisticated than your friends? Do you deem your taste as unconventional because licorice and mint are your go-to ice cream flavours? Just you wait. You haven’t fully lived until you lick soy sauce, saké or chilli off your frozen little treat.

Fortunately for us who live in Melbourne and around, these are real ice cream flavours being served in a 70’s retro-style dessert shop in Thornbury. ‘Kenny Lover Ice Cream’ (@kennylovericecream) has been scooping their bold range of flavours since a bit before Covid-19 hit. Co-owner and ice cream chef, Michael Baker (Mike) is interested in more than just making ice creams. His mission is to understand the journey from the kitchen to your mouth, and perfect the formulation needed to achieve certain textures, flavours, and balances.

Mike believes that the chemistry side of ice cream making, like understanding the different sugars and temperatures, helps with troubleshooting. He said that as you get more experience, it becomes easier to take shortcuts. “You just sort of know, and the success rate gets higher”.

Every week or two there are newly crafted flavours to try at ‘Kenny Lover Ice Cream’. Mike and his brilliant imagination often “play on things”; he adapts a new range of flavours based on current seasons and trends, and uses bizarre and exotic ingredients. The shop prides itself on including native Australian ingredients, such as Davidson plums, lemon myrtle, wattleseed, and Geraldton wax.

Thanks to Mike, he gave us a simple guide on how these ingredients taste and what to expect before we dip our spoons into the creamy creations:

Davidson plum is extremely acidic, bright red and a lot like lemon. “Not really something that you’d eat on its own, but if you think about it as acidic as lemon in your recipe, you could create some cool flavours,” he said.

Lemon myrtle is a popular native dried herb, citrusy in taste, sweet and refreshing.

Geraldton wax is also citrusy, like a kaffir lime or pine needle kind of taste.

Wattle-seed is nutty, sort of like coffee and earthy in its flavour. It pairs very well with chocolate, and creams. “We tried it with tiramisu, so it’s called Wattlemisu. [The seeds] are also used as dusting on top,” he said.

‘Kenny Lover Ice Cream’ stays on top of their palate-discovering mission by getting inspiration from various cultures and making custom requests. Some of Mike’s notable faves are ‘kalamata olive and white chocolate’, and ‘vanilla and soy sauce caramel’. A memorable collaboration was the ‘saké sorbet’ done in collaboration with a Japanese restaurant. Another one was the ‘horchata ice cream’ containing rice, watermelon, lime, corn and chilli done at a Mexican restaurant.

If these eccentric flavours are still not enough for the daring tongues out there, the wackiness in ‘Kenny Lover Ice Cream’ does not end here. Their ice cream shop serves hot chips and, just recently, jaffles encouraging customers to eat them with (you guessed it) ice cream. “Growing up, a lot of people used to dip their McDonalds chips in with their soft serve,” said Mike. “There is a science behind why it does actually work.” Ah of course there is!

“The reason that it works so well is because you’ve got hot and cold, so you’ve got a contrast there. You’ve got salty and sweet, and so you got this really nice sort of spectrum of flavours and it does balance really well.”

Mike wants to be different from the abundance of Italian-inspired gelato stores across Melbourne, and put a local twist on things. The hot chips and jaffles do exactly that and take Australian’s back to nostalgic days. “More Australiana vibes, over the top, a bit silly. That’s the whole vibe,” said Mike.

Although sour ice creams and spicy sorbets are not everyone’s thing, having an open mindset to go outside your ‘chocolate and vanilla’ comfort zone is what ‘Kenny Lover Ice Cream’s’ menu is trying to do.

“Some people are like “that [flavour] sounds disgusting.” A lot of our flavours, people react like that,” Mike explained. “Some people are narrow-minded with what they like, and that’s okay. But they’re not having much imagination on what might be good.”

As Mike likes to remind himself when inventing the next flavour combination, “just keep experimenting and pushing the boundaries.” A great reminder to just live a little! So, if your taste buds are feeling a bit adventurous, you know where to go!

I am Woman, Watch Me Lead

Words by Angel Tully @angel.tully

Artwork by Madison Marshall @madagasc.art

There’s a well known phenomenon facing women which prevents them from breaking through to upper level management positions and ridding themselves of being subject to inherent societal sexism. It’s called the glass ceiling.

As a young woman only beginning to scratch the surface of a professional career, and having grown up in a household where I was consistently empowered and praised for my achievements, I can only naively look at the issues which face women in the workforce pursuing leadership roles. As much as I would like to say “I would definitely not sit back and let the men dominate”, or “I wouldn’t undersell myself because I am embarrassed of celebrating my success”, the reality is that I don’t know what that experience is really like. Perhaps many women thought this way once too, when they were at the dawn of their career.

While I may not have enough experience to speak on institutional sexism, I spoke to a strong woman I know who does a woman who is admired by many for her strength and positivity.

Lisa is the CFO of a defence company, she works in an industry typically associated with, and dominated by men. Not only has she been able to grow alongside the business over the years, she has done so surrounded by a supportive team, many of whom are women too.

In our discussion, Lisa reflected on the wins and the hurdles she has faced over the course of her career. She shed light on the current challenges faced by women in the workforce, and gave me some insights into the way forward towards gender parity in professional careers.

TALK THE TALK

The plain truth is that leaders have traditionally been male. With that has come certain assumptions, that traditionally masculine qualities are congruent with qualities of a strong leader. Although accepting this reality is not the way forward for gender parity, Lisa believes that women have a lot to learn from a traditional masculine leadership style.

Women are so afraid of stepping on someone’s toes, or coming off as “pushy” or “bossy”, that we take a passive and hedging tone to interactions in the workplace, even when we’re in a position of authority.

As a leader, Lisa has consciously shifted her communication approach to act with a more dominant and “masculine” tone. However, she believes that this tone should be embraced by all women, not just those who lead. She argues that women should rid themselves of tentative and apologetic tones, and

recognise the value of what they have to say without questioning their own authority.

With an authoritative voice, comes respect from colleagues and self-confidence. Channelling a “fake it till you make it” mindset not only allows you to present as a confident leader, but also prepares you to take on the challenge of having the difficult conversations, and gives you a boost when confronting people who treat you poorly. Lisa believes standing your ground is the best way to be respected as both a leader and as a woman.

ACTING IN BETWEEN THE LINES

Thanks to workplace discrimination laws, diversity quotas, and good old PR scandals, overt gender discrimination in the workplace is quite rare. Yet, sexism still exists. According to Lisa, it’s nothing that company policy or law can reverse it is built into society’s understanding of gender roles.

Sexism in today’s workplace isn’t about women getting slapped on the ass and getting called ‘gorgeous’ or ‘babe’. Today, sexism is expecting that women will empty the dishwasher in the staff tearoom, and assuming they’ll be the ones to take minutes in the meeting, instead of leading discussions. Even in positions of workplace authority, women are still expected to play the role of homemaker. Thus, change cannot come from implementing new rules and policies, it needs to come from a shift in cultural mindset.

IT’S A MAN’S WORLD, WE NEED A MAN’S REVOLUTION

Lisa recalled hearing a quote which deeply resonated with her; Gen X were the first generation to interpret the phrase “you can do anything” to mean “you have to do everything”.

Whilst women are now praised for pursuing traditionally male careers, men are not provided the same level of support to backfill the roles that women are moving away from. Without men taking over some of the responsibility as homemakers, women are forced to work twice as hard to fulfil both roles, often preventing them from advancing into upper-level management. We shouldn’t have to choose between having a family, and having a kick-ass career a dilemma most men have never had to face.

So what has to change? As much as we’d like to think that women hold the power to enact real change in gender parity, Lisa believes that the real change needs to come from men.

Not only do men need to support their partners in the household equally, but they are responsible for rejecting the pressures of toxic masculinity, and emotional avoidance, that prevent them from taking on non-traditional male roles. By sharing caretaking and homemaking responsibilities more equally, women have the freedom and flexibility to actively pursue career developments.

I asked Lisa what advice she would give to her younger self starting out in the workforce. Her answer was something that I believe will resonate with many women: Be courageous and push yourself forward. Have confidence in yourself. Don’t be afraid to put yourself in uncomfortable positions where you aren’t sure you’re ‘cut out for it’, and don’t undersell yourself to others. We can learn from the confidence of some men who put themselves out there with undeniable self-belief.

I have often reflected on the barriers to senior roles faced by women in today’s work culture, as a young woman hoping to make it to high-level leadership one day. Likewise, I have considered how far society has come over the past few decades, since our mothers stood in our shoes.

But there’s always been something that just didn’t sit right with me, and that was gender hiring quotas. I was disheartened by the fact that I might be hired purely on the basis that I am a woman, and nothing to do with whether I am the best candidate for the job. I don’t want to be pitied.

When I discussed this with a man close to me, he asked me, “why should you feel bad if you have a platform for the position to be handed to you? Men have been doing that for years you should take advantage of it now that it’s your turn.”

Quite frankly, he is right.

I had never thought of it that way. Perhaps this is the exact apprehension that Lisa retrospectively wished she could take back, perhaps I am not as exempt from the glass ceiling that women have felt closing in on them for decades.

Now is the time to change our mindset. We are living in a world where women are increasingly celebrated for their careers, and are being given more opportunities in a range of industries so why not use the proverbial “diversity quotas” to our advantage?

I encourage all women who aspire to lead to seize the opportunities presented to you. Be courageous, be assertive, be feminine, be true to yourself, and be bold.

INKED.

Words and Images by Xenia Sanut @xendelsan

I never thought I would get tattoos. I’m indecisive and getting something so permanent terrifies me, but I was drawn to tattoos’ boldness the poeticism of making what is typically invisible about yourself visible. So, after deciding to take a plunge into this inky pool, I thought I might share what I have collected so far.

Location: The Dark Essence, Richmond (@thedarkessence)

Artist: Trin (@trintattoos)

When I was little, there was a flower that my mom placed in my hair on a trip to the Philippines. Whilst I knew I wanted it to be my first tattoo, I couldn’t remember the flower. My mom said that the red hibiscus is common in the Philippines, and it seemed to match the flower I remembered, so I went with it. It wasn’t until last year that I found the real flower, the golden trumpet, and I thought that my tattoo was now meaningless. But I discovered that there’s an ancient system of magic in the Philippines, where one of the divine figures is known as ‘gumamela celis’, “flower of heaven”. Now my tattoo reminds me to look for glimpses of heaven that exist in our own world.

Location: The Wolves Den, Pakenham (@the.wolves.den)

Artist: Georgia (@georgialeantattoo)

Hadestown is my favourite musical and based on the Greek myth of Orpheus and Eurydice. Not only is it a retelling of the timeless love story, but it’s also an exploration of class and nature, with some of the most expressive lyrics I’ve ever heard. There is a flower that Orpheus conjures whenever he sings the song that’ll bring the world back into balance. Having it tattooed on my body reminds me to continuously strive to make the world into what it could be, in spite of the way that it is now.

Location: G’Day Ink, Pakenham (@gdayinkpakenham)

Artist: Sonuk (@sonukpunkrock)

Since I was a child, I have always loved how a clam could be so unsuspecting on the outside but so beautiful on the inside with its nacre and pearls. The second tattoo is a reminder of the awe I felt when my family and I went whale shark watching in the Philippines. These tattoos let me keep a bit of that childlike wonder and that peaceful feeling I only get when I’m at the beach.

Location: Celebrity Ink Fountain Gate (@celebrityinkfountaingate)

Artist: Felipe

My grandmother was a semi-professional ballroom dancer. After her heart condition worsened when she got older, going out dancing became harder. I stayed with her in the U.S. for a month in October 2022 and in March this year she passed away.

I associate the time I spent with her with fall leaves, hence the colour of her dress. Although she was also in the fall of her life at that time, she continued to be grateful to be alive. Now, her attitude towards life is immortalised on my arm.

The way tattoos are shaped to suit the canvas of each person’s body is what makes this art form so beautiful. What you choose is only limited to your imagination. It’s a way of showing the world who you are and what you stand for, so are you ready to write your story in ink?

Grace Bell Nails: Beauty That Doesn’t Profit Off Insecurities

@gracebellnails

@graceameliabell She/Her

Grace sits on the train, headphones on, eyes glued to her screen. She flicks quickly between the Pinterest and Notes apps on her phone. Soon, these images will be printed off, placed next to photos of her models, and a mood board of organised chaos will start to form. Next, she’ll write a creative short story, which will unfold into an editorial photoshoot. Finally, she will translate an abundance of ideas, research and metaphors all into a set of picture-perfect press-on nails.

It would be an injustice to call Grace a nail technician. She is an innovator, creative director, and storyteller.

It all started when she was about 10 years old, and her Nana, who was also a nail technician, gave her a nail kit to play around with.

“My nana was the biggest inspiration behind this brand. She wears the longest acrylics and she just turned 90,” said Grace. “She really shaped me to be a beauty queen.”

It was in the 2020 lockdowns when Grace realised she could turn her hobby into a business. In frustration of not being able to get her nails done professionally, she decided to take on the task herself. After selling her press-on designs on Etsy for a while, Grace decided she wanted more.

‘Grace Bell Nails’ evolved into a ‘made to order’ editorial-level nail business.

“It’s a bit of a level up rather than just being an

e-commerce store. It’s more interactive and the client is directly involved in the process,” said Grace. “It’s not your everyday natural nails. It’s more for clients with an event on, or a photoshoot.”

A core value of the band is inclusivity, and Grace refuses to fit into society’s rigid beauty standards.

“In this beauty industry, I’ve found that a lot of the time, businesses profit off insecurities,” she said. “Nails are one part of beauty that anyone can wear.”

“I just want people to look at their fingertips, see a little bit of artwork and smile. Everyone can have that.”

Grace looks beyond Instagram trends, taking inspiration from the world around her; iconic fashion designers, surrealism, and nature.

Her philosophy: “Don’t look at other nail artists, look at the universe around you and create your own thing from that. Otherwise we are going to be copying and pasting each other forever.”

Not only does Grace design and produce the nails, she creatively directs the photoshoots in which her work features.

“I think you have to tell a story, otherwise it’s just a photo,” said Grace.

‘Esperanto’s’ Creative Director, Alyssa, and I, had the pleasure of working with Grace for our own campaign. After ideas, clothes and Pinterest boards were thrown

around, we developed the theme of the shoot. The message would be ‘beauty doesn’t have to be so serious’.

A ridiculously fun day in the city, girls just being girls, turned into the photoshoot you see proudly sitting in this magazine.

Grace went about everything with a “if we don’t try it, we won’t know” attitude, as we climbed staircases of car parks in Melbourne’s CBD. In our Y2K inspired, clashing patterned outfits, we celebrated ‘just having fun’ as if we were playing dress-ups like little girls. Whilst we struggled to open doors and carry our stuff with our outrageously long nails, they shimmered in the sunshine and turned heads. There’s no better feeling.

Grace has had quite a bit of experience with creative directing now. However, for the brand’s first ever campaign, Grace admitted she didn’t really know what she was doing.

All she knew was that her photographer wanted to include a male model in the photoshoot. “How can I work with three girls and one guy?” Grace asked herself.

Then it clicked. Grace and the two female models who are her best friends had all experienced turbulent relationships with men recently. So, the campaign’s narrative started developing around the theme of heartache. However, it was to be done with utmost

finesse. The shoot became a ritual of reclaiming power women joining forces over a shared experience.

Grace designed three sets of nails that come together to form one unified gradient of colour each nail set blends into the next model’s. As all three women grab onto the male model, their nails blatantly reject the narrative that society tiresomely craves; women being pitted against women.

“It was to represent us all uniting together. We aren’t going to let bad relationships come in and destroy our togetherness as women,” said Grace.

Grace’s younger sister and family friend were the make-up artists for the photoshoot making it even more special. What was a new experience for Grace, is now the focal point of her website.

So, where to now? Editorial campaigns are the future for ‘Grace Bells Nails’

Think fashion week runway, print Vogue magazine, billboard on highways. “I want to be involved in the whole process beyond nails,” said Grace.

“It’s next level, rather than just beauty.”

Words by Sarah Louise @sarahllouise_, Photography by Alyssa Maggio @am.pmdesign

Photography by Alyssa Maggio

SLAY SLAY SLAY SLAY SLAY SLAY SLAY SLAY

SLAY

“Entering my slay era!” is what the girlies claim. What the f*ck does that even mean?

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Define and Use in a

Words by Tess Kent @tess.kent

“Entering my slay era!” is what the girlies claim. What the f*ck does that even mean?

‘Slay’. The defining term of the Gen Z vernacular that lives rent free in our minds. The acceleration of internet colloquialisms have created a language that seems so entwined with young people stuck on TikTok (i.e. you and me!). However, for a term which we love to drop at every inevitable chance we have, it has a greater history and impact than what we could have imagined. How slay.

According to Semrush, ‘slay’ has appeared in over 284.7k search results online and the question “what does ‘slay’ mean?” has over 20 million search results on Google1

Obviously, many people are curious about our quirky little catch-all term that can be used for any expression of success, happiness and elation. Teachers are making spreadsheets to keep up with our ever evolving lexicon2 and older colleagues are running into trouble misinterpreting younger colleagues' messages3. Particularly when they all start spouting “SLAYYYY” on their Slack channel in response to great work.

By a dictionary definition, ‘slay’ (verb) means to kill in a violent way. It is entrenched in Germanic roots from the 1800s4, which was more associated with killing mythical beasts or enemies think ‘Game of Thrones’ vibes.

Yet its progression continues through to the 1920s where the ‘Gatsby’ age of flappers and jazz birthed a new definition for the word. If someone were to laugh and exclaim “you slay me!” you would be wrong in thinking they were causing them physical harm. Rather the definition had evolved to making someone “laugh very hard”4. Next time your friend cracks a joke, try dropping “you slay me” instead, and see how they react.

Whilst it may not have the same je ne sais quoi as simply saying “you’re hilarious”, it will make you sound like a distinguished guest of an elusive speakeasy party. Or maybe you’ll just sound a bit pretentious.

What makes the evolution of ‘slay’ so spectacular is its history in emerging from Black African American and Latin American LGBTIQA+ communities. In the period of the 70s and 80s in New York City, ball and house culture was increasing in prominence4 To ‘slay’, just as we define it today, is to do something particularly well or amazingly, and this word is deeply entrenched in this time4. The 1991 documentary, ‘Paris is Burning’, popularised the phrase through its depiction of NYC drag queens and ball culture. Whilst the phrase became more popular through the documentary’s cult-like following, ‘Paris is Burning’, was ground-breaking in its depiction of lived experiences of an under-represented community5.

From ‘Paris is Burning’ came ‘RuPaul’s Drag Race’, then Ryan Murphy and FX’s docu-series ‘Pose’. All important examples of media which delve further into ball and house culture. The term ‘slay’ only touches the surface of the incredible work the Queens did for these marginalised communities5. It was an emphatic call for how amazing these queens were killing it on stage and off.

Moving to 2016, lord and saviour, the queen herself (AKA Beyonce), demanded we get into formation. From here, ‘slay’ was reborn yet again. The word was a commandment for her Miami audience in 2016; “if you came here to have a good time, say 'I slay’6. If you're proud of where you're from, say 'I slay’.” Artist Big Freedia, who featured on Beyonce’s ‘Formation’ track, explained in an interview that ‘slaying’ is an attitude that represents the city of New Orleans, it describes “flavour, fever and fears”7

1 Curtis S. How TikTok Is Changing the Way We Speak [Internet]. The Daily Mail Online. 2022. Available from: https://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-11262889/TikTok-changing-way-SPEAK-phrases-like-quiet-quitting-le-dollar-bean.html

2 Johnson LM. To “slay” Communication with His students, a High School Teacher Made a Gen Z Dictionary [Internet]. CNN. 2019 [cited 2023 Apr 22]. Available from: https://edition.cnn.com/2019/05/04/us/gen-z-dictionary-trnd

3 Abril D. Gen Z Came to “slay.” Their Bosses Don’t Know What That means. [Internet]. Washington Post. 2022. Available from: https://www.washingtonpost.com/ technology/2022/12/12/gen-z-work-emojis/

4 Dictionary.com. Definition of Slay | Dictionary.com [Internet]. www.dictionary.com. Available from: https://www.dictionary.com/browse/slay

5 Lester Fabian Brathwaite. Striking a “Pose”: a Brief History of Ball Culture [Internet]. Rolling Stone. Rolling Stone; 2018. Available from: https://www.rollingstone. com/culture/culture-features/striking-a-pose-a-brief-history-of-ball-culture-629280/

6 Blake E. 5 Times Beyoncé Gave New Meaning to “I slay” as She Kicked off Her Formation Tour [Internet]. Mashable. 2016. Available from: https://mashable.com/ article/beyonce-formation-tour-miami

7 Lockett D, York a senior editor on the CP at N. Big Freedia on Slaying Beyoncé’s “Formation” — and Being Surprised by Its Release [Internet]. Vulture. \2016 [cited 2023 Apr 22]. Available from: https://www.vulture.com/2016/02/big-freedia-on-slaying-beyonces-formation.html

Slay: Define and Use in a Sentence.

So, for a word which has a longstanding history, why is it that it’s surged again in recent years? Put simply TikTok. Linguist, Tony Thorne, states that language evolution is natural and the fact we don’t speak in Ye Olde English anymore is living proof of that. However, whilst our methods for adopting new slang is the same, what’s changed is the level of visibility social media provides us with for language evolution8. Expert linguist at Babbel, Jennifer Dorman, states that every generation ‘leaves their mark’ on language but it’s apps like TikTok which heighten our ability to adapt to new linguistic trends so quickly9. Marketing agency, YellowHEAD, explains that once a post with a popular term gains traction, social media algorithms reward that term with even more publicity and generate virality10.

But what does ‘slay’ mean now? Well, it still means to do something particularly well or amazingly. Yet, I like to believe it’s also a state of mind. ‘Slay’ has taken on an entire personality for itself, we use the word to denote our feelings, express delight at others and use it to define a particularly successful period of our lives (eg. ‘slay era’).

But how do you use it? Let’s explore some examples!

• Your best friend posts an incredible photo of themselves? Comment: “Slay bestie.”

• You submit two assignments before your Friday 5pm deadline, and make it in time to pre-drinks for your friend’s birthday. You say: “What a slay of a day.”

• Got approved for that rental you were eyeing off? Exclaim: “Slay!”

• Thinking about those 7% HECS indexation rates? You say: “that’s not very slay.”

• Want to channel your inner 2019 Paris Hilton? Easy, you’re “sliving.”

It’s an ever evolving word which is as witty as it is endearing. It’s a shared term by us Gen Z-ers and we know we’re in good company when we hear each other slide it into conversations whenever possible. Whilst this isn’t a discussion on how we could argue that the word has been appropriated from People of Colour and LGBTIQA+ cultures, it is important that our frivolous overuse of slay is used with the understanding of its historical implications. So go forth with confidence, and slay besties.

8 Thompson D. Is the Internet Changing How We Talk about Slang words? [Internet]. In The Know. 2022. Available from: https://www.intheknow.com/post/slang-wordstiktok-gen-z-linguist/

9 Curtis S. How TikTok Is Changing the Way We Speak [Internet]. The Daily Mail Online. 2022. Available from: https://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-11262889/TikTok-changing-way-SPEAK-phrases-like-quiet-quitting-le-dollar-bean.html

10 Fligler L. TikTok Slang Businesses Need to Know [Internet]. yellowHEAD. 2023 [cited 2023 Apr 22]. Available from: https://www.yellowhead.com/blog/tiktok-slang-and-marketing/

The Instructor’s Nickname Was Crash.

Words by Erin Constable @erinconstable

After several delays for the long-awaited jump day, I finally fell out of an aeroplane (voluntarily).

The weather on this day had no excessive wind, so I wouldn’t be blown away into oblivion, and no chance of heavy rainfall to reduce the effectiveness of the parachute. It was perfect.

My parents and my brothers came along to watch the spectacle. I am sure they wondered how many thousand feet away they would be able to hear my screaming from. The banter in the car ride was slightly morbid and included a birthday card from my younger brother saying ‘I hope you jump out of a plane today’ with no other words. It was ominous.

I listened to the instructional guides, met my instructor (his nickname was Crash, so naturally I was filled with confidence) and donned the truest form of parachute pants you will ever see, complete with vibrant blue and yellow stripes. There were goggles to complete my outfit, which had the opposite effect of the wide leg pants, as they sat so tightly on my face they slightly bruised my eye sockets. The goggles also have had an everlasting effect; I don’t ever show anyone my skydiving video out of sheer embarrassment of the way they contorted my face.

It was then time to board the tiniest aeroplane imaginable. The only thought that ran through my head was how small planes crash more frequently. The only crash that occurred on this day was my bony ass into the hard ground during landing because I cannot follow simple instructions.

The plane took off and started its ascent to 15,000 feet above Lake Nagambie. It was when we reached this point that a solid lump had formed in my stomach, a lump that continued to grow as I watched a team of professionals casually leap out of the plane. They would front flip, backflip and hold hands, all while they freefalled.

I was almost solid by the time it was my turn. Crash, who at this time was very securely strapped to my back, took us to the gaping hole in the side of the plane and then calming spoke into my ear.

“Erin, I will count from three and then we will jump,” he said.

Crash then dangled (and I mean dangled) my body, which was still completely stiff with nerves, out of the hole while he held onto the makeshift doorway.

I heard the number three, and then Crash and I were plummeting from 15,000 feet high at a speed of 250 km p/h to the ground. Crash never said the number two, or one, or jump.

Naturally I screamed, then quickly learnt it hurts your mouth to scream when falling from that height. Then, surprisingly I felt weightless and even began to enjoy the chaos. It seemed like the longest ten seconds of my life.

I felt a jolt and then the parachute was deployed. Crash let me manoeuvre the direction of the parachute so that I could take in the entire view. Everything does look better from a higher angle, both in selfies and in nature.

Before long it was time to land. As I foreshadowed earlier, I did not have a smooth landing. My mistrust in Crash’s communication skills extended to my apparent inability to listen to instructions. So, when we landed on the ground it was a solid thump. The shock was taken almost entirely by my very un-padded bum. This also bruised, which let it match my eye sockets.

I ran over to my family to talk about how much I loved free falling out of the sky. My Dad was so excited to show me the videos and photos he took of me up in the air. Turns out he took pictures of the wrong parachute.

Photostory: Street Art

@Faithsprays Corner of Degraves St and Degraves Place, CBD

Photography and Captions by Fae Gehren @faerietale99

Ann Street, Brunswick

@Scottie.marsh Ann Street, Brunswick

Ann Street, Brunswick

Baxter, Honey Bones

Gallery, Ann Street, Brunswick

Jeswari Ann Street, Brunswick. Unnamed alley next to Honey Hones Gallery

Honey Bones Gallery, Ann Street, Brunswick

Confessions from Chaotic Contiki Tours

Words by Gloria Lau @yc_gloria

Emma’s Edinburgh Escapade

I purchased a plane ticket from Spain to Edinburgh and stayed a week at a guy’s apartment; a guy who I met in a hostel kitchen in Barcelona for less than 5 hours.

It didn’t seem scary to me until later. It was “A Midsummer Night’s Dream” very spur of the moment, very European, so dreamy that I could never forget. I was in Spain that whole July for an internship that I applied through my Journalism degree with Monash University. Not only did I order a pistachio gelato with my broken Español, but I also met this guy, Ivan, at the hostel. I decided to travel all the way to Edinburgh (by myself) and stayed under his roof for a week.

I wasn’t even scared of being held captive in a foreign country, and for that courage, I got the best whiskey I have ever had and six consecutive rare sunny days in Scotland.

Indigo’s Italian Intuition

“Feel free to come out of your room and have some marijuana with my friends and I!”

That’s what my Airbnb host and his two adult friends asked me the night I stayed in Bologna, Italy. I decided to stay in what feels like a half-way city, after I parted ways with my other Monash friends. Home to the best strawberry cheesecake gelato I could ever ask for, the city was amazing.

I decided it wasn’t safe to join the party in the living room because I was all by myself, and they were three adult men, so I did what a normal Asian girl would have done locked myself in the room and slept like a baby.

NOTE: Names have been changed for anonymity.

Becky’s Barcelona Beat

“That’s some cute pyjamas you are wearing!!”

“Cool, cheers! I am from Melbourne!”

“Awesome! I’m from Sydney!”

“Wow, what a coincidence!”

“Have a goodnight!”

This adorable conversation was screamed out loud between myself and a random Aussie guy I bumped into outside of a night club while I was on a rescue mission, in the middle of the night, on the awry streets of Barcelona.

I was on my way to find two of my Aussie girlfriends, who my other friends had assumed left the club three hours earlier, before the rest of us. Apparently for the drunks it was more like three minutes rather than three hours.

Turns out they didn’t leave the club. An hour after their supposed departure, the rest of us had returned to our hostel. One of the drunks, Zoe, called me. She was shouting into the phone, saying some Spanish grandmother was angry at her, and the other drunk, Tara.

Cut to my darling pyjama conversation when I had to return to the nightclub and dazzle the Abuelita with my half-broken Spanish. I got my girls back safe and sound, though.

Talia’s Tinder Triomphe

The easiest way to acquire a free tour guide for Paris is Tinder.

I didn’t get a SIM card in Paris so I had to confirm the time and place to meet my beau before leaving the house. Having no data was bad enough, but when my phone hit 0% battery power, part of my heart died with it.

I couldn’t get a hold of the guy I was supposed to meet in front of this museum. Luckily I described myself beforehand: hairstyle, outfit, bag. Not to mention I was almost the only Asian there at that time, so he found me pretty quickly.

We walked around, telling each other our life stories. ‘Before Sunset’ really hyped me up for Europe. Then I took him to a second-hand bookstore I really wanted to visit. The smell of old books and wood cupboards are my favourite scent in this world. While I was searching for ‘Plato’; he was busy laughing over some silly comic book.

I guess he was “tired” after reading the comic (that realistically didn’t require much brain energy) and wanted to take me somewhere for a nap. Sounds legit… not! I politely told him I wasn’t feeling sleepy at 4pm, and so I ditched him. Luckily he didn’t follow me back to my hotel.

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