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Learning to Forget Katie Regittko How do I learn how to forget The past ten years of my life?
10. I see trauma and fear Not playgrounds and friends Hands around my neck Instead of linked arms and four square. 11. I see calorie charts and Scrapbooks full of emaciated girls Not middle school and newfound hobbies. Who needs a hobby when you’re Flying so close to the sun? Icarus did too. 12. I see hours spent in the bathroom and Dictionaries full of excuses Not school dances and field trips. I spent my first kisses With death, Not people. 13, 14, 15, 16, 17. I can hardly remember my high school classes, But I can tell you how long you can spend In the bathroom after lunch before Your teachers get mad. Instead of attending homecoming, I’m coming home to run three miles Or binge and purge Or stare at the ceiling while my stomach growls. 18, 19. I see treatment centers and Ensures Not sororities and college basketball. My heart beats out of my chest because of malnourishment,
