October 2013 by Tote Media

Karlie Bartholomew Singer/songwriter

Issue No. 3 October 2013

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CONTENTS Editorâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s Note

Beauty Bar

Fall Essentials

A Strange Blood

Midterm Study Guide

DIY

Spirit Squad

Miss Independent

Confidence Advice From Shoshanna

Real Girl, Real World: Meredith Haggerty Tells Us How to Do It

The Freshman Files

The Wily Wily West

How to Throw the Perfect Halloween Party

Entertainment

Recent Grad

Beauty Q&A

Terrene Terrariums

Coming Up

Beauty Babe

EDITOR’S NOTE

GREETINGS FROM MARYLAND, So I was originally stumped on what to talk about this month in my Editor’s Note. But then a wave of spontaneity hit me, which in turn, gave me my story. I bought the September issue of Nylon magazine, excited to read about Emily VanCamp (if you haven’t watched Revenge you’re missing out!). But I couldn’t stop looking at her golden blonde locks. I had a moment of serious hair envy, as I’ve only ever had brown hair (well, there was this one time I had red hair but I’m still recovering from the trauma). I had always toiled with the idea of what it would be like to be a blonde. Could I pull it off? Maybe I would have more fun? It wasn’t until I bought that issue that something inside of me was like, “Just go for it already.” I made an appointment for a hair consultation, which really just ended up as a hair appointment. While I was driving to the salon, I started to rationalize this on-a-whim moment. I realized that, with anything in life, you have to examine the cost versus benefit. If I went blonde and hated it, I’d be out about $80 bucks but I could always go back to brown. To me, the cost was low. The benefit, on the other hand, was high; I would have accomplished something that was secretly on my bucket list and I would have vamped up my fall look (there’s nothing wrong with going against the trend of dark hair in fall!). Still driving, my mind flashed to a moment on Gilmore Girls (does this show my age? If you read my bio online you should have been prepared for this.). Rory was at The Life and Death Brigade’s camp extravaganza. She was contemplating whether to jump several stories with Logan, holding an open umbrella to float down to land. When Logan said to her, “Isn’t this the point of being young? It’s your choice, Ace. People can live a hundred years without really living for a minute. You climb up here with me it’s one less minute you haven’t lived.” And Rory jumped. I wanted my “jump.” If I didn’t try new and exciting things (no matter how terrifying they may first seem), then am I really living? As the middle of the semester approaches, I want you all to go blonde – metaphorically speaking of course (unless you’re with me and actually wanted to!). Take our cover girl, Karlie, for example. She started college with a major in English and then left that college because she knew it wasn’t her dream. She’s pursuing music now! So do something that you’ve been craving to do but have always been too afraid. You’re young and life is open and free. So go and chase those wild thoughts.

Shelby Newsome Founder & Editor-In-Chief

CONTRIBUTORS

Caro Romero Graphic Designer

Rachel Parker Photographer

Leanne Rowe Beauty Expert

Katie Lemon Writer

Eva Niessner Writer

Caitlin Farley Writer

Would you like to contribute to Tote? Contact Shelby at shelby@totemag.com Caroline Cassard Writer

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BEAUTY BAR

Beauty Q&A Our beauty expert Leanne is answering your burning beauty questions.

Q: No matter what I do, I can’t keep nail polish from chipping! Even after just a day or even if I use a topcoat. A: If you really want your nail polish to stay on, I recommend getting a good top coat and base coat. A base coat is like a primer and will help hold on to that polish, while a good top coat will protect it. I recommend Essie top coats and base coats. Another really great top coat is Seche Vite. My favorite polishes that seem to last the longest for me are Essie, OPI, Sally Hansen Complete Manicure and Sally Hansen Insta-dry. Also, always make sure your nails are completely dr y before doing anything and don’t put the polish on too thick or it will chip easier.

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Q: What’s the best way to wear red lipstick? I always admire girls who can pull it off, but I can never decide how to do the rest of my makeup. A: The trick to pulling off a red lip is to keep the rest of your makeup neutral. Keep your eyes neutral with either skin tone nude shadows or skip the shadows and do some classy black liner on your top lash line and some mascara. I also recommend skipping the blush or doing a very natural blush tone because we want the main focus to be your lips! The other thing girls often go wrong with is getting the wrong color red for their skin tone. If you're warm toned go with a more orange-red. If you are cool toned, go with a blue toned red. Once you find the right shade of red for you, don’t forget to line your lips before applying the red lipstick to keep it from bleeding outside of your lip line. If you don’t know what color lip liner to go with, just use a clear one.

Q: What is the best brand of drugstore makeup? A: People love drugstore makeup because it is cheap and easily accessible. Lots of drugstore makeup contains ingredients that aren't so great for our pretty little faces, such as parabens and talc. Luckily you can still get cosmetics at drugstores that don’t contain some of these ingredients thanks to Physicians Formula. Physicians Formula carries foundations, powders and much more that are hypoallergenic, fragrance free, paraben free, gluten free, non-comedogenic, talc free, dermatologist approved and clinically tested. A lot of their products are also very comparable to higher end products. They are one of the more expensive brands in the drugstore, but your skin will thank you for spending the couple extra bucks!

Q: Does getting my hair trimmed really make it grow faster? A: As a hair stylist, I get this question all the time. Considering our hair grows from our scalp and not our ends, getting a trim doesn't necessarily make it grow faster, it makes it grow healthier which will result in being able to grow it longer because your ends won’t be breaking off all the time. If you're that girl that only gets her hair cut once a year, chances are you probably have split ends all the way up to your chin. When we have split and damaged ends, our hair is growing from our scalp but breaking off at the ends at the same time. This gives you the illusion that it’s not growing because it’s not getting any longer. So getting those split ends trimmed every six to eight weeks will help it get noticeably longer and healthier!

at product reviews. Most reviews say what kind of skin that person has so you will be able to get a better idea if that product will work for your skin or not. Don't be afraid to ask for help! That’s what the sales associates in Sephora are there for. Most of them are makeup ar tists as well, and know what they are talking about or can at least point you in the right direction. Last but not least, samples! You can get a free sample of anything you want, A: Sephora and depar tment stores can be very overwhelming, that way you can try it out for a week or so to get an idea if you're that's for sure! Before you even going to like it or not before dishing step into the store, do some out the full 60 dollars for it. research. Try to figure out your skin type if you don’t know it already. Is your skin dr y, oily, sensitive, combination, acne prone? It is impor tant to know your skin type that way you can Do you have a rule out the products that aren't beauty question meant for your skin type. For you want answered? example, most foundations are Drop us an email at geared towards a cer tain skin comments type. You don’t want to get one @totemag.com that is for extremely oily skin if you have dry skin because the foundation will most likely dry your skin out even more. Also, look

Q: I really want to try out some higher end makeup products, but whenever I go into Sephora or a department store, I get so overwhelmed and never know what to get! Do you have any tips or suggestions?

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FALL ESSENTIALS

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1. Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh Eau de Toilette Spray, $85, Ulta 2. 6-Pack Assorted (Orange Blossom, White Tea, Lavender, Rose Water, Sea Salt, Wildflower & Fern), $61, Hand in Hand 3. Hello Flawless Oxygen Wow!, $36, Benefit 4. Masque Bar by Look Beauty Brightening Sheet Mask, $8.99, Target 5. Golden Ticket Nail Polish, $4.79, Sonia Kashuk 6. Rose with Bees No. 12, $22 - $36, TokyoMilk 7. What A Line Felt Tip Eyeliner, $10, mark. 8. Soft Touch Shadow Pencil, $24, NARS 9. Delicate Bath Sponge in Green, $2.99, Ulta 8

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TECH TOYS 3

1. Bowknot Backup iPhone Battery, $38, Anthropologie 2. The iPhone Rangefinder, $55, Photojojo 3. Gray Leaves Mouse Pad, $9, Etsy 4. Amalfi Camera Strap, $130, Bloom Theory 5. Botanical Rose iPhone 4 Case, $32, Rifle Paper Co. 6. Crosley CR59 Princess Phone in Pink, $49.99, Target 7. Leather Tablet Case in Blue, $58, Free People 8. Fitbit Flex Wireless Activity and Sleep Tracker Wristband in Slate, $99.99, Best Buy

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Jake Dougherty from This The Rescue talks their upcoming album and their strange new community. 10

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Jake Dougherty, lead singer and guitarist for This The Rescue, tells me that they had to redo a photo shoot because him and the guys, Jesse Cook and Adam Dougher ty, are goofballs. But all goofing aside, the guys of This The Rescue got serious for their upcoming album Between Hurricane and Harbor. The album,

which covers heavy topics like suicide and depression, was inspired by the band’s friend Mark, along with their own experiences. “Pain is universal,” Jake says. “We all struggle with it. I think we all struggle with something, whatever it might be. And that’s a beautiful thing because it means we’re not alone in it.”

Jake attributes Switchfoot’s guitarist Drew Shirley for taking their album to the next level. Shirley produced the album after the band was able to contact him through twitter and raise enough money to fly out to San Diego and record the album. “He found the darkest moments of each song and accentuated that and he found the lightest moments and really brought those out,” Jake says. While the band is excited for everyone to hear their album, which comes out November 9th, they also have another related project they’re equally excited about. Spinning off of their song “Strange Blood” is a community they developed for individuals who need to speak about what they are going through. I Am a Strange Blood is a website where you can go to share your story and get support. Jake says they wanted to give people a safe place to tell their stories. “I’ve also found for myself that living in silence with things really just develops a sense of shame,” Jake says. Through the website, the band hopes that by people telling their stories, they will then be able to get the help they need. The band has worked with and continues to work with To Write Love On Her Arms (TWLOHA), a non-profit dedicated to helping those with depression, suicidal thoughts, and other related feelings. On the Strange Blood site, they’ve got the link to TWLOHA’S website,

to give site visitors an easy access to their second step.

with Adam to create the Strange Blood site.

The album name, Between Hurricane and Harbor, comes from TWLOHA. They gave the band permission to use it.

Looking to the future, the band hopes to continue to grow, write music and tour.

“It’s this collective thought that to choose light in the heaviest darkness is incredible,” Jake says. “It takes a bold courage. Specifically that song [Strange Blood] is into the moments where people are struggling with self-harm and suicide. To push that back and to choose hope and to choose light and to choose healing when the everyday pull is towards self-harm, is towards suicide, that to me takes an incredible beauty.” The song “Strange Blood,” a track from the upcoming album which can be found on the I Am a Strange Blood website, is for people who need that song. While This The Rescue created the Strange Blood community, Jake talks about the band’s community in Westminster, Maryland and how vital they have become to the band. “Our community funded this record,” Jake says. “We would not have been able to go to San Diego and work with Switchfoot if it weren’t for 89 people that came along side of us and made sure that we went.” Jake also acknowledges, Tom Martz, the band’s business manager and consultant, as an honorary band member. Tom has also played guitar with the band and worked

“We’d love to keep developing This The Rescue as a bigger and bigger idea and a bigger and bigger community,” Jake says. “So that’s where we see that going. As big as we can push it and as big as we’ll be received.” As for now, the band is working on putting together a coast-tocoast tour for Between Hurricane and Harbor.

If you are suffering from depression or self-harm, check out TWLOHA’S website for help.

Check out I Am a Strange Blood.

Stay updated with This The Rescue.

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FALL ESSENTIALS

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1. Dandy Boot, $38, Dollhouse 2. Studded Tights, $16.90, Zara 3. Lizzy Floral Pleated Dress by Opening Ceremony, $400, Moda Operandi 4. Erika Cavallini Semi Couture Ribbed V-Neck Cardigan, $457.57, Farfetch 5. Smoky Stud Stack, $50, Baublebar 6. The Margot, $24.95, Krochet Kids International 7. Champagne Empress of Fire Ring, $88, Alex and Ani 8. Sloane Necklace, $42, to: Hello Beautiful

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1. The Davey, $59.95, Krochet Kids International 2. Flora Felt Pillow, $39, PBteen 3. Mona Lisa Wall Clock, $35, Kikkerland 4. Campbellâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s Soup Kitchen Timer, $8, Urban Outfitters 5. Day of the Dead Corkscrew, $24.95, Crate & Barrel 6. Jaipur Fables Regal Tufted Rug, $43, Layla Grayce 7. Marks the Plot Coaster Set, $24.99, ModCloth 8. Home Chic: Decorating with Style, $30, Barneys

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1. Post-it Watch, $15, Fancy 2. Eiffel Scissors, $14.95, Cotton On 3. European Style Leisure Canvas Backpack, $55, The Vintage Studio 4. Bookjig Fox Metal Bookmark, $5.99, Barnes & Noble 5. Pocketed Leather Journal in Coral, $24, Anthropologie 6. Assembly Home Geo Wall Bin, $29, Urban Outfitters 7. Acrylic Stapler, $24, Keep 8. Things We Classified Paperweight, $30, Kate Spade

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STUDY GUIDE

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It’s that time of the year, when everyone’s in disbelief, “It’s the middle of the semester, already?” and looks of panic and exhaustion are mirrored on their faces as midterms approach. Don’t let your midterms take you by surprise. Follow these five steps for easy riding. 1. Find your space

In order to get a good rhythm going, find a spot that’s good for you. Whether it’s the still silence of the library or the active chatter of a coffee shop, make sure that the background noise won’t distract you.

2. Create a reward system

Nothing promotes smart studying like having an incentive. For every page read, treat yourself to an M&M. Or maybe you’ve got a brutally hard chem exam—get an A, get those new Steve Madden shoes. Find a reward that’ll work for you and stick to it. That means no cutting corners. Study first. Reward after.

4. Utilize memorization techniques

When it comes down to it, finals require a ton of memorization. One of the most effective ways of memorizing facts is by repeating it three times. So whether you write it out or make flashcards, get to it!

5. Schedule a break time

While studying is key to acing that exam, don’t burn yourself 3. Develop time out. Schedule a lunch date with management skills your girls or a coffee break with Studying for multiple exams at your study group to break up the once can be daunting. We’ve all monotony of studying. Spend the been there where you re-read time talking about fun stuff and let the same line over and over again. your mind clear (it’s secretly But don’t fear. Instead, figure out using that time to absorb all the what needs to get done and dive material anyways, right?). in. Focus on one subject at a time (yes, worrying about one final while studying for another is not helping) and when you feel like you can’t take another second of the subject, move on to the next.

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TERRENE

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Sometimes when we’re feeling down or homesick, a wonderful sunny day spent hiking or taking a leisurely walk around campus will cheer up our moods. But as the weather gets colder (and cloudier!) and our schedules are super demanding, it’s hard to find time to do that. So instead of going to nature, bring nature to you. Build a terrarium to hang up in your apartment or your side of the dorm room. Prepare for instant cheer.

Here’s our version of a terrarium but the more outside the box, the better! There are basically no rules when it comes to these. All you need is the foundation of container, plants, and soil, and the rest is up to your imagination.

WHAT YOU NEED: • Glass bowl (made for hanging) • Pebbles • Soil • Tiny plants • Stickers • Ribbon

WHAT TO DO: 1. Start by pouring a small layer of pebbles into the glass bowl. 2. Next, add a layer of soil. 3. Take your plants and plant them in the soil. 4. Add another layer of pebbles. This especially makes sure that the plants are secure in the bowl. 5. Add cute decorative stickers. We attached our logo! 6. String through ribbon to make it hang-able.

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SPIRIT SQUAD TEXT: SHELBY NEWSOME The in’s and out’s of meditation and how to incorporate it into your lifestyle. There was a hiking trip I went on this summer, alongside water rapids, only three miles long round trip. I’ve been hiking before (I’m just talking leisurely hikes, nothing super intense) but this one was different. The sun was shining, the hike felt refreshing, and I couldn’t stop smiling. I also couldn’t stop telling my friend Alyssa, who was on this adventure with me, how much I loved life. The only way to describe these moments with nature is by telling you that the universe and my soul felt like they were aligned for the first time.

Core energetics is about getting back to how you felt as a child, when you didn’t block that energy. To reach a state we once experienced as children it requires movement from our bodies. Activeness like kicking, screaming, and stomping our feet is used to help let our emotions out.

It wasn’t until after the trip that I realized it was a spiritual encounter.

Once you are prepared for meditating, Knoblich suggests sitting with your back straight, in a classic meditation posture (legs crossed or sitting in a chair) with the crown of your head lifted and neck straight. Once you are in that position, Knoblich says to be quiet and not move and to just focus on your breathing.

“[Spirituality] can just be a feeling of universal consciousness or oneness or just a feeling that there is something that exists beyond our self,” Natalie Kresen, a life coach based in New York City says. My trip made me aware of my surroundings; I felt that I was a par t of something that was much bigger than me. Meditation and spirituality, often heard hand in hand, are attainable for anyone. You don’t have to be a monk or yogi practicing eight hours a day to reap the benefits. “Meditation is the practice of transforming the mind for inducing a specific state of consciousness,” Kresen says. Core energetics practitioner Karin Knoblich, also based in New York City, takes a different approach to get ready for meditating. Core energetics is a body-centered psychotherapy that Knoblich teaches. The concept is that we all have energy flowing through our bodies. But sometimes we block that energy, for instance, if you were afraid to speak your mind, your energy in your throat would be blocked.

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“Once you have expressed your feelings, especially if you’ve had a deep cry for example, you have released so much energy and you’re in a state of relaxation that is very conducive to meditating,” Knoblich says.

While Knoblich suggests classic meditation, Kresen adds that a guided meditation or listening to an audio tape can also be used and is a good tool for beginners. Active meditation is another form that Kresen recommends. Active meditation is when you are moving, for example walking or practicing yoga, and are aware of your environment and the present moment. Active meditation is a physical experience, just like spirituality. “Spiritual experiences are not divorced from the body,” Knoblich says. “They can be, but ideally it is a physical experience as well. Like bliss, for example, is a physical experience. You can’t be in bliss unless your whole body is open and your energy is flowing.” Kresen gives creative tasks like writing or painting and physical activities like running or even gardening as examples of how the physical body is connected spiritually.

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So how do you make meditating and connecting spiritually work for you? From running to classes to clubs and homework to having somewhat of a social life, adding a new routine to your schedule can seem daunting. Kresen has some easy ways for you to incorporate meditating into your lifestyle. She says that all you need is just five minutes a day (although a half an hour to an hour is ideal) set aside for meditating, preferably in the morning or evening. Some simple ways to include that five minutes a day can come from walking to class (remember, active meditation?), taking a yoga class (check your school gym – they’re typically offered for free), or gathering up some of your friends for a group meditation.

SPOTLIGHT These products definitely get us in the meditation mood!

No matter how you try to include it in your schedule, Knoblich reminds us that it has to work for you. You have to find the right time to meditate for you.

If you make the time to meditate, you will star t to see the benefits of the practice. Kresen says that meditating is proven to reduce stress levels and anxiety (i.e. it could help with the panic attacks you get right before a major test). It can also calm down the nervous system to bring you to a more relaxed state. Plus, meditation can increase your happiness level (who wouldn’t want that?).

To really reap these benefits, Kresen suggests making a routine. So if you have found that meditating in the morning works best for you, make sure to set aside some time each morning to meditate.

“Over time, I would say once you hit 30 days or more, you’ll star t to notice that you’ll want to do it and it’ll be easy,” Kresen says.

These meditative practices can also help throughout your day. If you are stressed out, you can take a moment to breath, to come to the present. If you’ve never meditated before or connected spiritually, or just feel overwhelmed by the idea of star ting the routine, it’s okay. Kresen says that this doesn’t have to be overwhelming. It’s not a race, there is no one right way to do this, and surely, everyone is different. “I just want to encourage people to not think of it as work and to think of it as an exploration or an adventure into their own self-growth…,” Kresen says.

3 1. Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein, $8, Barnes and Noble 2. Golden Round Zafu Zen Meditation Yoga Pray Pad Pillow Cushion Mat, $29.99, Amazon 3. Sunflower Maze Yoga Mat (3mm), $9.99, Gaiam 4. True Love: A Practice for Awakening the Heart by Thich Nhat Hanh, $9.09, Amazon 5. Meditation: A Complete Audio Guide by Eknath Easwaran, $17.05, Amazon tote

Miss Independent Marylander Karlie Bartholomew talks life, school, and her passion for music.

Text: Shelby Newsome Photography: Rachel Parker

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I WAS GOING TO BE AN ENGLISH MAJOR AND DO JOURNALISM,” KARLIE SAYS. “BUT THEN I REALIZED THAT THIS [MUSIC] IS ACTUALLY WHAT I WANT TO DO AND SO I SHOULD JUST GO FOR IT.

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witch on a top 100 radio station today and you’ll hear upbeat, auto tuned songs from monikers that disguise the singer’s real self. We’re constantly hearing popinfused music, where the performer puts on a gimmick—wearing wigs, dressing up in outlandish costumes, and performing offthe-wall dance moves.

“But then I went away and realized that this [music] is actually what I want to do and so I should just go for it.” This realization led Karlie to her decision to not go back to Hood. She is currently attending Anne Arundel Community College. She’s applied to Berklee College of Music in Boston and Belmont University in Nashville to further pursue music.

That’s why when I met up with Karlie Bartholomew, a 19-yearold singer/songwriter, it was refreshing to see that she was just Later in the week, I was able herself—no games and no acts. to see Karlie perform in Glen Burnie, Maryland. She went Growing up Karlie was surrounded onstage with just herself and by music; her dad played guitar. her acoustic guitar. But her She began performing in second performance clearly evinced that grade, where she dressed up and was all she needed. Her voice sung a piece from Annie for her was the epitome of cool and school’s talent show. Around 12 soulful. The “indie-pop” genre years old she started writing songs. that she is sometimes classified as (although she considers Though, when it came time to herself “singer/songwriter”) has start school at Hood College, become understood. music wasn’t the front-runner. If you check out her singles on “I was going to be an English major her website or twitter account, and do journalism,” Karlie says. you may be surprised to

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find out that Karlie does everything herself. That means no recording studio. “I got an iPad when I went to school last year and I just started recording on there,” Karlie says. “I got the Garage Band app.” She’s since bought a microphone and something she can plug her guitar into so the recordings are of an even better quality. “A lot of people are always like, ‘Do you have a studio? Your stuff sounds like it’s made in a studio,’” Karlie says. She’s currently working on more melodic songs, creating electric guitar effects and using a sync pad. Unlike most of the pop singers we hear on the radio, Karlie continues to push herself in a direction where she can stay true to herself.

could do this for a living. She was invited to play at the 9:30 Club (a major music venue in Washington D.C.). Not to mention she auditioned for The Voice. In February she had the opportunity to try out for The Voice in a private audition. She wore all black and played her own music. There were four to five judges (not the t.v. judges) that said they liked her voice but wanted her to be more confident and sing more upbeat songs. So Karlie went back in July for another audition. “I tried to be like pop-whatever just to get on the show and [I] wore these big red high heels and stuff,” Karlie says. “I just didn’t feel like I was myself.”

She didn’t make it. But listening to Karlie wax poetic about staying true to who she is, it was It wasn’t until more recently that definitely for the best. Take a Karlie had her big ah-ha moment, look at Colbie Caillat: she tried when she realized that she really out for American Idol twice—

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“I got off stage and so many people came up to me and were like ‘I can relate to that,’” Karlie says. “That’s what I really like about performing is just knowing that there are other people that feel the same way, being able to connect and share that and kind of help them with that.”

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“My advice would be to stay true to yourself because why would you try to be someone else,” Karlie says. “It just doesn’t make any sense to me. Just go for it because you only live once—it’s kind of corny like, YOLO [Karlie and I share a laugh]—but it’s true. You only have one life so why not do what you want to do.” Karlie adds, “Even if it doesn’t work out, at least you tried.” We’re definitely going to take her advice on this one. YOLO.

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Karlie had the opportunity to meet Sixpence None the Richer. She was talking to their bass player who told her that they didn’t want to cover “There She Goes” but they did and now that’s what they are known for. Karlie said that “There She

It especially resonated with her and validated her sincerity to who she wants to be as a musician.

Karlie is just happy to connect to the audience and write music that is meaningful to her listeners. At a high school talent show she sung about her cousin that passed away from cancer.

Goes” and “Kiss Me” sound completely different from their other stuff.

the second time performing her song “Bubbly” – and was rejected both times. But she’s since paved her own way to a successful music career.

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YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE SO WHY NOT DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.” KARLIE ADDS, “EVEN IF IT DOESN’T WORK OUT, AT LEAST YOU TRIED.

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CONFIDENCE ADVICE FROM

SHOSHANNA Text: Caroline Cassard At first, Shoshanna Shapiro seems like the more anxious, timid girl on Girls. But by the time she shows up to a Bushwick party alone, we realize she is far gutsier than we first took her for. Zosia Mamet’s character leads the way for confident college girls by taking control of her relationships and her future. (Not to mention, she can rock a pretty cool sock bun.) When it comes to being an upbeat, selfrespecting lady, you’ll totally want to follow Shoshanna’s example, quirky quotes and all.

Find positivity.

“I’m socializing. I’m sorry if that’s not working for you, my social butterflyness.”

Shoshanna breaks off her relationship with Ray partly because his eternal gloom is bringing her down. “I can’t be surrounded by your negativity while I’m trying to grow into a fully formed woman,” she tells him. Tell the negative voices in your life to “Just stay out of my emotional way,” and refuse to let them hold you back from pursuing your dreams. Whether that means acing your classes, taking on online dating or moving toward the front of kickboxing class, know that Shoshanna has already paved the road for you. You’re young! Surround yourself 28

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with positive, excited-about-life people who are eager to get out of the apartment and hit the town. Let your social butterflyness blossom in positivity.

Be adventurous.

“Okay, well I don’t know how much time I have left, so, like, I have to start living, you know? I did something kind of crazy. I made an internet dating profile.”

Shosh doesn’t let her bad luck with camp friend run-in, Matt, keep her down. With nothing to lose, she gives online dating a shot, fearlessly jumping into the unknown and hoping for the best. The candidate is Bryce, a young social planner working in product development. Together, they share a love of… products. There’s bound to be something that you have in common with a potential date. Gather your confidence and be the one to initiate a day date.

Recognize your strengths.

“I believe that I could be much more awesome in kickboxing class, like maybe I could move toward the front and people would

follow me.”

Know your strengths, and vocalize them. While no one likes the compliment-digging, eternally validating-her-life-choices-bragger, it’s impor tant to vocalize your talents now and then. Your friends may be signing contracts or racking up the internships (e.g. “Ok seriously, I cannot believe I have a friend who signed a book deal, it’s so adult and intriguing”), but it’s also important to recognize your achievements, no matter how specific they may be. Take your kickboxing-champion-self out to lunch to celebrate your awesomeness.

Put on your big girl pants.

“You hurt me, OK? You hurt my feelings. But I can deal with it because I have my big girl pants on.” No social situation is too much for you to handle. Ending up at a warehouse party two hours before your friends arrive? Running into your ex at a mutual friend’s house while struggling to locate your purse so you can escape? Just take it easy! In either situation, conversations are destined for awkwardness, and no one tackles social discomfort quite like Shoshanna. While feeling lonely

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at a party, relax, enjoy the music and take in the scene. Refrain from resorting to the I’m sending a really important text right now act, and keep an eye out for your friends. In the ex situation, Shoshanna once again demonstrates charm. She strikes up conversation with others and volunteers several karaoke solos. And when Ray challenges her obsessive passive-aggressive texts, she defends her emoji choices. What is an awkward social situation but a good story for the future? Take on social environments like it’s your job. Shosh says it best: “I am ready to take this par ty by storm, like I am woman, hear me roar.”

nothing, unless you're going to work." At times, it might seem an impossible task to talk sense into your roommate (or partner), especially if they’re not respecting your space. But if you can’t manage their shenanigans any longer, it’s smart to go with your gut and speak your mind. And, of course, if you ever wear white to your cousin’s surprise wedding (because how were you supposed to know?), then you’re entitled to claim, “Everyone’s a dumb whore” in total Shoshanna fashion. But for the most par t, definitely let it out before you hold it in.

“You make no sense!”

“I’m not forcing you to be a lady, ok—I’m a lady, she’s a lady, you’re a lady, we’re the ladies!”

Respect your Speak your mind. lady-ness. It’s easy to play nice, to offer up your apar tment to your cousin, Jessa, who needs a place to stay while she saves babysitting money, or to your friend, Marnie, who gets into a fight with her old roommate, or to your boyfriend, Ray, who happens to be secretly homeless. But eventually, it’s time to tell it like it is. Says Shoshanna, "You're older than me. You should have your own place. You should have interests, and passions, and things that you do. You get up every day, and there's

When Shosh is deflowered, she makes it known that she is in no way devalued. This lady recognizes that she deserves the best. And when she advises her friends via a pink book titled Listen Ladies: A Tough Love Approach to the Tough Game of Love, she won’t take lady-denial for an answer. In conversation with Ray, Shoshanna puts it simply: “I only want to date

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people who want to date me because that is called self respect.” You don’t have to follow a pink book’s etiquette rules for Self Respect 101, but as long as you act like a lady (whatever that may mean to you), you’re on the Shosh path. Who are the ladies, you may ask? “Obvi we’re the ladies!”

Spread the confidence.

A compliment goes a long way. Bring your friends up when they’re down. Sharing in their success or taking note of their hip style means more girl-power confidence across the board. Encourage a friend when she gets asked out on a date: “That’s a really big deal, he like totally likes you.” When you run into friends at a party, greet them with life-or-death enthusiasm: “I’m so happy to see you, I could murder you.” And when your cousin looks headto-toe fabulous, tell her exactly that: “Oh my god, you’re so hip I could puke. I can never pull off a hat, how do you pull off that hat?” and “Your skin is like hauntingly beautiful.” Don’t hesitate to let your friends know how much you love having them around. If they feel confident around you, you’ll feel confident around them. Everyone wins. tote

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Meredith Haggerty Tells Us Ho Text: Eva Niessner Photo courtesy of Carlos Crawford Leaving college can be more intimidating than beginning it. After years spent being able to pick your own schedule and work in a pizza restaurant to get by, it's daunting to be suddenly thrown out into The Real World. How do you manage to land the big-girl job after years of living in the dorm and sleeping through your 8 AM classes? Where do you even begin? Luckily, Meredith Haggerty, the assistant editor at Grand Central Publishing, knows about the process of looking for the 'real job' all too well. Hagger ty's job includes ensuring authors get payments, reading proposals for prospective books, looking at marketing ideas and tweeting from the company account. She has been interviewed by NPR and runs a lively and enter taining Twitter feed (her handle is manymanywords) as well

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as keeping up with the day-to-day life of a young working woman. Her process of applying for jobs was ferocious, she says. "I applied to every job on Publisher's Marketplace and BookJobs.com and Craigslist: writing and bothered everyone I could for more things to apply to," she says. "I interviewed constantly, clumsily." Before landing her job at Grand Central Publishing, Hagger ty says she interned at places like literary agencies and Saturday Night Live. She recommends interning as a way to break into one's preferred business, while acknowledging the shor tcomings of the process.

benefited me because I was willing to work for free (while my parents paid my bills), so I worked at great places. I would say paid internships are a better idea for everyone, but paying dues is important when you are young and due-less. "Sadly, the world is unfair in a lot of ways and playing within that terrible system is part of what it means to be an adult. Just, when we're all the top bosses and hiring our own interns, we'll pay them. Deal?" Having graduated from college with a degree in English, Hagger ty was unemployed for about a month.

"This timeline was mercifully, insanely short, but I was still just about to start sending my resume out far "I think the system I came up in, and wide (to retail positions I had where unpaid internships were no experience in and waitress jobs (I am told) even more prevalent, where I would have spilled all the is classist and wrong and totally food and tutoring gigs that might unfair," she says. "Of course, it totally have knee-capped a generation of

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young minds), when I got lucky," she says. "I walked into a second interview, met a shorts-clad man I'd never seen, listened to him talk about Balzac for an hour while I sat silently, and was offered my first job on the spot. I could not tell you why or how it happened, but it gave me my star t and I am very grateful, ultimately." She stresses the impor tance of networkingâ&#x20AC;&#x201D;the 'number one thing you can do', in her opinionâ&#x20AC;&#x201D; but at the same time, knows that networking is much easier once you have a foot in the door. "I know a lot of people who also speak highly of various publishing programs (Columbia, NYU), but those are expensive and a lot of the same benefits can come from just being really nice and charming to people you meet," Haggerty says, in reference to her own industry. "Build the resume, be a memorable

intern, smile a lot and be enthusiastic and eager to help."

Leave the cattiness at college and have a positive attitude.

Her experience is also proof that landing a job isn't tied to your majorâ&#x20AC;&#x201D;so don't limit your options to things directly linked to what you majored in. Drawing upon more general strengths, like research, ability to work with others and willingness to lead, will make you stand out no matter what school you went to or what you did there.

"Be nice to everyone," Hagger ty says. "You never know who is going to hire you."

Though she studied English in college, Haggerty says that it's very different from working in the world of publishing.

Want more life advice? Meredith Haggerty has done a fine job of promoting "Adulting: How To Become a Grownup in 468 Easy(ish) Steps" by Kelly Williams Brown, which was published by Grand Central Publishing earlier this year.

"Although," she says, "People constantly reminding you that you are never going to make any money helps to mentally prepare you to make no money." So what should girls be doing if they want to get a job after college?

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Text: Katie Lemon It’s 9:45 am on a Tuesday, and my beloved Introduction to Western Europe class has just begun. My professor begins to introduce the day’s topic: state-building in 13th century Spain and Portugal. He then goes on to say, “this is a subject I hold near and dear to my heart. I’ve written eight books on the subject, so I consider myself pretty well-versed.” I feel my mouth begin to gape open in amazement. Then I remember that this is not out of the ordinary for college professors. There are definitely significant differences between the learning processes in high school and in college. For one, the workload is much heavier. College students spend roughly fifteen hours a week in class, while high schoolers average at around thirty-five hours per week. However, this time deficit is made up for (and often exceeded by) work done outside of class. I only spend three hours a week in that Intro to Western Europe class, but I’m responsible for reading about one hundred pages a week and taking copious notes. Not all of the material is covered in lectures, but everything in the book does show up on the tests. I’ve also found that professors are quite different from high school teachers. Almost every single one of my instructors is conducting some sort of research in addition to being a professor. They’re all highly regarded in their respective learning communities, and definitely a little bit intimidating to a freshman like

me. In high school, I was so used to talking to my teachers on a regular basis. Here, my sociology class has just fewer than five hundred students. This has taught me to take advantage of any oppor tunity to get to know my professors, including visits during office hours and asking questions after class. One of the biggest adjustments I’ve had to make is staying aware of all of my assignments. In high school, teachers constantly reminded me when different projects and homework assignments were due. In college, homework is rarely turned in, and rather ser ves as supplementar y knowledge that you must know to do well on tests. Speaking of tests, you’d probably be caught by surprise on test day if you weren’t looking at and keeping track of the class schedule on your syllabus. Professors hand out an all-inclusive list of every test and due date on the first day of class, and you are expected to adhere to that list for all assignments. A friend of mine walked in two minutes late to his calculus class only to be told that he would have to arrange to make up his test at a later date for being tardy. He hadn’t even known there was a test that day! Academics aside, the social atmosphere at college is also quite different from that of high school. Being from out-of-state at my college, I didn’t know anyone when I came here. However, I’ve made fast friends with those in my residence hall and classes. I think it’s

partly due to the fact that here, I am never alone. Just walking to the bathroom at the end of the hall, I often run into friends and floor mates. Anytime I go to eat a meal, it takes only a matter of seconds to assemble a few friends to go with me. I’m in a classic dorm set-up: two people to a room with a communal bathroom at the end of the hall, gender separated by wing. One aspect I was nervous about prior to getting here was my roommate. It only took about five minutes to realize that I had nothing to worry about. Rather, Maggie and I have become fast friends; hosting dance parties in our room, grabbing food together, and just venting about our day. We get a good balance by chatting every morning and night, but we often spend our days in different classes and with different friends. It’s perfect because it allows us to be close without having to hang out all of the time.

are far more significant than the things that make us different. For example, I spent last weekend primarily with my friend Kaitlyn. We Living in a residence hall on campus don’t have any classes together, and has definitely allowed me to meet we’re not majoring in the same all sor ts of people. If it weren’t subject, but already we tell each for my dorm, I wouldn’t have met other everything and spend a lot a multitude of my close friends; of our free time together. In high especially the eight or so people school, I didn’t even know people’s that I hang out with every weekend. names if I didn’t have a class with Another interesting aspect about them. And now here I am, staying college has been the melding of up all night talking and laughing social groups. It’s really impossible with someone I met a matter of for there to be cliques here, with weeks ago. over 7,000 students in the freshman class alone. I hang out with future At the same time, I’m already learnartists, physicists, linguists, doctors, ing the importance of sometimes designers, and teachers on a daily needing to turn down social invites basis. We find commonalities that to take time to study. With all the

My friend Kaitlyn and I work that needs to be done outside of class, college isn’t just about hanging out with friends 24/7. Already, I’ve missed my fair share of group lunches and TV-watching in the rec room to study French and read up for sociology. College really is about striking a nice balance. I’m finding that the sense of community on campus is overwhelming, from the craziness of game day to the sleepiness of Monday morning. In the past, “school” was just somewhere I went for six hours a day, five days a week. Now, it’s where I live, where I eat, where I learn, and where I slowly discover who I am and what I want to do in life. tote

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WEST Incorporate a touch of the Wild West in your fall wardrobe for a bit of smart, country chic. Photography: Shelby Newsome Model: Alyssa Drosdak

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COLORS If your boots have a bit of color, accentuate the look with bold colors.

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HALLOWEEN PARTY Text: Caitlin Farley Looking to stray away from the typical college Halloween Party? We’ve got the best games, decorations, and treat ideas to keep your party fun. If you’re still living in a dorm, gather your floor together to create one giant party.

DECORATIONS Nevermore Wreath

Here in Maryland, we’re proud of our Ravens! Edgar Allen Poe was a fan of them too. Decorate a wreath with cobwebs and black ribbon, and then set a small Raven in the center. .

Mummy Door

Use a large black piece of paper and cut two eyes out. Cover the rest of the door with toilet paper.

Toxic Bottles

Okay, it’s college, finding empty glass bottles probably won’t be too hard. Cover up the original brand with eerie new labels like skulls, “Arsenic,” “Poison,” and more.

Hanging Ghosts

Cover Styrofoam balls with cut up sheets, but don’t forget to draw on the eyes! Hang with fishing line and tape. 42

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GAMES Halloween Feel Bags

Fill paper bags with all sorts of slimy, questionable things for your guests to guess. Here are a few ideas…

• Cooked, cold Spaghetti noodles – Worms • Damp sponge – Brains • Peeled grapes – Eyeballs • Dried apple slices – Ears • Marshmallows with oil – Guts • Rice and raisins – Bugs • Peeled tomatoes – Heart

Guess Who?

Place a note card on everyone’s forehead or back (as long as they can’t see their own) with the name of a famous Halloween character. Take turns guessing what character you are by only asking yes or no questions. Example characters:

• Dracula • Frankenstein • Mike Meyers • Casper • Jason • Freddy

Candy Pong

Instead of the usual beer and red solo cups, use candy pumpkins (or marshmallows) and sample size cups.

Deadly Wink

Have the guests sit in a circle. Everyone must draw a card. One card will say killer while everyone else is

innocent. The killer will then wink at someone they make eye contact with. That person then must fake dead. If someone sees the wink they can shout “witness!” They then have a chance to name the killer. If he or she is right, a new killer must be named. If he or she is wrong, that person is now out and the game continues.

Decorations Duel

To make sure your guests notice all the decorations, create a quiz/scavenger hunt about the decorations. Examples:

• Where in each room is the mouse? • How many ghosts are hanging throughout the house? • Where is the biggest pumpkin?

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Make your own bagel bites. Take a bagel (or English muffin) half and spread tomato or marinara sauce, then cover it with shredded mozzarella except for a small place that you leave open for two black olives (or mummy eyes…).

Halloween Teeth

Take apple slices and cover one side with peanut butter. Then place five or six tiny marshmallows on the slice. Put another slice on top, and you have your mouth!

Cookie Ghouls

Melt white chocolate on the stove. Then dip nutty buddies ¾ of the way. Once they’ve dried, Place dots of black icing at the top for eyes.

Slime punch

Mix ½ gallon of lime sherbet with ginger ale. Don’t let it melt completely before your guests come. You can also add gummy worms in and around the serving bowl.

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COMING UP Text: Caitlin Farley

MUSIC Paul McCartney New, October 15

First things first, have you ever heard anyone say a bad word about The Beatles? Having been one fifth of The Beatles, Paul McCartney is expected to release only good things. “New” is the first album in over six years from McCartney that is made up of entirely original songs. If his first single “New” from the album is any indication as to what the rest will sound like, get ready for a Beatles revolution. There’s no denying it’s a McCartney hit, and we’re anxious to hear something new from a member of the original European boy band.

Gavin DeGraw Make a Move, October 15

We’ll be the first to admit Gavin DeGraw makes us swoon, so it’s no surprise we’re looking forward to 11 new songs from this soft rock crooner. “Best I Ever Had,” DeGraw’s first release from the album, is a little

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more upbeat than the typical Gavin, but it’s better than ever. If compared to any other ar tist, this new song mirrors the likes of Train. “Who’s Gonna Save Us,” the second released song from “Make a Move” is no doubt a DeGraw tune. Going back to his roots, this song reminds us of “I Don’t Want to Be.”

Katy Perry Prism, October 22

“Roar” has already taken the top spot on countdowns all over the nation, and it’s just the beginning. After a three year hiatus, Perry is back. At a listening session in New York she premiered 12 songs off the 13 track album (more if you pick up the deluxe version). Some of the songs you can expect to hear are “Birthday”, “Unconditionally”, and “Legendary Lovers.” Billboard claims “Birthday” is likely to be the biggest hit. “Unconditionally” is what Perry claims to be her favorite song on the album, and “Legendary Lovers” is said to sound like nothing she has produced before.

MOVIES Last Vegas—November 1

Get ready for a matured Las Vegas. Well, maybe. Morgan Freeman, Michael Douglas, Kevin Kline, and Robert De Niro are headed to Vegas for the bachelor par ty of a lifetime. What better way to escape retirement? In an attempt to relive their youth, these four men travel to Sin City to celebrate Douglas’ engagement. But are things the same as they used to be? Over the years Vegas went from Freemont Ave to the new strip, and that’s not the only thing that’s changed. Sure to be a hit, watch as this group tries to make it out alive in Last Vegas.

Free Birds—November 1

Okay, admit it, you’re never too old for an animated flick, and with the voices of Owen Wilson, Woody Harrelson, and Amy Poehler, this movie has potential (after all, who didn’t love Cars?). Reggie is a turkey that was lucky enough to be pardoned by the president, and lives freely at Camp David... until he’s kidnapped and asked

to become part of a turkey uprising. Reggie figures out what it means to be a turkey in the real world, and is suddenly convinced to hijack a time machine where his mission is to change the first Thanksgiving.

About Time—November 8

Have you ever thought about what you would do if you could travel time? What time would you want to go to? What would you want to make different? When Tim, played by Domhnall Gleeson (yes, a Weasley brother), discovers he can travel time it seems anything is possible. And his anything is finding the perfect girl. But what happens when he accidently goes back in time, and suddenly the girl he’s fallen in love with has never met him? Over and over Tim has to woo Mary (Rachel McAdams). He continues to tr y and have the perfect love life by altering things when he travels, but is that really the way he wants to live his life? Find out November 8 if time traveling is the answer to a perfect life.

BOOKS Practice to Deceive by Ann Rule—October 8

It’s no secret Rule can write mystery —she’s got 34 other novels under her belt. And her latest murder mystery will keep you guessing. Small towns always seem quaint and harmless, until Russel Douglas is found murdered execution style the day after Christmas. Whidbey Island, and its tenants no longer seem so innocent. The police are now looking everywhere. Brenna, Douglas’ estranged wife had complained to her friend Peggy Sue that he was abusive. When both girls have a past worth investigating, it’s anybody’s guess as to what really happened to Russel Douglas, but after October 8th we intend to find out.

The Dollhouse Asylum by Mary Gray—October 22

In a world threatened by a virus, Cheyenne is trying to escape. One day she wakes up in a place untouched by the virus, Elysian Fields. It was built for

her by Teo Richardson, the man she’s fallen for. But he has expectations for this new village. Cheyenne, and seven other couples must complete tests to prove they are wor thy of living here. Suddenly, everything is different. New names are given, values are strained, and if one move is made wrong the consequences are deadly.

(Never) Again by Theresa Paolo—October 15

We all have that guy we never want to see again. The one whose name just gives us the chills with all the ghosts from the past and Liz Wagner isn’t any different. A freshman in college, Liz is ready to move on from ex Zach Roberts, and get the full college experience. After all, he moved to the other side of the country. Just when all seems to be going well, Zach shows back up. He’s everywhere. Liz does her best to avoid him and forget the pain he put her though, but what happens when Zach is suddenly the only person she has? Can Liz forgive what he put her through? She said never again, but was it really never?

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Beauty Babe RECENT GRAD

Text: Shelby Newsome

From retail to a small boutique firm, read on for Jen’s full story:

“Set goals and stride for them,” Jen Flood, 23, says. “If you like something do it.” That’s exactly what Jen did. A Long Island native, Jen knew she wanted to work at a small boutique firm. Following her graduation from college, with a mass communications double major in adver tising and public relations and a minor in electronic media and film, Jen worked for Target. After a while spent in retail and learning that it wasn’t her passion, Jen star ted looking for her dream job, only to stumble upon it on Craig’s List. “I finally went on Craig’s List and I found this post,” Jen says. “It really didn’t say anything. It just said what I would be doing. Never said the company never said what clients they were handling. I just applied anyway, and within 48 hours the lady contacted me back.” Now, Jen is an account coordinator for a small boutique in New York

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City that handles beauty and health products. They have three clients in which she gets to work with all. She also gets to talk to magazine editors, bloggers, celebrity stylists and makeup ar tists to pitch story ideas. Plus, Jen can be found sending out requests for samples, fact checking information, and writing press releases.

Then in the fall of 2012 she was a fashion closet intern for More magazine, where she got to call in samples and see samples come in.

“I knew I didn’t want to be in a corporate setting with a lot of people and just be a number,” Jen says. “So this company I can actually count the number of employees on one hand.”

“One thing I always tell people is that you can major in anything and do whatever you want,” Jen says. “You don’t need to major in communications to do something communications. I work with people who are art history majors. I work with people who are social studies/education majors. I work with a guy who went pre-med.”

At the boutique, Jen is able to be hands on, is heard when she suggests ideas, and gets honest feedback to help her improve. “Ultimately the internships that I did in the fall and the summer prepared me the most,” Jen says. The internships she had were salient. In the summer of 2012 she interned for Margo Siegel PR, which handles fine and costume jewelry.

Along with internships, Jen also created a couple of blogs, went to Fashion Night Out every year, and uses her Instagram account to showcase her outfits and makeup.

While Jen may have found a career in her major, her perseverance shows that anything can happen.

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I KNEW I DIDN’T WANT TO BE IN A CORPORATE SETTING WITH A LOT OF PEOPLE AND JUST BE A NUMBER,” JEN SAYS. “SO THIS COMPANY I CAN ACTUALLY COUNT THE NUMBER OF EMPLOYEES ON ONE HAND.

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