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mgv‡jvPK ej‡Qb, Mí n‡Z n‡e ev¯—e RMr †_‡K †bIqv, Z‡eB †m Mí| AvZvš—‡i c‡o hvB hLb iex›`ªbv_‡K Zuvi Ô¶zwaZ cvlvYÕ Mí m¤ú‡K© ej‡Z ïwb, Ô¶zwaZ cvlv‡YÕi KíbvI Kí‡jvK †_‡K Avg`vwb|Õ wKš‘ Avgiv †`wL Ô¶zwaZ cvlv‡YÕi RMr ev¯—‡ei AwaK ev¯—e| wZwb hLb Zuvi ÔKveywjIqvjvÕ MíwUi wel‡q e‡jb, ÔKveywjIqvjv ev¯—e NUbv bqÕ Ñ Avgiv nKPwK‡q hvB| Zuvi mgMÖ Mí¸”Q m¤ú‡K©B hLb wZwb e‡jb, ÔAvwg GKUv K_v eyS‡Z cvwi‡b, Avgvi Mí¸wj‡K †Kb MxZagx© ejv nq| G¸wj †bnvZ ev¯—e wRwbk| hv †`‡LwQ, ZvB e‡jwQ| †f‡e ev Kíbv K‡i Avi wKQz ejv †hZ, wKš‘ Zv †Zv Kwiwb Avwg|Õ Ñ ZLb wZwb Avgv‡`i weåvš—B K‡ib| Kíbv Avi ev¯—‡ei g‡a¨ Ñ Mí-Dcb¨v‡m Ñ iPbvi KvRwU I iPbvwUi cvVwUi †fZ‡i Avmj muv‡KvwU wbY©q K‡i DV‡Z Avgiv _g‡K hvB| cÖvZt¯§iYxq nwiPiY e‡›`¨vcva¨vq iex›`ªbv‡_iB †cÖiYv I mnvqZvq Kiv Zuvi e½xq kã‡Kvl Awfav‡b Mí kãwUi A‡bK A‡_©i †fZ‡i GKwU A_© †`b Ñ ÔiPv K_vÕ| A_©vr Awek^vm¨| D`vni‡Y, iex›`ªbv‡_i wQbœcÎ Dj‡U cvB GgbB GK iPv K_vi mv¶vr| wZwb wjL‡Qb, Ô†cv÷gv÷v‡ii Mí ïb‡Z Avgvi †ek jv‡M| we¯—i Am¤¢e K_v †ek M¤¢xifv‡e e‡j hvb| Kvj ejwQ‡jb, G †`‡ki †jv‡Ki M½vi Dci Ggwb fw³ †h, G‡`i †Kv‡bv AvZ¥xq g‡i †M‡j Zvi nvo Muy‡ov K‡i †i‡L †`q, †Kv‡bv Kv‡j M½vi Rj †L‡q‡Q Ggb †jv‡Ki hw` mv¶vr cvq Zvn‡j Zv‡K cv‡bi m‡½ †mB nvo-Muy‡ov LvB‡q †`q Avi g‡b K‡i Zvi AvZ¥x‡qi GKUv As‡ki M½v jvf nj| Avwg nvm‡Z nvm‡Z ejjyg, ÔGUv †eva nq Mí?Õ wZwb Lye M¤¢xifv‡e wPš—v K‡i ¯^xKvi Ki‡jb, ÔZv n‡Z cv‡i|Õ GBKv‡jB iex›`ªbv_ wjL‡Qb Mí¸”Q, Avi nq‡Zv mgy‡Li GB ev¯—e †cv÷gv÷viB Zuvi Ô†cv÷gv÷viÕ MíwU‡Z D‡V G‡m‡Q, Zvi c‡iI Mí kãwU wZwb e¨envi Ki‡Qb iPv K_v A‡_©!

KZ wewPÎ A‡_©B bv G‡KKwU kã Avgiv Kv‡R jvMvB! Mí Z‡e GK A‡_© iPv K_v| Kx? bv, iPbv Kiv K_v! iPbvi gv‡bwU Z‡e GKevi nwiPi‡YB †R‡b †bIqv hvK Ñ wbg©vY, K…wZ, MÖš’b, ¯’vcb| mijv‡_© Ñ ˆZwi Kiv| Avevi, Mí kãwUi g~j wZwb

wb‡`©k K‡ib Ñ Rí| ZuviB Awfav‡b cvB Rí gv‡b Ab_©K evK¨ cÖ‡qvM! Z‡e wK, Rí †_‡K †h Mí kãwU, Zv Ab_©K evK¨ cÖ‡qvMhy³ †Kv‡bv iPbv? G-K_vq Avgiv Mí‡jL‡Kiv `ynvZ †b‡o cÖwZev` K‡i DV‡ev Ñ bv! bv! n‡ZB cv‡i bv! cvVKI wePwjZ n‡eb Rvwb, Zuviv ej‡eb Ñ †m Kx! Z‡e †h GKwU Mí c‡o GB †h †Ku‡` DVjvg, iex›`ªbv‡_i Ô†cv÷gv÷viÕ c‡o iZ‡bi R‡b¨ Avgv‡`i †PvL wf‡R DV‡jv, †cÖ‡g›`ª wgÎi Ô†Z‡jbv‡cvZv Avwe®‹viÕ c‡o IB †h †g‡qwUi R‡b¨ gb Avgv‡`i †g`yi n‡q †M‡jv, RM`xk ¸‡ßi Ôw`e‡mi †k‡lÕ MíwU †h Avgv‡`i `uvo Kwi‡q w`‡jv GK nZfvM¨ evj‡Ki Kzwg‡ii gy‡L g„Zz¨i mgy‡L, Avgiv †h ¯—w¤¢Z n‡q †Mjvg, GmeB wK n‡Z cvi‡jv Zuv‡`i Ab_©K K_v iPbvq? wKš‘ Avgv‡`i †Pv‡Li GB Rj, g‡bi GB †g`yiZv, `„wói GB ¯—¤¢b Ñ G †h ev¯—‡ei †P‡qI Av‡iv ev¯—e, G †h m‡Z¨i AwaK mZ¨!

Rí Avi Mí kã `ywUi Uv‡b GLb Avgiv Kíbv k‡ã †cuŠ‡QvB Ñ wd‡i hvB Kíbvq Ñ wbQK kãaŸwbi wg‡j bq, Aš—M©Z Awfavi Uv‡b| mvsmvwiK ¯^vfvweK eywׇZB †Ui cvB, GKUv wKQz ˆZwii Av‡M †Zv Zvi KíbvB Avgiv K‡i DwV cÖ_‡g, c‡i Zvi iƒc a‡i w`B| gvwUi Zvj nv‡Z Kz‡gv‡ii Kíbvq NU, Z‡e Zvi wbg©vY| evm‡i cÖ‡ek K‡i A‡c¶gvY ea~wU, Kíbvq †R‡M I‡V msmvi, Zvi c‡iB †Zv me! †jL‡Ki †ejv‡ZI wK ZvB bq? Ñ Kíbv †_‡K Mí| M‡íi †mB RMrwU wK Z‡e Kí‡jvK? Ñ iex›`ªbv_ †hgbwU e‡j‡Qb Ô¶zwaZ cvlvYÕ G‡m‡Q Zuvi Kí‡jvK †_‡K Avg`vwb n‡q, ev¯—e †_‡K bq! bq wK? †`Lv hvK Z‡e iex›`ªbv‡_B| Zuvi wQbœcÎ! GiB GK c‡Î mvnRv`cy‡ii `ycy‡ii eY©bv w`‡q wjL‡Qb wZwb, Ô†Kb Rvwb‡b g‡b nq, GBiKg †mvbvwj †iŠ‡`ª fiv `ycyi †ejv w`‡q Avie¨ Dcb¨vm ˆZix n‡q‡Q| A_©vr, †mB cvim¨ Ges Avie¨ †`k, `vgv¯‹, mgiK›`, eyLviv Ñ AvOz‡ii ¸”Q, †Mvjv‡ci eb, eyjey‡ji Mvb, wkiv‡Ri g` Ñ gi“f~wgi c_, D‡Ui mvi, †NvomIqvi cw_K, Nb †LRy‡ii Qvqvq ¯^”Q R‡ji Drm Ñ bM‡ii gv‡S gv‡S Puv‡`vqv-LvUv‡bv msKxY© evRv‡ii c_, c‡_i cÖv‡š— cvMwo

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K‡i †Zv! wKš‘ IB wn›`y¯—v‡b †Zv Avgv‡`i †KD †bB| Kvi Kv‡Q hv‡ev? gwj­Kv-gvjZx †KDB Avgvi G-K_vi Reve †`q bv| AvwgB ewj, Avwg GLv‡bB `uvovB, †Zvgiv †KbvKvUv K‡iv‡M| †`Ljvg `yB †evb Lywk ev ALywk wKQyB bv n‡q Avi `kUv nv‡U hvIqv gvby‡li g‡Zv ¯^vfvweKfv‡e nv‡Ui wf‡o nvwi‡q †Mj| nvU‡k‡l `yB †ev‡bi nv‡Z †Z‡ji wkwk‡Z †Zj, `y‡Uv MvgQv Avi †VvOvq jeY †`Ljvg| GB †Zvgv‡`i nv‡Ui †KbvKvUv? Avgvi GB cÖ‡kœi mivmwi Reve †`q bv `yB †evb| ïay gwj­Kv Rvb‡Z Pvq, `yjvj`v, Zzwg evwo hv‡e K‡e? †Kb? Ggwb Rvb‡Z PvBjvg| hv‡ev ¯‹zj †Lvjvi w`b`y‡qK Av‡M| wKš‘ †mUv K‡e?

GB mvg‡bi kwb ev †iveev‡i| †PvL c‡o gwj­Kvi nv‡Zi w`‡K| †`wL AvOy‡ji K‡o w`b ¸b‡Q| Zzwg Avi Pviw`b Av‡Qv| †`L‡Z †`L‡Z P‡j hv‡e| Av”Qv, Avgv‡`i GB MÖvg †Zvgvi fv‡jv jv‡M? Av‡MI GKevi G‡mwQ, wKš‘ Gevi †ewk fv‡jv jvM‡Q| gyL wU‡c nv‡m `yB †evb| ïay e‡j, †Kb? Rvwb‡b| K_v Avi G‡Mvq bv| kvwš—eyi evwoi KvQvKvwQ G‡j GKm‡½ nVvr †_‡g hvq `yB †evb| GKRb ej‡jv, Rv‡bv, evivmvZ †M‡j Avwg LvjBfivi LvwbK gvwU wb‡q wM‡qwQjvg|

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Pg‡K D‡V ewj, G‡ZvwKQy _vK‡Z gvwU? Avgv‡K Pg‡K w`‡q gvjZx ïay e‡j, Zzwg GKUv Mvav| Avi gwj­Kv †hvM K‡i, Av¯— QvMjI| e‡jB Avi `uvovq bv `yB †evb; cv‡q †hb So jv‡M, Qy‡U †`Š‡ovq ZvjMv‡Qi †cQ‡bi evwoUvi w`‡K| Avwg Avgvi eq‡mi Kv‡Q wRM&‡Mm Kwi Iiv wb‡e©va cïi m‡½ Avgvi Zzjbv Ki‡jv †Kb; eqm Rvbvq, Avwg Mvav I QvM‡jiI Aag| AevK n‡q I‡`i hvIqvi iv¯—vUv †`Ljvg| ay‡jv Do‡Q, MvQ †_‡K GKUv-`y‡Uv cvZv co‡Q, AvKv‡ki eû Ic‡i GKUv wPj wPu-wPu K‡i †W‡K DV‡jv| Avgvi g‡b ZLb GKUv KóB †LuvPvLyuwP K‡i| Avwg GB MÖv‡g Avi Pviw`b AvwQ e‡j I‡`i g‡b wK `ytL RvM‡jv? wb‡R‡KB ïwb‡q ewj, Avwg mvg‡bi eQiI Avm‡ev, †ZvgivI Av‡iKUz eo n‡q e‡bev`v‡o, avb‡¶‡Z, Lv‡ji av‡i †eov‡Z hv‡e, m‡½ AvwgI hv‡ev| cvebv hvIqvi w`b mKv‡jB Pvicvk NyiNywÆ AÜKvi| Avwg Nyg †_‡K D‡V eviv›`vq G‡m Ic‡ii w`‡K gyL Zz‡j †`wL AvKvk †Kv‡Ì‡K †hb ivwk ivwk †gN G‡b AvKv‡ki c~e©-cwðg, DËi `w¶Y, me †KvY fwi‡q Zz‡j‡Q| †Kv_vI GKUz bxj †bB, m~‡h©i Av‡jviI mv‡a¨i evB‡i †gN †f` K‡i c„w_ex‡Z Av‡m| gy¯—vdvfvBI AvKvk †`‡L M¤¢xi Mjvq ej‡jv, G †Zv †`wL AKvj el©vi j¶Y| Rwó gv‡m GiKg †gN †Zv Gi Av‡M KL‡bv †`wLwb| kvwš—ey Ni †_‡K †e‡iv‡Z †e‡iv‡Z ej‡jv, So DV‡e g‡b nq| So n‡jB me †gN †K‡U hv‡e| kvwš—eyi S‡oi wPš—vi PvB‡Z Avgvi wPš—v †ewk| cvebv †_‡K Avmvi mgq gvacyi †_‡K hLb nuvUv ïi“ Kwi, ZLb m~h© gvS AvKv‡k Av‡mwb| mKv‡j cvebv †_‡KB †`‡L AvmwQ AvKv‡k cvZjv cvZjv fvmgvb †gN, IB gvacyi †_‡K Av‡av Qvqv Av‡av †iv`, m‡½ evZvmI _vKvq gvacyi ebMuv wP‡bLiv LvjBfiv AvU gvBj iv¯—v †nu‡U Avm‡Z Avgvi GKUzI Kó nqwb, †hb bZzb RvqMvq bZzb Avwe®‹v‡i hvw”Q Ñ GB Avb›` wb‡q hLb kvwš—eyi D‡Vv‡b `uvwo‡q WvK w`B, ey!

Avgvi GK Wv‡KB Ni †_‡K Qy‡U †ewi‡q Av‡m kvwš—ey| GKUzI Kó nqwb wVKB, wKš‘ †N‡g †MwÄ-Rvgv †h ReR‡e n‡q †M‡Q †mUv eyS‡Z cvwi eyi K_vq| ZzB Avmwe Av‡M †_‡K Lei w`we bv? w`‡j Kx n‡Zv? Mi“i Mvwo cvwV‡q w`Zvg| gvacyi †_‡K wb‡q Avm‡Zv| Avwg ey-†K Kx K‡i †evSvB GB AvKvk, MigKvj n‡jI wø» †Lvjv evZvm Avi meyR Avi mey‡R †b‡q Avmvi Avb›` ey Zzwg eyS‡e Kx K‡i| MÖvg †h Avgvi Lye wcÖq| wKš‘ GLb? MÖvg hZB wcÖq †nvK, kn‡i Avgv‡K wdi‡ZB n‡e, ¯‹z‡j Avgv‡K †h‡ZB n‡e, cov‡kvbv bv Ki‡j †Zv wb¯—vi †bB| eviv›`vq `uvwo‡q †g‡Ni MR©b Avi `vcU †`L‡Z †`L‡Z mnmv g‡b nq, Avwg GB MÖv‡gi †K, GUv †Zv gy¯—vdvfvB‡`i MÖvg, gvjZx-gwj­Kv‡`i MÖvg| GUv I‡`i me, mgMÖ Rxeb| wn›`y-gymjgv‡b wg‡jwg‡k Iiv GKUv Rxeb n‡q Av‡Q| eyS‡Z cvwi VvÛv evZv‡mi GKUv SvÞv jvM‡jv, mv‡_ GUvI eywS evZv‡mi SvÞvUv G‡jv cwðg †_‡K, hgybv b`x‡K Qyu‡q| Zvn‡j Iw`‡K e„wó ïi“ n‡q‡Q? Avi wVK Z¶zwb †`wL wP‡bLiv nv‡Ui w`K †_‡K gwj­Kv Kv‡jv MvB‡qi evQyiUv‡K †hb gv‡qi Av`‡i Av`‡i wm³ K‡i evwoi w`‡K wb‡q hv‡”Q| †W‡K

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