Brave Trip
Angel Kuo 1
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Life is a journey, not a destination. 2
About the Author
I am Angel Kuo and was born in1993. Now, I am a fourth year student from Wenzao Ursuline College of Langauges who major in English and minor in French. I love reading because I find myself in the world of books.
On the
other hand, I am a thrill seeker, love to test my limits.
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Prologue If you are diagnosed with a terminal illness, what will you do to in your remaining life? Kathy, a thirty years old woman, suffers from gastric cancer in the prime time of her life.
Will she
immerse herself in sorrow or wipe off her tears to do something meaningful?
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Content CH 1: Death Penalty………………….P.6 CH 2: Brave Trip……………………….P.12 CH 3: Best Friend…………………….P.16 CH 4: First Love……………………….P.24 CH 5: The End…………………………P.30 Acknowledgement…………………P.33 Synopsis………………………………….P.34
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Chapter 1 -Death Penalty I am Kathy, a thirty years old woman. Many people say thirty years old is a very meaningful age for women because it’s like a turning point; we will change into a different stage at this age. However, my life doesn’t seem to follow this theory. Few weeks ago, I had a sharp pain in 6
my stomach and then, I fell down and fell unconscious as well. When I wake up, I saw my mom holding my hands and constantly said, ” Why it’s you! My dear God, please tell me.” On the left hand side, it was my sister, and I had no idea why she continuously cried. “A…. Am I alive?” I asked agitatedly. I tried to touch my mom’s face to make sure I am alive. “Kathy, I won’t let you leave! I have confidence on you. You can defeat
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those horrible illnesses.” My mom replied unreasonably. “Mom, what’s going on?”I asked her anxiously, “Is there something happened to me?” Suddenly, there is a man wearing a white coat without any expression came to me. “You have suffered from gastric cancer. Unfortunately, it’s the end stage. I am sorry to tell you,” said the man. He was like a judge to announce the death sentence to me. I didn’t have
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enough vigor to retort him. Everything was too untrue to believe for me. “How long can I live?” I tried to be calm. “No more than three months,” The man said indifferently and then left. What? My life will be ended in three months? These words were like millions of needles stabbed straight into my heart. I had a bright future, but it was useless now. I was too astonished to say anything. However, I decided to put myself up when
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I saw my mom and my sister crying despairingly. “Honey, I… don’t know… how to …live... without……you, so… you should …try hard to be… alive, please!” My mom paid all her efforts to finish her saying. “Come on, you know I am so intelligent that I can defeat any kinds of challenges, and so do this time.” I pretended to be ignorant of it. I wanted to comfort them, so I made a smile reluctantly and hided my shocks
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and sorrows behind it. I understood the challenge of this time would not be so easy to overcome, and then my tears fell in my heart.
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Chapter 2-Brave Trip Until now, that day in the hospital is like a dream for me, but I can accept this unexpected shock gradually. However, the only thing that I refuse to do is seeing a doctor. I don’t want to be treated with some disgusting pills and useless operations. Honestly, “doctor” is nothing in my life because I hate them, 12
especially for their attitudes. They always use arrogant and egotistical attitude to treat their patients, but I need to pay numerous sums of money, and listen to their nonsense. It’s Bullshit! I will never make myself fall into this trap. What’s more, I don’t want to spend the remainder of my life in the hospital and wait for dying.
I must do something
meaningful to end my life with no regrets. Therefore, I decide to start a journey which I have planned for a long time.
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This journey is called “Brave to love”. In this trip, I will visit some people whom have ever influenced me, whom I have ever hurt, and whom I have ever loved. I would like to say “sorry” and “thank you” to them. Sorry for the hurt which I have brought to them; thank for the joy which they have brought to me. I take one piece of paper and list several names. Eventually, due to my dying body, I choose three persons that I definitely
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need to see before I die.
They are
Anna, , and Frank respectively. Then, I begin to search their phones, their address, and the place where they are working now.
I use my working ability as
before to find them efficiently and also finish my budget plan in a short time.
It
reminds me that I had been a capable manager who worked in foreign business corporation. However, right now I am just nobody no matter how high position I have ever reached before.
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Chapter 3-Best Friend The first person I will visit is Anna. She was my best friend ever.
We studied
in the same junior high and senior high school. Every morning, we would go to school by riding bicycles together.
After
school, we would study together in the cram school. She is a righteous girl and speaks very bluntly. However, she is so
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different from me. I am serious, but she is outgoing; I prefer peace, but she likes aggressiveness; I always stand in other shoes, but she cares herself more than others.
I think the reason why we could
match each other well is our differences. I remember once, I fell over in a running contest, and there were some people mocking at me. She was the first person to help me up, and she responded them with a stream of cuss words. After this accident, she picked me up to school and
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back to home every day. At the thought of the past, there is a feeling of melancholy in my mind. On the way to her house, I look back on those beautiful memories we had ever been. Nevertheless, I will never forget that day we had a fierce quarrel. “Why you are recently always being with Mandy? Am I not your best friend anymore?” I said. “Kathy, you are so sensitive. Sure, you are my best friend now and forever, but It’s
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not illegal to have other friends,” She tried to conform me. “But I can’t stand… I will be jealous if you get other friends,” I said with crying. “Why can’t I make new friends? I am not your boyfriend! I have right to make friends and so do you,” She said furiously. “You change… you have changed,” My voice trembled with sadness and anger. I can’t remember what had been going to happen, but I only memorize we haven’t talked anymore until now.
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Finally, I find her house base on my memory. I heard about she hasn’t moved her house and the source is from one of our common friend. The house hasn’t changed at all. It is still pained by blue which is her favorite colors.
After I
park my card, I see a chubby woman walking toward me with astonishing sight. I am too nervous to speak. I am sure she is Anna. Although her appearance has changed, there are still some connections among us.
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“Kathy?” Anna speaks first. We embrace and mingle our tears. “Sorry and thank you,” I said with fixed feeling. Suddenly I have a pang in my stomach and then I want to vomit.
I am like a
drunken person who can’t control himself. Anna immediately supports me with her arms and leads me to her house. She is still the person who understands me most. When I have some strange behaviors or some wrong expressions, she will know
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what she should do next. I explain my disease to her and also the purpose of visiting her. After I feel better, we go to the places where we have ever been, the schools, the restaurants, and the roads.
It seems
like we go back to that time, but the difference is our changes. After these years, I have understood the definition of a good friend, and she becomes more mature and more moderate. The next day, we use huge hugs to say goodbye,
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and I am going to take the train and leave for the next stop.
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Chapter 4-First Love On the train, I recall the memory between Frank and me. Frank is a wonderful man, but he was deeply hurt by me. We met each other in the pop music club of senior high school. At the first time I saw him, I had a strongly annoying feeling toward him. I can promise he is definitely not my ideal type
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of man. I didn’t like his golden hairs; I disliked his strong muscles; moreover, I hated he loved to flirt with women. However, God is fond of teasing me. We were assigned to the same group. In addition, he was the leader, and me, I was the deputy leader.
What a fabulous
combination! I supposed it was the orchestration of God because we became closer day by day. I discovered we were in common, which both of us loved jazz-rock; both of us disliked vegetables
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but liked salad; both of us were willing to sacrifice for the one we loved. Therefore, we fell in love immediately, and it was my first love. Actually, everyone who heard about the news couldn’t imagine it because on the surface, it seem we were far away; however, below the surface, they never knew how matched we were. He loved to ride me on the bicycle and screamed “Kathy, you are mine.” ,and I like to hold him tightly and said,” No!
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You are mine.”
This childish game is my
forgettable memory. However, I left him mercilessly due to my mom’s objection. Finally, I arrive at the pub he is working for now. He forms a band and becomes a famous pub signer now. As soon as I pass the gate, I recognize Frank. He is singing at the stage as a super star. He doesn’t change at all; he has golden hairs and is still a dandy to flirt with his fans. When I see him, my fears come up to confuse me.
“Will he forgive me?”
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“Will he yell at me?” “ Is it really right to put him on my list?” Numerous questions appear in my mind.
Therefore, I decide
don’t talk to him face to face due to my misgivings. I request a song called “This Girl”, which he composed for me as my birthday gift. He reads the paper with full of astonishment. He uses his eyes to look for me, but he doesn’t succeed because I cover my face with a hat. As soon as he sings, my tears fall.
“She has
small eyes with big mouth, but I like it.
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She isn’t slender, but I love it. ……” His eyes are full of tears when he sings. I write “Sorry and thank you. From Kathy.” on a paper and ask a waiter to forward it to Frank, and then I leave. At the moment I get out the pub, I burst into tears. Suddenly, many scenes from childhood to now are like a film broadcast in my brain. Suddenly, I discover I can fly freely as a bird.
I see Frank rushes
out and hold my body desperately. I know my life has completely ended.
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Chapter 5-The End There are billions of mistakes in our lives, and they are like bitter pills. Although they are difficult to swallow, they are beneficial for us. As mistakes, they are suffering to experience them, but after we hurt, we undergo them, we will learn from them. Before my death, I often recalled the
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time when I were a manager. At that time, I was like a busy bus driver with a routine life, riding the visitors and see them out. I didn’t have time and energy to admire the scenery outside the windows. Although I diagnosed with a gastric cancer in the prime time of my life, I believed it’s a gift from God.
He
wanted me to enjoy my life. Even though, my life has ended, at least I wouldn’t feel sorry for my life, and I would give my life an A+.
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Acknowledgement First of all, I would like to appreciate Mr. Smith. Even though his strict comments would make me frustrated, my writing skills have been improved because of his guidance and teaching. Then, I am grateful for my classmates in the writing class as well. Thank for their help when I face difficulties. Without them, I can’t accomplish this tough work.
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Synopsis Kathy, a thirty years old woman, suffers from gastric cancer in the prime time of her life. However, she doesn’t immerse herself in sorrow instead of starting a journey. The journey is called “Brave to love”, to visit some people whom she has ever hurt, and whom she has ever loved and say “sorry” and “thank you” to them. Although she can’t control the length of life, she can extend its depth.
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E44A Angel Kuo Instructor: Mr. Kenneth M.Smith Wenzao Ursuline College of Languages Kaohsiung, Taiwan June 12, 2013
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