New Found Hope

First 90 Days

The time of year that people give thanks for all their blessings is drawing near. I am also approaching my six months in FA. When I reflect on my personal growth during these past few months, I genuinely am “amazed” before I am halfway through, just as the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous promises.

Last year at this time, I was gravely ill. I was facing surgery for kidney stones, suffering from fatty liver disease, a “c-diff ” infection, high cholesterol, epilepsy, lupus, and osteoarthritis. I had eaten my way up to 217 pounds and was so completely miserable, I didn’t have any desire to go on.

I was ill all through the holiday season. My physician cautioned me that, if I didn’t take action and lose weight, I wouldn’t be around much longer. Luckily, my daughter in California called me and said “Mom, I think I have a program you might be interested in.” She explained that one of her coworkers had been in FA for a number of years and was successful. That Saturday, I called a taxi and went to my first FA meeting. I sat right up front and listened intently as the leader qualified and others shared stories about their personal struggles with food. I have since realized that I am a food addict, and that I have found a place where I can receive guidance and support from people that share my disease.

I made sure I got a sponsor and have maintained my abstinence since that day. During the past six months, I have faced some major life issues, such as moving out of state, and the death of my beloved dog. I’ve dealt with these issues, made sound decisions with mental clarity, worked my program, maintained my abstinence, and stayed focused.

I have lost 40 pounds and my health is dramatically improving. My doctors are impressed with my progress. I know I will continue to feel better if I follow the simple precepts of this program that have been given to me.

I also have a renewed sense of faith in God. My faith continues to develop as I live my life, surrendering one day at a time. I am so grateful for my fellows and the organization that provides me with opportunities to give back what I have so freely been given. I am now filled with a new-found hope, free from fear, doubt, and insecurity. This is truly my season of gratitude.