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Is it the end of the line for Rich Gambarella's lobster business?
10 Public Option f?y Julia Fisher Reading between the lines at New Haven' s Public Library
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4 Hitting a tfigh Note f?y M anssa Grunes How one New Haven organization uses music to build community •
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PROFILE Made of Mettle f?y H aley Cohen
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Tina Lee Hadari skips to the corner of the classroom with startling spunk for a woman in her third trimester. A young girl sitting in the middle of the room · pulls a bow across the strings of a cello that is almost her size. ''Am I warmer?" Hadari asks, crinkling her face into a s:mile as she peeks behind a piano for the teddy bear her student has hidden. •
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Hadari is the founder of Musk .H aven, an not-for-profit organization for budding string players who live or go to school in the Hill, Dwight, Dixwell and N ewhallville neighborhoods, four of New Haven's poorest areas. Few of Music Haven's students have had experience with instrumental music before entering the program; few could afford less.o ns or instruments. Music Haven itself is a young performer. In the fall of 2007, Hadari handed twelve youngsters wooden dowel rods with erasers on the end to practice holding . a bow. The newly-minted tnusicians, generally around seven years old, proved responsibility by bringing the dowels to class each day and not breaking them. After a year, they were handed a more precious gift a free musical mstrurnent.
For the musicians of Music Haven, community is paramount. At Music Haven, . . . . says Hadari, "this is a farrlily; we take can~ of each other." · The program's highly trained teachers violinists Tina Lee Hadari (YSM '04) and Yaira Matyakubova (YSM '05), violist Colin Benn (Bachelor of Music in '02 from Jumiard) and cellist · Elise Pittenger (YC '97) work
professional quartet, the four musicians bring world-class instrumental performances to the Elm City for free. Most chamber groups are based in an academy or conservatory, but the Haven String Quartet has an "urban residency;" the entire city is home turf. Though they play some ticketed performances ~n churches and other traditional venues, they play most concer_ts in libraries, senior residences, private homes and schools. Their aim is to make music "accessible ' to everybody within the community: financially, culturally, and location-wise" says Sarah Perkins, Program Coordinator. Any donations from the concerts go towards the lessons program and the instruments given to students.
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community." In 2007, after a year spent assembling a board of directors, applying for grants, an~ raising money, Hadari received the goahead to establish Music Haven in New Haven public schools. She called in analysts from the Yale School of Management to conduct a needs assessment to decide where to set up residence. The program began with twelve students. It doubled to twenty-four students in 2009 ' and trains thirty-six this year. Its waiting list projects over sixty students for next year, at which point Music Haven may be forced to cap the program. All students receive free instrurnents from Music Haven, which obtains them at wholesale discount with :help from localluthier Ute Brinkmann. Music Haven even has a composer-in-residence Hadari's husband, acclaitned violinist Netta Hadari. Mr. Hadari composes music to accompany children's books like The Lorax and Giraffes Can't Dance, which the Quartet then performs while Mr. Hadari reads the stories. He is currently working on a piece called "Everyone Knows What a Dragon Looks I .ike." The end result will give each quartet member a one-tninute solo ' played collaboratively with the New Haven Charnber Orchestra and the Music Haven kids themselves. · •
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The Music Haven program is modeled after Conununity MusicWorks in Providence ' Rhode Island, a non-prc>fit organization that aims to unite a lessons program and quartet into a symbiotic entity. Hadari hopes that her quartet will "become more of a feature of the neighborhood" and "bring together a diverse audience" through local, long-standing relationships within the • commuruty. The community members must be convinced that Music Haven will not go the way of the many other well-intentioned but shortlived endeavors that originate from Yale. Money is an ongoing concern for an organization funded largely by donations and grants. But the program is being noticed. Music Haven recently received an Arts Award from the Arts Council of Greater New Haven in 2008 as a "Ground Breaker," an accolade given to "individuals or organizations whose fresh, raw ideas spur • mnovatlve programs." And David Brensilver, Director of Communications at the Arts council, lauds the program as something that "no one else is doing;" in bringing instrutnental lessons to students who wouldn't •
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members of different social ' ethnic, and cultural groups to mix. She envisions Music Haven expanding beyond the lessons progratn to become a "fun place for kids to hang out and play chamber music and talk about issues in their lives, almost like a youth group at church, but revolving around music." The program is still finding its footing, but Hadari is conmutted to helping it adapt and grow. As Hadari says, smiling optirnistically and pau ing her own maternal bulge, ''progress comes in baby steps." -Marissa Grunes
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Most students know the Residential College Seminar Program for its nontraditional courses; recent offerings have included Christian Theology and Harry Potter, The Science of Brewing, and Hip Hop Music and Culture. Instructors· aren't Yale professors they are professionals, hailing from fields as diverse as screenwriting, children's literature, politics, rnvestment, and nonprofit management. The classes themselves are unique, but so is the student run process that gets them here in the first place. •
a period of social revolution as a response to what the yale College Dean's Office called "a · widely felt need for innovation and experimentation in the Yale College curriculum." In an effort to forge bonds between students and the administration, the Dean invited undergraduates to help build the course catalog. Four decades later, experimentation and innovation are still hallmarks of the program. College sen1inars are, in fact, required to offer something that the regular curricuhun doesn't already include. . College seminar proposals flood Yale each semester between forty and seventy five individuals, on
read and discuss all proposals, then interview applicants before they decide which classes to select. Each college meets candidates in a slightly different way. According to Ian Walker '1 0, head of the Si1lirnan Seminar committee, "a few colleges will try to have a block of interviews in one day. We kind of have a different philosophy ... we wine and dine our interviewees. What we usually do is take them to dinner in Silliman dining hall, we spread it over a week or two." Davenport takes its own approach: interviews are conducted in faculty advisor Eytan Halaban's apartment to •
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When interviews are finished and applications are read, the committees must pick their top choice courses. They need to find which ones are most engaging, to sift through what's fun as a concept and determine what works as a class. According to Balaban, "a lot of proposals come that are frivolous. A subject is taken and given a sexy title." It's up to the students to see through the title and make sure the syllabus itself is up to par. What one committee finds compelling, another might find unappealing. That's a good thing - while all the colleges read all the applications, each can select only.t:Wo per semester. If they all pick the same favorite class, . they've got to fight for it later on. According to Geoff Shaw '1 0, former seminar committee coordinator for Branford, "there is never an objectively most popular class ... One tini.e, there was a class on I-banking that I thought would be the most popular - I thought it would go in a flash, but it didn't wind up going soon." •
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Demanding Supplies Taking art classes at Yale can be an expensive endeavor. Should Yale help ·its art students out? •
The starving artist survives on canned beans and spends his or her pinched pennies on canned paint instead. The image is fan1iliar, cliched. Yale's undergraduate Art students are by no means starving, but they face far higher expenses than our other majors do. Liberal arts universities such as Yale pride themselves on their ability to offer students nearly absolute freedom in crafting their academic careers. But for Art students at Yale, this freedom comes with a price tag literally. Yale Art majors have been known to purchase up to $1000 in materials for a single class. Art major Chika Ota '11 never spends less than $200 on materials each semester; she adds that oil painters and photographers often spend upwards of $500. Art materials are generally more expensive than course books, and they don't come used. Moreover, art students often feel that the highest quality n1aterials tnake the highest quality art; if they can't afford them, they're at an artistic disadvantage. In addition to the costs of buying personal materials, most art classes at Yale require an extra class n•aterials fee. These range from ·25 to 150 - the more •
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between classes and students. "Some person might require a lot of material, and another person very little and both could
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cover the cost of supplies. Resources like the Digital Media Center for the Arts (DMCA), a building on York Street that houses top of the line technology for audio, visual, and printed work, also come with price tags . In the DMCA students can rent digita,l cameras, digital video cameras, microphones, field lighting and recording equipment -- but they must pay to do so. According to Ken Lovell, the Associate Director of the DMCA, this is the school's way of showing to1.;1gh love. The facility exists, he explains, ""to train people to do the work themselves" instead of paying someone else to do it for them, ultirnately helping them to become more self-sufficient artists. He said, "their mission is to show you how to do your work, not to do your work for you." Even keeping that in mind:J ies hard to imagine how students
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Instead:J they are given a budget for the semester, usually between $150 to $600, to use at their discretion. Harvard Art student Isidore Bethel '11, expressed that this stipend has helped the art major from becoming financially exclusive. Bethel is on a full scholarship at Harvard, and said that the Art department's subsidies were one of the reasons he chose the school in the first place. The difference in subsidy raises questions about Yale's investment in their artists. The University has produced successful artists from both its undergraduate and graduate progra tns, such as sculptor Jessica Stockholder MFA '85, who is now a faculty member of the Yale School of •
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for building a portfolio for later," says Fidel Gurrola '12, who hopes to be a graphic designer after graduation. Gurrola's passion is admirable, but for some students, passion can't pay the bills. If our University wants to keep its talented artists, then it should not make its artists give up so much for their work. While the starving artistin-training sentiment may have its place, it isn't at Yale. Yale has money. T he artists have talent. Yale wants talent. Student artists need money. I t's in the University's hands to strike an even trade.
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room, which is home to old maps, city directories, and newspapers, for research.
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by on the street, but no one stops. The website had told me the library was closed yesterday for Good Friday, but it said nothing of Saturday. A sign on the door •
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Haven residents can visit Yale's .
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daughter in a white pickup truck.
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loiterers, and I go inside.
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philosophy, mathematics, and physics. "I like to read," he says several times. He started with Waitingfor Godot. which he picked up off a shelf in a library in Cleveland for no particular reason. "I just continued reading." '
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by Kate S elker ___..eah Libresco '12 hoped that her boyfriend, Chris Pagiriella '12, could find her a very particular Valentine's Day Card. "I told him he didn't have to get me one unless he could find one that said, 'I love you so much that I am accidental!J condemningyou to hell f?y wishingyou existed. m She tells me. •
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Would Chri~ a practicing Catholic, rather have Leah, an ardent atheist, exist with her heart hardened complete!J against Christforever- or would he rather she did not exist at all? •
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Chris and Leah have agreed, along with three other couples, to be interviewed about religion and relationships at Yale. It's the type of stuff you're never supposed to bring up at a cocktail party. We're told to avoid politics, avoid God, avoid talking about your great boyfriend or your horrible ex. But there's so much to learn if we do. Chris and Leah, Sloane and Harris, Jessica and Roland, and Michelle and Alan have let me into their private lives. So they talk, and I listen.
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fn truth, they explain, it's more about procreation than pleasure. By Jewish law, men are required to have sex with their wives. (There are some logistical dispensations. "If you're a sailor, you can do it . notes.) £ewer t1.rnes,"Harns "Jewish babies! Yay!" Sloane exclairns. But she's serious. "Since the Holocaust, there's a very prevalent fear in our grandparents' generation that we could be wiped out. And that's a very visceral thing, because all of my grandparents' friends were survivors.'' She looks at Harris. "Barbara" she says. .
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Babs is Sloane's grandmother; . the majority of her friends are Holocaust surVivors. With so many people murdered under Hider's rule, it makes sense that Babs' generation feels strongly about making sure the religion doesn't die out. And since Judiasm doesn't proselytize, the only way to perpetuate the religion is by raising Jewish children. "It's the first commandment in the 613 commandments!" Harris says. "Be fruitful and multiply." For a Protestant opinion, I talk with Jessica Letchford '11. She's dating a fellow Christian, Roland Reimers '11, long distance while he spends a semester abroad in Beijing. Jessica talks to me about their relationship from a bench in the Davenport courtyard, her blonde hair glows in the sunlight. Roland emails me about Jessica from China. "Our fundamental trust in God is what binds us closely together," he-writes. "Since we have assurance in God's plan for us no matter what, we can just enjoy our relationship exactly the way it is." Jessica, too, says sex has it's place in religion -- when it is between a pair united in • matnmony. "I think that God created sex to be a really good thing, but that
and the greatest fulfillment in the context that He created it for." That·context is marriage. According to the Bible, Jessica tells me, God intended the relationship between a man and a woman to mirror the bond between Christ and the church. As such, it shall be sacred.
RITUALS are common across religions. Leah, the atheist, was skeptical of the ones performed at Chris' Catholic Mass. "At first, to be honest, it looked like when you watch a fantasy movie," she tells me. "There are these bizarre and arcane rituals!" "I love your National Geographic take on this," Chris responds. She softens somewhat. "Mass doesn't seem to touch on Catholicism that much, but rather just on being decent people. I was su t prised," she acqmesces. •
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foremost, want to look to God for ever · g in our life, before we look to each other. Fears and co'ncerns that we have - whether about school work and classes, looking for jobs and grad schools, or o~her post-graduation plans - don't seem nearly as daunting when we can pray about them openly and honestly with each other." For them, the ritual of prayer brings comfort. It works.
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''I was raised nothing," she tells me. With Alan's stray suggestion, she found something. Chris and Leah are constant thinkers. They started sharing religion as part of an intellectual bargain. Do they ever have arguments about their beliefs? "Oh rny goodness, we have them all the tirne!" Leah tells me.
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ballroom dancing with me for two hours, I would go to Mass with him. I'm still not Catholic, but he knows how to waltz!" She laughs. Chris looks at her. "You went on holy days," he
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Chris is under some pressure to supply. Ms. Pagliarella, however, approves of Leah, even if she holds out hope that she'll convert. .
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Chris explains that his mom and dad have gotten used to the idea of Leah. ''You'd think it'd be problematic that I'd bring home a liberal, bisexual, atheist Jew from Long Island," but despite it all, his parents have gladly welcomed Leah into their home on breaks. If she doesn't keep the kids from growing up Catholic, eve.t;ything will be just fine. -
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That works for Leah. She · . won't keep them from growing up anything they don't want to be. "I wouldn't stop hitn from taking the children to church," she explains. "I ·should be strong enough in my truth c1aitn that it shouldn't be hurt by the fact that somebody saw the Cross."
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, Many Yale undergraduates are surpri~ed to encounter Dwight Dickerson in their Spanish seminars and Political Psychology lectures. His usual uniform is collegiate enough - black Velcro sneakers, blue jeans, a black pinstriped button-down left untucked and a grey Yale Bulldogs sweatshirt but his bald head and . . the white hairs salting his pepper black mustache suggest he is a fair bit older than your average undergraduate. .
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you here? No. Why are you here? No, definitely not. Why are you so old? Even worse. I resorted to asking other people in my section about Dwight. Though everyone I asked was intrigued, no one had any answers. One friend responded that she had once been in class with another older man - his name was Robert Johnson '10 and he was an active duty officer in the United States Army. She explained that he was part of "the Eli Whitney something or other", unable to remember the program's official name.
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student in Spring 2006. Possibly because of the controversy _ . sparked by his presence at Yale • even as a non-degree student, Hashemi was denied from the Eli Whitney students program - a ·decision that prompted even more . press. But in spite of the ample coverage of Hashemi, the Eli Whitney Students program and its participants still remain under the radar, relatively mysterious. ·
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Dwight flips deliberately through his copy of John Hope Franklin's autobiography Mirror to America. The book details Franklin's path from childhood in segregated Oklahoma to serving as first black president of the American Historical society. Dwight has coated the book's pages with highlighter and penned notes. Unlike many undergrads at Yale, he actually seems to finish his reading. Anderson calls on him, and he launches into a comment, subtly gesticulating as he speaks. "I agree with Bianca's deduction that in parts of this book, Franklin tries to downplay his race." Dwight speaks slowly, taking ti rne to think and pause, picking just the right word. ''But even though he never directly alluded to it, there wasn't an hour where race wasn't an issue." "The fact that he's black and grew up in the inner city in the '60s and '70s gives hin1 a different perspective than a lot of the other kids in class," explains Professor Anderson, Dwight's professor for Norms and Deviance. ''But he doesn't bring his background into his cornrnents much, it just comes out with conunenta 1 y." He adds, without a hint of irony, "He's a 23
\¡cr} bright young man." \\"hile Dwight's two classes last semester, Norms and Deviance and Colonial Latin 1\merica, might seem a light workload to your aYerage )ale undergraduate, your aYerage Yale undergraduates also don't work 6 7 c..lays a week from 11 :30 p.m. to 6 a.m. And if they did, you would probably find those normal Yale students sleeping in their free time instead of playing piano for the local church band, volunteering at a program to aid previously incarcerated indh iduals readjust to everyday life and singing on sales-"\vorthy demo CDs.
classroom, when it comes to Eli Whitney students, a tacit policy of ÂŤdon't ask don't tell"seems to be in effect. Younger Yalies don't want to seem rude by peppering their older peers with personal questions, and the Eli \X'hitney students keep quiet, wanting to assimilate as best they can. While this unofficial system protects the privacy of the Eli Whitney students, it also fails to honor the accomplishments that earned them positions at Yale. Dwight invites me to spend a Saturday with him so I can better understand his life outside academia. He begins the day at 9:30 a.m. with band rehearsal for Sunday services at Church on the Rock, a cinderblock cube in ).Jew Haven's Long Wharf neighborhood.
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. .smung "1" L ancers," h e exp1a111s, down at the frame. "That's my wife, Loretta and those are the Lancers I used to jam with." Dwight served as the lead horn soloist for the Lancers until 197 5, when he graduated from Cardinal Hayes high school, -an all-boys catholic institution, and moved to Boston to attend Berklee College of Music. For two years, Dwight thrived on the regimented practice schedule, living and breathing in scales, majors, and sharps. But one day Dwight found that he couldn't practice any more. Something just felt wrong. Amidst the cacophony of horns, strings, .
from the practice rooms, Dwight felt empty. He needed more more stirnulation, more variety, and more choice. Dwight took tirne off to help with his father's_ business in the Bronx before enrolling at Howard University, a liberal arts institution, in 1979. The transfer allowed him to take politics and sociology as well as music. He loved Howard - he loved living in Washington, D.C., he loved his classes and his classmates. But it didn't last long. After only two years at Howard, in January 1981, Dwight's mother, Dora, passed away. Dwight dropped out of school and returned to the Bronx to support his father and help hi tn run his linoleutn and · carpet warehouses. Only a few months later, Elmore married a woman with whom Dwight soon discovered he'd been having a long-term affair, extending back far before his mother's death. When Elmore passed aw~y 4! October of that same year, his . new wife seized the fam11y's assets, leaving Dwight and his siblings virtually penniless . .
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"It got to the point where I would come home at night after . work and find her sitting on the side of the bed crying," Dwight remembers. "Finally, I _asked 'You wanna move back?"' A close friend of Dwight's from Bridgeport put hirn in touch with another friend who was renting out his apartrnent on Auburn Street in New Haven. Without even looking at the apartment, Dwight and Loretta packed up their things and moved back t o Connecticut, further postponing Dwight's college plan s. •
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Dwight agrees and the tension dissipates as Ta'Lanna begins her stor with a laugh . "Dad doesn't get a lot of sleep so he's constantly 'resting his eyes.' At red lights, at the dinner table, whate er. Anyway, one day at our old church he was on stage because he'd played a trumpet solo, and he fell asleep during the preacher's sermon! The preacher was so offended that he turned around at one point and · shouted: am I BORI G you?!"
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The room is large and airy with a bean-shaped Jacuzzi, huge vanity mirrors, and a glass-paned shower that houses a waterproof phone and radio. The sinks and ftoors are pink marble and it smells faintly of flowers. The toilet is hidden from the rest of the room, separated by a wall and a door. "This," Dwight says sweeping his hand across the room "is why I work." •
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gastric fibrosis and had to go on disability leave from her job at the Yale Child Studies Center. For a while she thought she'd be · able to return to work but then the disease triggered problems with her pancreas, and on top of everything she developed lupus, . a disease of the immune .system that causes joint pain, muscle pain, and chronic fevers. For the first year Loretta stopped working, Dwight had a hard titne making ends meet. In 2001, Dwight lost his job at aviation supplier G KN aerospace when they relocated to St. Louis after September 11th and for the next two years he juggled five temp jobs. He worked such long . hours that he barely saw the family he was working to support. •
It was only in 2003, when Dwight landed his job at Sikorsky, that things got a little bit easier. His starting salary at Sikorsky was $55,000- more than his old illcome combined with Loretta's when she could still work - which allowed him to quit all his other jobs. · Working at Sikorsky also allowed him to fulfill his lifelong drearn of finishing school. United Technology, the umbrella company that owns Sikorsky, runs an employee scholar program that completely covers the cost of the education of all its employees as well as offering paid study tirne.
As an incentive for employees to pursue education, the company also presents them with a $10,000 stock option upon completion of their bachelor's degree. This policy allowed Dwight to enroll at Yale, where he is set to graduate on May 24th, 2010. The ample benefit package is not the only reason Dwight loves working at Sikorsky. "I was born to be a machinist," Dwight insists as we walk into the plant, a, sprawling compound . right off of the Merritt Parkway in Stratford. "I've always loved taking things apart, seeing how they work, and putting them back together." ~
. Dwight's role as a final line inspector does not require active building, but it is just as important. Blueprint in hand, Dwight scours his assigned helicopters millirneter by millirneter to make sure every last screw matches the plan. It hurts his eyes a "heck of a lot" but Dwight finds the job extremely fulfilling. He knows that if he makes one misstep there could be dire consequences. The safety of the helicopter's future crew -whether it be Army men, navy men or businessmen - is in his hands and on his eyes. •
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We peek through the wired glass to catch a glimpse of the aitcraft, but a frowning guard taps at us from the other side and shakes his finger "no." "Aw, shucks," Dwight says, sighing. "Security on those birds is ti-ight."
Defeated, he leads me to the cafeteria so he can get a · ·snack. I feel relieved. It is 3 p.m. •
and I have yet to see hitn eat or drink anything since I met him at 9:30 a.m. I had started to wonder whether Dwight was a machine himself. The hot food area is closed, so he opts for something from one of the five vending machines in the lounge. He punches in D7 and watches intently as the mechanical springs move to eject a plastic wrapped blueberry . muffin from its roost. He waits a split second to claim his treat, trying to figure out the mechanics of the machine. Back at Yale, Dwight and I sit on a bench outside of William L . Harkness Hall, and we talk about his overall experience as a Yalie. Because he's so busy, Dwight has had little titne to get to know other undergraduates. In fact, in his five years at Yale, he tells me I am just the third person to inquire about his background. ''Whether people ask me about my story or not is not the issue," Dwight explains. "Even though the Eli Whitney Students Program has been in existence for over 20 years, a lot of people don't know about it. It was alrnost as if Yale was hiding it." I had to put posefully dig to find infonnation on the •
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other Yale undergraduates would be less fearful of intruding and more likely to engage their Eli Whitney classmates outside of lecture and section. The promotional video on the website, fihned and posted in 2008, represents Yale's recent .realization for a need. to publicize the Eli Whitrtey students program.
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Dwight has never taken handouts and doesn't plan on starting now. When the dean of Ezra Stiles College hands hitn his Yale diploma in May, it will be because he's earned it.
"John Hope Franklin graduated Harvard with a 3.7," Dwight cormnen,ts, referring to the renowned black scholar whose Half!)' ohen is a junior in Davvenbiography he'd read in Norms and port College and Co-Editor-in-Chief of TN] Deviance. "But during that tirne he didn't work, or have a wife, or kids. To me graduating Yale with a 3.3 would be like graduating with a 4.0." Dwight credits his graduation frorn Yale to years of hard work, . sacrifice and the support of his fan1ily. Graduating from college has been his goal for over 30 years, though he never dreamed it would be from Yale. '
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R ch Gambardella sets up shop at the corner of Chapel and Mill Streets, half a block past a drawbridge that separates a small Fair Haven inlet from the larger Long Island Sound. Stacked lobster traps sit at the end of the driveway near a small dock. Across the inlet is a giant pile of mulch, covered by a black tarp and held down by tires. At least twice a week for the past twenty years, Rich has watched th~ sun rise over this shiny plastic volcano as he heads out into the Sound-setting gear and pulling pots before returning to his New Haven Lobster Shop by two in the afterno on. He is the last lone lobsterman of New Haven.
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makeshift kitchen to the right, where he sometimes cooks crab with Cajun seasoning, and a desk to the left, where he keeps an eight-cup coffee pot that he finishes off daily. Lobsters and rock crabs scuttle about a green basin in the back half of the store, separated by species and size with white lattice. The one-room storehouse is damp but clean, and smells more like a fresh tide pool than a fish tank. The way Rich tells the story, the sea was always in his blood. "My first memories are of fishing for big blackfish right here in New Haven," he says. Nevertheless, he stumbled into the lobster business unexpectedly. His uncle had been a lobsterman for thirty years when his brother-Rich's father--decided to join him in 1990. Just few years later, Rich's father got hurt, so Rich stepped in. "My dad said I could fill in for him for two days. I've done it ever since." Rich has the outline of a lobster on his right forearm, a tattoo he got four years ago but THE :-:EW JOu&'JAL
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"But even then, Richy, we're probably the only two guys who got along," Johnny adds. ''Richy could call me and say 'I need ya,' and I'd be there. The old guys were worried about what the other guys were doing. It was boat for boat." Johnny wi11 be fifty-one next week. He mentions this, and Rich turns and puts his hand
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partner a1tnost ten years ago. If the lobster were to return in force, Rich thinks the business could be lucrative. Rich's twelve year-old daughter Kristin likes to go out on the boat with ~ and next year, the boat will bear her narne. He imagines that some day he might pass the business on to her.
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Search Engine Failure Chinese Ya lies I uncensored views of Google Is China controversy
by Helen Gao H alfway through January, Google announced on its blog that they would soon be taking "a new approach to China." The decision was sparked by an alleged cyber attack on Google's corporate infrastructure. The company believed their attackers were Beijing government officials. "We launched Coogle. en in January 2006 in the belief that the benefits of increased access to information for people in China ... outweighed our discomfort in agreeing to censor some results" read the announcement. As time passed, however, Google continued, "[these} attacks and the surveillance thry have uncovered-combined with the attempts over the pastyear to further limitfree speech on the web--have led us to conclude that we should review the feasibility of our business operations in China. "
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On January 13,2010, after four years of flying relatively under the radar in China, Google's fame peaked overnight. Now, it Now, Google was more than a search engine: it was a controversy. Its fame skyi:ocketed overnight. Debates araged amongst mong bloggers, computer scientists, entrepreneurs and human right supporters stormed American media. The American media eagerly followed the drama. Here at Yale, the Chinese students' panlist was Hooded with heated commentary: "It is apparendy the conspiracy of some ill-intended capitalists and the manipulated government to further destroy China's international image!" one student barked. Government-GoogleTensions between the government and Google tensions had grown graduallyhad grown gradually as after 2008 as ChinaChina built it's so-called "Great Firewall" higher and higher.. Thousands of blogs and search terms were eliminated in the government's "anti-pornography campaign." Google complied with the the governments's censorship
demands until December 2009, when they fell victim to a cyber attack that they believed originated from Mainland China. Further investigation traced the attack to an elite Chinese university with the nation's top computer science program, and a vocational school that was a feeder of computer specialists to the military. It The attack targeted the G Gmail accounts of several Chinese human right activists. These facts put put together convinced the Western media of the involvement of the Chinese government. that the Chinese government had been involved. Google China, for all the political controversy it has now generated, had less of a force in my lifepresence in my life growing up in Beijing than the American media may have American commentators might assume.d. Google is certainly a part of the Chinese netizen's daily vocabulary, but the company doesn't have a strong grasp on the market. My mom, for instance, THE NEW JOURNAL
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have been a big move for those Western investors coveting China's fast-growing market, but it has barely affected the lives of ordinary families like mine. Amidst the groWing media frenzy, some of my Chinese friends scoff. "Google is a big
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From Google's perspective, a cost-benefit analysis shows litde economic reason to leave . In truth, the underperformance of its branch in China will barely cause the company to sweat: Analysts estitnate Google's China business is a modest 1 percent. to 2 percent of its $6.5 billion . in annual net profit. But by •
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China, I use Baidu when I'm home in China. The company boasts a tnarket share of 63.9 0 /o while Google owns a mere third of that amount. The 2006 founding of Google China may
until now?" one student wrote to Yale's Chinese students' panlist. He thinks the move is more about saving face than saving information. He is not alone in his argument. The Global Times, China's biggest English-language daily newspaper, recendy announced that 70 percent of Chinese polled believe Google's threat to exit China as a result of its failure to compete with Baidu. Maybe so. But a quick look at the cases of other international business trying to enter markets
money, then what's it about? Just as Western observers suggest the Chinese government was behind the most recent cyber attack, many Chinese suspect that the United States government plotted Google's departure from China. There has long existed, after all,After all, there has long been tension between China and the US regarding the topic ofissues of media freedom. Emails sent betweenMany of Yale's Chinese students students atsupport this "conspiracy theory" rnodel. They decriedln recent emails to their panlist, they credit Google's move as an attempt by US government to further destroy China's international ilnage.
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by Kate Lund T he fust figure to greet anyone entering my father's second-floor apartment was the Martini Lady. Printed on poster board, she stood with her hip jutted, strong-jawed and slouch~ in a red strapless cocktail dress. Her hair was cut short and her raised hand exposed an unshaved armpit; I never knew if these spiky black tufts emphasized Martini's dykiness or exposed her to be not a lady, but a delicate man. Despite her vamping, Martini was a welcome sight. Whenever I went outside with my father, I wanted desperately to get back in. Seattle's freeway was a direct shot to his apartment, but if he needed groceries, we'd detour along South Broadway, the gayest street in the second-gayest city in America. My father knew everyone on the avenue. As we passed men with hoops in their earlobes and Calvin Klein briefs peeking over their low-slung jeans, he'd greet them with a kiss on the lips and introduce me, hiking his voice into a higher register. I was never at ease with these men, and I didn't feel myself loosen until we turned off Broadway and the streets took on the same calm feel of the sleepy neighborhood where
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I lived six days out of seven with my mom. When I finally met eyes with Martini, I was like a sprinter crossing the capturethe-flag line from deep in enemy territory, safe at last. Unlike the house I lived in with my mother, my father's apartment was furnished by selection, not accumulation, and each room looked torn from a catalogue on interior design. As early as elementary school, I perceived something threatening beneath the soft lighting and sleek Scandinavian furniture. A framed sketch of a cartoon king had pubic hair; a gridded poster in my father's room depicted a finger indenting a nipple; in the kitchen, a black man licked melted ice cream off his partner's balding head. ~!agazine racks displayed issues of 0Ht and GQ, whose covers exhibited some variation on the words HOT HOT HOT superimposed over gleaming pectorals. What wasn't on the walls, I uncovered myself. Once, I grabbed something in my father's closet, and a cascade of birdseed scattered across the floor, leaving me gripping an empty leg of pantyhose. He explained that he had gone to a drag party that weekend, and filled them to make breasts.
Another time, I remember handling a familiar Christmas tree ornament, and lifting its skirt to see two sewn-on jewel balls attached beneath a tiny beaded penis. Every Friday, my father hung his coat on the rack beside Martini and closed the door to the apartment. We were home.
* I result from one of the world's most deliberate conceptions; my father was the accident. He'd agreed at twentyeight to donate his sperm to my mother, Annette, a forty-yearold lesbian determined to have a biological baby before the last slow tick of her biological clock. Arranged by a third party, I was
... IN THE I<ITCHEN,A BLACI<MAN LICI<ED MELTED ICE CREAM OFF HIS PARTNER'S BALDING HEAD conceived through artificial insemination. My parents never met, nor did they plan to. But by the time I reached toddlerhood, my mom's partner had split and I was down a parent, so she decided to invite my father over. He showed up with his thenboyfriend D avid, which caused some lingering confusion (ÂŤMy THE NEW JOURNAL
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* Every Friday during middle · school, I'd drop my coat at Martini's feet, _kick off shoes and socks, and .sit cross-legged on the couch, waiting for the central ritual of my weekly visits to begin. My father would bring a blanket, and facing each other on opposite ends of the couch, I'd read aloud to a man who averaged a book a year a single chapter of Harry Potter. Our ritual was best on rainy days. My father · wocld warm my pruny feet under the blanket while I sucked on cough drops to recover from the latest round of nasal British accents I affected to win his laughter, like applause. We made it through the first four vohunes this way, ninety-four chapters, 1,824 pages overall. Dad's Day, as we came to call it, was an exercise in distilled parenting. Infused with the deliberateness of a fatniiy relationship pursued once weekly, Fridays with my father never failed to be quality tirne. This meant rituals. Before Harry Potter, we took turns reading from D'Aulaire's ~ Book of Greek Myths and covering the walls of my room with drawings of the goddesses. Before that ' the heart of Dad's Day lay in the weaving of five blindingly tiny rows on tny authentic Native American miniature beading loom, snacking while we let our eyes rest, then squinting our way across five tnore rows. For years, I recycled any joke that earned its place within our father-daughter pantheon: the
And so, surrounded by gay paraphernalia, I occupied my father's space with a stubborn adherence to the · culture of
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when discussing something like Monica Lewinsky's make-up. I feigned confusion. What defense did I have except to act younger, remain a child who could still, in innocence, walk eyes open through . a parent's sexual world? But I felt a stab of shame at my .own evasion. Now that I was thirteen, I was . . spending more and more time swatting aside my father's offers of parity. I wasn't _ready . for us to be equals. All I wanted was to return to the apartment~ where I could close my doors to GQ, and from within the walls of a bedroom decked out in my own pastel renderings of Aphrodite, wait for my father~s hands to tuck me in . .
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'-"I ASIDE, I C 'T THINIZOF AN UNLil LIER UNION the ice cream men and nudie king sketch bore down on me with accusation. Gayness was fair game if abstracted through art or politics the crazies in the Bush A · ·stration, The Laramie Project. But I knew I wasn't asking more about my father's AIDS work because
I feared the sex content of his answers. Who · ·else's father emceed anti-barebacking forums called "The Greatest Hole on Earth?" There were whole parts of his history I only knew about in pieces: the former boyfriends, the plague years of the eighties, the fully sketched story of his corrung-out. •
All those high school years in the apartment, I was haunted by who I might have been if I'd been raised entirely by my father. In . a blue state, his brand of gayness was not a liability but an asset: what could be . cooler than having a dad who was ex-besties with .a nationally syhdicated sex columnist? But I had fallen-short of claiming my inheritance. Sideby-side, we looked like a fixer duo o;ut of Queer Eye. I felt stung whenever he suggested I . take my hair out of a messy bun and censoriously handed me a hairbrush. And so my forays into teenagerdom and cultural literacy prom! first peacoat! familiarity with the films of Wes Anderson! were best concealed. I denied having crushes and never shared my tentatively emerging music taste, even as I eyed his cabinets full of alb{uns. I was so intimidated by his style-commentary that on Fridays, I dressed myself in T-shlrts. Flipping through his DVD collection, my father would always joke that we should settle for my favorite, Finding Nemo. •
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* My father moved to San Francisco the fall of my senior year of high school, but didn't sell the apartment until the nine months later, after I graduated. Busy putting my own belongings into boxes for the trek to college, I only showed up to help him the verY.. last day. The apartment had• . been gutted and all that was left to do was move the remaining boxes out of the basement storage space. Lugging files and folders in the still heat of August exhausted us, so after an hour,.we stopped to have a drink with some ·o f my father's friends who lived on the other side of Broadway. Sitting on the porch with three gay men, I felt the detachment of an anthropologist, involved yet marginal. I ate more chips and guacamole than the three of them put together because I didn't have as much to say. Back at the apartment, I was impatient to finish the last round of loa · up. Carrying my fathees boxes to the curb,· I thought of my own boxes geu ing shipped off to my dorm room at Yale, and how
little attention I'd given to what I would put up on the walls. At first, I had planned on pursuing an aesthetic my father had brought table runners and mood lighting and candle holders made of sea glass to college but quickly discarded the idea as overcalculated. I settled for shoving a few travel postcards and a painting of the Cascade Mountains into the bottom of my suitcase and calling it a day. Tired and sweaty, we trudged up to the second-floor apartment one last titne. At the entrance, I kicked off my flip-flops to walk barefoot on the hardwood. Light flooded the open space. Our silence sounded without the mute of visual interference, and not knowing what else to do, I sat down in the center of the room. Even from where he stood by the window, my father loomed over me, enormous. This is it, I thought. This is what I've wanted, to be surrounded by bare walls. This is not something worth wanting. But here, with our accessories packed up in boxes, I felt an unfarniJiar comfort. In the moment before my- father stepped forward to kneel down beside me, our eyes locked across the width of the apartment, a tilted plane of contact m an empty room. •
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Our motto may not be pertect, but at least New Haven has bettered Connecticut's current catch phrase (yes, CT also has one): "Closer than you think." This indirect adrnission that not much happens in Connecticut is modest, and their insistence that we should still come visit because it's close to where stuff does happen is endearing: 'We're not that far from New York City! Honest!" And we definitely have Stamford, "The City that Works," beat in the motto depa 1 ttnent. Maybe the city works, but that slogan just doesn't. •
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