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“Everyone loves a good mustache every once in a while, and it just enhanced the ridiculousness and the absurdity of the characters.”

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6 Know-it-all “People get upset, but they should just get a new ID.”

8 Better You “Elementary education majors should dress in sweats at least twice a week and take afternoon classes.”

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12 Student as Specimen “We’re the state school. Purdue can’t do it. They’ve got some godforsaken boilermaker.”

“Don’t wear white on a white background, because you’ll look like a floating head.”

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Online only Kilroy’s or the Vid? We placed as many majors as we could on a grid.

Take our quiz and see if you chose the right path.

“My brother may be a combat-hardened jarhead, but he dances with me during the opening credits.”

18 Accidental Tenor “This is the hard part. We know it. We know you know it. We can hear it in your voice.”

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or the past four years, my major has defined me. “What are you studying?” someone asked me last week. As soon as I said journalism, a look of concern flashed across his face. “Oh,” he said, no longer smiling. “Aren’t newspapers dying?” That hurt.

We spend countless hours of our day thinking about identity.

We scrutinize Facebook photos, combat stereotypes of our majors, and attempt to answer the ultimate college question: what do I want to do with my life?

No single label can capture our identity. Neither can one issue of a magazine. We tried. I hope this issue helps you think about identity in a new way. Who knows, maybe you’ll figure out that whole career thing, too.

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One rule for IU students. Reader-submitted responses to our survey. "Don't walk with shame. Don't walk with your nose up, either."

CONFESSIONS Anatomy of an anthem Know-it-all

Better You

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Two YouTube celebrities, seniors Daniel Weber and Brice Fox, talked to Inside about the true identity of their music video, “The IU Anthem.”

B Y ST E P H A N I E K U Z Y DY M P H OTO B Y Z AC H H E T R I C K In September, this duo released a song that captured the things people love, or love to hate, about IU. Months later, the this-is-why-we're-a-party-school video has more views than there are IU students.

What does your video say about Indiana University?

Brice Fox: Well it doesn’t say anything about Indiana University.

Daniel Weber: Right. It says something about the experience.

DW: I don’t necessarily think that the school would …

BF: ... want their name associated with it.

DW: Right. Some feedback has been like, ‘This makes IU look terrible.’

Alumni are like, ‘Where’s the tradition that I always remember?’ and stuff like that. It was more of just about the student experience and just kind of totally engulfing what everything is we go through, from parties to one night stands to whatever.

Is this the identity of the IU student?

BF: I wouldn’t say your typical.

DW: If you’re going to maximize your full college experience, you might have done all those things. It just brings back memories, and if you’re an alumni it’s like, ‘Ah I did go through some of that.’ Most people can relate to something we talked about.

BF: That’s kind of what we were going for is to get people to associate something in the song with themselves.

Our favorite lyrics Ima take this way back, past the gowns and crimson caps • So depressed. Missing Gresh, breakfast buddies were the best • IUPD oh my err body got that PI. Is she Greek or GDI? • Bleacher seats, Assembly Hall, five banners on the wall •

What’s up? How you living? Bossin’ with the cream and crimson • Out of state from Southern Cali, got her screamin’ Hoosier Daddy • In the back, Kilroys. Whiskey shots, yea boy. • I bet you miss some Bobby Knight, like missing class on Little 5 • Hoosier Nation come alive, D Web bring it back one more time

Haven't seen the video?

We posted it on our blog, Scoop, at www.idsnews.com/blogs/scoop. Or, you can watch it on YouTube.

What was the point of the mustaches? Were you guys trying to hide your real identities?

BF: Maybe a little bit.

DW: I don’t know. Everyone loves a good mustache every once in a while, and it just kind of enhanced the ridiculousness and the absurdity of the characters.

So, working on another video?

BF: We’re working on a big one right now.

So, who are you guys trying to portray with your costumes?

DW: I wish we could say we had something in mind, but it was just kind of like, 'Let’s go nuts with it and let loose.' The song is all about having fun and partying, and the characters we made, I feel like if they showed up to a party you would be like, ‘Oh that guy is awesome, I want to hang out with him,’ even though he has a creepy mustache.

BF: We got several e-mails that were like, ‘Hey, we’re having a big party at Eighth and blah blah blah and we would love it if you guys came in costume because we’re going to play the song over and over throughout the night.’ And, unfortunately, it was just so crazy that first week when we released it that we were just so swamped with stuff we had to do that we never made it. However, we did get some free shots at the bars.

DW: Still getting them.

Any hint? Is it IU related?

BF: Oh yeah.

DW: It will be ... family appropriate.

With this song it was kind of more for the students. With the next song we want to …

BF: ... broaden our horizons and reach as many people as possible.

DW: I don’t want to give away the topic, but it will be an IU video that is going to blow everyone’s minds.

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One rule for IU students. "You are required by law to high five everyone you know on the street."

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to see some ID Ever wonder what bouncers look for during the 30 seconds they scan your ID? We asked for their top 10 checks.

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Photo Believe it or not, a bouncer can tell the difference between you and another person.

They look at everything from bone structure to the shape of your nose and the size of your ears.

Name It might seem basic, but the names on your first and second form of ID must match. This isn’t rocket science, people.

Indiana got fancy with its new IDs. If the hologram along the front of the ID doesn’t show up, you’re not getting in.

Width/Height How does the card bend?

IDs from New York are so flimsy, you can roll them up. Fakes have different weights and widths, and are made of different materials.

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Most bouncers aren’t colorblind. They can tell the difference between blue and brown eyes. They also notice when you’re four inches shorter than your ID says you are.

This little heart isn’t just to inform medical personnel.

Bouncers will ask you about it, too.

Physical description

Barcode on the back New Indiana licenses come with a massive barcode. No barcode, no beer.

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TWO BARS, TWO TAKES ON FAKES Nick’s English Hut Nick’s shiftman Tony Dee says the bar spots about one fake a month. “More people try to just straight up ask you to get in,” he says.

In addition to using a blacklight and asking every patron a question, Dee says bouncers aren’t afraid to consult a book. “If there is any doubt at all, we have a book that you can look up any detail about any state ID,” he says.

The bottom line: Make sure your ID is up to par. If it’s not readable or if it’s questionable, you’re out of luck. “If they’re too bad, we normally don’t accept them, period,” Dee says. “People get upset, but they should just get a new ID.”

Kilroy’s on Kirkwood

Hologram

No matter how intoxicated you are, you should remember your street address and zip code. Bouncers might also ask you what neighborhoods you live by or what route you would take to get to a nearby city.

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Fake IDs often don’t have these dates on the back.

This one repeats the owner’s birthday.

This cardinal could be a Hoosier’s best friend.

Bouncers look for it on new Indiana IDs.

More often than not, the illegal IDs bouncers catch are real, but for the wrong person.

After checking information on both the front and the back of the ID, bouncers question about 25 percent of patrons, says doorstaff member Josh Hodgens. They can also ask for a third form of ID or defer to a manager if there’s a dispute.

“Most people know they’re underage and recognize when they’ve been caught,” says doorstaff member Alex Houlihan. “If it was really them, they’d give a bigger fight or ask to talk to a manager.”

A majority of fakes are from Indiana, but bouncers also see a lot from the East Coast and California.

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One rule for IU students. "If you are a senior, don't take Wednesday morning classes! You have to be at $2 Tuesdays at least twice a month."

BETTER YOU Don’t say cheese Confessions

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Since when did getting your picture taken require so many rules? Neutral or bold colors? Smile or no smile? We asked a few photographers for tips on how to take the best picture under any condition.

BY CAITLIN PETERKIN AND STEPHANIE DOCTROW I L L U S T R AT I O N S B Y M I C H A E L B U C H A N A N

Come as you are

Wear the right color

Remember your audience

Smile … and keep it there!

Strike a pose

Richardson Studio, a photography studio in Bloomington, tells its clients not to do anything radical with their hair. They might regret it when they see the pictures later. Also, it’s better to be pale than to prep by tanning. Too much tanning adds weight to the look of your face.

Tracy Hollon, a photographer at Campus Card Services, says it’s best to find out the color of the backdrop before you go. To flatter more skin tones, Campus Card Services switched from a white to a blue background for its University ID photos.

Anytime there's a white background, however, beware.

“Don’t wear white with a white background, because you’ll look like a floating head,” Hollon cautions.

Chad Swander of Chadon Photographers advises his clients to consider what they want to project with their pictures.

Think about who will see the photo and how you want to represent yourself.

Your purple hair might have looked great at the rock concert last week, but it probably won't work in your favor when a cop is deciding whether or not to give you a ticket.

True, you’re not allowed to show your teeth in drivers’ license photos. But, unless you have black teeth or a colossal under-bite, flash those pearly whites in University ID pictures. If you want to avoid a lifetime in the Campus Card Services awkward pictures hall of fame, then don’t become a “dropper.” Hollon says she and her coworkers laugh about the pictures that result from students dropping their smiles right before the flash.

Swander gives his clients this advice: pull your chin in, don’t slouch, and look straight at the camera. “A lot of people will tilt their head back and raise their chin because they think it’s what they’re supposed to do, and they look goofy,” Swander says.

AVOID IDENTITY THEFT Tips from Scott Wilson in the University Information Policy Office

Don’t store passwords in a text file on your computer, because someone will be able to access all of your accounts in one easy step.

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Information on campus computers is cleared every one to three days, so don’t worry about hackers being able to track your past keystrokes. Still, understand that IU computers are shared spaces and that if you forget to log off, you’re risking someone accessing your information.

A true story of identity theft in the dorms Junior Stephanie Barton shared her story with reporter Caitlin Peterkin.

Two weeks into freshman year, I checked my online bank account and noticed a lot of strange purchases: tickets to the Trans-Siberian Orchestra, an iPod case, wooden horses, and antique dolls.

When I called the stores to learn more, I found out multiple e-mails had been used for the online purchases. They all belonged to my roommate.

When I confronted my roommate about it, she told me she thought someone broke into her room and used her laptop. She knew the evidence pointed to her, but swore she didn't do it.

The police told me I could have pressed charges because the amount she spent was considered a felony. In the end, however, my roommate paid me back, and I didn’t file charges.

The lesson? Keeping your identity safe isn’t as simple as keeping your credit card numbers to yourself. It's easy to assume the best in people, but be cautious when your belongings are at stake.

Some words shouldn't be shared "In this case, it was a boyfriend who broke up with his girlfriend, and then she went on his account and dropped all his classes. There’s a reason we ask you not to share your password!” –Scott Wilson, University Information Policy Office

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You have 5 pending friend requests Creating a Facebook profile is like dressing up for Halloween. You can become anyone you want. Every tagged photo, quote, and "about me" section is a chance to invent a new identity.

We asked five students to let us raid their profiles. Try and match the profile picture with a name and blurb. We did the first one for you. Check your answers on page 21.

Start with a profile picture.

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Katie Weber, freshman

Sadie Martens, senior

Aanchal Sanghvi, A nchal Sang Aa ghv h i, sophomore

Then match those two with a profile.

Major: Sports communication Quote Quot o e from "about me": “If you laughin, then I’m happy” TV: “Fresh Prince of Bel-Air” Likes: Like es: Boston Celtics,, “Familyy Guy,” y, Vitamin Water Vit i W te

Major: Political science Bio: “If you’re from Africa, why are you white?”

Hometown: Johannesburg, South Africa

Music: Cheap Trick, Billy Joel, The Beatles Interests: Hershey’s Hugs, Cocoa Puffs, Indiana Hoosiers, driving around for no reason, coffee mugs

4 Fred Haley, junior Favorite quote: quo uo ote te: “killin me smalls” Likes: Indiana University Unniv i ersity Rugby, Chad Ochocinco, Ochocincoo, BtownMenus.com Hometown: “Cornstalk, Ohio, United States”

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5 Searle Slutzkin, senior Political views: Liberal “The Bio: “T The he Pittsburgh Pit itts tsbbuurgh Steelers S St teeeelers are the bbest. eesst.

Don’t telling D Do n’t even bother tte eelling because me they’ree nnot ot becau a se I will prove you ou wrong ou wro rong ro aand an nd make you cry cryy until you yo ou ag aagree ree withh me lol.”

Likes: Pizza, Pizzza za, “Family Feud,” Boston Red Sox

One rule for IU students. "It's OK to let people down. You don't have to live up to anyone's expectations."

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Be experienced. exper exp You mig might b be able to get your diploma wit without an internship, but you probably can’t get a job. Let’s take a cue from SPEA. Students are required to complete 200 hours of internship credit in order to graduate. Music students play in ensembles, journalism students spend their summers working for free, and business students travel around the country interviewing for a wellpaid gig.

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Informatics students live on LinkedIn, journalists tweet news on Twitter, and almost everyone logs way too many hours on Facebook. Social networking sites have become an important self-promotional tool for almost every student.

Networking has always been important, but now your online personality is just as significant as your real one. It’s time to de-tag those Little 500 photos on Facebook and delete your middle school MySpace page.

Invest in LinkedIn.

Soon we’ll be waking up at 6 a.m. and wearing business casual (or is it business professional?)

Take some time to play Halo, go to $2 Tuesdays, and nap in the Union.

An education student said it best: “Elementary education majors should dress in sweats at least twice a week and take afternoon classes.

We will be dressed up and up early every day for the rest of our lives.”

5 3 Make friends with your professors.

Everyone knows about office hours, but it’s not enough to stop by after a test. Many professors are happy to go out of their way to help students.

However, they’re likely not going to seek you out. Having a hard time getting started?

Robyn Roberts, a senior majoring in biology, says asking professors about their research never fails.

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Take topics courses.

Colleges are trying to keep up with changes in the field. We should, too. Learn about the hot-button issues in your field.

Informatics classes talk about Twitter and Facebook.

SPEA offers courses in community development. At the very least, you’ll be able to drop a few intelligent remarks in a job interview.

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rules for students Schools are made up of students and stereotypes.

But do good grades actually matter? Does a law degree guarantee a job? We wanted to know.

After talking to more than a dozen students in a variety of majors, we came up with a new set of guidelines for life as an IU student. Some rules are meant to be broken.

Just not these.

Be prepared for unemployment.

If you’re like us, you’re panicking that post-grad life will look a lot like pre-college life. You imagine crashing on your parents’ couch, raiding the fridge, and working a part-time job. Your parents are asking why you won’t go to law school. Take comfort in the fact that you’re not alone.

Justin Otani, a second year law student, says one of the biggest misconceptions about law school is that students will have no problem getting a job. “Right now it’s pretty tricky,” Otani says. “The legal market is pretty bad.”

Overachievers are the new underachievers.

Once upon a time, graduating from college was a golden ticket to employment.

Goodbye, bachelor’s degree.

Hello, triple major, double minor. You can’t just be a “biology major” anymore, says senior Jonathan Bell.

He’s a biology major with minors in chemistry and psychology.

He’s also in LAMP.

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Get a smartphone.

If you’ve ever showed up at a canceled class or missed out on a cool event because you didn’t check your e-mail, you’ll understand why this is one of our new rules. Senior marketing major Jennifer Russey said most people in the Kelley School of Business own smartphones. Her one rule for students: check your e-mail at least once a day.

“Kelley is always going so fast that if you’re not going with it, you’re holding other people back.”

Sub-rule: Don’t text (or e-mail) and walk. It will lead to some kind of awkward, public humiliation like running into the bike rack outside of Ballantine.

Check out the competition.

We’ve all heard that college is a chance to “find yourself.” Maybe, but college is also the time to find out what other people don’t have ... and then do it yourself. Nick Stevens, a junior percussionist in the Jacobs School of Music, explains that prospective employers are looking for “a musician who has their own sound.”

Law firms, Otani says, can afford to be selective. “You need to bring something else to the table.”

10 It’s never too late to start something new.

Need proof?

Read about Andy Lunsford on page 18.

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Studentcreated rules by department Graphic design: “No Microsoft Word ... ever.”

Business: “Don’t kiss ass.”

Accounting: “It’s OK to use your textbook as a sleeping aid.”

Journalism: “Don’t be afraid to be a creeper. It’s your job.”

To come up with our rules, we interviewed Jonathan Bell, Robyn Roberts, Justin Otani, Zach Gibson, Nick Stevens, Erich Rieppel, Chris Hall, Jennifer Russey, Jordan Silver, Ian Sundstrom, Debbie Papiernik, Emily Wolverton, Timothy Niggle, and Robert O'Loughlin.

dictionary of major terms The ultimate flowchart to help you choose (or reinforce your choice of) a major Do you expect to get a job right after you graduate?

Do you prefer Kilroy’s or the Vid? Which style are you most familiar with: APA, MLA, Chicago, or AP? These questions, and more, are critical to your choice of major.

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Senior Ted Timothy’s life story is anything butt ut average. But on paper, almost everything about gin, Ted — including his gender, age, ethnicity, origin, and even his college major — is typical.

ANALYSIS

How do you stack up to the average IU student?

Here's how the IU Fact Book describes the average Bloomington student.

Most common: Gender: Male Ethnicity: “All others.” This includes white, foreign and unclassified students.

Age: 20-24 Resident or non-resident: Resident Indiana county: Marion SAT Average verbal score: 576 Average math score: 599 ACT Average composite score: 27 Average credits per semester: 14.7 Receive financial aid: 62.7 percent of undergrads Greek/non-greek: Approximately 17 percent of IU students are involved in the greek system.

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Commitment.

Greek.

Binge-drinking.

Visit idsnews.com/inside to see a visual of the most common words used to describe campus.

n this There are more than 42,000 unique students on campus. But among the variation, Inside set out to seee if an “average” Hoosier exists. Is there someone who falls in the he way majority of every statistical detail, from gender all the to college major? lment We went number-crunching and looked at enrollment pus to data from the IU Fact Book for the Bloomington campus ooked try and generate a statistical mode of students. We looked vidual at the most commonly occurring responses from individual d madata sets for student origin, ethnicity, gender, age, and jor to create a profile of the most typical IU student1. nt to a Put all of the data together and the numbers point ar-old, person exactly like Ted Timothy. As a white, 22-year-old, male biochemistry major from Indianapolis, Ted is, on paper, the average IU student. dent is “I’m actually surprised that the most average student ught it a biology student,” Ted says. “I guess I would have thought would be a journalism student, or an English studentt maybe.”

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"It’s interesting to learn how things work in yourr own body and in the world," he says. suit of What the numbers don't tell you is that Ted's pursuit n high a biochemistry major didn't start in Bloomington. In ar, but school, he was offered a full ride to IU as a Wells Scholar, turned it down to study at Harvard. After a year on thee East Coast, Ted says he realized he didn’t belong there. hman “For me, a lot of the people I lived around my freshman year went out of their way to remind me where I came from, ew up and that I wasn’t involved in their world that they grew es,” he in, like private academy, East Coast, old-money families,” it says. “And it was a big disappointment because I was excited about being there and getting to know people, and people wanted nothing to do with me simply because I was from Indiana. That was really shocking to me.”

Ted says he decided to transfer to IU because his mother works at IUPUI, which made tuition cheaper. He says he also fit in with people in Bloomington.

“It was a good decision, pretty much from the start,” he says. “Once I was here, everything looked much better. I was happier. I felt like I could do a lot more with my time than I was doing there.”

Last semester he worked a graveyard shift at WIUX, the student radio station. He is also a member of the campus sketch comedy group, All Sorts of Trouble for Boy in the Bubble.

“I’ve always really liked doing comedy,” he says. “I think it’s really fun, it’s challenging, and you get to say what you want to say and make people laugh, which is great.”

Life in Bloomington works for Ted in a way it never did in Cambridge, Mass. Feeling alienated by the “average” Harvard student, Ted moved to where he was an average of his own and found his niche.

“I am someone who turned down the Wells Scholarship to go to Harvard, and then I dropped out of Harvard and came here. I don’t think you’ll find anyone else with that kind of story.”

— By Marc Fishman

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Compiling information on gender, age, and ethnicity was straightforward.

For student origin, we focused on the most common Indiana county because the majority of students are in-state. For academics, we looked at the most common major within the most popular school on campus.

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If these organizations created IU’s Facebook page, here’s what it might look like …

IU Admissions

U.S. News & World Report

Urban Dictionary

About me

“IU blends a vibrant university community with a small-town atmosphere to give you a quality of life that’s hard to match. You’ll quickly become part of the spirit and tradition of IU, an experience nearly two centuries in the making.”

“No one quite knows what a ‘Hoosier’ is, but a murky definition does not stop students at Indiana University-Bloomington from fiercely identifying with the term.”

“A school where students spend more time drinking than going to class. Regarded as the greatest party school that ever existed. Home of the Hoosiers, the most beloved sports team in the history of the world … Known for their amazingly good-looking females.”

Hometown

“Bloomington is the quintessential college town: a small city of 70,000 with cultural resources and opportunities that rival cities many times its size.”

"The Midwestern college town of Bloomington, or B-town, as it is known to many, is home to a lively cultural scene.”

“Located in Indiana, the least significant state in the Midwest, if not the entire United States,” or, “Located in Bloomington Indiana, the coolest place in the world.”

Interests

Playing Frisbee in Dunn Meadow, working out in world-class facilities, celebrating Latino culture at the Festival Latino, and volunteering in Bloomington

Greek life, NCAA Division I Big Ten Conference, Outdoor Adventures, Lotus Festival, IUDM, and Little 500

Little 500, Bobby Knight, partying, and basketball

*Sources: Information in quotes is pulled directly from the organization's website.

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Downtown Square

112 W. Sixth Street

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EXPERT TE TESTIMONY

Peer revi review Seniorr Ryan Short knows what t d prospective students want to hear. As a campus tour guide, Short tries to sell high school students and parents on IU in less than 70 minutes.

How do you decide what to show on your tour?

This campus is beautiful and it sells itself. Our goal is to make this campus feel like a home, and the only way to do that is to allow guides the leeway to talk about their own experiences, to tell their own stories, and to truly embody IU for our guests. It really doesn't matter how pretty a campus is, how good the football team is, or where your girlfriend goes to school. You need to get involved to be happy.

What are the most IU-esque things you see?

It's a lot of fun to point out things like the Bryan House, Beck Chapel, and the Dunn family cemetery, as all of these are things that aren't found on too many campuses. The greatest moment during tours is when students take it upon themselves to yell "Go Hoosiers!" to a group.

Guests get a kick out of students showing school pride.

If you had to pick one place that defines IU the most on campus, what would it be?

Why? I think this campus is different things to different people. I would say the Arboretum encompasses the spirit of Indiana, though. It's a place where you run into people you haven't seen in a while, can get some homework done on a sunny day, and it holds true to our values and priorities of green space.

More than four years ago, the IU Board of Trustees set a lofty goal: double the minority population at IU Bloomington by the 2013-2014 school year.

Now, more than halfway through the initiative, how close are we?

Minority students make up 16.2 percent of this year’s freshman class, a 3-percent increase from the previous year. But Mary Tourner, associate director for diversity programs, says that because of a change in the way students report their race, comparing previous years’ numbers to this year’s is like comparing apples to oranges.

As of last year, changes to the federal reporting guidelines now allow people to check multiple races instead of only choosing one race if they are bi- or multi-racial. According to Tourner, this has caused a significant increase in the perceived percentage of minorities in one year.

It's also caused ambiguity for administrators trying to measure progress.

“I think we’re going in the right direction,” Tourner says. “It’s not one person’s job. It’s everyone’s job to encourage diversity. In the classroom, in the clubs and student organizations, in the fraternities and sororities.”

Numbers tell part of the story, but they don’t tell it all. To understand diversity at IU, we have to look deeper. What does the word “diversity” mean?

Eric Love, director of diversity education, explains there’s more to diversity than ethnicity and race. He defines the word as “a representation of various people based on race, religion, sexual orientation, gender, abilities, age,” then adds that the list goes on.

Provost Karen Hanson defines it more simply: “variety, difference.” She says that while IU could use more racial and ethnic diversity, the University has a good balance of gender, socioeconomic statuses, and rural versus urban backgrounds.

Thousands of high school seniors learn about IU’s diversity each year. It’s commonly included in recruiting material, and the IU Office of Admissions devotes a page to it on its website. It boasts: “With students from all 50 states and more than 125 countries, IU is a culturally rich and ethnically diverse campus.”

Hanson says the University underscores diversity to show its importance.

“The goal of knowledge is furthered

by having a variety of perspectives,” she says. “That’s why diversity is valued in higher education.”

Some students, like senior Melody Barham, wonder if IU is as diverse as this promotional material suggests.

“I appreciate the attempt to show that there are different types of people,” she says. “But at the same time, it’s misleading.”

Barham, co-director of Multicultural Outreach Recruitment and Educators (MORE), enjoys showing prospective students what life is like at IU for minorities.

In her eyes, IU lays the groundwork for making diversity possible, with its cultural centers and diversity programs.

As far as ethnicity goes, however, the Gary, Ind., native says the school’s diversity is lacking.

Some students have noticed improvements. Senior John Parish, a member of the Sigma Chi fraternity, has seen diversity grow in his house since he joined freshman year. Breaking religious and ethnic stereotypes of the greek system, Sigma Chi includes men of Muslim, Catholic, and Jewish faiths as well as black1 and Asian students. Parish thinks diversity growth is a trend trickling through the entire greek system.

IU might never reach the ideal diversity numbers, whatever they might be, and we might never fully understand all that “diversity” represents. But sophomore Juan Cano, co-director of MORE along with Barham, wants IU students to know one thing: Diversity isn’t just skin color.

“When you come to Indiana University, you’re a Hoosier,” Cano says. “You’re not white, you’re not black, you’re a Hoosier.”

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Examining ethnicity Check out how IU compares to the state and the nation.

How to read the data: 4.4 percent of IU students, 9.2 percent of Indiana residents, and 12.9 percent of US citizens are African American.2 IU

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The IU Fact Book uses "African American," so we used the same term here.

Hispanic

Asian American

Sources: IU Fact Book, US Census.

PERTINENT QUERY

What’s up with bison running on the Memorial Stadium screen?

Hypothesis: The IU mascot is a bold, dancing question mark.

James Madison, an IU professor who teaches a class on Indiana history, has seen it all. He’s watched every attempted IU mascot—a guy in a cowboy hat, for example—falter and flop over the years.

One of the problems is that no one knows just what a Hoosier is.

“I think it’s very important that we disagree on what Hoosier means so that we continue to have this conversation.”

Point taken. Let’s continue.

If Madison could design a Hoosier mascot, he says he might pick the buffalo1, which is on the Indiana state seal. But he knows, too, that most animals are already tak-

en by other schools.

“Whatever animal you come up with, you’re repeating, unless you come up with a mythical creature with an Indiana identity,” he says.

He’s got a better idea.

“How about a pork tenderloin sandwich? Is this a question to be serious about, or humorous about?”

We’d like to know, too. Whatever the IU mascot could be, it needs to be rooted in something specific to Indiana, he says.

“We’re the state school. Purdue can’t do it. They’ve got some godforsaken boilermaker.”2 — By CJ Lotz

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The Hoosiers we interviewed used these two terms interchangeably, although bison and buffalo are technically separate species.

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Boilermaker: Someone who boils things? Someone who makes boilers? What’s a boiler? Your guess is as good as ours.

It starts with a thumping heartbeat and then brawny bison3 tear out of the state seal.

They clomp through the Sample Gates past the smiling Herman B Wells statue. They run up Fee Lane and clobber the logo of that week’s football opponent. And you can see it all on IU’s brand new HD stadium screen.

But what does the new football opening video have to do with being a Hoosier?

Here’s a surprise: The senior assistant athletic director for marketing grew up in Chicago when Michael Jordan was leading the Bulls. He’s a fan of wild running animals.

Patrick Kraft said he wanted to help develop a video that would energize students and alumni alike.

The song, “Baba O’Riley” often called “Teenage Wasteland,” provided the proper pump-up potential and slow buildup to make the crowds go Hoosier hysterical, he says.

“We get compliments from older fans and younger fans alike,” he says. “One older guy in his seventies said it’s the only time he stands up.”

the accidental

He lost a $6 million business, his house, and his cars.

He kept his family and found a voice.

As a 30-year-old freshman and the star of next semester’s opera, Andy Lunsford became

tenor.

By CJ Lotz | Photos by Zach Hetrick

The basement

was where he found his voice. Three years ago, in Colorado, Andy Lunsford walked down the stairs. He put on a CD he’d bought on a whim years ago from Target, “Lifescapes: Opera.”

It was the only opera music he owned, and he thought it would be a soothing break from what was happening in his life.

He was declaring personal bankruptcy, and he had a long way to fall. The granite business he’d started was on track to sell $6 million in countertops that year. In slacks and a tie at 26, the young entrepreneur employed 40 people. Now, with the economy crashing, Andy watched his world collapse. He would lose his home, his cars, and his credit. The only things left were his wife and two young sons.

So he listened to opera in the basement he no longer owned.

He enjoyed musicals growing up, but the only opera he’d heard was on spaghetti commercials. When he put on the CD, it was a blur of Italian noise. He closed his eyes, then started humming. Then he sang. Sounds, not words.

He tried to sing a phrase, but he couldn’t make sense of the language.

“So I just tried to sing along,” he says. “I was just trying to imitate how an opera voice was high and loud.” He could do it. Later he would find out he’s a tenor who can sing in three octaves without falsetto. It’s impressive for most singers to sing in two.

He liked singing high. It felt good when everything else in his life didn’t make sense. It was simple. He wanted more.

The next day, he and his dad drove to a music store.

“Have you got any opera songs?” He asked the clerk.

“Do you mean arias?” The clerk corrected him. “Which do you want?”

He hummed the first song that came to his mind.

“I think that’s Puccini’s ‘Nessun Dorma,’” the clerk said, walking over to the sheet music. It’s a familiar opera song made popular by Luciano Pavarotti. Andy had no money, so his dad spotted him $7 for the music.

At home, Andy propped the sheet in front of his computer, looked up Pavarotti singing it on YouTube, and followed along.

Finger tracing the lines, he started to read the notes. He hit all of them.

What happened next can only be described as remarkable.

Andy started singing in a local tavern, where his bankruptcy lawyer heard him and encouraged him to sing more. He auditioned for a local performance of “Thoroughly Modern Millie,” where he met Amy Stuemky, a fellow singer who just happened to run a boutique opera talent agency.

Andy asked Amy if she’d listen to him sing. They found a side room in the theater and Amy sat down. That was a good thing. She was overwhelmed by the power of his voice.

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Andy’s roles: young professional, music star, student.

“I turned to him when he was done,” she says, “and I said, ‘I don’t know if you believe in this sort of thing or not — I don’t even know if I do — but I think God made me take this gig just so I could meet you.”

She explained that he could take the easy “pop” opera route and make a living with scattered gigs. Or, he could study the true art of opera and have a difficult career with the pay-off of a trained, polished voice capable of performing in opera houses around the world.

Andy was up for the climb. Amy began introducing him to opera singers in Colorado, who agreed to teach him. Eventually, he met Ken Cox, a famed bass and voice professor at the University of Denver.

The first time he heard Andy’s untrained voice, he heard a future.

“The basic instrument that I heard when we first got together was singular,” Ken says. “I can’t think of another voice that I’ve heard in raw form with such screaming huge potential.”

Ken says Andy has the comfort in high notes (the famed high C is a breeze) that made Pavarotti the best. As a tenor, Andy’s high notes are his money notes.

Tenors are most often the male leads in operas and the highest-paid stars. Their notes are the ones that make an auditorium hold its collective breath. Ken knew Andy was headed there, but he needed training.

A graduate of IU’s master’s program in music, Cox helped Andy arrange an audition at his alma mater.

Andy prepared songs for a handful of colleges and got in everywhere he sang. Every school offered him scholarships.

But he’ll never forget his IU audition. He sang in front of professor Carol Vaness, a world-famous soprano.

Andy stood before her with nothing to lose. He’d lost it all already. So he breathed in and let go. When he stopped, Carol looked at the student assistant sitting next to her. She looked at Andy. Then back at the student.

“Can you believe that just happened?” she asked. “I can’t believe that just happened.”

Andy remembers thinking, “This is either really good or really bad.”

Carol picked up the phone and called the dean. Andy walked away with a full ride to one of the world’s most prestigious music schools. He was ready, and his family supported him. He moved his wife, Kenya, and their two boys away from their extended family and the only home they had ever known in Colorado. They were taking a risk on their dad’s voice. Together. In fall 2009, Andy became the oldest member of his class as a 30-year-old freshman.

The practice room

is full of beautiful girls with sweet voices, but Andy is the big guy with the big voice and the big smile. He takes all three up to the front of the room during his weekly master class with Carol and her other students. She owns the room in jeans and a baseball cap with white stitching: “Life is Good.”

When Andy stands in front of the piano, she takes off her hat and leans forward.

He breathes, and sings the first notes of a piece from “La Bohème” by Puccini. He smiles. This is why he’s here: to let everything go.

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“When I sing a high note, I just feel like I can breathe,” he says. “It’s as comfortable and as warm as taking a deep breath.”

This year, Andy decided to pursue a Performer Diploma instead of a Bachelor of Music degree. Although he enjoyed the general education classes, he can focus on performing and graduate in two years.

The high notes are no problem for him. He breathes through the song, chest rising, booming, beautiful.

Just like the first time he sang, music comforts him. “I can sing into the stratosphere with a full voice,” he says. “It’s always been easy for me. I came prepackaged with the top. A lot of people work for years to get those top notes.”

When he stops, he puts his confidence away, slides his hands in his pockets, and lets the criticisms fly. That’s what master class is for.

Andy knows he needs to work on blending his top, middle, and bottom voices.

“You love to sing in the place where most tenors have a hard time, but how do you come down from those notes?” Carol asks.

Audiences don’t want to be jarred by a voice that jumps around. Andy’s biggest project lately has been working on unifying his voice for a consistent sound.

He’ll need that confidence in February and March for “Faust,” his first major role.

He presses his hands, prayer-shaped, to his lips.

Carol tells him to retry the part where he lost faith and faltered slightly. “This is the hard part,” she says.

“We know it. We know you know it. We can hear it in your voice.”

With master class and a weekly private lesson, Carol will teach him how to come down from notes, how to even his tone, and how to build his confidence for the stage. But the stage is only one place where Andy has a role to fill.

The living room

is a joyful tornado. Colin, 9, is Andy’s older son. He’s sitting on the couch in a house on the far west side of town. Colin holds a Wii controller and plays Super Mario Brothers while Max, 6, loudly demands someone look at his “I Spy Pokemon” book. Like dad, he’s got the gift of projection.

Andy sits down on the couch with a cup of coffee, and Colin hands him a controller so he can join in. As Andy presses the buttons, Max clambers over him, a mess of growing sprawling limbs and a kindergarten smile. Dad wears a baseball cap and sweatshirt. They’re all boys together.

Near the couch stands a digital piano. The bookmarked “Faust” songbook sits on top. In the kitchen, Andy’s wife Kenya pulls a pan out of the oven. The smell of warm banana bread swirls into the living room.

Andy calls Kenya his strength. They married when he was 20 and she 21. She practices lines with him late into the night. The family has one car, a white SUV, and every day she drops Andy off on campus.

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G4

Middle C

B2

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Andy's range

'Take-your-breath-away' high C

Andy’s three-octave range (without falsetto) includes F5#, which sits comfortably above the famed take-your-breath-away high C. According to the New Harvard Dictionary of Music, the standard tenor range is in yellow.

While he sings, she works at home doing data entry for a little extra money.

With her small income and Andy’s full-time student status, the family lives on food stamps. They are methodical about planning meals and buying only the groceries they need.

This family has been rich in money before, and in hope now. Through it all, Andy and Kenya lead the boys in daily Bible readings. The boys still talk about Colorado, where their grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins live.

They support dad, but they all miss home.

Carol’s studio

requires an entrance fee. This week, it’s coffee and Hershey’s Miniatures. In their private lessons, Andy carries treats. She contributes world-famous soprano sass.

Andy brings songs and Carol breaks them into pieces. Words become sounds, which are just shapes of the mouth. Andy and Carol speak a language only they know. She tells him to “darken” his sound or “add a little ‘Otello’ to it.”

Andy is special to her. Without softening the crisp edges of her voice, she calls him “sweetie heart.”

She exudes that blend of skill and ice that only a diva can pull off. But the posters on the wall from opera houses all over the world and pictures — of her

Answers to Facebook quiz on page 9.

1. Aanchal Sanghvi. Blurb starts with "Political Views: Liberal."

2. Fred Haley. Blurb stars with "Major: Sports communication."

and Pavarotti, for example — show she’s sitting in a place she deserves.

And right now that place is on a stool, leaning on the piano, across from her protégé who is singing “Ah, la paterna mano” from “Macbeth” by Verdi.

As he moves his mouth, she mirrors.

She notices his head drooping. She speaks over his singing, but he knows what to do. Just sing.

“Keep your head up, sweetie!” she says. “Stay up!”

They both pull up their chests.

“Your voice follows where your head goes.”

She waves her hand side to side, then lifts it for him to notice. He lifts his chin and continues singing.

“Don’t squish! You have more low voice than anybody on this whole campus!”

His brows knit around earnest eyes, he sweeps his hand, sticking his neck out to keep his head up.

“Go for that beautiful open sound!” He puffs out his chest and lets the final note soar.

She claps frantically as he rounds out the last note. He kept his chin up.

Andy sweeps his arm across his body, holds it out, then lets it drop. He’s beaming. “I felt it!”

His mentor grins and looks him in the eye.

“Pretty damn good, kid.”

3. Katie Weber. Blurb starts with "Favorite Quote: "killin me smalls."

4. Sadie Martens. Blurb starts with "Music: Cheap Trick."

5. Searle Slutzkin, Blurb starts with "Major: Political science."

One rule for IU students. "Have fun, don't get caught, and don't forget the cool academic stuff on campus, too."

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Blake, 8, holds Caitlin, 5 months, after carving pumpkins.

From a young age, Blake wanted to be a Marine.

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The home front

For nine years, American forces have waged a distant war across the ocean. Now, as my brother prepares for his fourth deployment, that war never felt so close.

BY CAITLIN JOHNSTON

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olitical science students love to spout off about Iraq and Afghanistan. I sit in the creaking chairs in Woodburn Hall, in another afternoon of Comparative Foreign Policy, bristling as the kid with the sweater vest and the too-loud voice pontificates on Bush’s mistake and Obama’s inheritance. Then he goes back to checking Facebook and sipping his grande caramel macchiato.

The war is costing thousands of American deaths. But we calmly discuss it between gossip from last week’s football game and Saturday’s parties. Here in Bloomington, the sacrifice in Fallujah and Marja doesn’t bear down upon us. Our daily lives remain the same. Our routines cycle on.

I listen as students around me pass every judgment and air every complaint about battles that will never touch them. Most of the time, I keep my mouth shut.

But for me, the war is not a political debate. It’s my big brother.

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As I write this, Blake is a few days from deploying for his fourth tour with the Marines. At 28, he’s already served three times in Iraq. Now he’s on his way to Afghanistan. I don’t know where exactly he’ll be stationed, what he’ll be doing, or if he’ll come home.

But I can count on one thing.

Once my fear and frustration get to be too much, I’ll pop in another disc of “Gilmore Girls.” When Blake’s home, he and I sit on the couch watching and rewatching all seven seasons. My brother may be a combat-hardened jarhead, but he dances with me during the opening credits. He’ll tell you he likes the show because Lorelai and Rory Gilmore are hot. But that doesn’t explain why he had newly released seasons shipped to his barracks. He watches every episode, enduring the teasing from fellow Marines, as a reminder of his baby sister and as a break from bullets and IEDs. I watch it to feel like he’s still sitting beside me. And to avoid thinking of him riding in another convoy.

I’ve spent the last six years trying to preserve my brother. I hung photos of his wedding on my bedroom wall, and saved a voicemail he left me in

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2006. If something happens, I want to press a button and hear him say he loves me.

Before his first deployment, I searched for something of his to keep with me. I found a silver ring on his dresser. It wasn’t really silver – just one of those knockoffs you buy at the mall – but from that point on, I wore it on the index finger of my left hand. One day, I was sitting in class when I noticed my finger was bare. I frantically retraced my steps through the halls, checking my locker and searching until I ended up in the high school parking lot. My heart pounded so loudly it filled my ears until I found the ring under my car’s back tire.

I slipped it back on my finger and breathed again.

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During his tours, I pretend Blake’s in an office doing paperwork.

Or playing basketball with his unit behind the blast wall. I picture him doing anything other than his job.

It’s harder to pretend when he brings home medals. They don’t give gold stars or commendations for valor to the guy behind the desk.

I didn’t know the explanations for why he received such honors until I visited him last summer.

There, stashed away in the corner of the guest bedroom, was tangible proof of his duties. I sat down on the bed, poring over the certificates.

He’d conducted 55 combat missions, amassing 12,000 miles and escorting 1,300 vehicles and 10,000 personnel.

And then I read what happened on May 3, 2007: When a vehicle was destroyed by an improvised explosive device, First Lieutenant Johnston established security, coordinated a ground casualty evacuation for the wounded Marines, and requested explosive ordinance disposal and vehicle recovery support.

As I tried to grasp the reality of my brother’s job, he opened the door.

“What are ya doin, Sweets?” he asked.

“Oh, nothing,” I said, now conscious of the tears streaming down my face.

He shrugged. “Come on, dinner’s done.”

Most people talk about the war like the weather. I want to shake them and scream, “You have no idea.”

As Blake prepares to ship out, I’m growing more defensive. My ability to listen passively is waning. My eyes go directly to headlines about the war.

Then I take a deep breath and remember my brother. Not the Marine. But the brother who taught me how to pitch a baseball and throw a punch without breaking my thumb.

The brother who eats mountains of mint-chocolate chip ice cream with me and does a spot-on impersonation of Mickey Mouse.

I tell myself I’ll see him next summer when he comes home. Over and over, I touch the ring on my left forefinger, checking that it’s still there.

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