Love Diary
Ruth Huang 1
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About the Arthur
Ruth
Huang
was
born and raised in Chunghua,
Taiwan.
Her hometown is not big, but it brings her a lot of unforgettable memories. She left her hometown when she was fifteen years old.
She wants to experience if she
can be independent without her family, so she decided to come to Kaohsiung.
She makes it and also she starts her
relationship here.
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Content Introduction………………P.1
Chapter One………………….P.4
Chapter Two………………….P.7
Chapter Three………………….P.18
Chapter Four ...................P.30
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Introduction If you have seen the following movies: “Twenty-seven Dress” and “The Princess Diaries”, you might have noticed the scene where two characters were kissing when they think they are not suitable for being alone and decide to spend their rest life with each other.
Whether you feel
this is touching or not, you probably saw the female character moving her legs in order to show us that this guy 5
was her Mr. Right who she found in the end. When I was watching these films, I was thinking when I am kissing my boyfriend, will I do the same action like the female character in the movie? Is he my Mr.Right? In this novel, there are two main characters who have different childhoods and opposite characteristics. The female character is Daisy.
She had a good
memory of her childhood because 6
her family all cared about her and she didn’t need to worry about money. On the other hand, the male character is named Gatsby. His mother left him when he was just eight years old. He saw his father physical and mental abusing to his mother and he really wanted to rescue her. He didn’t know why his father wanted to hit his mother and he was afraid that maybe one day his mother would leave this family and 7
never come back. One day, he went to the bus stop to pick up his mother and he had been waiting for three hours when his uncle told him that his mother had already abandoned him and he needed to stay with his father. He realized that from that day of his mother were nor able to accompany with him during his whole life. Although he had a very terrible childhood, he didn’t hate his father or mother. He knew that his 8
father had a mental disease and his mother could not suffer his longer tolerate. He said to himself he wouldn’t do these kinds of things to the girl that he really likes. In his mind, if he really likes the girl, he would protect her and absolutely not hurt her. Even though Daisy had a beautiful childhood, she also had some problems in her mind that she hid that she hid deeply.
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Chapter One On the Internet On June 21st, 2009, it was a sunny day but in my mind it was raining. My name is Daisy. I’m almost eighteen years old but really seventeen.
I found my ex-boyfriend
cheating on me last night. I am very disappointed right now because I don’t know if I need to leave him or not. Can I trust this guy and give him a second chance?
However, he refuses
to answer my phone and then sends me 10
a text message about breaking up with me. He said that we were not suitable at all so he can’t keep holding my hands forever. I am so confused because I don’t know what’s the matter with our relationship I call to my best friend to tell her this bad news and she tells me just let it pass, keep walking in my life. I know every words my best friend told me, but I am just wondering that why I can’t find a man who really loves me and is willing to take care of 11
me forever. Until two days later, June 23rd, 2009, I meet my boyfriend through Internet.
On June 21st, 2009, it is a sunny day and today is my one hundred and fifty days to search the real girlfriend through Internet. My name is Gatsby. I’m almost twenty-three years old but truly twenty-two. I was hurt by my ex-girlfriend because she said we are not suitable for each other and our 12
distance is longer than before. I don’t know what happened to her and suddenly we just broke up. I really want to find a girlfriend who truly want to accompany with me and is willing to stay by my side when I am facing any difficulties in my career and my life. I have tried to use Internet for half of a year in order to find this kind of girl. However, they are not sincerely and think that I am a crazy guy. Once time I invited a girl to have a cup of coffee 13
outside the Internet. She said ok to me and we decided to go to eighty-five degree coffee shop. When I went to that place, I saw a totally different girl from the on-line pictures. I was so disappointed because she lied to me. I don’t mind her appearance is good or bad, I only care about her mind is pure and optimistic. From that disaster day, I never went out with a girl until June 23rd, 2009. I meet my girlfriend through Internet. 14
Chapter Two The Meeting Time On June 22nd , 2009, it is a sunny day, but I am very terrified about tonight’s first meeting. Two days ago, I just surfed on the Internet and went to chat room to see that why people all like to come to visit. I remembered that I just typed a Chinese nick name, heart broken, because I am really in a bad mood and pretty sad situation, in order to get permission to surf this website. Suddenly, a person rang me by typing 15
this sentence “Are you single?” I was very confused because I didn’t know why this person wanted to break my silence. I responded “Who are you? Do you really care my answer?” A few minutes later, this guy didn’t type anything and I still had no idea who this guy is. While I am thinking that perhaps I need to move out, this guy just sent a message for me and asked my feeling about love. I just broke up with my boyfriend in a very miserable 16
way then, definitely my answer is dislike. This stranger asked me if I need love or not. I responded “I don’t need love because I don’t believe it.” For five minutes, I couldn’t type anything to support my previous idea. The reason is because my screen showed the following sentence “Everyone has the right to have the happiness.”
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and I have a very special feeling in my mind because I have a meeting tonight. Two days ago, I went to the chat room to find my ideal girlfriend in these common days. While I was thinking that who I want to ring, suddenly a stranger’s name came into this room and her name makes me feel she is a special girl. I tried to type these following sentences: “Hello, my name is Gatsby and I am willing to hear your sad story. Are you single?� After 18
few seconds, the screen just show “Are you single?” At that time, I thought that I made a big mistake and the girl wouldn’t respond me anymore. Perhaps, she would just move out this room. Fortunately, she didn’t move out instead of answering my question angrily. I could understand her anger because she didn’t know the real me in the reality. I began to consider that why this girl carried on so much sadness. Although we didn’t know 19
each other very well, I just feel very confused about this girl. Finally, I decided to ask her feeling about love because I thought that probably I can know more about her. So I typed “What’s your feeling about love?” Her answer seems that I am asking a garbage question to her. Then I ask one more question: “Do you need love now?” I believe love although I was hurt many times. I never abandon love because love didn’t abandon me. 20
So when she said she didn’t need any love, I just told her what I believe in love is everyone has the right to have it. We didn’t finish our topic of the definition in love. Both of us agreed to meet each other in the reality on June 23rd.
On June 23rd ,2009, I saw the weather forecast on TV last night and it is said that today will be a sunny day, but the truth is that it’s raining all day long. 21
When I am sitting in the classroom, I don’t pay attention on what the teachers taught instead of thinking what will happen tonight. This is my first time to meet a friend from Internet, but not from the real world. Many people said that Internet is fake and it is very dangerous to make friends from there. I just don’t believe this kind of saying, just like I don’t believe love will have the element of happiness. Honestly, I’m not very good at making friends 22
with people because some unbelievable reasons which I don’t even want to say it aloud. I am extremely nervous about tonight’s meeting. There is no clue to show me that what kind of this guy I met on the Internet. I can’t stop thinking that “Is this guy a girl or a boy?” “Is he old or young?” These kind of questions just come out of my brain so that I am not able to eat my lunch and take a nap well. I have his phone call number. I know I can call 23
him, but I don’t know why I don’t want to do this. Maybe it’s because I don’t really have a lot of expectation on this stranger. I was once hurt seriously by a boy. I sacrificed my time with friends, my chance to go abroad to study and my youth in order to show him that how deep I love him and his importance in my mind. When I loved this bad man, my friends told me that I was too foul to do all of these things. If I need to cut off my time and 24
freedom to love him, then the quality of this love would change very soon. I have to admit that my friends’ perspectives are right. They discovered the fact from me at that time I was hidden by his sweet lies. Although my heart is broken, at least we aren’t married yet, and I am sill young. That’s the only thing I can comfort myself to reduce my sadness. That’s why I don’t have much wish about tonight’s meeting, but in the other 25
hand, I still hope that we can be friends. When the school ring remains me that the class is off, I ran very fast to get ready to go to the meeting early. Our meeting place is in my school. I go to the front door to wait for him. Also, I put my cell phone in my coat pocket because I guess that perhaps he will call me when he arrives there. After all, we don’t know each other. At six-thirty P.M, my cell phone rings and I see him. At that time, I really want 26
to run away, but I don’t instead of staying.
On June 23rd, 2009, when I wake up from my beautiful dream, I see the outside environment from my window is raining. I’m not so sure if it is a signal that tells me today I will have a bad day and warns me that I’d better not to go to the meeting. After I finish my breakfast, I take out my cell phone and search telephone books to find the 27
girl’s phone number. I want to cancel the meeting because I am very tired of lying so many times. I don’t give up finding the true love for me, but I hate lies. While I am thinking if I want to cancel the meeting or not, suddenly I see the symbol of Nicky and let me think about its slogan “Just do it!.” So I decide to try again and persuade myself that this time will be different and the consequence is not doubtful. While I’m working in my office, I am 28
so exciting and can’t concentrate on my working. I try to tell myself that do not have a lot of expectation because the more you expect successfully, the more you feel disappointed. So I try very hard to pull my concentration back to my job. When I finish my working, I go to the meeting. I arrive in that meeting place early than six-thirty P.M. I don’t call the girl as soon as my arrival. I keep waiting her to show up. Suddenly, a middle-high girl walks into 29
my eyes. Honestly, she is not very beautiful and not very thin, but she has a clear appearance and white skin. I don’t feel any disappointment and feel that at least this time this girl doesn’t cheat on me. Finally, I decide to call her to make sure that I don’t recognize the wrong person. While we are meeting with each other, I can feel that she really wants to run away from me. Fortunately, she doesn’t do that cruel thing for me. Otherwise, I will be 30
very embarrassing at that moment. After we finish our supper, I drive her to see the sea and the night view. While I am driving, I say a lot of finny jokes to her and she gives me a lot of positive responses. I can feel that she is a quite interesting and talkative girl. We decide to see each other when she wants to find somebody to say something. After that day, we become very close friends.
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Chapter Three In Our relationship On August 8th ,2009, today is a typhoon day, and the weather is very horrible. The worst thing is that I am still in my school. My hometown is not in Kaohsiung and I am from the other city to come here to study. The whole summer vacation I don’t go back to my hometown. The reason why I need to stay here is because I am one of the members in World Games and when I finish this course, I need to be a school 32
assistant in my school. I don’t think that I will face a huge disaster when I am not in my family instead of staying alone. While I am working in school, suddenly my colleagues come to tell me that a huge typhoon is coming and all the trains and public transportations can’t take. I can’t say anything and feel fearful. Also, my colleagues warn me to take my own packages as quick as possible in order to protect my life security. I just do what they ask me to 33
do, but in my mind, I have no idea about what can I do after I go back home. While I arrive in my apartment which I rent with my classmate but she goes back home. I keep thinking who is able and willing to help me. At the end, I think about him.
When I decide
to ask him to help me, I call him, but I am terrified that maybe he will think it is none of his business and refuses to help. Fortunately, he promises me that he will ask his best friend to drive his 34
car to take a ride for me because he only has a motorcycle.
When we are
at his house, I put away my package and take a short rest. I haven’t rested because I am in a hurry situation. I ask him to wake me up when he wants to have supper. However, both of us don’t feel hungry and keep sleeping because the temperature is really cold and we don’t want to move our body. At midnight, I feel that I get a fever. I wake him up and tell him that I want to 35
go to the hospital to see the doctor because of the fever. He tells me that the time is very late and there is no doctor, only emergency. He hugs me and I yell at him “Why you can touch me?” “It’s so rude.” Then he said he just want me to get rid of the high fever. He explains that he won’t hurt me and to hug me just want me to feel better through his body. I realize his kindness and let him hug me. A few minutes later, I feel very comfortable 36
and he said I can relax to sleep in order to get more rest. I am so tired and frustrated to fall asleep deeply. The next day, typhoon is still around Taiwan and we can’t go anywhere. So we decide to stay in his house and watch some DVDs to spend our long typhoon day.
While we are watching these
films, I just think that what happened last night. I know he didn’t cross the line although I have no consciousness at that time and he really takes good 37
care of me. At that time, I know I don’t want to be his friend anymore and instead of being a girlfriend who can accompany with him all the time.
On August 8th ,2009, I don’t have many works to do today because a huge typhoon is coming and my mind suddenly comes out of her, my close friend. I am not afraid of being alone because I get used to it. I am wondering if she will call me to ask my 38
help or not. I just want to pick up my phone to check her phone call, suddenly she calls me. I can feel that right now she feel fearful, but still she pretends that she is very brave. While she is asking my help, I am very happy that he calls me, not anyone else. I don’t refuse her asking and then find my best friend to do a favor for me- to drive his car to pick up her. After she comes to my house, I know that she is very tired of being fearful the whole 39
day. I promise her that if I want to have supper at night, I will wake her up. However, both of us are too tired to have the supper. At midnight, while I am having a bad dream, she shakes me and tells that she doesn’t feel well and it seems that she gets a high fever on her body. She asks me to take her to the hospital, otherwise she is afraid that she will become an idiot. I check my cell phone and it shows three o’clock. It is too late to find a doctor, especially 40
tonight is a typhoon night. I tell her that it is not appropriate to visit the doctor right now. I just remember that when I wan a child, my grandmother would hug me in order to let me get rid of the high fever. I follow my memory to help her, but I forget to tell her this so that she shouts at me and think that I am a 莊態. I ask her to calm down and explain that what I try to do is to help her and swear that I don’t have the second thought about her. 41
She trusts me and we just hug each other. She is a adorable girl because she keeps saying that she is very hot , but hug me tightly.
At that moment, I
really want her to be my girlfriend and I can introduce her to my friends, but I don’t know if she will promise or not. I just wish that we can become a couple one day. However, if she doesn’t want to accept me, at least she is a special girl for me and I will wish her to find a good boyfriend to take good care of her. 42
She is worth of a good man.
On September 2nd ,2009, our summer vacation is almost over and tonight I have a date with my best friend. It is a sunny day and the weather condition is quite nice. However, I don’t have a good mood instead of being sad. I am so complicated that why I can’t be his girlfriend, but just a normal friend. He said that in my age, I need to study very hard and concentrate on my 43
education. I don’t understand that why he can make a decision for my future. Every time, when I go to his apartment to watch some DVDs, we get closer and closer since the movie begins. While the plots of movies make me feel scared, I hold his hand tightly and never want to leave him and he does the same thing to me. Both of us never tell each other that we want to be a couple, not just only a normal friend. I try to do some actions to let 44
him know that I really want to fall in love with him, such as: clean his apartment with him and stay by his side when he feel frustrated and comfort him that everything would be fine. I do my best, but he seems pretending that he can’t see and feel it. At seven o’clock P.M, my best friend and me go to shopping mall to go shopping and have our supper. On our way, she feels that I am not very happy and a little bit sadness in my mind. She has 45
no idea that why I feel sad. So she tries to ask me that what happened to me during her trip to England. I tell her every details about how we meet with each other and what our relationship is between ours. At the end, she asks me and said “You love him, right?” I do love him and I don’t just want to be his normal friend. I want to be his close girlfriend. After a piece of silence, I tell her that I have no idea that what I can do to figure out my 46
own problem. She said if I care about my face, then let this man run away, I will regret it forever. She also suggests me that maybe I need to talk to him and tell him that I really like him an also ask him what his opinion in his mind. Around ten o’clock P.M, I decide to call him and get ready to tell him everything.
On September 2nd ,2009, today I am out of work early and I call her to ask if she 47
wants to have supper with me. However, she doesn’t pick up the phone and I have called her for five times. Still, nobody answers the phone. I don’t know that why she doesn’t pick up her phone. At this moment, I am thinking that perhaps we can’t be friends ever. I want to tell her that I love her and wish that she can be my girlfriend. I can’t do this because one of my girl friends asks me if I want to be her boyfriend and I already promised 48
her. I can’t betray my promise. In the other side, I wish that she can ask me ,but not that girl. I hate being alone and very tired of being alone. Every time when I am alone, I always think about her and let me feel warm. I just stay at my apartment to watch some stupid TV programs. I watch TV, but my mind is thinking about her and wondering that why she doesn’t want to pick up her phone. I almost fall asleep, suddenly my cell phone ring and I see 49
her phone number on it. I pick it up as soon as possible and she asks to see me in Zuo-ying station near my apartment. I said that I can pick her up, but she refuses me and her sound seems that she cried before. While I am driving my motorcycle, I begin to think if tonight is our last meeting. After all, we don’t have enough courage to cross the line. When I see her who is getting closer than me, I pray secretly in my mind that she won’t say “We 50
shouldn’t be friend anymore.” Fortunately, she doesn’t say anything instead of being silent. I try to ask her something, but she doesn’t give me any responses. When I send her to her house, she starts crying and said that she really likes me. She also doesn’t understand that why I don’t want to cross line automatically. This is the first time a girl cries for me. I am so shocked and touching because what she said is also what I want to said. I give 51
her a hug and tell her that I will go to deal with my own thing. I tell her that wait me for one week and after one week, I will come back to find her. She nods her head and said she will wait for me until I figure out my own thing. At midnight, I call her and talk to her for two hours. I keep telling her that I will come back as soon as possible. I know she trusts me just like the way she trusts me in the typhoon night. 52
Chapter-4 Our Wish On January 13th ,2010, we have been a couple for several months and until now we feel the happiness all day long. We feel that both of us are so lucky that we can meet each other and we can accompany with each other every time when we face difficulties. We share our life and the happiness with each other every day.
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the future, what kind of problems we will face. One thing we know is we 53
are very happy right now and every moments when we think about each other, our face have a big smile!!! ~The End~
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