PLUI (10) I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO DIE by PLUI Magazine

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Editor's Note

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Love.

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Movies To Fall In Love... (Or Not)

To Be In Love.

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When Love Takes Over.

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I Love You And I Want 3 Kids... We Are 18.

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A Love Letter In Three Parts

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A Wild Ride.

Unfaithful

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Love In The Time of Tinder.

Getting Over It. After Break Up Tips.

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credits: GENERAL DIRECTION Andrea Bolland Priscila Cano

EDITORS Andrea Guzmán Ángel Pegamoide Fabián Moreaux Jair Solís Jarred Aasen Marie Claire Aguirre Raquel Herrera Roberto Gaona Sayana Hernández

GUESTS Adrian Galvez Adriana Ortíz Alejandro Carballo Camila de la Guardia Carlos Victimo Christian Vega Daniel Grisales Elvin Ramírez Fez Marcel Johan Ugalde Jonathan Jiménez Josue Casillas Karina Iga Karla Calero Luis Daniel Mora Marianella Chaves Natalia Kovach Nicole Menayo Mila Bog Rafa Quijano Verónica Elizalde Xualá Tobal

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photographer: Josue Casillas model:Mila Bog /New icon Styling:Carlos Victimo MUA_:Fez Marcel Hair: Adrian Galvez

4 MOVIES TO FALL IN by: Jair SOLIS February is the month in which lovers reaffirm their love, and friend celebrate their friendship. February is the month in which we fall in love and fall out of it. Alone or accompanied, February is a good time to watch the most romantic stories of the big screen. And that’s why we made a short list of romantic movies you should see.

The Notebook (2004): “The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.”

— Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook.

Already a classic of romantic movies, in it Ryan Gosling plays Noah, a humble young boy who’s in love, he meets the beautiful Allie (Rachel McAdams) in the summer. Throughout the plot we can experience the intensity of the romance of these two characters. The Notebook is definitely a must see of February (each year). The Notebook is not only one of the most quotable movies on Tumblr, but an amazing love story that trascends time and space.

A Little Bit of Heaven (2011): Kate Hudson and Gael García Bernal make our skin bristles with this romantic film. A Little Bit of Heaven tells the love story between Marley Corbett (K. Hudson) and Dr. Julian Goldstein (García Bernal), along the plot Whoopi Goldberg also makes an appearance as God, yes... God. The Latin Doctor falls for the beautiful professioanl Marley. A Little Bit of Heaven is not the typical romantic story with a happy ending (spoiler) that’s why if you haven’t seen it yet, you can’t miss it.

N LOVE... (OR NOT) (500) Days of Summer (2009): “Do you ever do this, you think back on all the times you’ve had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?” — Tom, (500) Days of Summer. One of the most popular romantic comedies in the last decade has been (500) Days of Summer. Are you one of those who hate Summer (Zooey Deschanel)? Have you identified yourself with Tom ( Joseph Gordon-Levitt)? Perhaps this last factor has been its success. A common story in common places, a story we all could have lived or are likely to experience. In social networks is common to run into a scene from this film, it has reached the level of being considered a very overrated story... But who cares? If you already watched it, recommend it to a friend, I’m sure we all know a Summer or a Tom.

The Normal Heart (2014): This TV movie is based on New York’s HIV crisis in the 80’s. The film chronicles the exploits of activists and doctors in the Big Apple on behalf of patients and their battle against the taboos of the era. In the midst of this story, we also get to know the romance of Ned Weeks (Mark Ruffalo) with Felix Turner (Matt Bomer), it’s definitely a story that touches more than one.

. . . E V O L N I E OB

When you’re 15 years old, you want to find a person who you like and which likes you. At age 20, you want to find someone you can have adventures with, someone who teaches you to enjoy the simple things in life, and that makes you laugh a lot. At 25, you want to find that one person who thinks of success like you do, someone who wants to progess and travel around the world. By 30, the only thing you want is to find that someone you love and who feels the same about you.

by: Marie Claire AGUIRRE

To love is to find a life partner that brings out the best in you and who motivates you so that you can be a benefit to all who are around you. It’s a chain, if we’re fine, people areound us will be too. And I’m not saying this because everything will be in a pink-ish shade, no. On the contrary... the best moments in a relationship are the most difficult because it’s when you get to see how strong you both are together. To love is a challenge and that’s why not everyone can do it; that’s why I keep admiring those marriages that after 40 or 50 years still have that special light in their eyes It’s ironic how love is changing as we grow old, isn’t it? But it when they smile. is normal to change as our environment shows us our original personality and we stop being those 15 year old kids who used to Love does exist and we can create it. Our attitude is the most fall in love in every corner. important thing because it will be the pattern to find that special person. And the day you find that person, NO, it won’t make everyLove shows us several shades but by 30 we already know what we thing better, but instead you’ll be ready to live life in the company want out of life and what we expect of it; and the following years of the person who will make you smile rather than mourn at the we will only live the consequences of our past actions, so you know, worst times, because living is growing, correcting, and improving. be prepared. Through the years, what I’ve learned is that it’s really important to admire, respect, and love that one special person in all aspects, because if not, your love will never be real. We must be willing to give all of ourselves so that our relationships can grow and flourish because love is not a commodity or momentary happiness, it is the simple fact of having that one person in which you can really count in for anything and who will help you the most imporatant lessons in life.

WHEN LOVE TAKE by: Angel PEGAMOIDE

We live in a time when perhaps we no longer see as many TV shows as we used to. Maybe today’s shows aren’t as the same as they were before and perhaps only the memory of those shows we used to watch, when we were kids and teenagers, is left. We used to look at dreamy couples and others who were struggling to survive, and others that was only a matter of time they would happen. Which is the couple that you remember with more affection?

Harvey & Sabrina: A witch and a mortal; even from their titles sounds like it can be disastrous. Sabrina fell in love with someone who at first seems too shy to ask her out but using her powers (although they were sometimes out of her control) she gets to go to the school dance with him, and that’s when he finally finds the courage and asks her to be his girlfriend. After their first kiss, Harvey is turned into a frog because he’s a mortal and Sabrina must pass the True Love test so he can go back to normal, and along the first seasons the adventures of this particular couple continue. In the last episode, somewhat unknown to many or perhaps forgotten, we found that Sabrina, who had graduated from college and who was independent, is walking down the aisle to marry Aaron, her current boyfriend. By the end, at the last moment, they decide to not get married by mutual agreement, as they weren’t “soul mates”.

Daria & Trent:

Interestingly, at the exit of the church was Harvey, the boy from her life; they run away in a motorcycle after some enchanted stones confirm that they were soul mates. Curiously, the exact time when they kiss (12:36), is the same time they met at the beginning of the series. How many did not follow the story of Sabrina, Harvey, her aunts and the adorable Salem?

How many of us haven’t been in Daria’s situation? Your crush is your best friend’s brother or sister. He or she has that look of being in a band. The simple fact of him being older already makes it an impossible love in your mind. It’s the typical person who goes with you to buy a gift for your best friend and whom you end up getting a navel piercing. He knows you, you talk to him, and he obviously knows when there’s something wrong between you and his brother or sister. And not because you don’t want to, but because of his YOLO attitude towards life (which is the same as yours).

Doug Funnie & Patti Mayonnaise: I think we all grew up watching Doug. On vacations, I always spent my time watching Nickelodeon and now that I analyze it many of the older cartoons left us a great lesson, we all can fall into the friendzone. I understood that thanks to Doug Funnie, at age 11, he was already living madly in love with his best friend, Patti Mayonnaise, a girl with good manners for her age and sports fanatic. And, as in real life, Doug never feels a romantic response from Patti so he’s only left to write his adventures with his dog Porkchop and all of his disappointments and sorrows for Patti.

ES OVER. Zack & Kelly: (Saved by the Bell) I guess we all know the story; Zack, the class clown and the heartbreaker who always gets his way, fell in love with Kelly Kapowski, the typical “good girl” who plays sports, is skinny, in simple words, the girl that everyone in the school wants. Both went to Bayside High School. From the first moment when he met her, Zack remained hopelessly in love with her and would do anything to achieve his goals, especially getting Kelly’s love. And we all also know how it ends. When they get to college, after several years and several girlfriends, he asks Kelly to marry him and they start preparing their wedding. How many similar cases don’t we know? I feel that Kelly Kapowski is the typical teenage girl who studies until she gets married.

Cory & Topanga: As geeky as it may sound, during my Easter and Summer breaks I spent my time watching TV; Boy Meets World would start right after Blossom and it was really good. One episode would make you laugh and the next one would make you think.

Cher & Josh:

Cory, a normal kid, and his classmate Topanga, a completely eccentric but lovable hippe girl, became one of the iconic 90’s couples. They met in high school, fell in love, and the series followed them through their college years and finally their wedding. Inevitable was enjoying the fact that the characters were growing up with you. Currently, they came back to TV except this time it’s with their children. Personally, this was one of my favourite teen couples from the 90’s.

Everyone, absolutely everyone, is a fan of Clueless, or at least I declare myself a fan. From the series to the film. The adventures of Cher and Dionne were amazing and surely you have identified yourself with any character from the series more than once. Josh wants to be a lawyer and he feels that Cher would never pay attention to him because of their different interests, plus the fact that she was one of the popular kids, and he was not. No need to describe the whole situation, but when Cher and Josh begin to confess their feelings towards each other, Josh acts as a tissue tears as he lets her know that she is not useless or superficial nor that she makes everything go wrong. The act of confession that culminates with a kiss. It may be kinda cheesy but who has experienced something similar? Raise your hand!

D N A U O I LOVE Y . . . S D I K 3 T N A W I 8 1 E R A E W by: Roberto GAONA 53

It seems that, sometimes, teen love can be very intense. So intense that often couples make future plans, which may include marriage, kids, and moving in together after high school. Sometimes it works but most of the times, it doesn’t. Let’s imagine, poster high school couple, David and Anna, has a lot of plans for their future together, then prom night comes and suddenly they’re out of high school. By graduation, David had decided already he’s doing pre-law at one school while Anna is going to art school. Their plans together have already changed so they have to start adapting, making different plans, they make new friends and there’s a possibility they might even meet someone else. Pretty often, teen couples make plans way too soon and they forget that they’re young and that they don’t really know what’s going to happen in a few months…

Through my high school years, I observed my friends making plans with their boyfriend or girlfriend. Only a few of them have lasted until now (4 years later), but most of them did move on (thank God). The problem is that we truly believe in the kind of love we see on TV; i.e., Cory and Topanga, Boy Meets World, started going out in Jr. High and continued until this day, Girl Meets World, they have two kids and are still very much in love. In real life, Cory and Topanga would be divorced or something. On the other hand, TV also gave us an example of teen love massively destructed. Ryan Atwood and Marissa Cooper, The OC, knew each other for years. Marissa after years spent years struggling with depression, bad relationships, drugs, alcohol, and pretty much anything terrible that could happen to a teenager dies in a terrible car crash in Ryan’s arms (and with her the show died too).

Despite going to different schools Anna and David decided to not break up. Time keeps going on and one day Anna decides to study abroad in Europe for a semester; meanwhile David is working so he can help his parents to pay his tuition and he’s left behind. Once again the plan changes. Then, after about a year in college they decide to break up because their relationship “isn’t working”. Anna’s plans have changed a lot in the past year, she’s hanging out with new people, she’s trying new things, she’s taking a lot of new classes so she doesn’t have the time to think about having kids or getting married anytime soon anymore. She has been very focused in her career, and maybe, just maybe, she’s even doing better than David. David, on the other hand, is really distracted from school due to his job, he’s going crazy because he’s in a lot of stress from trying to handle both school and work at the same time, he’s not hanging out with other people as much as Anna is, and neither does he have the time to think in a family at the moment. And so the poster high school couple is officially dead.

So I jump to the conclusion that teen love doesn’t last forever and that you should seriously stop searching for the same relationships you favourite characters of your favourite TV shows have, because basically that doesn’t exist.

BROKEN

INSTANTS by: Andrea GUZMÁN I write the last entry of my diary and sign it with a heart. I sigh, close it and put on the flower shaped lock, which I secure with a small barely-safe aluminum key that I stash on the bottom of my keepsakes drawer. I put the notebook away and smile at myself, contempt and relieved that it is all out there in the universe, that I have finally professed my feelings of true love and that, most importantly, no one beyond those purple lined pages will ever know.

He is sitting on the back row of the class, not giving a fuck about what the teacher is saying, scribbling away on his notebook. His dark hair falls down his face, covering his eyes, and his pale skin gives him an air of mystery, depth, intrigue. His hand moves back and forth through the piece of paper, holding the pen swiftly and steady with mastery. He is an artist; an artist with his hands, with his mind, with his soul. I once took a look at his notebook and it is all there: the depth of his heart and feelings, the thoughts that keep him up at night, dark figures that haunt him. He is obscure and intricate, he is sensitive and wild; he is perfect.

Today I don’t feel pretty and I don’t feel very smart. I got a B-minus in a test and I know that just won’t cut it. I am beginning to feel my inability to perform in certain aspects of life, something that hadn’t happened in my previous academic endeavors. Maybe it is true, maybe you do get stupider as you grow older, maybe you do lose focus and strength. I hear the footsteps all around me and I turn around, crashing into a tall hard body and dropping all my books. I think I saw this in a movie, but moving on… I look up and see his handsome face, his mouth forming the word ‘sorry’, my hearing impaired by my own brain. The thoughts are louder and I listen to them instead: What if? What if? Say something. You look stupid. Your hair. Hi. What did he say? Should I smile? Should I laugh? Should I talk? Should I breathe? Should I be?

We are standing alone in a dark closet and all I can hear are the seconds ticking by. With every pulsing sound, my opportunity fades away, and her freckled face looks brighter and brighter and more unreachable. I donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t know how to do this but I know I should just dive in. So here goes nothing. My face bumps into her face. My mouth a little too eager, I think I hit her with my teeth. Is that a little too much tongue? I am pretty sure this is the way it should be done. I can feel her soft cheeks and her breath; she is nervous, I can tell. I am shaking and I feel stupid; I am supposed to be the man. I pull her closer and she leans forward as I feel my hand going down her back. She doesnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t resist so I keep going. The seconds are ticking by faster and faster and my heart is going along with them, melting with each touch. We both let go and we are so innocent and I love it. So this is true love; this is warmth, these are her freckles and this is her skin. And then a knock on the closet door, because as soon as I stopped counting the ticking seconds it was all bound to disappear. She pulls away and giggles and I giggle back. And I donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t want to go, but the time is up.

A LOVE LETTER IN THREE PARTS:

Photographer: Adriana ORTIZ ModelS: Karina IGA @PARAGON Rafa QUIJANO @PARAGON CONCEPT: Roberto GAONA MUA: Veronica ELIZALDE

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by: Jarred AASEN

Young love, especially the first love, is a truly surreal time in life. It is a time where emotions rage strong, where life seems to slow down and make sense, where you feel certain you’ve finally found everything you need. It is the source of inspiration for heartfelt poems, dancing when nobody is looking and singing in the shower. As a teenager, the planet on which you reside is a mysterious globe with seemingly unending problems to be solved and decisions to be made and when the amorous rays of love shine upon you, the world itself warms up.

you hang out with anyone else if they can’t make you feel as good as that one special person?

The level of understanding between you two is unspoken, and not to mention *cough* certain perks your friends can’t offer. So you fall deeper into one another, unintentionally distancing yourself from the world. As you go out on double dates, go bowling together, go on camping trips together, you will be pleasantly surprised at the different dynamics between your partner when hanging with a group of people and as an added bonus it will make alone Teen love feeds a certain hunger you’ve had since first time that much more special. At any rate, you know your friends seeing Betty on the playground for the first time: her hair flowing will always be there waiting for their lovesick friend to come back effortlessly in the wind, the sound of her laugh something you down to earth. yearned for. This hunger will be satiated in finding another person The present is the only time there will ever be; sure it to feast with, together. This person makes you feel amazing, what passes slowly sometimes, but we’re all in it. Teen love is about else could you possibly need? I mean the Beatles said all you need taking the time to appreciate the dimple in her smile, the unique is love, right? The depth of truth to this statement will become sound of her voice, the endless warmth; taking time to drink in her more and more apparent with time: you will be surprised at how presence. As the old adage goes, there is no tomorrow to put off long you can go without food when snuggling, problems will roll thoughtful gestures, your cute date idea for next week, or getting off your back because your partner gave you wings to fly (awesome complacent in the present by promising things in the future. Lay problem retardant ones), a person will become your whole world. that rose on her pillow as a surprise before bed, find out when the You will finally understand what floating on cloud nine means, observatory is open to gaze at the stars and make things happen! walking on sunshine and even old hokey country songs will make It is teen love after all, and now is the time to get off your damned a bit more sense (but not really). screen and give her a big SMOOCH. And when it comes to everything in moderation, this rule completely flies out the window: you are swept away into the world you make with your partner. Your friends will undoubtedly wonder “Yesterday is but a dream; tomorrow is only a vision. But where you’ve gone, why don’t you hang out as much? And why are today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiyou always smiling to yourself? They won’t quite understand if they ness; and every tomorrow a vision of hope.” haven’t experienced young love for themselves, but you will. You — Kalidasa will take solace in the fact that what you feel is real. Why would

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by: Roberto GAONA

Most of the times you hear older people (parents basically) talking about how messed up our society is right now, but mainly our generation, because everything has become really impersonal. Nobody dates anymore; everybody wants a “no strings attached” relationship. The sad truth is that I think they’re right. Obviously not everything is bad in Tinder and other dating/sex apps because there are still people poking around those apps to find “the right guy or girl” (of course not everyone, but every once in a while you bump into those). I’m gonna quickly explain what Tinder is, for the people who have been living under a rock the past year and/or is enemy of these things. Tinder is an app for mobile devices that allows you to see people within the age range you want. You don’t talk to anyone until you find someone you like, for this you swipe right to “like” the person and swipe left to send them to the ugly people cementery. Once you like someone you gotta wait until he or she likes you back, then a message that says that you have a “new match” shows up and you can talk to that person. Let’s say they start the conversation with: “hi, how horny r u?” you can go to the three dots in the upper right side and hit “unmatch” and he/she will be gone forever (unless you actually want to answer them). Or let’s say that everything goes well and you found a decent person to talk to, you exchange phones and decide to go on a date IRL, and everything goes very smooth (until you realise you’ve been catfished, sort of, and want to run away the second he gets to starbucks).

After that brief explanation, let’s go over the kind of person you shouldnt be on Tinder: 1. The rebooting Tinder everyday so that people you disliked appear again and you dislike them again. There’s certain people on Tinder that uses it as a hobby, I think, and they like or dislike every person within an hour, then there’s nothing left anymore and you’re not comfortable with the people who like you back so you basically, go to settings and hit “Delete my account” and then you have all that people again. Guys don’t reboot there’s always new people for you. 2. The no-photo kind of person. Man, how are people going to like you back if you don’t have a fucking photo? Or worse, you have a photo but it’s you on the beach with sunglasses at 10,000 kms of distance and you look like a playmobil. Upload at least one or two photos so people like you back. 3. The “I collect matches”. Some of the people that are liking you are expecting you to write them back at least one “Hi, how are you?”. If you want to collect things go buy a Pokemon stamp album or something. Don’t collect matches, don’t be a douchebag, there’s people looking for someone to hang out and you don’t even bother to answer, shame on you. 4. The “Full Length bio”. It’s okay to put something as your bio, it gives you more chances to be liked back, but some people tell his whole life. People are not going to read all of that man, write something brief like “Law student, Starbucks lover” or something like that. When it is a man-man play you see things like “Lady GAGA Fan, Little Monster until dead <3 <3”. FUCK NO, don’t do that, who cares if you are a Lady GAGA fan? It’s not a relevant thing in your life or is really LADY GAGA your whole life? What a sad life dude.

And this is how Tinder works, this is what happens in the 21st century, and this is how people are meeting people, use it but don’t exaggerate; try to meet people the old-fashioned way it’s always more fun, but like I said, there’s nothing bad with online dating apps, though they’re not for everyone.

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GETTING OVER IT.

AFTER BREAK UP TIPS by: Sayana HERNANDEZ Every break up is a disaster, every time we end a relationship we become vulnerable, our mood is fickle, we have ups and downs, and therefore a huge depression takes hold of us with memories and photos that make us remember that peroson who isn’t there anymore. The after break up solutions are already well known by all of us, excercise, hang out with friends to distract yourself, mourn, laugh, read, and eat chocolates. While they are good recommendations that we should apply to our list of solutions post break ups, there are some others that, at least for me, have been more effective:

1. Personal Improvement Quotes. Buy a corkboard, or if you wanna be creative do it yourself, and write in different coloured papers all your qualities, everything that you like about yourself and put it somewhere you can see it, so you’re constantly reminded how much you’re worth.

2. Bitter Playlist. The most basic solution but it really works. Find every song that reminds you how lousy it was and how much he let go. You may not be bitter but it always works singing with anger instead of only crying to sad songs. At the end you will feel relieved and eager to do thing for yourself. Try it!

3. Gossip Girl. If you already watched it, do it again, the perspective with which you will watch it this time will be different, and believe me it works. If you wanna explore other series instead of reliving all of Blair and Serena’s drama, you can try Desperate Housewives, which although it’s old is a classic. You can also try watching other series as long as they are of this nature and avoid movies about love, that will just make you go back.

4. Coca-Cola + Chocolate. Yes, it sounds disgusting, but once you try it, it doesn’t taste too bad and is a stroke of happiness that will do wonders. Of course, mind the quatities, it’s not about finishing and entire box of chocolates and an entire bottle of Coke; a small portion if is perfect to create the effect.

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