I SWEAR… It was a cry for help Not manipulation I swear… I swear… It was a cry for help I didn’t mean to hurt her I didn’t mean to torture her I didn’t mean to end up so well I swear… It was just anger Just a mood swing Just an act to sell
I H AT E E V E RY T H I N G W I T H O U T YO U I hate how birds sing I hate the sunrise When I’m alone in my room And you’re not by my side I hate how they look I hate how they smile Cause I hate the whole world When you’re not by my side
I swear… It wasn’t me I swear… It was a cry for help
28/21 [19.06.2021]
Georgia
Mariam 74
I’ve lost everything Everything in one night Lost everything Everything in 28 pills I’m not driver in the ambulance car I’m patient laying in the backseat
Normal people and me Normal people versus me Normal people scare me And honestly I envy
You I envy you Cause not all the time but sometimes you’re sure Sleeping in your bed is not that hard to do Cause you’re alone in your room There’s no one in you Normal people don’t take tests and pills They don’t care bout it They don’t have trouble sleeping cause intrusive thoughts They know what to think They don’t have the question “Will I die if I jump from this?”
My mother’s there crying sitting next to me My phone shows me old memories Can’t feel a thing cause I’m high on serotonin Don’t get me low Don’t get me low Just kill me slow Turn the light’s on Look me in the eyes Please just look me in the eyes And forgive me Please forgive me
NORMAL PEOPLE VS ME
They know They know They know what to feel They know cause they can’t see All the colors buried All the colors that scream They know cause they don’t sink In the blood they can’t see They know They know They know bout it They know They know They don’t know bout it
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