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Description of Book Contents List of Poems in Volumes 1-14 (Tan Covers) General volumes of poems The terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center in New York on September 11, 2001 (911) (contained in Vol 8) Family − the Michelsens of Brooklyn: Mother and Father: Enid and Stanley Children: Neil, Enid, Eric, Christine and Ingrid Family – the Michelsens of Connecticut: Mother and Father: Violeta and Neil Children: Kerry and Leandra Violeta Michelsen Leandra Kerry Kerry and Leandra as brother and sister Index Volume not containing any poems, but having 4 indexes: (1) by book (2) by date written (3) alphabetically by title and (4) by rating An Anthology of poems that are in Vols 1-14 List of Poems in Volumes 17-19 Poems written in 2015 (Tan Cover) Poems written in 2016 (Green Cover) Selected poems -1960 to 2016 (Green Cover) *****
y List of Poems In Volumes 1-14 (1960-2014) (Some poems are located in two books) Vol 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1
Title, Dedication/Subject and Other A Blank Page And The Open Sea A Chair Still Empty A Cold Rainy Windy Night A Cold Wet Sunday Morn A Conversation At A Gravesite (Better Late Than Never) A February Moon A Little Star At Night A Lost Love (Sharon) A Moon At 3 am A Seducing Dusk A Silent Reprimand (Jane) Afraid Of The Dark (Preparing For Death) Age Versus Innocence An Intersection Halfway Around The World Are We Better Or Worse Off? At Sea At Sea Today-Tonight Charity (Against All Odds) Competing Forces Doing What Children Do Each Progression Has A Cost (Sharon) Expecting Winter Friends And Enemies Going Out The Same Way I Came In Have I Come Home Too Late? Headlights On The Snow
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Hearing Silent Things Horrid Dreams How Many Summers Do I Have Left? I Gave Away My Camelot I Was Never Of This World In A Park, Watching, Listening It Was Then I Knew It’s Better Just To Be Invisible It’s Not Easy But I’m Trying (On Retirement) Leaky Bottom Life And Death - Please Stop Your Fighting Looking Up − Marooned At The Top My Tempest Nature Only Needs You For A While (You’re Just A Hanger-On) Nearing To The End Of Night Not So Distant Lay A Fear Nothing Else In Store (Sharon) Ode To An Orange Vesper View Oh Mother Dear, Why Did You Leave Us? (Mom) On Night And The Whispered Words Of Love (Helen) On Solitude Or Better Yet… Prisoners Of The Soil And Beggars Of The Sun Ready Or Not Shrinking Circles (On Retirement) Someday, He’d Show Them All Starch Up Your Tents (The Queen Is Coming) Taking Turns (The Seasons) Thank God For The Red Cape Thanks But I Can See My Own Way Out That Skinny, Wall-Flower Tree (The Survivor) That Slight Hesitation (Beijing) The Artist Is A Child The Barren Trees Obey
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The Dump The Empty Workshop The End Of Flesh The Loss (Sharon) The Multiplication Of Life And Death The Noble Efforts Of The Moon They Shall Become Our Masters They Still Stare To A Dead Warrior To A Lovely Day To A Winter Weed To Repay What Was Loaned Tonight I’ll Have To Tell Him Trees (We Both Survived Another Night) We Must Kill To Live! Welcome Home Will The Stars All Fall Down On Me? All These Things I Dreamed All These Things I Tell Myself (Bich-Thuy) And What Did He Know About Princesses? As Beautiful As Your Eyes Held The Moon (Bich-Thuy) Fact And Emotion (Bich-Thuy) I Cannot Sleep Because Of Her (Bich-Thuy) I Remember All These Things And More (Bich-Thuy) My Gift To You Tonight (Bich-Thuy) Never To See Her Again? (Bich-Thuy) Overlooking Honolulu From Trippler (Bich-Thuy) That Last Good-Bye Look And Touch The Memory Of A Cold Winter’s Night Things He Thought Were Dead Why Did My Mother Have To Die On Me? A Heavy Winter Sea (Helen) Your Hand Now Holding Mine A City Fog A Demon's Eyes? (Gramercy Park, NYC) A Misty Snow
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All Was Gone - Except For The Dark And Scary Night (Bryant Park, NYC) An Easy Take And Killing Bending Slowly Boxer, Gladiator Can Anything Matter Here On Earth? Conspiracy! Contemplation On A Recent Death (Conscience) Dawn Breaks Away From The Night Don’t Be Too Nice To Me Don’t You Ever Say That I Don’t Love You Edge Walker Finding Land (On Retirement) Fog Night Fog Night (Dam Neck, Virginia) Frost Ring (Honolulu) Game Over Going Off His Medicine (Life Started It All) He Stopped Taking His Medicine He’s Hit His Alfred Hitchcock Type Of Plot His Little Plastic Pill Container I Dream I’m On An Ancient Ship I Only Wish That I Had Started Earlier I’m Going In (On Moods) Instant Spring It’ll Be You And Your Laws Who Will Go To Hell Memory, You’re Up To Your Old Tricks Again Moonlight On A Field Of Snow Mother Earth (Queen Moon) Never Alone On Man And Nature On Time And Faults Engrained Only In The Mind Of Man Only Thinking Makes It So Please Don’t Make Me Say It
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Reincarnation Return To New York City So What’s The Point? Spring Surprise Still A Faint Contentment Beats Thank You But I’ll Just Wait The Beauty Of A Fallen Snow (Al Capone) The Beginning Of Eternity The Compassion Of The Moon The Crocked Fingers Of A Winter Tree The Departing Line The Easy Way The Fingers Of The Trees-The Corals Of The Sea The Gas Closed In (On A Friend’s Suicide) (Jake Nutting) The Haunted House The Morn The Ocean And The Night The Right Decision After All The Rope Walker The Straddlers The Unknown Soldiers Things That Only I Can See This Yellow Sky At Dusk Thoughts At Sea Make Me Sad To An Old Woman Trees In Spring Vanishing At Dusk (Night’s Arrival) When People Die (They Take It With Them To Their Graves) When She Began To Play Where’s The Justice? Wind, Tell Me Of A Coming Love Wishing You Were Here Words Of A Dying Man I Showed You The Stars (Bich-Thuy) I Stopped My Mind On You (Bich-Thuy)
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If Only You and I Let Me Rest In Peace Please Forgive My Haste (Bich-Thuy) The Little Light They Carved Out Of The Night We Used To Fly Like The Stars (Bich-Thuy) When Thuy Was Next To Me (Bich-Thuy) I In Turn Will Shatter Hers (Mixed Emotions) (Gwen, Carol) I Know Not Where You Are (Gwen) I Saw The Value of Your Love! (Gwen) I See My Side Is Empty (Gwen) It’s Over (Gwen) A Name Embedded In My Heart (Sharon) And It All Began From There (Barbara Jane) Bangkok at Dawn (Bangkok) China Dawn (Pei Pei Lin) (Taipei) Cursed Souls Crying (Sharon?) Free To Love (Helen) From Her Loss (Sharon) I Know The Truth But My Heart Won’t Listen (Sadness Has Me Caught) (Sharon) I Look To This Fair Maiden (Judy) Impressions Of Winter And Helen (Helen) Only As A Lover Should (Helen) She Has Sprung On Me Like A Cat (Barbara Jane) Sorrow Is My Vision (Sharon) The Girl Who Just Disappeared (Barbara) The Surprise Marriage (Nancy) The Very Mention Of Her Name (Sharon?) We Might Have Gone To Heaven (Sharon) A Mural Sunset All Of Sudden I’m Missing Her Mother (Esther) All Ready For Bed Almost There An Early Leaf Falling As Sorrow Has Decreed
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Caught Between (My Inspiration For Writing) Dragging A Good Day Down False Negatives I Can Wait I Owe It To The Young Man Who I Used To Be I Still Don’t Know The Ending (Thumbs Up? Or Thumbs Down?) I'm All Too Serious (London) I’m Not For Everyone It Was Always Stalking Me Moving Ahead But Falling Behind My Bookends My Music Means So Much To Me Not Missing Anyone Not To Be Tampered With One Pencil’s Worth Oversensitivity Past Wounds Have Done Their Damage Here That’s Just The Chance I’ll Have To Take The Cabo Frio Light The Full Weight Of Night The Herd Moved On The Minor Keys In Music Thoughts At Sea During The Mid-Watch (Alone And Colder) Thoughts On Watch At Sea (Aware That I Am Me) (North Pacific) Turning Points Two Open Questions (A Verdict Now Or Later?) What Am I Still Trying To Prove? When Others Were With Their Friends (Me, The Different One) Who I’m Not Working On My Comeback “What’s It All About” 12 Feet Mark The Entire Range Of Our Existence A Martyr For The Cause (Recycling)
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A Matter Of Perspective A Zero Sum Game? Always In The Way America, You’ve Taken Our Kids From Us Ballrooms, Palaces And Cinderella Loves Barely Enough Chasing Sticks And Rabbits Children And Old Men (Hopes And Disappointments) Christmas Lights Conscripts Of Nature Don’t Mourn For Me (On A Vietnamese Film) Don’t Overdo It Eccentricity Everyone Gets The Blues Fluff Up My Pillow (Manila) For The Crimes I Didn’t Even Do Getting His Own Private Room Ghosts In This Old House? Graffiti Wars Having My Cake And Eating It Too (Honey I’m Home) Help Is On The Way His Exit Strategy I Can Hear A Blade Of Grass Bending I Listened To Everyone But Myself I Was Only Slightly Off In Many Ways I Envy Him It All Depends Upon Your Point Of View It Just May Take A Little Getting Used To (On Retirement) It Was The Only Thing That Needed Him (Las Vegas) Just Before I Go To Sleep I Think About My Life Just By Our Association Just Right Around The Corner Just To Keep My Prized Piano Tuned Justice In Between Keep Your Jewels (They're No Match For Her Beads Of Colored Glass)
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Life Was Imposed On Us Neon Sunrise Never Bet Against The Odds (Street And Bar Fights) No Match For All The Evil You Have Done No Time to Lose (On Life’s New-Found Wonders) Not With A Lie One Sour Word Painting By The Numbers Purgatory Instead Of Hell Quiet Morn Reaching For A Mother’s Hand Respite And Recovery Rifle Shots In Winter She Passed The Scepter To Me Slowly Driving Past Your House Something, Nothing or Neither? " Taking It To His Afterlife Thank God For Worries That's Because You’re Looking At My Outside The Best Of Starts-The Worst Of Ends The Criminal Justice System (Philippines) The Magic Show The Party-Pooper Then Please Don’t Bury Me At All Thirteen Summers Left in Life (A Dream About My Death) This Hole That Never Seems To Close (Am I Being Paranoid?) This Little Patch Of Air To Her - To Him Trying To Find The Words We Are Of Little Consequence What Took You So Long? What’s Left To Salvage? When The Snow Came I Found Myself Alone When We Die Where Is My Drink?
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Where The Snow Would Never Melt On Me Will It End The Way It All Began? Will It Have All Been Worth It? Will You Go Out With Me Tonight? You Could Have Gone On By My Best Ambassador Is Gone An Indulgent Fantasy (He’s Pretty Sure) And This Is Sad Forever Has He Ever? As Much As I? I Said I Would - I Said I Wouldn’t My Heart Can’t Heal Itself Collision At Sea (A Naval Tragedy) I Live For New Beginnings (On Me And My Family) Retirement (On The Other Hand) I Set My Mind To Dwell On Her (Judy) Please Look (Sharon) A Face On The Moon Last Night (Gwen) A Song That Everybody Sings A Thousand Bottles Launched Daydreaming Down On Paper And Out Of My System Ground Hog Day (Retirement) Hadn’t I Made Any Progress? (Only A Flashback) Has The Third One Arrived? Have I Found My Peace Of Mind? (A Trophy Until the Next Event) Here I Am But Here I’m Not I Am A Miner And A Fisherman If Books Were All I Had (Now That I Am Older) I’m A Dead And Dried Up Leaf I’m Just A Sensitive and Temperamental Guy It’s All About The Process It’s Always Me (The Icings On My Cake) I’ve Put Adventure On The Shelf Just Passing Through (Have I Made Any Progress?) Mining For A Special Kind Of Gold
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My Death Will Be An Inside Job My Gentlemen’s Club My Personality For Better Or Worse Oh Life, You Are Without Pity Or Emotion Oh Wine, You Are My Best Friend Questions, Questions Rebuilding-Brick By Brick Safely In Their Graves Something’s Happening To Me Soon I’ll Be An Empty Shell Staring Out My Window-Just Like Before? The Death Of Summer The Gates Fly Open The More I Finish-The More I Start The Way To Go Until The Wolfman Reappeared Worry, Worry You Just Never Know With The Reward Of Heaven Comes The Risk Of Hell A Chance To Be A Hero A Cinderella New York City Bar Girl A Contrasting View A Dance Of Wind And Rain A Fallen Snow And Winter Tree Always To The Future Amenities (Manila) Are The Birds Telling Me Something? Are Things Ending Up the Way They Started? (A Self-Fulfilling Prophecy?) Beating The Apocalypse Blindness Boxes On Boxes-Architecture’s Dead Buyer Beware Death By Torture Devouring Worms Do Not Delay Your Planting
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Fast Forward Givers And Takers And Dual Personalities Gossiping He Called Me His Little Mountain Flower He Made Himself Some Memories He’s Just A Little Different How Naive I Shall Accept Death Whenever It Calls (Hong Kong) Irrelevant To Love It Would Have Been A Very Different Story (Investment Hindsight) Just When I Thought… Keep Up Your Vigilance Kindness Or Just A Cruel Trick Letting Sleeping Dogs Lie Look Out For The Hand Not Showing Lord, This Isn’t For Me Mass Murder In The Woods Moonlight By The Bed Not Because Of Me On A Rainy February Morn On Experience On Man’s Position (From A Common Ancient Seed) (One Of Many Ripples In the Tide) One Eccentric Only Half A Friend (Tom Carroll) Pretending To Be Asleep Ready Yourselves, You Soldiers Brave Relativity Rules Reptilian Eyes Ribbons Of Light Sleep Deprived-On And On it Goes Sorry About That Little Spider Taking The Long Way Home The Allegory Of A Bird The Blind Man
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The Death Of A Little Bug The Fruit Fly Tragedy The Good Old Days Of Retirement The Guilty Ones Accuse The Heart Assigns Its Own Composure The Howling Wind The Night Drapes Around Me The Ocean Of The Mind The Pepsi Top (What’s Next?) The Sable Hours The Smell Of Pain In The Air The Subways They Are Her Children They Become Our Classics They Learn Too Soon They Say A Lot Of Things They’re There Those Of Lower Hue Will Share Time Is Not A Simple Clock To No One Tomorrow Will Just Have To Wait (Manila) Too Much Of A Dream Trust Truth Unraveling The String of Life Vulture Food Washing The Windows What Is In The Eyes? What’s Said Is Said (Smoke In A Bottle) When You’re A Worry-Wart Where One Has No Friends Why Was It That I Never Thought Of That? Will He Run Out Of Time, Or Ink? Would It Be Enough? Your Demons She Has Been The Saddest Heartbreak Of My Life (Bich-Thuy)
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Reading Shakespeare Tonight (Linguistic Chemistry) Riding It Out At Anchor Someday My Death? (Officer Candidate School) The Check Against Despair The Devil’s Workshop The Lure Of Melancholy The Past Drags Along Behind Me (Dante's Rings) (Hong Kong) Timing Is Everything When I See Those Wooden Louvered Shutters In The Deep Of A Bar In Thailand (Unknown Bar Girl) A Face Deformed (Korea) A Little Companion Star A Little Hole In The Sky All The Heaven That I Know An Elbow In The Face Or A Finger In The Eye Be Thankful For Your Visit And Return Brick By Brick But Now I Do Changes In Regime Citizens Arise Don Quixote Don’t You Think I Wish That Things Were Better? Fate And The Children Of Cronos Ghosts Are Possible Had He Switched Sides? Hang On To The Hanger-On (Iloilo, Philippines) His Cross-Eyed Obsession How Did The Internet Get Loaded So Fast? How Many Times? (On Retirement) I Always Need My Crutch I Bring My Prey Back Home I Can See Myself In The Squirrels I Didn’t Mean Any Harm I Have To Take My Hand Away I Naively Keep On Coming
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I Only Fix The Walls I Overlook The Harbor (Budapest) I Pray That She Is Dead I Refuse To Go To Heaven Without The Animals (Manila, Philippines) I Should Save My Energy I Tried Everything But Love I Was On My Way If Only I Could Sing I’ll Leave That Up To You I’ll Take You With Me To Hell Is Alzheimer’s Coming? It Could Go Either Way It’s Comforting To Know (Is It That Time Already?) Just Put In A Good Word For Me Just You And Me Old Spider Keep Looking For The Light Kidnapped By The Cell Phone! Life Goes Fast When You’re Looking Back Life Is In The Middle Living On The Edge in Of Life Looking For A Motto (My Battle Cry And Lullaby) Mayflies My Ladies Of The Night No Fear Without The Symptoms No One Knows Not Until You’re Ready Only Scales Apart Out Of Quantity, Some Quality Perfect Spring Please Keep Me Off This Ledge Practicing To Rebuild And Apologize Pray To Man, Not God Reaching For The Fountain Of Youth Reality And Fantasy (Las Vegas) Road Kill Workers
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She Had a Lovely Smile, She Did Showing Off The Life You Ruined (Philippines) Simplicity Is So Complex Sleeping On The Side Of The Road (Stella) Somewhere In Between Soul Watch Still Not Enough Take Me Away Tapping Out My Signal The Best For Her Will Be The Best For Me The Classics The Desperate Will Always Come Back Home (Philippines) The Disadvantages Of Advantages The First Note Of The Music The Making Of Our Portraits The Perfect Murder The Stone In His Pocket The Tiny Other World (Only Scales Apart) They Should Have Stayed Just Where They Were (On Motivational Speakers) This War Has All But Beaten Me Two Irish Jews (Tom Carroll) Waiting To Be Lead Watching The Clock (On Retirement) We Sit Next To Death The Whole Train Ride We’re Not Trained For Life What’s The Harm In It? Which is Better? (Individual Versus Group Rights?) Why Do We Audience The Messenger So Much? (Philippines) Without It There Is No Passage Writing Letters In The Dark (Philippines) You Can’t Stop Me Any More (The Bridge) It’s Not Often You Meet Someone (Bich-Thuy) To Be The Kindest (San Francisco) (Bich-Thuy) A Verse to Stella (Stella)
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Escape From Manila (Stella) The Waitress Who I Never Got To Know 30 Years And Still Waiting A Cloudy Day A Glass Of Wine A Second Chance Afraid To End My Life Like This Am I Living For My Death? Beggars Can’t Be Choosey Being In Control But Here I Am The Undisputed King Difficult To Work With Don’t Classify Me So Conveniently How Things Have Changed (The Financial Crisis) If I Didn’t Have These Pains (I Might Never Right) If Only I Could Have Proofread My Life I’m Better With Things Than People I’ve Lost My Lips! Just to Have Decided Learning to Fly Looking In My Imaginary Audience My Paintings Are Kind Of Shy My Portfolio My Wild Bachelor Days New Dragons To Slay Out Of Reach Perhaps I’ve Done Enough Already Ready For Success Or Failure Resculpturing The Past Roman Candle That Little Pencil On My Ear The Ghost At The Piano The Sound Of My Pencil Hitting The Floor The Waiting Room (On Retirement) They’ll Never Find My Tank On Empty
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This Will Be My Future (A Surreal Thing) Touchstones Waiting For My Destiny Waiting For The Final “Next” Where My Failings Don’t Count So Much Will Anyone See Their Value? We Must Or Else (On America) The Fence The Theater Of It All (On Religion) Why We Hold To An After-Life Belief “I'm Not Happy” A Black Night Fog (Thoughts At Sea) A Bubble In A Soda Bottle A Difference Of Day And Night A Friend To You A Good Sleep And A Fresh White Shirt A Message On A Subway Wall A Pagan In The Choir A Remnant Justice For A Selfish Person A Soft Retreat (Getting Closer To The King) Between The Two (The Country And The City) Bowing To Sleep Burning Bridges (Tom Carroll) You Can Call The Dogs Off Me Courage And Inspiration Courage, Where Were You When I Needed You? Don’t Take Your Eyes Off Me! Don’t Worry, It’ll All Be Over With Doubling All My Bets Dreaming As The Day Is Paling Embarrassment Everything Is Relative Farm Food (Manila) Fashion A Humble Peace Fear Is Still King (Hong Kong) From A Routine To No Routine
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Goal-Perfection Hard Work And Discipline He Never Made The Effort (Philippines) High Above Manhattan Hopefully An Elder Will Stand Up For Me I Am At Peace Tonight With My Music I Can’t Go Into The Darkness Alone I Give Myself To The Wind I Just Can’t Leave It Alone I Must Bear It (Flying Over Korea) I Must Push On-In Secret (Prejudicially In The Way) I Need To Stay Away From Heights I Never Promised You Anything I Reminisce I, Condemned If It Weren’t For His Books I’m Nobody’s Daughter Instinct Rules It Wouldn’t Matter One Iota It’s The Only Thing We Have Just By Association (On Tom Carroll And I) Leave A Little Goodbye Gift Let Me Rock Myself In Sorrow Life Is Measured In Heartbeats (Each One Is A Gold Coin) Life Without Burdens Like a Dog Shaking Water Off Itself Look Through The Blades Of The Spinning Fan (Manila) Misery Loves Company Mist Upon My Face My Living Nightmare No One Was Listening Oh Life, I Gave You All I Had-But Did I? One Piece Of Music-One And A Million Onions And Sour Pickles Pets Please Turn That Gun Around
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Possessed Praying Lotto See The Sun Rise Set The Score To Zero She Had Died Sometime Before She Just Told Me Another Lie And I Believed Her Sit Down, Sir Sunshine Tell Her I Just Left For Good That Female Filipina Smile (Iloilo, Philippines) The Hair That Came Alive The Ladder Hadn't Moved The Lady Bug The Petals On A Flower-The Planets In The Sky (Coincidence?) 6 The Ploy 6 The State Of Eternity 6 Then Honor Her In Death 6 To Open All The Flowers 6 Visual Democracy 6 We Are Such Simple Things 6 We Must Leave These Trees 6 What Was It That Was So Important? 6 When Substance Is Gone 6 Who Are We To Be Served? (Las Vegas) 6 Who I Was 6 You Can Take Me On The Street, But… 6 You Can’t Forget The Dream 6 For What? For Why? For Shame On You! 6 Running From Her Memory (Bich-Thuy) 6 She Cried When She Saw It (Bich-Thuy) 6 Sometimes You Meet Someone (Bich-Thuy) 6, fb I Saw The World When I Was Bulletproof 6 Away From Gwen (Washington, DC) (Gwen, Carol) 6 Recurring In My Mind (Gwen) 6 True Love Gives Strength (Gwen)
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Will You Come To Me? (Gwen) A Pleading Impression (Judy) I Never Saw It Coming (Nancy) I’ll Never Know (Sharon) In Your Blue Eyes (Sharon) It Felt Like A Home Should Feel (Stella) You’re Scaring Me Away (Letty) A Confining Death A Little Story About A Life Addicted To Both (Music And Poetry) Afraid At Sea Again (A Night Sail In Brazil) All I Can Do Is Wait (On My Books Of Poems And Verses) All I Need All My People Are Dying (So Much For The Nobility Of Life) An Incident In Tokyo But Then My Personality Shows Up Dark And Somber Music Fear In The Tunnel Finding A Mother’s Hand Going Out On A Low Note Again? Good Work And Gibberish Have I Missed Something? How Come? I Fell Into A Hole I Have To Fight It All The Time (Whatever It Is) I Really Used to Be Somebody If I Didn’t Have A Tender Heart If Only I Could Shell Myself Over I’m Going Up The Wrong Staircase I’m Showing All My Soft Spots Inner Space Is Vanity My Drummer? I’ve Had An Interesting Life (Cause And Effect) Mining For Gold My Chariot Away
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My Grief Has Twenty Shadows My Jokes Don’t Work So Well Anymore My Most Important Things My Two Nemeses: My Personality And My Attitude Perhaps It’s In The Morning Breeze Photons That Once Were Me Priorities Confused? Rejection (On The Insurance Business) Searching For A Motto (Manila) Someone Out There Hating You Sparks Off A Grinding Wheel (My Writing And Editing Process) Still Playing Hide And Seek Straight To Old? (What Happened To My In-Between?) That’s Life For Me The Best Music Is Chamber Music The Closing Statement At My Trial The Feel Of Money In Your Pocket The Lesser Of Two Evils The Writing Drug Those Female Asian Faces In The Crowd Thunder In My Head Wanting To Be Alone But Not Who Am I? The Theater Of It All Waiting for the After-Life (Waiting For The Other Shoe To Drop) A Distinctively Better End For Us A Meaning An Escape From The Funeral Fire Be Careful What You Wish For Bend Low About The Door Bushido (The Way Of The Warrior) Cat Food Crucifixion Deciding To Just End It All
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Down There In The Cellar Dusk Defeats Elvis - He Was My Man Enough Should Be Enough Everything Has A Mind And Thinks Everything Has A Voice False Hope Fingers From Yonder Churchyard Further Down The Line Getting The Kinks Out Of Life (Spits And Spurts) God Preserves All Our Tears Have Pity On This Empty Shell (Eaten By The Flickering Screen) He Did-But No He Didn’t Heat Rising From Satan’s Hell Here In The Field I Never Knew Inside Out It’s Always Better To Have Tried I’ve Had A Lot Of Practice At Being Alone Just In Time Knocking On The Sky Lacking A Hardened Crust? Let The Experiment Begin Living In A Dream Or In Reality (That Scary Point) Look Beyond The Messenger Missing Home But Not (The Carpathian Mountains Of Slovakia) More Neutral Things My Crossword Puzzle My Musical Relief No You Didn’t Turn Out Alright Oh What They Are Missing (On Reading Shakespeare) Old Memories Only Chance And Nature Are At Play
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Out-Yelling A Raging Storm (Korea) Population Control Power To The People Put Me On My Harder Side Real Soldiers Don’t Boast Robots Stone Truth Stuck In The Past Tell Me I Wasn’t A Bad Person The 10 Round Fight The Bonkers Test (Retirement) The Cyanide Solution The Last Cut Was the Deepest The Marathon Man (Tom Carroll) The Race For The Bomb The Real Heroes The Virus Battle At Gettysburg The Whiners This World Is Ours, And Theirs To Kill A Man Tough Love (Tom Carroll) Trust Not We Are Labelers We Are Oceans We Know What’s Good And Bad-Instinctively Were You Really Ever There? Where Will We Take Ourselves? Which Would Have Been The Best Choice? Wolf Packs You Could Have Been Better Or Worse You Have Your Badge You’re Walking Faster Than Me Now You’ve Added Another One To Your List (Tom Carroll) In L.A. (Bich-Thuy) Oh What The Years Had Taken I Miss You Darling Girl (Gwen)
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Our Spot (Gwen) When Love Is True (Gwen) A Lovely Grecian Face (Maureen) A Valentine (Stella) I Love Her When I’m Lonely (Gwen) I Saw Something Deep Within Her Eyes (Judy) Not Wanting To Awake Her (Stella) Steamy Rendezvous (Pamela) Your Lips (Sharon) Motivated To Save Myself For You (Gwen) Reasonable And Unreasonable Doubt (The Casey Anthony Trial) A Bar Fight In Denver Busied With Degrees Cat Baths Don’t Make It Any Worse (Vi) Don’t Try To Follow Me (Vi) Drawing On Marcus Aurelius Every Dream I Have Is Tense Finish My Final Verses For Me Full Of Unanswered Letters I Don’t Know What It Is Between Us (Tom Carroll) I Don’t Last Too Long With People I Give Up, Then Rally I Never Know Who Will Be Speaking I Still Want to Fight I Surprise Myself Sometimes (On Winging It) If I Were A Movie Director I’ll Never Stop My Writing I’m Dying To Die I’m Sure They Thought Me A Little Strange (Iloilo, Philippines) It’s Only Money Life’s Experiments Looking At My Hands And Thinking Of The Piano Looking For A Passage Lost
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More Confident Now But Still Withdrawn My Lists Are A Constant Nag My Music Atrium My New Desk My Private Time My Verses And Routine Nice In The Office But Tough At Home No More A Parasite (The Golden Goose) (Tom Carroll) No Pictures On My Office Desk Nothing Comes Fast Or Easy (Philippines) Nothing Original Off To War Again On A Crest Or In A Trough? Self-Contrition (Vi) The End Of My Horizons The Merry-Go-Round The Monster I Awoke (On The Excel Bank Debacle) Thunder In The Well To Hole Up For A While Too Many I Love You s What I Ought To Do Is Pull The Plug What Will People See In Me? Who Will Cry For Me? Will Anyone Even Care? You User Loser (Tom Carroll) Another Name For God (Korea) Finding God He Must Be Born Again (Mike Dennis) It Doesn't Matter If It’s True (On Religion And Dogma) The Best We Have For Now Know Not I The Way A Peaceful Face A Reunion A Song With Wings Although We’ve Never Met (Tom Carroll, Stephanie Powers)
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Always Standing On Lines Are You Finished With The Paper, Sir? As Helpless As A Turtle On Its Back At Least I Get To Play Once In A While At No Extra Charge Back In The States (Civilization-So Short-Lived) Body Language Brethren Animals In The Herd Catastrophic Insurance (A House Of Cards) Charles The Great Clouds From Nowhere Come Over Here And Listen Curses Breed (Manila) Days On The Farm And Nights In Town Defenses Mistaken For Offenses Dictators Don’t Hurt Me So Bad I That Can’t Recover (Philippines) Don’t Make Me Grovel Just Because You Can Don’t Make The Wrong Extrapolation Faith And Hope False Garments Gold Is Too Expensive (Psych Yourself Up, Not Out) (Vienna, Austria) Good-Bye, Khalilah (Khalilah) Haiku (#1 and #2) Heat Henry David Thoreau Hermaphrodites His Night-Time Visitors Hold On Your Poor Classical Musicians (Prague) Humility And Superiority I Can’t Get Past My Door I’ll Not Remember You I’ll Get You Through It All I’ll Stand Aside Again, Right? In The Overall Scheme Of Things
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Ironically-Hated Or Heroed Keep Your Children Off The Streets (On The Muslim Riots In Paris) Lastly To Myself Linguistic Chemistry Maybe The Next Train Will Be Yours Miracles Are All About Mirrors Money Back Guarantee (Advertising And Marketing) More Of A Reflection On Them My Dreams Are Rank Strangers Now My Hiding Place Nations Of The Good Not Deserving On Rameau's Music On The Occasion Of Your Wedding (An Honorary Lunch To Kristi) Plain and Simple Please Bring Him To His Senses Preference Versus Prejudice Progress Or Regression? Protect Your Fire Remember What We Are Rest Or Prepare For War? Restless Rise And Follow Rousted Samurai - Being Aware Of The Unobvious Self Share In The Glory Short But Clearest (Haiku) Show Your Class Stand By The Gate Stretching His Neck Beyond The Fence Thank God For The Phone (Vi) Thank God She’s Got Someone To Talk To (Vi)
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That Keg Of Beer The Eyes That I Don’t Have (Tom Carroll) The Fire That We Didn’t Build The Future Has No Past The Onus Is On You The Open Field (Haiku) The Peg The Quarrels Of The Few (Berlin) The Workings Of The Mind (Jamaica Bay, Brooklyn) They Can’t Do You Any Harm They Never Saw It Coming They Tell Me Scary Stories In My Sleep They’ll Never Get Fat Things Take Their Toll To Light The Dark Truth-Friend Or Beast? Two Kinds Of Homelessness We Are Only Monkeys On Our Keyboards We Want Recognition But… Wealth Equates To Worth? (A Second Set Of Books) When The Clouds Disperse Without Eloquence Written From The Hearts Of Friends (Colm Keogh) Ye Old Audit Trails On The High Road (Tom Carroll) You Are Moving On (Lisa Hobson) You Bleeding Heart Liberal! You Can Stop Now-I’m Hurt Enough (Philippines) You Christen My Heart A Weak Plea For Exoneration (Gwen?) I Welcome All As Sacrifice (Gwen) A War May Separate Us (Gwen) Let Me Love You (Sharon) My Secret Observation (Stella, Leandra) Rush (Sharon) The Color Of Gold (Sharon) Yours The Yellow And Mine The White (Gwen)
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A Race To Vindicate Myself A Subtle Fear Settled In Absolutely Nothing Be Patient For The End Is Near Bearing Certain Indignities (Tom Carroll) Content With My Music And My Books Fighting With Myself To Overcome For The Sake Of The Job (Tom Carroll) Freedom-At Any Cost? Good Rushes, Bad Rushes, Fears And Dreams Hard, Clean Money Howard Hughes I Aligned Myself With A Power (Tom Carroll) I Am A Cloth Not Fully Wrung Out Yet I Did It On My Own (On My Music) I Fell In Love With Water I Go Into A Trance I Have My Priorities! I Hope I Don’t Become A Grumpy Old Man I Just Had To Recognize Myself I Took A Chance The Pain Would Pass Let Me Be! Look Deeper In My Eyes My Coffee And My Music (Plain And Simple Things) My Exit Music My Life Is All On Paper My Life’s Equation On The Backs Of Envelopes (Saving My Drafts) One Less Day To Go Over All My Drinks (My Stations Of The Cross) Perhaps They’ll Bridge Off Me (Stranger Things Have Happened) Rare Security Sad And Heavy Music So Why Me? (Tom Carroll) The Best For Both Of Us (Aggressive Women)
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The Cramping Of My Legs (Uncle Artie) The End-All In Good Time They Won’t Make It On Their Own What About Me? (Tom Carroll) What’s Wrong With Me At 57? (The Marks Of History) When Time And Circumstance More Favorably Meet My Spiritual Shield Anti-Christs Can Be Our Models Too For The Gods To Figure Out God, You Are Accountable Too I Could Follow, If (Hong Kong) It Wasn’t Your Problem It Was Theirs (Warsaw, Poland) Jesus Christ-Man Or God? Bomb Scares Ground Zero How Do You Feel? I Called But He’d Been Killed (Joe Zuccalla) I’m So Ready It’s My Duty Let’s Show Them Otherwise (Attack On America!) Oh My God Swollen Eyes Take My Hand The Best Of The Best The Chain The Mayor Of New York-Our Leader And Our Hero Waiting For The Next Attack We Must Reconsider The Friends We've Chosen Where I Was That Day Where Were The CIA And FBI? You Must Be Brave “All's Well That Ends Well” (Mom, Dad) “Can You Get It?” (Grandpa Hackett) “Eat The Chocolate” (Uncle Artie) “Sorry Richie” “You Don't Understand, Neil”
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A Good Dump (Dad) A Hole Overfilled (Mom, Dad) A Little Boy Rejected By The Priests A New Relationship With My Father A Thousand Soldiers Must Die (Fred Chen) A Train To Washington (Dad) Age Is A High, High Hill (Eric) All Out of Sequence (Chris) And Then There Was One (My Siblings) Blue (Nelke) Bring It On (Eric) Changing History (Dad) Cruel Tradeoffs (Mom, Dad) Don’t Let The Rift Repeat Itself Father, What Have You Done? He Also Said Goodbye (Dad, Mom) He Called Me His Hero (Dennis Hackett) He Was Right But Also Very Wrong (Dad) I Am My Mother’s Orphan I Didn’t Hug Him So Convincingly (Dad) I Don’t Know How He Did It (Dad) I Had To Sit A Spell (Stella) I Have Become My Father I Heard Him Crying Down The Hall (Dad) I May Regret I Didn’t Do Enough (Chris) I Saw It In Your Face (“Big Richie”) If I Had A Mother If They Were Sources Of Discontent (My Siblings) I'm Luckier Than My Father Was (Dad) I’m So Lucky For My Brother And My Sisters Like Father Like Son (Dad) Man Hugs (Eric) Mind Games (Chris) Mom’s Ghost At The Foot Of The Bed (Roseanna) Mom’s Ghost Beside My Bed (Neil) Mom’s Ghost Checking On The Kids (Chris)
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Mom’s Ghost Comforting “Little Richie” Mom’s Ghost In Serina’s Room (Chris, Serina) Mom’s In A Cold, Cold Grave Mother’s Day (Mom) My Family Is Dying Before Me My Father’s Aging My Father’s Old New Shoes (Dad, “Big Richie”) My Father’s Sweater (Dad) My Grandfather’s Death (Grandpa Hackett) My Old Neighborhood And Classroom No, I’m More Than A Little Depressed (Chris) On Him Again (Dad) Pictures Of The Five Of Us (Enid) Role Models Rooms Of Thought (Dad) Running Away From Home Scuff Marks On The Kitchen Cabinets (Dad) Shoveling Coal And Hanging Out The Clothes Something Made A Long Time Ago (Dad) Something Set By Him (Dad) Standing In Their Empty Room (Mom, Dad) Stealing Cars Still Filing Up My Little Books That Little Red Circle Of Blood That New Year's Eve Call (Chris) The Duck Dinner That I Missed (Chris) The Fourth Dimension (Chris) The Guillotine The Prosecution And Defense (Dad) The Shoe Polish Solution The Vision (Mom) Throwing That Ball Of Clay In The Air (Mom) Transported To The Past Trespassing In Brazil Welcome Back Chris (Chris) What A Mouth He Had On Him (Dad, Aunt Jennie)
What’s The Use?-Mother Is Gone (Mom) When We Danced At Your Wedding (Ingrid) While You’re At It Why Don’t You Take Me Too (Chris) You Did Make A Difference In My Life (Dad) You Don’t Deserve This (Chris) Your Open Bravery (Chris) You’re Never Appreciated In Your Own Home Town (On My Family) fb,ke All Chances All Used Up (Dad, Kerry) fc A Family Tradition fc A Fatal Attraction fc A Leader Or A Bully? fc A Thing Forever (On Photographs) fc All My Job Searches fc Am I A Bully? fc An Acre Is All That I Can Handle fc An Evening Sail Alone fc Angry Cloudbursts fc Another Night-Another Broken Promise to Myself fc As Rich As I fc Be Careful What You Ask For fc Blood Line-Not So Noble As… fc Come To My Bedside (I Won’t Keep You Very Long) fc For Which Should I Prepare Myself? fc Getting Ready For Being Left Behind fc Happy Memorial Day, Dad fc Here Burns The Candle Out fc I Am The Family Dreamkeeper fc I Hope You Understand fc I Love To Walk Around The House fc I Must Leave Them Be fc I Want My Family With Me When I Pass Away fc I Worry About The Guards fc I’ll Never Acquiesce fc I’m Not Speaking fc In My Living Room And Kitchen Too fb fb fb fb fb fb fb
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Is That The Time They’ll Get To Know Me? It’s The Best That I Can Do (In This Here Compromising World) Just To Keep This Job Look Through All My Things My Christmas and New Year’s Wish My House, The Bride My Picture-Perfect World One Eye Open One Reason Why I Write Our Grounds Our House Is Like A Beautiful Painting Our Mini-Estate Our Queen Anne Chair Pained With Guilt Pick Up The Flag I Dropped Roast Beef Sharper Than A Serpent’s Tooth The Family Photographer The History That Surrounds Our House The Housewarming The Little By Little Game Their Imputed Gift? Waiting For You On The Other Side We Are Family-First And Foremost What Will We Salvage? What’s For Love And What’s For Duty? What’s Set Is Set Will Anyone Ever Care About My Music? Will There Be Sufficient Time For Me? With Only Limited Success (On A Family Trip To Maine) You Made Me A Father (On Father's Day) “We Love You Too, Dad” (My Children) A Boy And His Dad At Lunch (Quick Assessments) A Favorite Picture Of My Kids A Good Start But A Bad Ending
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A Long Communion Prayer A Message Or A Prayer? A Perfect Ending A Place Familiar A Prayer To Our Son And Daughter A Touching Thanksgiving Surprise All For Them Always Planting For A Future Harvest An Epistle For My Children’s Hearts Between Her And Him - Between 9 And 10 pm (Visiting Rights) Counter Propaganda Did I Make It Harder For You? Did I Over-Do It? (The Punishment Just Doesn’t Seem To Fit The Crime) Don’t Make Me Feel I’ve Been A Failure As A Father Family For The Gift Of Music Ghosts Riding On Their Bikes (Looking Ahead) Guilty As Accused Have I Helped Or Hurt Them? (A Message Through The Clouds) Have I Only Broken Even? Hi Dad I Bought A Book In Maine I Hope I’ve Set A Good Example I Hope They’ll Get Along Without Me When I’m Gone I Love My Boy And Girl - Equally I Love Them Equally I Love You Too, Dad I Must Prepare Myself I Save Everything For Them If I Get The Slightest Hint If Not Now Then Perhaps In The Future I’ll Be With You All My Life-And All My Death As Well I’ll Leave It Up To You
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I’m Getting Too Old To Yell Anymore I’m Just Too Old To Fight Much Anymore In Their Brown And Gold Picture Frames It’s Not My Place To Throw Them Out (Which Ever Comes First) Lost in Translation My Camera My Expressions Quoted By The Kids My Little Christmas Coffee Cup (Atlantic City, NJ ) No Food For Me Tonight Our Children's Manners She’s Like Mom And He’s Like Me She’s My Sweetheart And He’s My Guy So Many Times I’ve Looked At Your Picture Someday I’ll Get It Back For You Again Someday You’ll Hear Me Playing Sometimes I Wish I Never Knew Stay Close To Them - Or Let Them Go? Switch From The Push To The Pull Taking Down the Swings That’s All We Ask (Just A Simple Little Hello And Goodbye) The Fated Hitchhiker The Kids Are Safe At Work The Sacrifices Of Being A Parent Instead Of A Pal Their Unknown Gift To Us They Are Home-And I Am Not They Don’t Give Me Their Kisses (Am I That Unapproachable?) They Don’t Remember Much About The House They’ll Never Change They’re Slowly Forgetting They’re Slowly Taking My Place Thinking Ahead (To When The Kids Might Be Gone) Trying To Write A Poem For You Was It All My Fault?
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We Are Family Now When Time And Circumstances Favorably Meet When You Adopt A Child Who Will Ever Care for Me? Will They Ever Say, “I Love You, Dad?” A Good Day With My Boy A Little Big Thing A Missed Opportunity Am I Only In Your Way? Another Broken Promise (Another Missed Opportunity) Car Talks Consequences Don’t Be Distracted - Rather Look Beyond Don’t Make Yourself Small Dr. Jekyll And Mr. Hyde Estranged A Bit For My Trying For Your Peace Of Mind I Pray Harder On The Both Of Us Have I Made You Me? He Always Bounces Back He Doesn’t Hold A Grudge He Finally Came Back Home (Before They Close The Show) He Hugged His Dad He Might As Well Be A Million Miles Away I Give Him That Look I Got Half A Hug Back I Miss The Good Parts-But Not The Bad I See So Much Of Me In You If I Could Only Take It Back (A Missed Opportunity) (Manila, Philippines) In Case You Didn’t Know It’s Tearing Me Up I’ve Been There Myself (Just In Case You Didn’t Know) Kerry, I Was So Proud Of You
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Mad About Everything (After Reprimanding Kerry) Mom Cried Over The Michelsen Name My Boy Apologized And I Came Crashing Down (Manila) My Little Mozart My Misunderstood Boy And His Personality Our One And Only Son at 16 Years Our Sentimental Son Please Don’t Make Me Feel Like I’m Failing As A Father Please Give Me A Sign Proud Of His Sweat Respect (God Help Me And My Boy) Saying Things Just To Say Things Someday He’ll Draw On These Things Son, Don’t Earn Yourself A Place In Hell The Battle For My Boy The Death Of Kerry’s Friend The Obvious Culprit The Same As With My Dad? While You’re At It God, Can You Help Me Too? Will Kerry Be The Best Hope For My Work? You Are My Son, My Special Boy You Just Don’t Know How Scared I Am For You You Were Caught Last Week “We Love You Dad” A Dull And Constant Pain A New Virginity A Prayer From Your Best Friends A Severed Head A Shattered Image Oh So Close A Worrisome Standoff After All She Is My Daughter All Was Going Well-Until Last Friday An Invitation To The Fair Before She Said Another Word But It’s Too Short But When The Night Descends
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But When You Hear It From Someone Else Call It What You Will (Love Always Puts It Back Together) Color Disappears Devoured Whole Did I Do Enough? Did I Fail Her As A Father? Die In Witness To The Truth Does My Girl Need Help? Don’t Disrespect Me With A Lie Doomed To Never Get An Oscar? Every Friday Night Feeling A Little Like A Failure For The Rest Of Her Life? Get Mad Enough (All Things Will Turn Themselves Around) Get Out Of This Forest Her Own Internal Guidance System Hope Right Now Is Challenged Howling At A Winter’s Window Pane Humbled Once Again I Don’t Know Who I’m Praying To (I’m Not Thinking Right These Days) I May Be Weeding…But… I Only Want What’s Best For You I Pray For The Both Of Us I Talk To Her About God I Was Hoping For A Little Something Back I Will Survive I’ll Fight This Wolf To The Death I’ll Keep On Knocking In The Foreground-And In The Background It Feels Just Like A Knife In My Heart It May Be A Long And Hard Conversion Just When I Thought We Had It Conquered Layla’s Murder (Layla) Losing A Child To Death
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Lost In Her Presence Love and Hurt Will Always Come Together Make Yourself The Lady That You Are My Girl Is Now 16 My Mind Wanders My Morning Overture My Two Daughters My Valentine Daughter Nearing College And Maybe Close To Leaving Me Needing Time To Cure No “Love, Leandra” No Pain So Awful No Relief For Me Tonight Nothing Makes Me Happy Anymore Oh How Everything Has Changed For Me (On The Outside Looking In) Oh How Things Have Turned Themselves Around Again Oh These Cannibals Of Worries One Two Three Our Impending Talk Please Spare Me That Please Turn Yourself Around Pushing Every Obstacle Aside (What Love And Conscience Do To You) Sharp And Blunt Should I Have Tampered With Fate? So Sorry For Our Girl Sometimes I Blame Myself (What Love And Conscience Do To You) Sometimes I Just Don’t Know Who I’m Talking To That Darker Other Side That Far Away Look The Business Woman The Day I Know You’re Safe The Game The High State of Innocence I Held You In
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The Note On Her Door The Other Girl I Found The Sleep I’ve Waited For The Trojan Horse These Two Sides Of Her (Guarding The Front Door And Not The Back) Things Have Yet To Fall In Place Tonight I Don’t Care If I Should Live Or Die Will Anything Ever Be The Same Again? Worth The Seeking Out “It’s For You” (The Call That Snagged My Heart) 30 Years And Still On The Job A Balanced Love All Because Of You Always And Forever At Her Smiling Best Eating Peanut Butter Sandwiches With You Every Flower Will Hold Her Face Her Heart Keeps My Heart Alive Her Simple Birthday Wish I Could Have, But I Didn’t I Hope I’ve Not Been All That Bad For You I Kiss Her Goodnight Anyway I Love Mysteries I See You As A Different Person (From The Different Person I’ve Become) I Show My Love In Different Ways I Want To See You Cry If I Were The Same As You If She Were Any Other Way In Two Places At The Same Time It Doesn’t Take So Much To Please Her It Seems I’ve Loved You All My Life It Seems That All I Do Is Apologize It Was For Her On Our Anniversary (Atlantic City) Keep It Up (And You’ll Never Get Rid of Me)
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Life And Death, Please Collaborate (Dad) Little Do You Know Look At The Evidence Looking At Her Empty Shoes Love Continues On Love’s Been Good To Me Me Without Her Miss Sun And Mr. Clouds Mom’s Full Bright Smile My Faithful Lady My Only Valentine Now I Hesitate For A Different Reason Our Separate Lives Together Over Her Head But Into Her Heart Pascal’s Wager Please Don’t Die On Me Please Don’t Leave Me-Like My Mother Left My Dad Please Turn Over On Your Side Saving For A Time That May Never Come Shall I Call Ahead? She Appreciates It She Didn’t Steal Me Away (Vi And Stella) She Doesn’t Ask For Much She’s Way Out Of Balance She’s Weakening Something Snapped Taking Things For Granted That Disconcerting Look And Smile That Little Good-Bye Wave That Smile Of Hers (Break In Case Of Emergency) The Blessing Of Having Her The Class I Might Have Missed The Good Woman That She Is The Sweet Forensics Of My Wife Though I Failed For Now Through The Evening Window Pane
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We Found It In Each Other (Atlantic City) We Just Do What Has To Be Done What I See Ahead Of Me What Keeps Me Home And Loving Her What Would I Ever Do Without You? When I Hear Her Singing Will I Curse The Darkness When She’s Gone? Without Praise Or Complaint (Mom) You Have The Full Affection Of My Heart You Know How To Fight *****
y List of Poems In Volume 17 (2015)
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Title and Dedication Touché It’s The Only Thing I Have He Wasn’t A Complainer The Orphanage “Until The Next Time” Holiday Love Disowned “Your Mother’s Dead” The Suicide Note Something Just Told Me Extinction Is The Rule Buried Together Raking Leaves She Had That Power Over Me More Time To Worry The Longest Walk That Big Waterfall Ahead
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Solitary Confinement The Log Cabin Not All The Way Back Ironic Appreciation Feeling Like A Failure Smoking Myself To Death Hunchbacked The Curandera Mickey Mouse A World Out Of Balance Our Castle With A Moat Not Upsetting The Gods Over The Hill Games Of Bravery Looking For Their Cars (On Leandra And Kerry) Getting What You Pay For Figments Of Our Imagination? St. Augustine And Dad Head Down One With Everything A Field Of Stars A Light Snow In Spring A Social Lesson (On Gwen) He Couldn’t Remember The Cold My Homecoming (On The Vietnam War) The Gingerbread House (On Leandra) Missing Tom (On Tom Carroll) I Have Spoken The Horse That Threw Us A Tie Breaker A Time To Grow “This Is What Killed Your Mother” (On My Father) Just Wait And See No Feet On The Ground Old Men Did You Just Say, “Maybe”? When You’re Ready, You’re Ready (On Our Cancelled Wedding) My Scrape With Scientology Stepping Into The 1890s “Every Step Leads To Death” I Couldn’t Have Done Better (On Vi)
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I Love The Rain Like An Old Oil Painting I Didn’t Hear Anything Back Small Minds In Big Bodies Temptation Dieting Snap, Crackle And Pop Between Two Vanishing Points Giving Me Pause Mothers And Sons A Lesson Learned The Margins Of Error And Luck My Telltale Heart The New-Old Us (On Mom And I) “There’s No One In 302” She Had No Reply To That Only A Virus “Will You Be My Subject” (A True Dental Story # 1) Return Winks (A True Dental Story # 2) My Cooking Channel (On Mom) Who Better? The Call Of A Blue Jay I Know What It Is To Be Young I Know What It Is To Be Young (But You Don’t Know What It Is To Be Old) (The Song) Liberty Street A Letter From The IRS Just Down The Street (On Judy) Lobsters For Easter Dinner (On The Family) A Tale Of Two Cities The Killing Zone Waiting For Bad News (On My Children) Grandma Hackett’s Business Advice A Good Personality Taking Turns (On Family) Going To The Philippines (On Mom) Those Bell Bottom Pants Well, Almost Anything Corny Just Another Ponzi Scheme *****
y List of Poems In Volume 18 (2016)
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Title and Dedication The Gang’s Not All Here A War Junky (By Comparison) Oh Boatman, Please Let Me Off Here The Smell Of Death Almost There The Goose That Couldn’t Keep Up The Land Of The Invalids The Alamo Perception Became Reality In Empathy With The Moon (On Vi) Will I Beat The Clock? My Little Winter Birds My Old Pajamas Nature Called Mutual Curiosities Seeing God The Tortoise And The Hare (On Tom Carroll) The Cloudy In-Between Tick Tock Trees – My Favorite Things Waiting For The Knock The Last Tunnel The Face Of Death (On Ronnie Zeilnhofer) Just One Day Of Relief “But They Have No Legs!” A Matter Of Life And Death Have I Mellowed? Time Stuttering
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Bad News Radio Beep, Beep – Passing Satisfied With Less When Will The Pump Stop Pumping? Missing Him (On Tom Carroll) Sugar-Glazed Moonlight Rose Colored Glasses? As Long As They Came Together I’m Still 18
Under The Flowers Cute Little Song Birds? It’s Going So Slow My Recall But Tomorrow Never Comes What If I Didn’t Have? (On Vi) Fluttering Leaves Tenants In Common Vegetables First Now It’s Happening To Me My Sighs I Think – I Hope Trying To Make Her Hurt Too Full House (On Leandra And Kerry) First Time-Last Time Each Night And Morning Singing For Your Supper She Was Always There (On Vi) Brave Like Him Macbeth Ashes Picking Lint Let Me Go A Man Of Leisure Something I Don’t Even Want To Think About God, Prophet Or Con Artist? My Sendoff The Most Amazing Things
Being Certain Russian Roulette On Average
The Violent Universe Things That You Just Don’t Do
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My Musical Game Shakespeare Members Of A Special Club (On Judy) Full Circle On The Edge Of Knowledge For The Times I Didn’t It’ll Be Worth It Little Worm, Big Giant Halley’s Comet (On Stella) Boy Scout Camp Wish Me Luck Having A Smoke Together TV Company I’m Ready To Go “Snickers” And “Emma” The Navajo Club The Desert Trying To Imagine The Basic Rectangular Shape Politically Correct And Ready To Go Who’s To Blame? I Had A Dream Arrows Into The Future Half Dead Rules Uniforms For Sanity’s Sake How Would I Have Handled Things? Forced Rhyme And Meter (On Poetry Writing) Watching The Weather Parkinson’s And Alzheimer’s The Inevitable Enough In Return? (To Vi) Always Preparing An Unbalanced Equation It’s Not A Racial Problem Changing Gifts Let Me See *****
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Title Mom’s In A Cold, Cold Grave The Morn My Tempest In A Park, Watching And Listening The Crooked Fingers Of A Winter Tree Only Thinking Makes It So Oversensitivity The Barren Trees Obey Contemplation On A Recent Death Dawn Breaks Away From Night What’s The Use? − Mother Is Gone A Little Star At Night To A Lovely Day To A Winter Weed Ode To An Orange Vesper View My Grandfather’s Death On Night And The Whispered Words Of Love As Sorrow Has Decreed A Seducing Dusk When She Began To Play And It All Began From There As Beautiful As Your Eyes Held The Moon A Heavy Winter Sea When Others Were With Their Friends Looking Up A Cold Rainy Windy Night This Yellow Sky At Dusk Hearing Silent Things China Dawn Moonlight By The Bed Edge Walker My Father’s Aging
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The Memory Of A Cold Winter’s Night Mother’s Day I Love My Boy And Girl – Equally I Didn’t Hold Him So Convincingly Headlights On The Snow All These Things I Dreamed Fluff Up My Pillow Oh Wine, You Are My Best Friend I Heard Him Crying Down The Hall In Their Brown And Gold Picture Frames To Her - To Him A Song That Everybody Sings My Father’s Sweater Questions, Questions Come To My Bedside Keep Your Jewels Safely In Their Graves He Also Said Goodbye Neon Sunrise Taking Down The Swings They’ll Never Find My Tank On Empty Here I Am But Here I’m Not You Could Have Gone On By Moonlight On A Field Of Snow A Chair Still Empty It Was The Only Thing That Needed Him You Have The Full Affection Of My Heart I Was Never Of This World If Only You And I That Last Good-Bye Look And Touch Has He Ever? As Much As I? I Only Fix The Walls Have I Come Home Too Late? 12 Feet Mark The Entire Range Of Our Existence Slowly Driving Past Your House What Took You So Long? Then Please Don’t Bury Me At All I Really Used To Be Somebody Will You Go Out With Me Tonight? When The Snow Came I Found Myself Alone I Want To See You Cry Ballrooms, Palaces And Cinderella Loves
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Where The Snow Would Never Melt On Me I Live For New Beginnings Children And Old Men Quiet Morn Oh Mother Dear, Why Did You Leave Us? Help Is On The Way Car Talks Don’t Mourn For Me The Smell Of Pain In The Air Tonight I’ll Have To Tell Him He Called Me His Little Mountain Flower Taking The Long Way Home Will The Stars All Fall Down On Me? Going Out The Same Way He Came In A Moon At 3 AM Your Hand Now Holding Mine That New Year’s Eve Call “Can You Get It?” A Little Companion Star I Kiss Her Goodnight Anyway Don’t You Ever Say That I Don’t Love You Every Flower Will Hold Her Face Holiday Love It’s The Only Thing I Have Left Of Him The Gang’s Not All Here Oh Boatman, Please Let Me Off Here The Smell Of Death But Tomorrow Never Comes *****