At 9 PM, in the middle of technical rehearsals, on the third floor of 217 Park Street, playwright Danielle Stagger and I met to discuss rent free. I have rearranged, cut, and edited our conversation: we didn’t say these things in this order. We used more “ums” and “likes.” And in addition to what’s included, we also touched on spike tape, cat anuses, and dogs with human names. But what you’re about to read is the truth of my conversation with Danielle Stagger, or at least, the truth that she and I have decided to share with you. —Gabrielle Hoyt I do not think of my plays as my art. What?? I do not think of my plays as my art. I think of my plays as my job. I feel like art is when I’m playing the bass alone. Or painting alone. My relationship to art is not my relationship to playwriting. That’s something I interrogate all the time: the concept of my plays being my art or my plays being my work, and whether those things can be the same. If art is your job, you have to interrogate: “What is my job?” Is your job making people feel a certain way? Making people think a certain way? If so, you want to start asking yourself whether you’re making propaganda. It’s the squirrel that eats its tail.
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But other paradigms don’t work either, do they? For instance, art making as duty, or as moral imperative. A lot of artists have come up being told that you have a duty as an artist—particularly artists of color, particularly Black artists, particularly Black women artists, particularly Black queer women artists, and, and, and. But that traps you in a very precarious box. It’s a box where you’re always working towards something, proving something, saving something, documenting something, protecting something. It becomes all resistance and very little creation. Very little life. This box you’re describing feels close to what you’re delineating in rent free. This play is an invitation to think of the thing that feels the truest to you and to think of how you have constructed it out of art and duty. We are not very good as people at working through things. We are very good at reframing, and we do a lot of framing and reframing in life. First addendum, from a text Danielle sent me at 11:42 PM that night: The update is that I’m watching How to Get Away with Murder in bed, and I love art. I am pro art. Pro representation. Pro drama. Pro kissing the girl whose best friend’s boyfriend murdered your estranged father! Second addendum, from an email Danielle sent me at 7:21 PM the next day: I just REALLY wanted to add that writing IS my art. But the creation of plays is my job. The writing and thinking I do just for its own sake feels like my art. But the crafting it into a play for an audience is a job. … I just realized that it made it seem like writing is not my art. And that’s not true, hahaha
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