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გიორგი მახარობლიძე

მიტევების დღე

შიდა ქართლის მწერლობა http://mweraltasaxli.blogspot.com/ 2017 წ.

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გამომცემელი: ა(ა)იპ ქალაქ გორის მუნიციპალიტეტის მერიის მწერალთა სახლი

რედაქტორი: ქეთევან გოგიაშვილი

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samSoblov, mgloviarev!

midis samSoblodan qaravani midis samSoblodan qaravani, modis ujiSo da dardimandi, burRavs tvins vanias barabani, xarobs murmani da Sadimani. roca siyvaruliT itanjebi, sikvdils dascini da exumrebi, axla bulbuloben Wilyvavebi, undaT, gadafrindnen beRurebic. vazi gadajiSda msxmoiare, ar Cans gamocdili mevenaxe, amer-imieri moviare, kaci bednieri jer ver vnaxe. axla dro damdgara barabasi, brdRvinavs ivanuSkas barabani. visi jibisaTvis vxurdavdebi, Cemo samSoblov, mgloviarev? megona, simSvidiT suls davlevdi, _ vZaRldebi, rom ver mogiare.

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*** Zmao, TvalSi nacars nuRar Semayri, rom uberav sul tyuils da sul zRapars, ra drosia kosovo da erayi maSin, roca saqarTvelo suls Rafavs?! masonebma Tavis qala amxades, _ arc ruseTi minda, arc amerika!

Sen Tqvi – rodis damibruneb afxazeTs, saarCevnod ras maboleb, eriha!.. tyuilebi gagdis molas cxaviviT, kvlav daeZeb saarCevnod farul xmebs.

Cumad rom var, aRar ZalmiZs xavilic, nerwyvic gaSra, imitom ver gafurTxeb.

Zmao, TvalSi nacars nuRar Semayri, rom uberav sul tyuils da sul zRapars, ra drosia kosovo da erayi maSin, roca saqarTvelo suls Rafavs!

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daviTis saflavi

“fexi damadgiT gulze yovelman� daviTma roca brZana, ras fiqrobda da ras gulisxmobda, bevrma gaigo gana? saxelmwifosTvis iyo saWiro, arvis rCeboda xinjad, icodnen, mefem risTvis mouxmo ormoci aTas yivCaRs. axla ra mogvdis, ra gvemarTeba, riT moviwonoT Tavi? _ dapataravda Cveni mamuli, rogorc Sagrenis tyavi. tye gaiCexa, gawyda nadiri, caSi daveZebT frinvels, vepatiJebiT am Cvens miwaze yazaxs, indoels, Cinels. aRreulia eri da rjuli, an imedi gvaqvs risi? daviTs rom gulze fexi daadgas, yvela rodia Rirsi.

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carielia im yrmis akvani, qarTlis deda rom elis, gulwrfelia da dasanania misi mduRare cremli. es saukune, ocdameerTe, did kataklizmebs avlens, SenisTanebi, CemisTanebi kvlavac movlen da wavlen. kavkasionze krZalviT gadadis amoucnobi nisli, daviTs rom gulze fexi daadga, Senc unda iyo Rirsi!

ukmayofileba es cxovreba ase mesmis, Zmobilo, SeiZleba, me sxva qaric miqrodes, kaci unda iyos ukmayofilo da dasapyrob mwvervalebze fiqrobdes.

Torem mudam Tu mihyvebi dinebas, damdordebi, dadundebi, dacxrebi. nuraferi mere nu gewyineba, Tu sakuTar dardebs Seenarcxebi.

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aba, erTi gadaxede legendebs, rani iyvnen Cveni mama-papani! verafers ver daajereb regvens dRes, tyuilia, maTTan wio Wapani. sadRa aris Zveli cema pativis da gviyrian mRvrie wyalSi imedebs. mavanisgan gvesmis sityva martivi: pativi gsurT? - კi, batono, inebeT! movufrTxildeT am xedebs da im xedebs, Sexe nisli TrialeTze mibobRavs, Tuki mamuls droulad ar mixede, am adgilebs xval sxva SemoiRobavs. vadRegrZeleb Cems sayvarel samSoblos da erT rames vityvi daufaravad: RmerTma nu qnas kmayofili mamyofos, kidev kargi kmayofili ara var!

nacnobi scenari xedav, kvlav meordeba is nacnobi scenari, isev is airCies, xalxi kargad ver ari, Tqven metroTi iareT, man iaros “ferariT”, rogor gasuqebula, janzed ari, mxned ari, masTan axlos ver miva Cemdari da Sendari, Tumca ar waukiTxavs mas uTavo mxedaric.

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xalxTan Tavi nakiTxad moaqvs, magram netav riT? is sakuTar mucelTan monad ari, tyved ari.

Tqven samsala miirTviT, man igemos neqtari, radgan angelozia, wmindania, netari.

TviTonac ase fiqrobs urCi parlamentari da kvlavac meordeba is nacnobi scenari: isev is airCies, xalxi kargad ver ari... xalxi kargad ver ari! xalxi kargad ver ari!

gvelmoqmedi

saqarTvelo daipyro ucxoeTma grantebiT, bevrma aasisina grZeli ena orkapa, miwas kvlav amZimeben msgavsi degneratebi, upatrono bavSvebis Tanxebi vinc moqafa. davexmaroT, vuSveloT, _ mouvida idea, unda gamarjvebamde vibrZoloT da vidavoT! magram mere gairkva, fexebzec ar hkidia, Seqmna es yvelaferi Turme saTavisTavod. iq mitingi moawyo, Caatara aqcia, saxelmwifos aTasi wauyena braldeba, wera, beWda furclebi, mere fulad aqcia, viTomcda, upatrono bavSvTa dasaxmareblad.

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SeiZina Zvirfasi manqana da sasaxle, parlamentSic CaliCobs, ufro maRla ikvlevs gzebs. saidano, rom hkiTxo, sruliad ar anaRvlebs, radgan es yvelaferi gaaforma sidedrze. im dRes upatronoTa saxlic moinaxula, auSena patarebs brolis koSki zRapruli, Camoacva kisrebze xurmis Ciris asxmula, aravin ar datova ferebiT gulnakluli. mere Tavad gasinja maTi kerZi wyalwyala da Tqva: kargad davnayrdi, aRara var mSieri. gulnamceca yofila da suliT mawanwala, unamusos arasdros ar ecvleba ieri.

Semdeg iyo wuTebi gulis amaRelvebi, Cautares koncerti, gaaciles galobiT, iyo mxiaruleba, sevdaca da cremlebic da misdevdnen ZaxiliT: _ Zia, kidev Camodi! didi xani gavida, gatyda yvela piroba, patarebi elodnen tkbilmoubar mexotbes, wvima saxuravidan oTaxebSi tiroda, gayinuli bavSvebi erTurTs exutebodnen. is maRal tribunidan Robe-yores edeba, im bavSvebis TvalebSi CagaxedaT oRondac, CemTvis cnobili gaxda misi gvelmoqmedeba, me xom vici, ra gziTac mosuqda da moRorda.

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netav msgavsi codvebiT rogor ucems bevrs guli?

RmerTma gamosacdelad adamians dro misca. daifare, ufalo, yvela gaWirvebuli da yvelas uwilade puri arsebobisa. wuTisaa sofeli, wuTi ki matyuara, zogs WaobSi acxovrebs, zogs moxiblavs edemiT, mova dro da suyvela, isic, unda Tu ara, RvTis winaSe warsdgeba Tavis gvelmoqmedebiT.

miwisqveSa CasasvlelTan (xelfasi kuponebze)

wiTel cxvirebiT kibeebze sxedan rusebi da CamCebiviT gawvdili aqvT Cemken peSvebi. guSin davlie da dRes mec var nabaxusevi, TavdaRunuli kibeebze Cumad veSvebi. sakvirvelia, es xelfasi rogor gvacxovrebs? kaci davberdi, ver gavige qveynad am yofis, vbrundebi ukan, vunawileb xurdebs maTxovrebs, radgan es fuli me erT kaTxa ludzec ar myofnis.

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*** erovnuli nabijiT SemobrZanda kuponi, iwyevleba molare: davdgi magaT kuboni, ise susti aris, rom baraqas ver upovni. xalxs moedo kuponi ise, rogorc xolera, yvela gagvamdidra da gagvamilionera.

*** patara biWi TonesTan SeCerda, Tvalze ubrwyinavda cremli, mcxobeli RvTisnieri moxuci aRmoCnda, SoTi miawoda cxeli. mere viRacam, bazridan momavalma, cota moutexa yveli, am patara biWs da mSier saqarTvelos RmerTo, moumarTe xeli!

*** cxovreba didi TamaSia: visTvis mwvervalebze revanSia, visTvis cremlia da demarSia. xalxi erTmaneTis devnaSia, eSmac salaRobo kamaTSia, vusmen, parlamenti laqlaqSia. hoda, saqmec swored imaSia, rodesac mTavroba sizmarSia, amas swyuria da imas Sia. 13

ჩემი ქალაქი

gorisadmi Cemi qalaqi goria ZuZumteca da mSobelic! gamigebs sulis foriaqs sxva vin, Tu ara goreli? mama-papaTa naqebi dgas goris cixe beberi, mec mis kalTaze Cavqrebi sul sulis erTi SeberviT. gulSi maqvs leqsi cincxali da Cems gorijvars Sevtiri, nel-nela tkbeba sicocxle oblis gamomcxvar kveriviT. var dRedaRamis mTeveli, mzisa da mTvaris natexi, cao, riTi ver gelevi, miwav, riTi ver gaZexi!

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gorijvroba iSviaTad rom ar iyos wvima gorijvrobisas, dalocos RmerTma! da es galumpva ki gviRirs imad, siamovnebad da ara gvemad. wminda giorgis gvfaravdes madli, vkocniT mis kedlebs da gare vuvliT, moZRvaris mier nakurTxi sanTliT, naTeli TvaliT da wrfeli guliT. iwyeba taZrad wirva da locva, gareT ki isev grZeldeba TqeSi da mere, zarebs dareken roca, vgrZnob, RmerTi rogor Semodis CemSi.

nadimi kviraze metia, rac sulSi mifaTurebs avTvisebiani simsivne - riTma da TiTqos gulze miWers marwuxebs, mawuxebs da wuxel mkacrad gamafrTxila gaampartavnebuli angelozis TiTma - cico! ra SuaSia aq maka da cico an maTze dasaweri leqsebi, 15

yubaneiSvili da leqseni, maTi naRvawi da nasaTuTebi... gareT gamovedi, wavikiTxe nagviT savse nagvis yuTebi. mepatrone maRazias aRebda, damlagebelma gadawminda vitrinis SuSa da vedrodan gadaRvara wyali, mere ki amRerda. es iyo SuSana, qalaqSi yvelaze saqmiani qali. mecixovneebs goris cixeze sufra gaeSalaT, vis unda daeSala, suyvela suyvelas icnobda. guja axobaZem biWebs sakuTari WaWis arayi miawoda akldeTo, vincoba. sufraze xaSlama da Roris mwvadi ar Canda, Tumc marxvac ar iyo. ra moxda, ra iyo? qeifi gaCaRda. amindsac cudi piri ar uCanda, sufraze ar iyo zuTxi da cimori, samagierod blomad iyo Txlad daWrili aluCa da, Tqven warmoidgineT, nioric. sufras ucabedad turisti moadga uknidan, ar mohyolia kudi da policia, patruli, „suki“ da a.S. meyofa, Sevdeq.

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imas ki ukvirda, kidec rom mosuliyvnen, aq sufras vin aurevs?

Wiqa arayi miawodes ucxoels da gaaSinaures. raRa Tqma unda, misi sadRegrZeloc piradad iTqva, TandaTan wynardeboda avTvisebiani simsivne riTma. nadimi grZeldeboda. mze kvernaqis mTas edeboda. gorSi Tendeboda.

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აჭარაში

oTolTas cixe ismis Sriali muxis foTolTa, mTebs mouxuravT nislis mandili, moCans oTolTa, rogorc golgoTa, daxavsebuli da gadaRlili. mze maxviliviT maqvs Tavs daxlili, xvliki cxel qvaze amoqoTqoTda, Camomdis ofli, daRlis samxili, jer kidev SoriT aris oTolTa. davberdi, guli kvlav maqvs ToTo da var uZinari ezos ZaRliviT, vin agaSena mTaze, oTolTa? marcxena fexze avdeq am diliT, magram es faqti aris namdvili, rom mTeli Rame TiTqmis vloTob da rom var umweo da qancgaclili. ra Seni brali aris, oTolTa? ar gamibrazde, kargi, oRondac!

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Suaxevis raionis sofel xabelaSvilebs mze mTebSi CaeSva da ukve bindia, arian varskvlavebi Rames naSvilebi. ra kargi xedia, ra Zveli xidia, ra saocrebaa xabelaSvilebi! gavcqeri horizonts da ase vmSviddebi, guli saswaulis kvlav moimedea, RmerTis savanea xabelaSvilebi, ra Zveli xidia, ramdeni xedia! ufali nel-nela suyvelas mogvxedavs, Svebas mogvitans da avisgan gviSvelis imedis xidia, imedis xedia, ufalma dalocos xabelaSvilebi.

selim ximSiaSvils - salami, selim, kvlav movediT Cven Sens saflavTan mogonebebiT, locviTa da uflis cxonebiT. wamodeq fexze, aRara Rirs drois gaflangva, gelodebian aWareli mecixovneni.

Senma saxelma mtris urdoSi gaiqarbuqa, dRes amayoben Svilebi da SviliSvilebi, dganan saflavTan sanTlebiviT naZvi da muxa, qarTul miwaze erT fesvidan amozrdilebi. adeq, Seudeq laSqrobisTvis isev samzadiss, dRes dro ar aris simSvidis da rame zeimis. ar wargvadgeba dRes eg xmali samuzeumed.

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gesmis selimis, mtero, gaSterdi, vina cdilob, rom SeaSino? kaci, romelsac uwodeben RmerTis movlenils? aRsdeq, wels xmali Semoikar, ximSiaSvilo, gelodebian saqarTvelos mecixovneni!

Suaxevisken alersiani gvxvdeba aWara, cota Segvatyo daRla mgzavruli, TurqeTisaken mas aqvs fanjara, gamWvirvale da guldabzaruli. aliluia, aliluia, silamaze da sixalisea! ho, Tumca cremlic damalulia, xan asea da xanac isea. “Cqara CavideT,� - Tqma advilia, miemgzavrebi, roca Suaxevs, gza imdagvarad daklaknilia, gauWirdeba aq svla Sumaxers. aWara uflis naferebia, ra mTebia da ra kordebia! ra palitraa, ra ferebia, daltonikebic gaocdebian. vuaxlovdebiT ukve Suaxevs, male Camohkravs Jami netari, aWariswyali wvril wels moarxevs, TiTqosda iyos nadietari.

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erT dros albaT mec aq davsaxldebi, maRali mTebi Rrublebs kocnian da ise SoriT dganan saxlebi, TiTqos SurduliT gautyorcniaT. niavi, mTebis kontroliori, nisls, rogorc bileTs, ise moaxevs, Tqven ar gegonoT iyos ioli, vervin SeaRwevs ise Suaxevs. aq ar iTqmeba sityva litoni, kaci mTas gaxleCs, Tu dagpirdeba da sakuTar Tavs roca ipovi, aRaraferi gagikvirdeba. mTeli midamo ferad Wrelia, ar gaekaros am mTebs avTvali. ai, es naZvic aWarelia surnelovani da wiwvmarTali.

RmerTo, am mxares kvlavac mastumre da ar damtovo Tundac udaRod. cixe-koSkebo, damidastureT, rom mzad var Tqvens qvebs SeveduRabo. rom winapris Zvlebs gadavekono, rom isev gvqondes brZolis unari, rom SvilTaSvilebs ar gaegonoT naxixanari, naxaxulari. sanam Sens fiqrebs nislebs moaxvev, gadaiaro asi unda mTa da miadgebi roca Suaxevs, igrZnob, rom axlos mixvel ufalTan.

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aWaraSi mogzavnili maWankali niavi (xalxur motivze) mTebi, dabrZenebulebi, xeobebSi Cumad dganan, moCuxCuxe wyaroebi tkbilad umRerian nanas. aWriwyalma gamaxsena liaxvi da Cemi tana, gana ase momenatra, gulisgulSi gamatana. niav-qarma CamCurCula, iqneb darCe aq, CvenTana? me qarTleli kaci viyav, aWareli viyav gana, magram ise momefera, gamaaWareliana.

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სტუმრად კახეთში

stumrad kaxeTSi WiSkari yurTamde mofrialebulia, maspinZeli gvegebeba stumrebs, kaxeTSi Rvinos alali da braziani guli aqvs da xSirad xeTqavs xolme qvevrebs da Wurebs. _ marnisken wamodiT, gavsinjoT WaSniki, sanam gamzaddeba sufra... _ sufTaa? _ es vin yofila, damiwyo aSiki _ dedis cremliviT sufTa! tyviamfrqveviviT kakanebs dedali, sabudars aRmocenda kvercxi. _ ubralo dado da qveyana Seyara, raRas izamda, rom daedo oqros an vercxlis? maranSi iseTi saswauli sigrilea, Sexval da ucabedad gagcris, sufevs saqeifo idilia, ukeTess ver inatrebs kaci. _ e mwnili saCveneblad ki ar movitane, gatexeT, daayoleT lukma, yvelaferi rac aq mova, unda SaiWamos, arafers waviReb ukan.

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_ hei, xaWapuri kidev ar gamocxva?

Cqara, Semilocavs vidre! stumrebs SimSiliT klavT, amoval, dagxocavT! – gasZaxa colsa da sidedrs. karebSi gamoCndnen karis mezoblebi, maspinZels CaeRima dinjad: _ raRas udgaxarT, SamodiT, gelodebiT, Tqven raRa TavpatiJi gindaT?! gareT xmebi ismis, xaSlama droulia, mosaxmareblad mosuli biWbuWebis. _ dasxediT, isini yvelafers mouvlian, ra akardioniviT iWmuWnebiT! _ TiToc CamovasxaT, ras hqvia, yanws ver dalev, es madls gaumarjos Rvinis! qvabi simsuqniT gaaoca im Wrelma dedalma, ezoSi kakaniT rom waiRo tvini, _ nayidi ar gegonoT, Cemia, Sinauri, gasinjeT, kbilebs rodi mogWriT! sacivad gadaiqca lamazi indauri, ToneSi Cayiravda goWi. ager maspinZelis memkvidrec gamoCnda, muceli tikisaviT moaqvs. _ sadme sufra xom ar iyo da gamogrCa, rame xom ar moakel stomaqs? mamis xumrobaze Svilsac gaecina, dausxes WiqaSi kaxuri, 24

droulad gaaxsendaT, aiRes nakverCxlidan, mwvadic gadarCa da Samfuric. murwas qaliSvilis sakocneli tuCebi aqvs, Tvalebi _ Casmuli TilismaSi da, rogorc mamuls urCevnia, sjobnis kidec Svili mamas Rvinis smaSi. xumrobs maspinZeli: _ guli aiyara, uyvars Rvinoca da dudukic. ai, qali vera da ver maiyvana, ase miberdeba mutruki.

SviliSvili minda, sxva meti raa, dacarieldeba Torem saxli. am qveynad TiTqos qali gawyvetila, vervis gadeyara SobelZaRli! Tumca daakvirdiT, vis rad unda aseTi jejgvi, aseTi Savi, Tmebic gascvivda da tvinic gadubrunda, gakrolil kakals miugavs Tavi. sufra sicilisgan rom damSvidda, Svilma Tqva: _ eZebs xolme Sars dilidan, is var, raic idga kokas Sigan, maSin uaryos rom misi Saqmnili var. lamis cudad gavxdiT xarxarisgan, Sehyva mama-Svili saubars, lxini ufro metad gaxalisda, Rvinom yvelas mxari auba.

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ukve meramdened xaSlama SeaTbes, SemWmeli ara Cans suldgmuli, yanwmac moiara sufra meaTed, erboSi yuryumelaobs sulguni. uceb nisliani sini Semocurda, maZRrebs kvlav mogvawva pirwyali, Cemic gasinjoT gemo unda, gvexveweba da gvepranWeba xinkali. gagrZelebis azri aRar iyo, sufras simTvralisken Seetyo gadaxra, mezobelma goWis Tavi gadaiRo, drunCze akoca da gadaxra. xaWapurs gverdebi iseTi wiTeli aqvs, TiTqos masac Rvino usvia. _ xom ar gavaTenebT, Ramis pirvelia, sanam maspinZels Tofi usvria... devis mucliani buybuyebs qvevri, fexze Zlivas dganan samfexa skamebi. _ xvavi da baraqa ojaxs kidev bevri, axla ki, bodiSi da, wavediT! _ wamsvlel-damrCenisa! – aq wesi amgvaria, sasmisi kacianad barbacebs. _ aqeT moixedeT! eseni sad garbian? ra gveqna, is yanwic davcaleT. _ erTi dRiT mosulebi meored aq ar gnaxoT, darCiT, _ yels maspinZeli gviwevs da iRerebs.

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ezoSi jamiT SevsviT “satalaxo”, rogorc movaxerxeT, “winwyaroc” vimRereT. _ biWebo, albaT, qanci gagacaleT? – hkiTxa maspinZelma momxmareebs boxi xmiT, pasuxad miiRo: – aba, ram dagvRala, mwvads vwvavdiT, siminds xo ar vToxnidiT? manqanaSi _ win ociani, xvalis “sapaxmeliodo”, Cagvides, kalaTaSi xaWapuria, qaTamia, xorci ari da Rvinis dasasxmeli Cafic devs. mivdivarT, maspinZels vuxdiT did madlobas, meuRles, maT vaJs, sidedrs da mezoblebs, biWebs, qancgaclilebs, maT dardimandobas da, erTi sityviT, mTel sofels. _ ras gamovrbodiT netavi, ra gvrjida, saTrobad dResac gvaqvs alibi, _ vxumrobT da manqanis Caweul fanjridan mTvares eRimeba cali ybiT.

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es cxovreba

mere Seni nebaa Sen yovelTvis ggonia es cxovreba maJori, aba, erTxel Caxede Cems sevdian rveulebs, naxe Tavisqalidan sisxli gamonaJoni, mere gaesaubre abolebul revolvers. midi, naxe cremlebiT danamuli baliSi da Tu ar dagawveba gulze raRac simZime, mere, rogorc gindodes, raki Sensas ar iSli, wamoweqi divanze, icine da iZine.

*** Cemi sicocxle orRobeSi patara qaria da uvarskvlavo Rameebis sevda cisferi, usiyvarulod es cxovreba cudi sizmaria da mapatieT, Tqvens sizmrebSi SemoviWeri.

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*** lamazi zRaprebi arsad ar qrebian, saxloben idumal mRvimeSi, Cumad loculoben da elodebian _ iqneb SemouSvas vinmem Sin. maxsovs, saaxalwlod Tovda TrialeTTan, feri gadahkravda cas muqi da TiTistariviT swrafad trialebda artaxgawyvetili qarbuqi. bavSvobis zRaprebi ukan brundebian da Cvenc gvabruneben warsulTan... rogorი sevdiani xma hqonda bebias, Tumca ver vxvdebodiT, ras swuxda. fanjridan gaxeda cas fantelebians da ver gauswora Tovls Tvali, Tovlis papaze hyveboda bebia, papa aRar iyo cocxali.

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axdenili ocneba viRacis gacveTil xaverdis daTunias yidulobs ltolvili deda, iqve trotuarze, dedis molodinSi, patara da-Zmani sxedan. dilidan lukmac ki ar gauReWavT, ar Sesves uSaqro Caic, TiTqmis SuadRemde exvewnen dedikos, bolos daiTanxmes mainc. didi netarebiT axla gakvnetavdnen, Tundac, pawawina xmiads, magram daTunias yidva urCevniaT...

SiaT, gana ara SiaT. wuTiT moiwyenen, mere axleburad iwyeben erTmaneTis qomags. uceb zecas Seswvda maTi Jriamuli: _ modis dediko da moaqvs! mze mTas efareba da Tan efereba, nel-nela eSveba bindi, albaT ar arsebobs qveynad sixaruli amaT sixarulze didi.

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*** zamTars mercxlebi mifrinaven, sxvagan xvdebian, gazafxulze ki mxiaruli, tkbili hangebiT isev sakuTar nacnob mxares ubrundebian, rogorc haerSi gatyorcnili bumerangebi. daveZebT siTbos, sulerTia, Tu sad movxvdebiT, radgan gvaSinebs qariSxalSi Tvalis gaxela, me xSirad vfiqrob da verafriT ver amovxseni, cicqna Cits mkerdSi vin Caudo guli amxela? mercxlis WikWikze amRvrevia xSirad guneba, beRurasgan ki ar mwyenia me arc ioti, radgan am qveynad sulieri ar meguleba ase patara, ususuri da patrioti

2013 wlis zamTari is veRarafers veRar xedavs da mainc cdilobs, akeTos Tavis saqmeebi xelis cecebiT. gazafxulamde me mgoni, rom gavatan, Svilo, ar gagawvalebT da am zamTars ar davecemi.

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aris bebia, garda uflisa aravisi dedas ar hmarTebs, me sibneleSic aTinaTi ar damklebia, is loculobs da, ra Tqma unda, guliT anaTebs. mas dRis da Ramis gansxvaveba uwevs buranTan, imedi maqvs, rom mraval zamTars kidev gauZlebs da rogorc adre, bavSvobaSi, Cemze zrunavda, dRes me vumzadeb buterbrodebs da cxel sauzmes. fesvi gaudgams gulSi sevdas, rogorc metastazs, minda – ar minda, vici, erT dros moxdeba mainc. aCqarebuli nabijebiT mival dedasTan da suls vuberav mis sicocxles da finjan Cais.

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bavSvi

erT dRes samSobiarodan sul patara, alizian saxlSi, Tebervalis susxi roca trialebda, miiyvanes pawawina bavSvi. male deda Savs Caicmevs mamikoze da mxrebze Tmebs gaSlis, samudamod daixsomebs, hoda, im dRes, verasodes daiviwyebs bavSvi. dro gaivlis, gaizrdeba da foladic Seereva xmaSi, gverdiT roca Caiares raindebma, man arCia, yofiliyo bavSvi. icvlebian mTavrobebi, skamisaTvis bevri xteba lafSi, RmerTi aris mxolod misi mwyalobeli. etyoba, rom aris isev bavSvi. aqvs Tavisi principi da arc xelmwifes ar ujdeba navSi, gabutvidan, mzeridan Tu sicilidan, ras erCian, aris isev bavSvi. 33

mis quCaze mimodian partiebi bukiTa da marSiT, mis RimilSi sul ar aris ironia, RimilisTvis vin datuqsos bavSvi? es cxovreba aseTia – xSirad nacars Semogayris TvalSi, dedac ukve mamis gverdiT asvenia, dgas saflavTan Tavdaxrili bavSvi. gulSi miwisZvrebi igrZno, magram aba ra icoda maSin, jer adrea, dakacdeo mere, vinZlo, qalma uTxra, bavSvi xaro, bavSvi. arc arvisi ar aiRo, arc aravis ar daurCa valSi, fqvili aqa, qato iqa, zRapariyo _ wyals da xmel purs miirTmevda bavSvi. uSfoTvelad gaditana qarebi da siberemde misca RmerTma saSvi, siyvaruliT anTebuli Tvalebidan etyoboda, iyo isev bavSvi guliT, ra Tqma unda, guliT. ai, misi aRsasrulic dadga, meore dRes gaasvenes cxonebuli, meore dRes, bavSvi iyo radgan.

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berikaci

ara, arc mefurad da arc mTlad glexurad ecxovra, ecva da exura, beds albaT exumra, naRveli esxura da darCa marto, viT beRura. ukve aRaravin aRar akiTxavda, masac ar ukvirda aRara, qveynis gadixada Rala, Tavi xom gadiRala da TviTon sikvdilic daRala. araferze hqonda fiqris Tavi, dardic guls ukve ar uxravda da Canda gamomwvar jirkisaviT kaci, Camomjdari buxarTan. arsad ar wasula, cxovreba dasrulda, nanatri mainc ar asrulda, sicocxle ar surda, miaCnda absurdad da didxans davobda warsulTan. gardacvlil col-Svilis dardiT dailia, am qveynad sicocxle moswyinda, 35

wamwams cremli gamobrwyinda, sanam Tvals ca moswyvita, wasuli Svilis suraTs kocnida. taxtzec TviTon miwva daRaluli, erTi ki Sexeda mzes vnebiT da guls daikrifa daRaruli, mWknari, gvalviani mtevnebi.

*** axali welia da uceb gawvimda, saxlSi araferi aRar gaqvs sakvebi, cxovreba uecrad saocrad gaWirda, ara gwams arc Tovlis, arc wvimis papebis. namusi gaiafda, lari ki gabonda, gadi wvimaSi da cremlebi damale. mavani gaixrwna, mavani gabozda, dro marTla ara gvaqvs sahariharaled. wvimac ra jiuti bavSiviT axirda, Sen isev bavSvi xar susti da alali, axla ki saswrafod gamodi saxlidan da wvimis wveTebSi cremlebi damale.

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*** zamTars mercxlebi mifrinaven, sxvagan xvdebian, gazafxulze ki mxiaruli, tkbili hangebiT isev sakuTar nacnob mxares ubrundebian, rogorc haerSi gatyorcnili bumerangebi. daveZebT siTbos, sulerTia, Tu sad movxvdebiT, radgan gvaSinebs qariSxalSi Tvalis gaxela, me xSirad vfiqrob da verafriT ver amovxseni, cicqna Cits mkerdSi vin Caudo guli amxela? mercxlis WikWikze amRvrevia xSirad guneba, beRurasgan ki ar mwyenia me arc ioti, radgan am qveynad sulieri ar meguleba ase patara, ususuri da patrioti

*** wvimda... naTal WiqebSi arayi gvesxa wminda, iyo SuadRe, iyo saaTis sami. taxtze ki egdo, mouqsovari winda da Cven bebiis mosagonebels vsvamdiT.

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Sen rom ggonia, erbo qonia...

raca brwyinavs, yovelTvis yvela oqro rodia,… oqro Cliqze hkidia mobalaxe saqonels. acdenili “penlisTvis” erTxel givi nodia Zmebma da megobrebma, lamis iyo, Caqoles. ara mxolod fexburTis, ara mxolod riTmisTvis gamaxsenda dinamos moTamaSe nodia, imisTvis da amisTvis, amisTvis da imisTvis, vinc penalts aacilebs, yvela igi rodia. bevri cerad uyurebs dabadebis zodiaqs, zogi mxiarulia, zogsac gulze lodi aqvs.

Sen vize gagecina, aba, Zmao, modi aq! mavani ver asxvavebs siavisgan sikeTes, TuTaSxia cotaa, bevria aSordia, rac siTxea yviTeli da is, rac qafs ikeTebs, albaT dameTanxmebiT, yvela ludi rodia. bevrmac leqsad aRiqva es mcire parodia, magram cudi rodia, magram cudi rodia.

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*** dasanania erTjeradi Cveni cxovreba, Zieba, tanjva da sakuTar TavTan wanwali. wavalT, zogs Cvengan mxolod kargi emaxsovreba, zogic ityvis, rom “xom CaZaRlda eg sulwamwydari�. uceb gawydeba savali gza _ wvrili bawari, sikeTis garda, ra Tqma unda, codvac grovdeba. guli gvwydeba, rom madli meti ver movaswariT, samwuxaroa erTjeradi Cveni cxovreba.

sasaflaoze vibadebiT, vizrdebiT imedebis amara, sicxiani sizmrebiT aRsarebebs vabarebT. rCeba Tbili samare, Caferflili miznebiT, Serwymulia feri fers, Cvengan ganaxiznebi mihyvebian qvebi qvebs, Cawyobilni gverdigverd, viT CoxaSi gilzebi. guli xSirad ganicdis sikaSkaSes Ramis cis.

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dro arasdros ar icdis, kacs yovelTvis wami áƒĄcdis da aravin ar icis, vis ramden wels SearCens, vin sadamde gaatans. miwa TviTon monaxavs gias, lelas, paatas. mere RmerTi SearCevs, gaakeTebs monaxazs, eklis buCqs da alvis xes, TviTon daaxarisxebs RvTisniers da Sarlatans. aseulis asebis suraTebis aslebi mosdebia mTa-gorebs RobeebiT, TasmebiT, adgilebiT, fasebiT, mTeli Tavis arsebiT, gamofenas gvagonebs. aq movida armsmeni, aq movida gamgone, meSaxte da mTamsvleli, vaJkacic da damsmenic, Savi marmariloTi. aq movida is loTi, Sesandobris amara, aq movida armsmelic... ra egona, aba ra! es cxovreba xidia, 40

xidis iqiT bindia, bindisaken midian mTeli eSelonebi, mefeebi, monebi, berebi da molebi.

Cvenc iq wavalT, ase rom, miwa ar amridia an iq cudi riTia? nebas RvTisas nebdebi, damcxralia vnebebi, sevdac ki ar arsebobs, aRarc mogonebebi, arc azri, arc idea, iseTi simSvidea, iseTi simSvidea!

*** bedi tiali ra xania maryuJs mimiznebs, CemTvisac viRac xels moavlebs bars da Zalayins, me venacvale imis saxels, mis suls, imis mzes, vinc aTrTolebul xeliT gulze miwas damayris.

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visac vaxsovar, mere igic wava Taoba, kvlav itrialebs dedamiwa, rogorc borbali. viqcevi ferflad, mtvrad, talaxad, araraobad, dRes ki davTvrebi da, jandabas, yvela morali.

TiTqos sakuTar saflavidan gamovixizne, Sevedi barSi, moviTxove Wiqa arayi, radganac mivxvdi, suleluri Cemi sifxizle qvaze damWknari yvavilebis fasic ara Rirs.

*** gana ar mjera, iqac bindia, suli faTurobs wyvdiad RameSi vici da mainc gtovebT, mivdivar am arafridan im araferSi. arc ca megulvis iqiT sxva feri, arc ukeTesis rwmena maomebs. me maxsovs, guSin kargad davTveri da vaginebdi araraobebs. sayvedurebiT kvlavac amikles, rom mcdari aris Cemi nabiji. vici, mivdivar me arsaiTken da xoxviT mimaqvs suli najijgni. ar var jiuti da arc avyia, arc iqiT wasvlas vinme maqezebs, 42

TviTonac kargad vici, ra yria am sanagveSi, im sanagvezec.

TqvenTan sadamde unda vdavobde, me Cemi bedi Cems Tavs mivande, vmoZraob, radgan ar davWaobde, vfarTxaleb, rom ar davxavsiande. cxra mTas iqiTac, vici, bindia, samoTxe mxolod gvxvdeba zRaprebSi, vici da mainc xoxviT mivdivar am arafridan im araferSi.

sikvdils ase ram gagaborota, gaumaZRaro sikvdilo, riRaTi ver daasrule, eg Seni iwil-biwilo? vici, dadgeba Cemi droc da unda wamawinwilo, ukan gamomyve saxriT da meZaxo: aba, win-wino! netavi ras dawanwaleb, Se sasikvdilo, sikvdilo? me Senze gabutuli var, survilic ar maqvs gixilo!

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ucnauri sizmari wuxel sizmarSi vnaxe, TiTqos gardavicvale, Tumca yvelafers vgrZnobdi da Tan kargad vxedavdi. me gaveqeci jer sakuTar, mere sxvis valebs, mTeli cxovreba Cafluli rom viyav yelamdis.

Semosasvlelis gamoaRes orTav karebi, Cemi pirveli siyvaruli Cems cols amSvidebs, situacia aris naRdad gadasarevi, kaci ukeTess ver inatrebs sapanaSvides. iq sapatio wre daartyes Cemma giJebma, gverdiT oTaxSi sacxoneblad sufrac gaSales, rom aravisi daaviwydeT dapatiJeba, Camoweres da grZeli nusxa gaaSanSales. ager is kaci halstuxiT da Savi kostumiT, axlaxan kibes amouyva vici qirqiliT, dauwevia dabla cxviri, rogorc xorTumi, viTom Zalian daenana Cemi sikvdili. meuRles uTxra: gamagrdeo unda Wirs Sigan, daixara da gadamxada TavTan zewari, mTeli sicocxle mamwarebda, nervebs miSlida, aqac movida panaSvidze es garewari!

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gamoCnda qali dekoltiT da Talxi samosiT, Sublze makoca, Tvali momWra TeTrma borcvebma. rogor daberda, albaT ukve aris samocis, arada, erT dros yvela biWis iyo ocneba. xolo im gogos, rom acvia Zalze xalvaTad, mimoqcevaSi etyoba, rom aris Tavneba, Camojda skamze da uecrad gamoanaTa kvercxis TaviviT wvetianma muxlisTavebma. cxedars aqeben, Wirisufals an guls vin atkens, am SemTxvevaSi arc me ar var gamonaklisi, gaiqca Tvali Tvalwasuli kolgotkisaken da uceb kaba waifara _ ux, me magisi! vigrZen fiqrebma Waobisken rom gamiTria, aseT sizmrebiT Sors iqneba Cemgan samoTxe, RmerTo, Seminde, ukadrisi rac mifiqria, eh, albaT droa gavcocxlde da fexze wamovdge!

gulSematkivari TavCaRunuli mosdevda ferdobs, wvimda, wvimaSi wveboda bindi, TvalebSi wyvili cremlebi enTo da, ai isic – nacnobi xidi!

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gamoetana bedisTvis mkacri ganaCeni da ver wyvetda didxans. ukan ucnobi miadga kaci, Zmobilo, aq ras dgaxaro, hkiTxa. Semoabruna, daiwva codviT, umal miuxvda mosuli fiqrebs.

- vilaparakoT, Zmobilo, modi, gadaifiqro sikvdili iqneb. ilaparakes da guliT, wrfeliT, Tqves yovelive, rac unda eTqvaT, mere Cahkides erTmaneTs xeli da, RmerTo Cemo... orive erTad!

anderZi (SoTikos)

me yoveldRe gada- da gadmovdivar dardis xids, damisxiT da simTvrale Cemi nu SegzaravT, RmerTo, vis daakisreb anda vin gadaixdis Cemi mosvliT amqveynad gamowveul zarals! droa, unda avkeco am soflidan karavi, me mgoni, rom aravin ityvis Cemze augs 46

da Tu vinmes wamoscda, ra maqvs dasakargavi _ ho, vloTobdi, ra moxda, didi rame, auh! waval me am qveynidan, vici, arafxizeli da mizeri xelfasi daakldeba ojaxs.

Svilo, damipatiJe es msmelic da is msmelic, Tu aravin gamogrCa, CaTvale rom _ yoCaR! karnavali Sewydeba, ra Tqma unda, droebiT da torola galobiT mzes amosvlas urCevs, xolo RamenaTevi cxeli quTuToebi Caawyoben wamwamebs cremlSi, rogorc funjebs. dae iyos saflavi patara da ubralo, RmerTs SesTxove: ufalo, miuteve codvils! da mere rom samare ar dakargo ukvalod, sadRac, iqve egdeba uwarwero lodi. momixoxe TavTan da CaTvale, rom gaTavda, moxdili gaqvs vali da nu wagyveba javri. axlomaxlo askilis eklian buCqs dalandav da imisi totisgan gamikeTe jvari. sadme saWaSnikoSi TiTo Wiqac aswie da pawia winwkali daawveTe purze, Tavi maRla aswie, salocavad gaswie da gaxsovdes, samyaros Cemi TvaliT umzer. ra gza gamomivlia, giTxran Cemma leqsebma 47

da sikeTis fesvebma taZrad migacilon, mapatie da guli sevdiT nu agevseba, Tuki ver dagitove sanTlis fuli, Svilo!

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პოეტი

poeti roca daisi varskvlavebis mxrebze iZinebs, aiSlebian ganabuli urCi vnebebi, Semogawveba gulze leqsi, rogorc simsivne ukurnebeli. ukve mSveleli aRaravin aRar gegulvis, arc imas eZeb, aqamomde vinc giZebnia da grZnob, rom mkerdqveS striqonebiT ajanyebuli miwisZvrebia. gagacamtverebs, ganmeorda biZgi Tu kidev, sikvdilis msgavsma Cagirbines gverdiT wuTebma, sanam gulis cecxls spetak furclebs ar waukideb, ar gaqvs ufleba.

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natvra ar sCveviaT wuwuni cxovrebaSi poetebs, Tumca Zalian xSirad weren mieTmoeTebs. ai axla kidobans vTxovdi, Tundac, noes me, ufals _ yvela suldgmuli gamiusaTnoese. sityvav, kacobriobas madlad gadmoefine, hpove poeziaSi netareba, elfine. xan iq Cavsvam, xan aqeT, riTmebs vucvli me binebs, RmerTo, leqsi keTili gamasaTnoebine.

*** guSin sawer magidasTan erTmaneTi gaicnes. iriJraJa, wamoxtnen da saxaSisken gaiqcnen. ise, rogorc Zvel nacnobebs, Seegeba saxaSe, mxolod guSin rom gaicnes, daijereb axla Sen? mze gorakebs moekida, mTel qveyanas iwonis erTi mTvrali poeti da erTi koWli striqoni.

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*** me ar movyvebi bevris bodials, mivdivar CemTvis, rogorc mdinare, wvimebisaviT cidan modian Worebi, magram ar mamZvinvarebs. bedi yovelTvis aba vis swyalobs, xSirad vawydebi gulebs – myinvarebs, jer Tqven tkivili unda iswavloT da mere misceT cremls sibrwyinvale. geyofaT siTbo, Tundac, mizeri, oRondac borot enebs ar ahyveT, jer SeamowmeT Tqveni sizmrebi da sxvaze ise ilaparakeT. ar SegaSinon caze Rrublebma, qeds nu mouxriT mosul qar-wvimebs, rom siyvarulis gqondeT ufleba, Wiric da lxinic gainawileT. mze caze Rrublebs isev moSlis da cxra sxiviT gaxsnis oqros cxra karebs, erTi marTali leqsi momSivda, yvelas erTmaneTs rom Segvayvarebs!

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gazafxulis mosvla‌

gazafxulis mosvla velad JuJuna wvima mosula, samaxaroblo mexs uWeqia. dRes sazeimos vumzer or suraTs, gulic Ria maqvs, sarkmelic Ria. didi xniT iyo miwa orsulad da Zlivs dabada patara ia... gazafxulia, gazafxulia.

* * * haeri savsea Citebis stveniT, mavTulze beRurebi sxedan, kvlav gamaxsenda Seni Rimili, deda! amoenTxie bolomde, balRamo, da, gulo, aakvnese stviri, RoRnoSosferi modis saRamo, vtiri.

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aki gazafxuli movidao

aki gazafxuli movidao, amas zamTari xom gverCia, axla Tovlisa da qaris garda wvima da xoSkakalac SegveCvia! zixar, genatreba megobrebi. ici, rom imaTac enatrebi. gamoamindebas elodebi, sigarets sigaretze etanebi. gareT gamosvlisa geSinia, gtovebs gulnatkens da gaocebuls, tarosi iseTi SeSlilia, hgavs sagiJeTidan gamoqceuls. saxlSi gamogvketa, rogorc patimrebi, yvela varT sazizRar ganwyoba-gunebaze, xolo es marti ki, dedanatirebi, sulac ara fiqrobs gazafxulobaze.

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*** es bolo droa, netav, ra momdis? – momajadoves mwvane niRbebma, mze Citbatonas frTebze amodis da rZia-rZias rZeSi iRvreba.

RamiT ki caze mTvare hkidia bednieri da ise brwyinavs, rom viRac ifiqrebs: oqros klitea da vyaraulob, ar moiparon. mTebze mibobRavs nisli xuWuWa, am silamaziT me var daRlili, ar SemiZlia, Tvali movxuWo, var uZinari ezos ZaRliviT. da gadavyureb mwvane poligons _ mindvrad yayaCom rogor gatopa da lamis aris bolo momiRos am aprilma da im qalbatonma. afeTqebula mTeli buneba da damnaSavis midis Zieba, Tu axla guls ar eJRurtuleba, maS, sicocxlec ar gepatieba. vTqvaT, meCveneba, Tvali miwyreba, magram aprilic dgeba Tavdebad... ca Citbatonas frTis qveS iwyeba da rZia-rZias Ziras mTavrdeba.

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*** galoben Citebi da am naz bgerebze mze iwevs sxivebze, viT fexis wverebze. totebi mzadaa, yvavilis furclebi gaiZros. am melodiaSi me Sen melandebi, tyemlebs CaucviaT Ramis perangebi da TiTqos elian sasiZos. galoben Citebi da maT galobaze mzem cxeli tuCi Semaxo loyaze.

*** ras gaugeb marts, kartiviT aWrils, an am iebs, pawawina feriebs? xuTi wuTis mze aklia aprils, ra moxdeba, modi, momeferie. ager wvima wamovida JuJuna, wyali miwam CaisunTqa filtvebiT. caze uceb mexma daiguguna da SiSisgan daskdnen nuSis kvirtebi.

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tyidan, mTidan, qalaqidan, soflidan amoskdeba mze - cxeli bumerangi. ager ukve diriJoric mofrinda Savi frakiT da qaTqaTa perangiT. ar moveli arc Svelas, arc dandobas, Sen icvlebi yovel wuTSi martiviT. me ki mxiblavs Seni dardimandoba da arc minda, iyo CemTvis martivi. kvlav miyvarxar da ar vici, ra mWirs. gelodebi ucnaurs da mSveniers. ras gaugeb marts kartiviT aWrils an am iebs, pawawina feriebs?!

gazafxuli ara, me ar ganvgmirulvar maxviliT, gamaogna im gogonas uarma. gazafxuli zed gulze maqvs daxlili da ar vici - gadavrCebi Tu ara. am tkivilebs, jandabas da, gavuZleb. silurjemde vina scema cis tatnobs? totze kvirti gaulalavT alublebs da es ufro miWirs gadavitano.

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gazafxuli mxatvariviT xalisobs, RiRinebs da ise qargavs fiandazs, jer mindori ia-iiT aivso, mere uceb gayayaCoianda. ara, me ar ganvgmirulvar maxviliT, xsna sulisa kvlav hkidia alal beds. cxraTvala mzes Tavi Zirs aqvs daxrili da miwaze aTrevs oqros dalalebs.

*** Sindze stveniT SeSlili, rom zis Savi SaSvia, xeli ar SeuSaloT, Tavis stiqiaSia. arc swyuria, arc Sia, mokled erT ambavSia, arc visi erideba, arc visi eSinia, didi SaSvi xom gaxsovT, misi SviliSvilia. im SaSvs usmens SoSia, ise moswons SokSia, uCveulo koncerti aq tardeba, gorSia. bagabugiT guli Zgers, 57

arc minda rom dadinjdes da dgams gazafxulisken marti pirvel nabijebs.

SaSvs unda SeveSvelo, rac ar unda damijdes.

*** am mTebs verafriT ver Sevelevi, Tvalwin gadaSlili serebia, waval, kopitnarebs Severevi, Cemo estatev da severian! sizmrebSic ki veRar vixdi valebs, dardi gulsmomdgari akakunebs. waval, uRran tyeSi viRrialeb da cremls SevaSveleb nakadulebs. waval manam, sanam davecemi, gana dacemisa meSinia... waval, am sagiJeTs gaveclebi, dae Tqvan Cemze, rom SeSlilia. mixedva undao droze imeds, sanam Camwvara da Canacrula, Tqven dagrCeT qalaqi mozeime, me waval nislebSi gadavcurav.

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miyvars, verafriT ver Sevelevi, mTebi mama RmerTis Sedevria, waval da simwvanes Severevi, Cemo estatev da severian!

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baxusismgebeli

*** yvelam Tavis saqmeze unda agos pasuxi, Seitanos mindorSi mesasuqem sasuqi.

TibaTveSi aiRos meTavTuxem TavTuxi, Tu gsurs qato iq iyos, xolo fqvili aq iyos, amitom da imitom, imitom da amitom. rom cxel-cxeli lavaSi ar Cavardes lavaSi, droze unda afxikos kargad gverdSebrawuli, nakverCxalze nasunTqi melavaSem _ lavaSi, menazuqem _ nazuqi. yvelam Tavis saqmeze unda agos pasuxi, droze unda miiRos mebaxusem baxusi.

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im loTs ukve etyoba, kargada aqvs naxuxi. hoda, ar eSinia arc sicxis da arc susxis, arc zarbaznis, arc “muxis”, magram mainc daxlidars exveweba, Tavs uxris.

RvTis winaSe warsdgeba? _ mas mzada aqvs pasuxi. amitomac, Tu Zma xar, midi, TiToc dausxi!

karavSi cis kamara Caimuqa, mere wvimam Caibuqna, solo cekva wamoiwyo Sxapuna. dagvibrunda diliT ukan, wevs karavTan ZaRli Zukna, guSinRam rom ZebniT gagvapampula. albaT ukve vberdebi da avsxletilvar nervebidan. modi, Zmao, bebos WaWa davasxaT. karavs gasdis wveTebi da vsveldebi da ver vTbebi da 61

TiTo Wiqac ar gvawyenda, almasxan. da gviCndeba kiTxva: ratom veRara scnobs ZaRli patrons? albaT ZaRlsac msgavsi kiTxva awuxebs.

Tu ar gvnatrobs, Tu ar vnatrobT, maSin ratom, maSin ratom, mTeli Rame rad veZebdiT, maS, wuxel? gadaiqca wvima Tavsxmad, droulia axla dasxma, TiToc avcxoT amis Semdeg, SabaSi... davanaxe Wiqas xaxa, gayinuli guli galxva da me ZaRli SemovuSvi karavSi.

gamococxleba dro iyo siamis, dro iyo vardobis, Tavmotyuebuli ar viyav arc riTi, sufrasTan vsvamdi da arafers vdardobdi da iqve doqis tuCs qalisas vadridi. sad daxetialobT Tqven, Cemo vnebebo, Cemo ocnebebo, sulSi rad moTova?

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qeifs da qalebs rom Tavi davanebe, mestumra sevda da orive momTxova. nu dalev! nu mowev! vin gitovs dRes imeds? me xom arc bavSvi var, arc ise beberi, rom yuri davugdo eWvian eqimebs, Cems Tavze TviTon var baxusismgebeli. ara, ar ifiqroT, ariqa, gavgiJdi, rom ar gakiTxavdiT, nurc erTi nu miwyenT, rac mogxvdeT, CaicviT da Cqari nabijiT, Zvirfaso qalebo, saswrafod sufrisken!

megobris monatreba (ტელეფონზე საუბარი)

alo, Zmao, rogor xar, sad xar gadakarguli? raRac xmiT ar momwonxar, gaqvs sabralo, tanjuli. ar miTxra, rom avad xar, daginiSnes wamlebi, Sen xom mudam iyavi, moqeife, damlevi.

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agikrZales sasmeli? vin iyo is kretini? an sadamde ijdebi saxlSi gamoketili? rao, bevrgan iyavi, yvelam egre girCia? yurs vis ugdeb, sulelo, kaci xar Tu CiCia?!

Sens Wirian eqimebs vnaxav, magrad gavufren, axla gareT gamodi, amindia sasufre. xom ici, rom ver gitan sevdians da dardians, gamo, naxe quCaSi, ra qalebi dadian! iqneba janmrTelobis gasaRebsac mivagnoT, SevxvdeT, vilaparakoT, me dagisvam diagnozs. ara, ar dagaZaleb, svi, ramdensac isurveb. gelodebi, gamodi, taqssac me gagistumreb.

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gana ise, cali ybiT, guliT gepatiJebi, wamo, movinaxuloT, Cvennairi giJebi. ukve tarans wiwknian ludis barSi loTebi, Sen Cems codvaSi dgebi, vdgevar da gelodebi. cota-cota SeuSvaT ludica da arayic, axla ise iwvimebs, saxlSi jdomad ara Rirs. kargad gadavaSaoT, “pimpilaTi” xinkali, naRvlis buStic mawuxebs, pankriasis jirkvalic. bevrjer mogonilia, Zmao, avadmyofoba. eqimi ras gagiSvebs, msxverpls gauSvebs oboba?! rogor gaubrwyindeba Sens meuRles Tvalebi, 65

saxlSi rom dabrundebi, kargad namkurnalevi. me is gamexardeba, Sen iqnebi kargad ro, gelodebi, gamodi, sul tyuilad vkargavT dros. tabletebi, abebi, wauRia liaxvsac, sakuTar Tavze viReb, xvalis “paxmeliasac�. damijere awi me, fexs nu iTrev, bebero, naxe, rogor gawvimdes, naxe, rogor Seberos.

Tuki damaRalateb, dagirekos vinc kidev... erTi sityviT geli da axla yurmils gikideb.

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sanadirod midian

sanadirod midian Tolige da mindia, ZaRls rom gareT ar gaagdeb iseTi amindia. wuwuneben colebi _ am ZanZaxSi... gareTa?!

TiToeuls abgaSi arayi aqvs Careqa. iq mindia Seamko Tavis Tanamecxedrem: _ mudam mTvrali modixar, aris ukve mecxre dRe. Tu kvlav agre dabrundi, albaT, gadavirevi. jer kacs ar unaxia Tqveni nanadirevi! eubneba meuRle masraasxmul Toliges: _ agremc mglebma SegWamoT, Tu waxvediT – orive!

Tolige Tofs iRebs da cols win usvams samiznes, Caxmaxs fexs gamovkrav da gaqra Seni avi zne! vin daiwyebs wvimaSi 67

klde-Rreebze fofxials, magram TviTon ician, tyis piras rom qoxia, iq ukve ver miswvdebaT maT colebis jujRuni, dasxdebian Zmurad da tkbilad iRuRuneben. dasalevad midian Tolige da mindia...

gacofebuli kacis leqsi Jriamuloben bavSvebi, arc ra momxdara iseTi, dedam Tqva _ gaCnda imedi, Zlivs ar dagvadga saSveli, mamiko rom gamoswordes! sxva vin ityoda, mis meti?! mezoblis qali kiTxulobs, ra zeimi gaqvT, ra iyo?! umcrosi gogo pasuxobs: ZaRlma ukbina mamikos. dedam Tqva, Tu magaria, iaros, kvlav ibaxusos. sasmeli akrZaluli maqvs, cofze tardeba acrebi.

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iseTi daCagruli var, TiTqosda viyo nacemi. dimpitaurs da stiqias, miTxres, eqvsi Tve gascdebi. miwkrialeben telefons, SenTan qeifi mogvSivda, sada xar, sad daikarge? _ sad unda viyo, gorSi var! im erTi ZaRlis nakbeniT ra gaixara col-Svilma! iseTma kacmac dareka (vifiqre, albaT gareka), romelic iyo yovelTvis Zunwi da gasaZukni da arasdros ar mpatiJebda, axla ra ZaRlma ukbina?! bevrs ar davicdi, icodeT, drom bevr Cems Zmakacs uyela, melamazeba sicocxle, rac TavdaRmarTze daveSvi da gipatakebT suyvelas, aris eqvsi Tve sam TveSi. Jriamuloben bavSvebi, damidges saxlSi speqtakli.

Sen ki, Zvirfaso, ras Svrebi, xom ar SegiZvra eSmaki?!

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bavSvebs guli aqvT spetaki, maTi deda ki, deda ki...

*** arc Ratakad vicxovre, arc vicxovre azizad, Tu ram ocneba mqonda, wlebma yvela gazida. vici, sxva ar waiRebs, Cemi mxrebiT sazidars, versad ver gavaRwie am WrelWrula bazridan. an sad unda wavide, arc fuli maqvs, arc viza... da, sxvebTan SedarebiT, gulTan ufro axloa ucnauri simRera “davlev, aba ras vizam!�

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bavSvobis niavi

bavSvobis niavis monatreba modi, gamaxsene, bavSvobis niavo, Cemi ymawvilobis wlebi, erTad viTamaSoT “bris ili miau�, vlaSqroT koleqtivis blebi. venaxSi cota yurZenic movirTviloT, gemo gavusinjoT mtevnebs, Cumad SarebSi mivirbin-movirbinoT, gana ras movaklebT qvevrebs?! simindsac waviReb ubiT, bevri-bevri, niavo, xom ara javrob? netav, ratom aris ufro gemrieli, sxvagan moparuli taro? gadasaWrelia mTvaris problemebi, sxvisTvis, ra Tqma unda, fuWi, rogor WraWunoben WriWinobelebi, WriWinobelebsac uWirT. cotac CamoRamdes, netavi ra droa darajs savse rom aqvs doqi? jer kvlav fxizelia calfexa sandrua, Tavis upatrono TofiT. 71

niavo, bebosTan ar Caminiavo, Tavze ar SemarCens me Tmas, mere viTamaSoT “bris ili miau”, soflis gogoebTan erTad.

*** amboben, rom viTom me Sen winaSe mivardeba ena. dRes Tu ara, xvale mainc iTovebs da me gareT unda viyo, Sena? rad daaqvso misi CanTa yoveldRe, damcinodnen da movkari yuri. raRacebsac Cumad mied-moedvnen, ra aybedebT? – ra Tqma unda, Suri. naxe, Wirxli miwas rogor gviqargavs, mTidan fexiT vsrialebdiT SarSan, rom icode, veberTela ciga maqvs, orTaveni daveteviT, maSa! dRes Rrublebi TiTqos daiTiToves ubnebma da ezoebma Cvenma, sadacaa gabedavs da iTovebs da me gareT unda viyo, Sena?

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*** mindor-veli dauxatavT akvareliT, wyalze midis pawawina Tebrone, aseTive patara da sayvareli, dgas iq biWi gogos Tanamedrove. caSi mercxlebs gaaqvT erTi ria-ria, wyaros Tavze eRimeba tirifs da Tebronem koka qvaze miamsxvria, Tvalze xelebs ifarebs da tiris. biWi gogos amSvidebs da efereba, saxlisaken Camouyvnen ferdobs, _ mosaxdeni moxda, raRa eSveleba, gexvewebi, nu tirixar, Tebro! siamovnebs mofereba da abruebs, icremleba pawawina qali da ra icis ymawvilma, rom dRes Tebronem koka qvaze miamsxvria ZaliT.

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*** gabutuli gogo, gaputuli gvirila, mTas biliki misdevs okrobokro, xevSi nisli izmoreba dilidan. igvianebs biWi, igniases SurTxebma. rogorc Cvilis amosuli kiWi, mwvervals Tovli imdagvarad uxdeba. gafantuli fara. daqanculi mecxvare. wamovida wvima metiCara, mTidan cxvari mainc gadarecxa ver.

Savi janRi moswolia gombors, molodini gadaiqca tkivilad. gabutuli gogo... gaputuli gvirila...

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oboli bartyebi tyeSi ambavi moxda sawyeni – patara biWma mokla Ciora, dedis amara darCnen bartyebi, deda ki maT beds ara Cioda. dadis tolebSi da Tan trabaxobs Surduliani biWi tiktika, deda Citi ki imav saRamos, sul sxva Cioras gaeWikWika. qarma Rrublebi wvimad arRvia, wuxdnen bartyebi sul mTlad svelebi, radganac bude iyo TavRia da wvimas hqonda grZeli xelebi.

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martoobis dResaswauli

Sen aq ara xar Sen aq ara xar da qalaqSi adre binddeba, daSvebulia Sens oTaxSi TeTri fardebi, isev mindeba Sens fanjrebSi gaamindeba, suras lodiniT CasWknobia yelSi vardebi. ukan dagdeven nawamebi Cemi landebi da sifrifana, gamWvirvale TeTri fiqrebi, me aval caSi da varskvlavebs miveblandebi, rom ver amoxsna ucnauri labirinTebi. ai, vinTebi siyvaruliT, kvlavac vinTebi, rom maxsendeba zRvaCamdgari lurji Tvalebi, Seni TiTebi _ RerosaviT wvrili TiTebi _ mosaferebi, uferuli da sayvareli.

Sena aq ara xar da qalaqSi adre binddeba, ar minaxixar dRe gavida ukve ramdeni da velodebi, gulSi rodis gaaminddeba, RmerTo, Seminde cremliani sityva amdeni.

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mesame dRea qari qaliviT kivis mesame dRea qari qaliviT kivis, gaivlis es Tvec sul erTi Rame darCa, ivlis ivnisi, wamoeweva ivliss, mesame dRea ar minaxixar arsad. mesame dRea qari qaliviT kivis da arvin icis, foTlebs gafantavs saiT, mesame dRea ar utiria tirifs, waqceulia da ara tiris mainc. mesame dRea qari qaliviT kivis, TiTqos mostaces mas erTaderTi pirmSo, man SemaCvia me uSenobis tkivils da es tkivilic arsad davkargo, vSiSob. mesame dRea qari qaliviT kivis...

*** miirweva Tebervali pirquSi da zanti, mavTulebze notebiviT beRurebi sxedan, sadac aris, TeTri bantiT mobrZandeba marti da gulidan amoskdeba uSenobis sevda. moadgeba ucxo gemi martoobis kunZuls da torola dardiani cas aiklebs stveniT. 77

modi, sanam gazafxuli rZiT aivsebs ZuZus da mTvral wvimebs SeeSlebaT misamarTi Seni. gazafxuli mova, magram rogor gapatiebs, Tu enZelebs Seni sulis sinaze ar mohyva.

Tu silurje Tvalebidan ar aCuqe iebs an yayaCos ar miade anTebuli loya?

Tuki gulSi cisartyela ar gaibi simad, ra ggonia misi mosvla eRireba ramed?

Sens ZebnaSi fexSiSveli iwanwalebs wvima da uSenod Sav ZaZebSi SeiSleba Rame. arc kvali, arc misamarTi, sad geZebo, sada?

ZaRlisaviT amedevna mogoneba mware, menatreba varskvlavebiT moWorflili ca da Seni Tmebis qariSxalSi gaSxlarTuli mTvare.

*** o, ra ucabedad dagvizamTrda, iyo siyvarulis gaelveba. marto gazafxuli ras izamda, roca ar yvaodnen yvavilebi! da iyo aprili aramzada, idgnen mowyenili alublebi. marto gazafxuli ras izamda, roca ar yvaodnen yvavilebi!

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grZnobebi Caqra da dagvizavda, vCandiT oriveni daRlilebi, marto gazafxuli ras izamda, roca ar yvaodnen yvavilebi! martooba ra saswauli mRelvarebiT movida Tovli, gadaaTeTra midamo da guli daTenTa, caSi aiWra mogugune buxrebis boli, movida Tovli da bavSviviT dadga karebTan. mowyenili da Secivnuli buxarTan TbebiT da vera xvdebiT, ra awuxebT gareT fantelebs, SemoitaneT Tqven fifqebi gaSlili TmebiT, SemoitaneT da oTaxSi gaacamtvereT. Ramdeba ukve, sakuTar Tavs uwodebT euls, atkiebul suls sevdas matebs tkacuni SeSis, siTbo xeliviT ualersebs Camoqnil sxeuls da grZnobT, rom male martooba Wkuidan SegSliT. Tvalze SegaSraT mocimcime cremlebi brolis, rameTu TqvenTan erTaderTi ocneba wawlobs, gaaReT kari, Semovida oTaxSi Tovli da sayvareli kacisaviT miadga sawols.

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dabadebis dReze

iRvreba Tbili melodiebi, Rvinis WiqasTan vzivar martoka, nuTu vera grZnob, rom velodebi?

Sen ki kvlav cekvav Cems qalbatonTan. Tan sasacilo ambebs igoneb, is kiskisebs da mxrebze exvevi. erTxel tuCebma yelic ipovnes‌ vfiqrob _ jandabas, albaT, SemTxveviT. viRimi, magram vgrZnob, rom vcodvilob, lamis damaxrCos axla kiTxvebma, Sen rasa fiqrob, Cemo Zmobilo, qals bevri ara moekiTxeba. ar SemayaroT TvalSi nacari, Tqveni codvebi RmerTma SegindoT, is qalbatoni rom gagacani, mapatie da momwons me TviTon. var ayolili vnebebs verTeris, gulSi gaixsna Zveli iara, kidev kargi, rom cota SevTveri da TviTmkvlelobam gadamiara. vzivar martoka, vsvam da, vin icis, iqneb viqcevi marTla uwesod... nuTu ar gqenjnis sulSi sindisi, Cemo Zmao, da Zmaze utkbeso!

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*** movida da guli matkina, yalbi gaRimebiT momTxara, wavida Zalian martivad, TiTqos araferi momxdara; ver mixvda, ra grZnobiT velodi, TvalebSi dacinva aenTo, is – angelozi da me – loTi, Turme ar gvqonia saerTo; miyvarda, vetrfodi Soridan, Tavs vgrZnobdi eulad, martvilad, movida, gana ar movida, movida da guli matkina. ra vuyoT, wyenasac avitan, isev Zveleburad marto var, o, ra ucnaurad wavida! o, ra usasood damtova! me mkerdSi ar medo lodi da arc civi yinuli, arc rkina, is, viTomc araferi, movida, movida da guli matkina.

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15 aprili Znelia, roca gulSi mxolod sibraluli devs, fuWia cidan varskvlavebis gamonaTebac, usiyvarulod roca modis siyvarulis dRe da is wuTebic roca mohgavs Tavis marTlebas. giWirs sicocxle da sikvdilsac biliks uxlarTav, bolo simReras Seasruleb, albaT, minorSi, siyvarulis dRes, roca marto zixar sufrasTan da martoobas siZulviliT axrCob RvinoSi.

*** Ramea da quCac ise carielia, viT gaZarculi foTlebisgan alvis xeebi, me vici, ukve aravisTan ar mimelian da araferi qveynad aRar mekiTxeba da arc mexeba. grialebs qari, vin gaigebs fiqrebs am qarTa, an vin gaigos am patara cremlis simware‌ sada xar, sada, Semodgoma ukve damTavrda. ver mogiswari.

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mival, gSordebi, moRrubluli da pirquSia zeca dilidan, wvims da basria es wveTebi rogorc nemsebi da gulic dardiT ucnaurad amitkivilda, TiTqos xe viyav da amglijes miwas fesvebiT. vgrZnob Cems ocnebebs veRar gavSli qarSi afrada, talRam dalewa, yovelive CainTqa zRvaSi, sad iyav maSin, Semodgoma suls rom Rafavda, sad iyav maSin? me gpirdebodi, rom siTbos ar gamogilevdi, magram TviTonve damitana, xedav, zamTarma? dRes rom miWiravs xelSi foToli, rogorc bileTi, arafers niSnavs, warmodgena ukve damTavrda. davdivar, damaqvs daCxvletili wvimiT sxeuli. rogor miyvarxar, ver gaigeb sityvebiT, ase. gulSi minTia cisartyela gadamsxvreuli, gadamsxvreuli, magram mainc ferebiT da siTboTi savse.

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*** rogorc am zafxuls siyviTle elodeba, Senc ise gelodeba viRaca ucnobi. akankalebuli xeliT movZebni saxlSi pianinos da TeTr klaviSebs, rogorc Sens TiTebs, ise Sevexebi. madlobis meti ra meTqmis SenTvis _ modixar CemTan da mogaqvs xolme mxolod da mxolod patar-patara sikvdilebi, didi SeRavaTiT. me maxsovs kargad, yvelaferi sul kargad maxsovs, Tu rogor lamobda xorxidan amoskdomas mravalmiliardjer gacveTili sityva “miyvarxar�, am saukuneSi, robotebiT gatenil qalaqSi, romlis Tavzedac mxolod Tunuqis Citebi dafrinaven, sadac SaSvisa da bulbulis galoba magnitofonis ramdenime kasetas Tu SemorCa mxolod da wyvilebs, Zveli filmebidan nanax Seyvarebulebs rom ajavreben, Sefarebulebs plastmasis xis qveS, ver warmoedginaT, 84

rom SeiZleboda viRacas hqonoda arameqanizebuli guli da aseTi grZnoba. ho, Tumca gqonda varskvlavebiT savse Tvalebi, Senc ar gjeroda, Seni brali ar iyo, vici, radgan iseTi patara da umweo Candi, viT xelisgulze dafrenili da uneburad mis naoWebSi gaWyletili sayvareli Wiamaia. me ar mindoda, warmomeTqva sityvebi Zaladakarguli da gacveTili aTasi ybis mier da, kidev kargi, rom ar iyo igi, Torem me siyvaruls vin mapatiebda? magram ra icodnen, rom ufro didi iyo da ufro saSineli, vidre siyvaruli. ara, mowyaleo qalbatono, ar gTxov Sebralebas. davxetialob udabnoSi, mzeSi, qviSaSi, es mze ki ara gavarvarebuli RmerTis gulia, es qviSa ar aris, es uyvavilod darCenili peplebis frTebis msubuqi mtveria, mkvdari peplebis. geyoT, mowyaleo qalbatono, patar-patara sikvdilebis gamometeba, Tqvenc kargad iciT, ras velodebi, amdeni xani.

Cemi ocnebiT gaJRenTili Tvalebidan cremlis nacvlad mowveTavs sisxli.

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he... modi droze da gadamxade xavsiani Tavisqala, Torem nagavi ayrolda SigniT, romlis gawiwkvnas damSeuli yvav-yornebic ar ikadreben, da, albaT, SenTvis ra bedenaa Cemi azrebi, Cemi wuxili, fiqri, dardi, Tundac, es leqsi, romelsac rom formac ara aqvs. am abdaubdis kiTxvas, ra Tqma unda, girCevnia finjani yava. me daviRale, me aRara var, me movkvdi SenSi. martosuls, euls, miusafars da usasoos, yrus, usinaTlos, miwas, talaxs, araraobas uSenoba ise mtanjavs, ise mawamebs, akankalebuli xeliT veZeb xolme saxlSi pianinos da TeTr klaviSebs, rogorc Sens TiTebs, ise veferebi.

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xelidan wasvla Tqven Turme ufliswuls eliT da akordsac aiRebT forteTi, radgan pesimistebs ver itanT, meáƒŞ gaRimebuli gSordebiT. arsad ar mindoda gameSviT, vicodi martooba SemSlida, im dRes cam Camxeda TvalebSi, itira, imgvarad SeSinda. da aris qveyana Wreli da daclili grZnobiT da siTboTi, xom naxeT, ver gavuZeli da xom xedavT, yoveldRe viTrobi. iebi Wknebodnen rodesac da orkestrs usmenda elita, es Cemi Zaxili mogesmaT, aryiT CaxleCili yelidan. ara var arc madlobeli da arc gamCens gaCenas vuCivi, rad sCanxarT momwydari cremlidan aseTi kargi da gulcivi? eZebeT, Zebnas vin dagiSliT, mzis Suqze gamodiT bnelidan‌ 87

rodesac Tqven xeli gamiSviT, me maSin wavedi xelidan. rodesac xanjali mWreli da SxamiT alesili damisviT, Tqven iRimebodiT mSvenivrad da mec suls vRafavdi xalisiT. vicineb ocnebiT daRlili adrindel CemáƒĄ sadardelidan, dagnebdi, TeTr bairaRiviT wero afrindeba lelidan. kvlav mtkiva iara Zveli da frTebi _ dalewili qariSxliT. eh, maSin wavedi xelidan, xelidan rodesac gagiSviT!

*** albaT mogwyindi gacveTili firfitasaviT, sxva xasiaTi mqonda adre da sxva buneba, axla quCaSi me davdivar xSirad nasvami, ra vqna, ra vuyo, kaci var da memTvraluneba. wuTisofeli, vici, kalTebs arc me damaxevs, rom aq darCio da am qveynis cqeriT datkbio, 88

Cemi sicocxle Sen verafriT ver daganaxve da ra azri aqvs, rom sawuTrom zemoT damtios. xolo iq, dabla, roca Caval Cemi codvebiT, zemoT dagrCebaT ca varskvlavebamoqarguli, mavans da mavans, ra Tqma unda, Sevecodebi, magram odnavac ar moiwyens Seni qvaguli. gTxov, mapatio, isev vfeTqav, isev vTavxedob... vis raSi unda meleqse da Tanac Raribi? survilic ar gaqvs, rom amRvreul sulSi Camxedo, aRar gWirdebi ukve Zveli kalendariviT.

*** gulSi kvlav sevdian nakvalevs mitoveb, gars vuvli ucnaur patara qaragmas, geZebdi da axla, rodesac gipove, me Seni siyvarulis ufleba ara maqvs. da vcdilob, Caviqro TvalebSi wvimebi, vgrZnob, rogor viwvi da vgrZnob, rogor gSordebi, me qars Sevalewe leqsic da imedic da Senken gawvdili gamxmari totebi. me vgrZnob, rom TandaTan mivdivar xelidan, vTvrebi da vxmaurob cxovrebis jinaze...

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o, RmerTo, saidan amdeni cremli da, o, RmerTo, saidan amdeni sinaze?!

mitevebis dRe damiviwyeT, vici, sul ar gaxsendebiT, qari qris da gametebiT Tovs. ugzoobas miyvebian gazeTebi, saocaro qalbatono, mosawyeni striqonebi mapatieT, gTxovT. am Tovlisa me ar vici, vis ra marTebs, an vin rogor gadauxdis vals, me vkiTxulob nafexurebs _ misamarTebs, saocnebo qalbatono, ver mivagen Tqvens dakargul kvals. zamTars gulze ise gadavitarebdi, odnavac ar movixridi qeds.

TiTebSua Caferflili sigareti, mSveniero qalbatono, rogora hgavs Cems Canacrul beds. sasTumalze ar migia mklavi Seni da ver vusmen kamertonis pulss, pianinos dabzaruli klaviSebi, ucnauro qalbatono, arc ki iciT, rogor mtkenen guls. martoobiT SeiSleba kaci Turme, reklamebTan lurji fifqi Tovs, 90

vkocni xelze Tqveni xelis naTiTurebs, mowyaleo qalbatono, siyvaruli momitevoT gTxovT.

*** bolo eReba Cems dardsa da tanjva-wamebas, nel-nela, magram mirCevnia moxdes axlave. ar daeswrebi, vici, Sen Cems dasaflavebas, radgan warsulSi erTxel ukve damasaflave. vgrZnob, saca aris unda Sewydes Cemi biliki. anda sadamde unda mevlo ase eulad? madlobeli var im gulwrfeli siZulvilisTvis, mag Tvalebidan lamazad rom amofrqveula. madlobeli var, rom ara devs noti siyalbis, karga xania rac Cvens Soris Talxi bindi wevs. rogor mtanjavdiT, rogor mwvavdiT, rogor miyvardiT, gaararaveT Tqvens gulSi da gadaiviwyeT.

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gamoRviZeba Sen axla gZinavs, exuteba wamwams wamwami da caze mxolod dediserTa mTvare anTia, mosawyenia martodmarto Rame wanwali alublisferi Seereva vidre ganTiads. amekviata ucnauri fiqri dilidan, TiTqos davdivar da codvebiT miwas vamZimeb. vici, rom Cemi siyvaruli mowyenili gaqvs da es leqsebic ufro metad hgvanan samZimrebs. unda wavide, vnaxo sadme Rvinis sardafi da Cavetio samiode boTlis farglebSi. Sen axla gZinavs, daxurula ori sadafi, wvanan Tvalebi fosoebis sarkofagebSi. gind damabralon loToba da uimedoba, saocrad Tbili Jruanteli moaqvs em Rvinos. ai am WiqiT siyvarulis iyos Sendoba, am fialiT ki... guls tkivili moaTmeninos. gamomafxizlebs Camokruli ciskris zarebi, nislSi Securavs sevdiani TeTri magida. gaxsni wamwamebs da wyliani Seni Tvalebi gamoanaTebs damarxuli sarkofagidan.

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*** am molodinsac gamoRrRnian sulSi CrCilebi, amoxeTqaven Cemi tvinis cxeli lavidan, xolo tuCebi gvalvisagan daxleCilebi iCurCuleben: „aRar mova, gahqra, wavida.“ Sen ver gaigeb, varskvlavebi ratom kvnesian, anda sizmrebSi RamiT Tavze rogor gevlebi. mitovebuli siyvarulis var eklesia, Camoqceula xavsiani Cemi kedlebi. uecrad qarSi akvnesdeba violonCelo, qari xemia, xeebi ki nazi simebi, saWreTliT xelSi dgas moxuci miqelanjelo da Cems saflavze gaqandakebs gulmodginebiT. gaxsovs, mindoda, siyvaruliT zeca ameklo? dRes ki aravis aRarafers ar vemarTlebi. ra maRali da Sori iyo Seni samreklo, ra patara da ususuri Cemi sanTlebi!

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*** netav icode, Tu ra sevdiT gwer me am werils, dRemde verafriT amovxseni Seni buneba.

Sen ar gegonos Cemi guli xorcis naWeri bazris ZaRlebs rom gadaugdo gasaCumeblad. ratom akenkes es cremlebi Wrelma Citebma, ras miaCerdnen maRla caSi Savi gugebi?

Tu es Tvalebi uSenobiT daiSriteba, Sens danaxvamde, adre iyvnen dasabugebi. rogorc wvimaSi moyolili susti pepela, ise vfarfateb, Sen ki mainc eWviT miyureb.

Tu es TiTebi Sens Tlil TiTebs ar miefera, de saTiTaod Camoscvivdes xelze kidurebs.

Sors gafrindeba suli, woniT babuawveris, caze dardisgan miileva mTvare qalwuli. darCeba mxolod leqsi ese – sisxliT naweri da Seni saxe Cems TvalebSi amokawruli.

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*** amaod eZeb lamaz qalaqebs, ocnebebSi rom xSirad xatavdi.

Sen gagimetes da giRalates, Tumc ra icodi, guls vis atandi? dgas Semodgoma ukve gviani, mze noemberis veRar mzianobs, qveynad ar aris adamiani Seni sevda rom gaiziaros. dangreulia brolis koSkebi – Rameebi rom unda geTia. Sen ici, ukve male mokvdebi, Tumca ar dardob da sulerTia. asafreni ca aRar gegulvis, frTebi dagewva, rogorc ikaross, sadRaa qali, igi erTguli, rom Segiyvaros da Segifaros? sikvdili mainc unda moaswro da winaaRmdeg waxval dinebis, axla quCaSi dgaxar uazrod, icini, tiri da iginebi.

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*** Sen axla masze aRar ocnebob, uazrod umzer sivrces TvalebiT, is yvavilebic ginda mocelo, adre rom Tavze dahkankalebdi. sicocxle midis, midis uSenod, xar sevdaSi da dardSi CanTqmuli, vin giTanagrZnobs, an vis uCveno guli, tkiviliT amoSanTuli?

TvalebSi SiSi Cagsafrebia, gewvis suli da irgvliv nislia, eh, eg jer kidev araferia, eg, dasasrulis dasawyisia.

Tu mogagonde Sen waxval sxvasTan, gauyvebi biliks namians, arc gexsomeba me es leqsi visTvis davwere, Sors gafrindebi, viT patara Wiamaia, qarSi gahyvebi meocnebe babuawverebs. me ki davrCebi gamowvdili xmeli totebiT, sveli foTlebi Camomcviva albaT saflavze da Tu odesme erTxel mainc mogagondebi modi, mitire da sikvdili gamilamaze.

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*** giyvardes, gtkiodes Zalian Znelia, namdvilad Zalian Zneli. qveyana saocrad didi da Wrelia, boSas kabasaviT Wreli. rodesac fiqrob, rom RimiliT gelian, Turme iq aravin gelis. am droSi, marTlacda, ra sakvirvelia Tvalze wamomcdari cremli, sad unda waiRo, sad unda damalo ase aSkara da cxeli? iwmindav da mere RamiT ar gaZinebs daRududebuli xeli.

macduri sarke mWknari foTlebi siyviTles ifereben, mizezs noemberi arkvevs, sakmao dro aris kidev siberemde, albaT daibrica sarke.

Torem aserigad Subli daserili namdvilad adrea, ici.

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rogor gacrecila im kacis werili! rogor gatexila fici!

Sen sul sxva siTbos da mwvervalebs eZebdi, Tumc ver poulobdi sababs. ra vuyoT mere, Tu mis gverdiT ver Zlebdi, ra Seni bralia aba? rodesac mixvdi, rom sastikad cdebodi da Turme giyvarda Zlier, mainc geucxova sityvebi Sendobis, ampartavnobas ver sZlie. eh, is dro rom iyos, isev moilxendi, dRes suls Tu uberav Radars, axlac ki iWmeva qada ori xeliT, guli aRar gulobs, madam! im aRtacebiTac aRar gixaria da rogorc Zvel nacnobs xvdebi. grZnob, rom Jruanteli ukve mimcxralia, tvirTiT daRlilia mxrebi. wiTlad aRaJRaJebs TiTebs manikuri da mogonebebSi giTrevs. sulSi Cagisaxlda SiSi panikuri, arvin dagikocnis TiTebs.

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gzebi mofenili yofila nar-ekliT, sarkis win naoWebs arkvev. ho, ar gekadreba Sen es anarekli, albaT daibrica sarke.

*** TiTqos daCxvlites guli nemsebiT, visze ocnebob, me dRes vin mkiTxavs? cecxls wavakiTxe Senze leqsebi, romlebic SenTvis ar wamikiTxavs. gulze damawva TiTqos lodi da mzes gadefara roca Rrublis frTa, vigrZen amaod mogelodi da ca oqrosferi gaalublisfrda. gamicivdi da gamimyinvardi, ar vici, ase guli tiris rad... ra msubuqia sityva “miyvardi”, da ra mZimea sityva “mtkivixar!”

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Teatris baRSi Tovs da es Tova sul ara hgavs Tovas maSindels, Tavbrudamxvevma gamitaces mogonebebma, me maxsovs maSin sakuTari Tavis SemSurda, ise miyvardi. dRes ki, dRes ki, rogorc genebos.

Tovs, de iTovos, ara uSavs, aryiT movTbebiT, rom gavamxneoT gayinuli sulic, sxeulic.

Teatris baRSi veterani vsxedvarT loTebi, gulianebi, Tumca mainc xelCaqneulni. im lamaz wuTebs, gTxov, mainc nu daemdurebi. dRes saseirnod, vici, CemTan aRar moicli. rogor miyvarda Seni mkrTali nafexurebi, Sen Tu ar ici, Cemo kargo, Tovlma xom icis. gulSi CavkaliT siyvaruli, mere davmarxeT. ar vkiTxulobdiT, ra Tqma unda, maSin mizezebs, 100

viRaceebma Tovli ise aatalaxes, sisulelea axla fiqri sifaqizeze. azri ara aqvs Cvens Sexvedras, an sad geZebo? rom ar gavcivde, Sen amaze nu SeSfoTdebi. erTjerad WiqiT siyvarulis vsvamT sadRegrZelos, Teatris baRSi veterani vsxedvarT loTebi.

*** mze Semodgomis Tvalebs ifSvnitavs, rogor yviTldebi, Cemo edemo! sxarti xar, rogorc wyalSi lifsita, ar vici, sad xar an sad geZebo. male Cadgeba sulSi wyvdiadi da zamTris susxi xeebs galokavs. im foToliviT davdardiandi, Wadars rom xeze SerCa martoka. qari RrialiT mkerdze maskdeba, erTad viyaviT, gaxsovs, iyo dro. dRes ki geZaxi, ukanasknelad ganugeSo da dagemSvidobo.

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*** rogor miyvardi – gaxsenebac SiSs mgvris imisi, Sen damanaxve siyvarulic, eWvic, Ralatic... iqneb es codna gamomadges odes, vin icis, magram Sengvari me ara maqvs albaT talanti.

Jams sikvdilisas ver ganvsazRvro iqneb winaswar bodiSs mogixdi, Tu Sens saxels wamomabodebs. nu Sewuxdebi da nu moxval, SevZleb imasac, rom Cemi Zvlebi mivaTrio sasaflaomde.

martoobis dResaswauli kacTmoyvareno, sulierad mainc kentebo, modiT, erTmaneTs gulgrilad gverds nuRar CavuvliT. Sinaberebo, berbiWebo da poetebo, erTad aRvniSnoT martoobis dResaswauli. aRarasodes dabrundeba Jami netari, Semodgomaa, foTlcvena ferebs iferebs, dro swrafad garbis da Wixvinebs, rogorc kentavri, jaglagi cxeniT moirweva Cvenken sibere. modiT, CamovsxdeT mogugune, metyvel buxarTan, 102

ar davinaxo upeebze cremli momdgari, radgan cxovrebas Cvenze Tvali amouRamda, TviTonve SevsvaT Cveni Tavis Sesandobari.

Sinaberebo, berbiWebo da poetebo, modiT, erTmaneTs gulgrilad gverds nuRar CavuvliT, Cemo tkbilebo, kanfetiviT Casakvnetebo, erTad aRvniSnoT martoobis dResaswauli.

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valsis vali aTrTolebulma mogxvieT xelebi da vSiSob, rom tani TiTebSi Cadneba, Tu xvdebiT, rarigad meJruantelebiT aseTi kargi da aseTi Tavneba? aravis ar uTxraT, es, CvenTvis, ise vTqvaT, TqvenTan siaxlove imgvarad mafeTebs, rom guli me axla TvalebSic mifeTqavs, da lava sisxlisa awveba safeTqlebs. saocrad gixdebaT eg kaba cisferi, saTuTi mxrebidan dabla rom CaSlila, ha, Tqveni mklavebi da Cemi kiseri, me axla namdvilad am valsis valSi var. xarT amboxebuli gaSlili zambaxi, mag cisfer kabidan aSuqebT, ase rom, Tqveni dalalebi loyaze mexeba da vgrZnob, rom am qveynad samoTxe arsebobs. da cviva hangebi, tkbili fantelebi, kiserze mavlia mklavebis arSia, 104

momwonxarT, miyvarxarT, meJruantelebiT, dReidan me ukve am valsis valSi var.

*** gvirilebi aunTia mindor-vels, gazafxuli Zalas ikrebs, ase rom... amis meti sxva ra unda mindodes aprilia da Senc qveynad arsebob! silamaze Seemata am xedebs, Tavs ar vuxri arc qarsa da arc wvimas, gaxsovs, erTxel TvalebSi rom Cagxede? imis mere bednieri kaci var.

*** Sens lurj TvalebSi darbis ori talRa livliva, me daRlili var da talRebis Relvas davnebdi. rom moxvide da momitano morcxvi gvirila, gamomiwodo da RimiliT miTxra - inebeT,

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Cems quCazedac kvirts gaSlian iasamnebi da Cems TvalebSic varskvlavebi icimcimeben.

*** ras caxcaxeben caSi cacxvebi? dganan cacxvebi, hgvanan did cocxebs, var siyvaruliT mironnacxebi, Cemo cremlo da Cemo sicocxlev! cas cxra Rrubeli, rogorc cxra devi, misdevs, xan cxreba, xanac cxardeba. am cacxvebTan Tu amicxaddebi, vcxondebi, ise gamixardeba.

*** marto ver gagiSveb wyalze, patara qalo! viRacas rom Semoxvde, viRac rom Semogxvdes, patara qalo? misi Rimili rom gulze mogefonos?

Sen xom gadarev da... Senc rom mogewonos, patara qalo?

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marto gaSveba Seni meZneleba, rom gagiSva da raRa meSveleba, patara qalo?

*** yria iatakze Zveli rveulebi, bzrialebs fanjaraze buzi. bedi ara maqvs, me Sen geubnebi, ara da ar modis tuzi. damSrala moTminebis zRvisxela auzi, vnebdebi, CavuSvi Ruza, metoqe qirqilebs, tyuila ras uzi, xedav – arc tuzi, arc muza. yria iatakze Zveli rveulebi, Sig Zveli leqsebi yria da dums safeTqelTan Savi revolveri, yelSi gasCxeria tyvia. sisxlma ZarRvebSi Sewyvita duRili, Tumca Cemic iyo brali, SeaSra cremli da ukve mas uRimis, kartSi wagebuli qali.

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me fakiri var

bevri ver uZlebs Sens gamWolav mzeras, Jinians, eridebian mag Tvalebis msusxav ankesebs, me fakiri var da me Seni ar meSinia, me fakiri var da gulidan leqsebs vakvneseb. ho, SeveCvie Sxams, geslsa da mware samsalas, tkivilebisgan ar vyvirivar da ar vtirivar. vkvdebi, am qveynad dasanani mrCeba arca ra, me fakiri var!

Caferflilia yovelgvari emociebi, aravis hbaZav, sakuTar rols TviTon asruleb, Sens Wrel xasiaTs ver gaugebs Ze xorcieli, miarwev tans da maTraxiviT miaTxlaSuneb. nasroli isriT ver gangmiravs Sens mkerds amuri, erTi ki ara, dagaxalos gulze gindac cxra, mowamlulia albaT leqsic da salamuric, radgan miyvarxar!

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*** Tqveni Rimili usaTnoesia, SemindeT, Tu ram ise ver vTqvi, es TqveniT CemSi sunTqavs poezia, rogorc macxovarSi _ RmerTi. wlebi mifrinaven da vgrZnob, rom vberdebi, mainc sizmar-sizmar geZeb, me getyviT: miyvarxar! gavkadnierdebi da mere gavdgebi gverdze. me vici, mdinares ara aqvs ufleba, gahves nakaduls an Reles, Tu iciT da Tu grZnobT, rom Tqveni sufeva sulSi mifaTurebs xelebs.

Tqveni Rimili usaTnoesia, maTrobs netarebis wami, es TqveniT Cems guls TuTqavs poezia, RmerTma gapatioT, amin!

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*** akvarelis ferebma, Senze sevda momandes, netav rogor movedi me am Semodgomamde?! minda sunTqvaSekruli, Cems CeroSi mivyuCde, ra Tqma unda, zRvasac Surs, mag Tvalebis silurje. sulSi sxivebCawnuli anTebuli damaqvs mze, es mwuxare dReebi rogor gamilamaze!

Sens adgilze am leqsebs nakuw-nakuw davxevdi, me ki isev vocnebob, var aseTi Tavxedi. ikiTxavda mavani, ras CaliCob, bebero?

Cemi mWknari mtevnebiT minda rom mogefero.

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seni ukurnebeli siyvarulis gadamde, xvale albaT waval da unda davniadagde.

Semodgomis ferebma Senze sevda momandes, hoda, unda miyvarde sulis amoxdomamde.

*** guli jadosnuri patara sarkea, avsili zRva emociebiT, gazafxuls sul raRac wuTebi aklia da lurji iebi. arafers ar niSnavs mTebze rom moTova da Tmebze _ aqa-iq WaRara, me isev isa var, me guliT ToTo var, Tumc bavSvi aRar var. am dilas sul erTi patara nakli aqvs, mwvavs da vgrZnob, nel-nela vTavdebi, gazafxuls sul raRac wuTebi aklia da Seni Tvalebi.

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*** ara, gabutva ar gamagono, RmerTi gawyromisTvis Segrisxavs, Cemo gulCiora qalbatono, rogor menatreba Seni xma. me vgrZnob, rom cxovreba airia da tvirTs mxrebiT veRar verevi, es sevda sxvadasxvanairia da aqvs Semodgomis ferebi. vin uTxras gabzarul guls Sendoba, masze vin momaclis marwuxebs? nuTu vera grZnob, rom uSenoba amtkivebia da mawuxebs. ase martosuli ar damtovo, Seni dabruneba mirons mcxebs, Cemo gulCiora qalbatono, Cemo sibereSi sicocxlev.

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*** gazafxulma aremare aamwvana sruliad, axla yvela Citi caSi gabulbulebulia. aseTi Tu iyo albaT gafurCqnuli edemi?! modi, naxe, marTals vambob, ar mived-movedebi. gamaxsenda bageebi daSaqruli marwyvisa, netav gulma ase rigad rad mimogisaklisa? saocari simwvanea, mze anaTebs CaxCaxa, tyemlis totze Camomjdarma SaSvma CaiWaxWaxa. awkrialda salamuri, bani misca dairam, Sen ki isev iRrublebi, gaiRime, kai, ra! iqneb igrZno am mkerdis qveS ra lamazi gulia, Torem axla yvela Citi gabulbulebulia.

televizori acxadebs aminds televizori acxadebs aminds, Tovli Caketavs amaRam rikoTs, me mainc moval SenTan, Zvirfaso, rogori Tovlic ar unda iyos.

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me mixmoben gzaze iasamnebi ar ayvavdnen sanam iasamnebi me sxva rame jadosnuri ar mwamda, mwamda mxolod Suqi Seni Tvalebis da im SuqSi Crdili mag Sav wamwamTa. axla, roca gazafxuli gamefda, saocari siyvaruliT miyvars mze, me davdivar velur iasamnebTan da mitacebs es veluri sinaze. sad ar mxvdeba anTebuli cisferiT, totebs miwvdis, Tavs mawonebs TandaTan, sadac mnaxavs mag TvalebiT micqeris mindor-mindor, bilik-bilik, mTa-mTa-mTa. Rrubliani Rameebis sifiTre ar maSinebs, kvlav savse var imediT, radgan gulSi iasamnis sicisfre CaRvrili maqvs uxilavi wvimebiT. Seni erTi gaRimeba amanTobs, mzis sxivebSi waval, gavixiznebi, RamRamobiT varskvlavebi damaTovs ocnebebiT da feradi sizmrebiT. ar meqneba sevda simartoveze, amRerdeba guli aTinaTebSi, radgan vici, arsad mimatovebs mze da ocnebebs CamanaTebs TvalebSi. 114

ucnauri siyvaruliT davnebdi cisfer Suqs da Crdilebs mag Sav wamwamTa da mixmoben gzaze iasamnebi mindor-mindor, bilik-bilik, mTa-mTa-mTa.

*** marti memtereba martivi, satrfom gabutulma damtova, momtirebia da ar vtiri, mtkiva, vitanjebi, marto var. mitevs utamtamo motivi, ucamtverebia mters guli, var atmis motexil totiviT, natruli da gakvirtebuli.

*** me maxsovs, im dRes duelSi momkles, Sig mkerdSi momxvda nasroli tyvia, ar gavagrZeleb da vityvi mokled, sikvdiliT guli ar damwyvetia. azri ar hqonda Cems gamarjvebas, sisxliT SeReba svavma niskarti,

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arc amiRia zemoT marjvena, radgan vicodi, aRar giyvardi. roca sicocxles mwuxri aqrobda, caSi Citebma Sehqmnes gangaSi, rogorc Sen Tvalze cremli ar gqonda, ise ar mqonda tyvia naganSi.

Secdoma me gagacani Sen is, ar mogewona, maxsovs, Tvalebi aqvso gvelis, ar ikarebdi axlos. me Sen imasTan gaqe, mere me Sen is giqe, me geZaxodi aqeT, Sen ki waxvedi iqeT. gakvirvebuli saxiT uecrad erTad gnaxeT da iyo Cemze axi eldanaWeqi maxe.

Sen mimtkicebdi, rom me ver SegiSnove radgan...

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is mitom moindome da mitom Segiyvarda... me kargad vicnob masac da ar vaxseneb cudad, Tumc rogorc Tiva asanTs, ise erido unda. da da da da

raki mainc ginda...

Tuki Zlier ginda... raxan ase ginda... radgan guliT ginda...

RmerTma gamyofoT kargad, arc sayvedurs ar gasmenT, Tumc vgrZnob erTmaneTs vkargavT, me - Sen, Sen - mas da mas - me.

*** wvimaa, wveTebi fardaze eSveba, Riaa fanjara, vewevi sigarets, dRes albaT orives raRaca gveSleba, iciniT ratomRac da isev wvims gareT. mainteresebs... gaRelvebT ra ufro, iqneba ver itanT Rrublian amindebs, 117

Tu is, axla rom wvimasTan vsaubrob, viRacas eliT da me unda wavide. me vici axla, rom raRacas matyuebT, Ralati imgvarad getyobaT TvalebSi da yurze caxcaxebs patara sayure da erTi suli gaqvT wavide male Sin. pasuxi mokle gaqvs: rom... “Sen ar gexeba”, sigarets vaqrob da vukideb sigarets, mivdivar, Tqven axla sxva biWi gexvevaT, iciniT, vsveldebi da isev wvims gareT.

*** me uSenobis mware sevdas gulSi vinaxav, SenTvis ucnobi da erTguli vrCebi bolomde, rom amden lamaz qaliSvilSi me Sen miyvarxar, ufleba ar gaqvs, odnav mainc rom ar mogwonde?! gaminawyendnen me furclebi leqsebuxlebi, mxolod leqsebSi da fiqrebSi rogor geZio? Seni TiTebiT, Seni TmebiT, Seni muxlebiT, unda sicocxle samoTxeSi SemaZlebino. tuCdaxeTqili miRimian broweulebi, es meramdened sevdis baRSi Rames vaTeneb da varskvlavebi, Sens TvalebSi momwyvdeulebi, hgvanan patara, mocimcime cicinaTelebs.

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gulma fiqrebi Sav RrublebSi Cumad azida da frTxilad vzomav gadmosadgmel Senken nabijebs da wvims quCaSi ise nazad, ise faqizad, rom monatrebiT SeiZleba kaci gagiJdes. vin gamouSva gareT wvima ase titvela? xom SeiZleba gacivdes da veRar vuSveloT? datovos sevda sul patara, pawawkintela, mere Tavsxmebma Camiaron gverdiT uSenod.

Senze ocnebas Sevinaxav, rogorc didmarxvas, xval cisartyela Cems simarTles dae mowmobdes, rom amden lamaz qaliSvilSi me Sen miyvarxar, ra ufleba gaqvs odnav mainc rom ar mogwonde?!

*** wuTisoflis bilikze Semxvda, Semomeyara, iyo ise lamazi, rogor ar Semeyvara! sityvas ver vubedavdi, an ra unda meTqva, ra? vocnebobdi maszed da Tavsa vgrZnobdi netarad. mere uceb SevZrwundi, netav rad da netav rad? mas rodesac dro hqonda, elxina da exara. gaibuta, wavida, miwas amoefara. suli amitkivilda da cxovreba memwara. ar vicodi, es dardi rogor gadametana 119

da dagrovda kiTxvebi qveyana da qveyana: raRa me Semeyara? rogor ar Semeyvara? rogor ar Semeyvara?

siyvaruli eh, sul tyuila vamyarebdi Tqvenze imedebs, anaTemaze gadameciT anaTemidan; me maxsovs erTxel Rimilic ki gamoimeteT, TvalebiT naTqvam salamze rom araferi vTqvaT. saxeli Tqveni maTrTolebda da mabodebda, tkivilebamde, netav, marTla ar SemeyvareT, axlaxan SemxvdiT, gverdiT viRac biWi mogdevdaT, ho, mapatieT, ki ar SemxvdiT, SemomeyareT. Tqveni xateba Cems fiqrebSi mudam enTeba, visTanac gsurdeT iseirneT, nazo qalwulo, RmerTo, Seminde da dRes iseT xasiaTze var, rom sakuTar Tavs minda kargad gavulawuno.

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*** zeca varskvlavebiT moWedila, guli saguleSi qanaobs, Citi CitunasTan mofrenila, amaod. fici ra tyuilad daxarjula, cremlic ra tyuilad daRvrila, guli ra amaod daxanjlula, daRlila.

Senamde yvela gza moWrilia, ganukiTxavia codvebi, daxurul sefaSi qorwilia, Txovdebi!

*** Tumc Sens siyvaruls ar maziares gvirilebma da iasamnebma, sicocxle mainc lamazi ari, rogorc gorakze wminda sameba. ar geZaxi da aRarc mogeli, waxvel da gaqri, rogorc cduneba, alublisferi saRamoebi maxsovs, miyvars da meTbiluneba.

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ar mepareba noti siyalbis, ra vuyoT, Tu dRes sevdiT vmRerivar... vixseneb, roca erTad viyaviT da im wuTebiT bednieri var.

*** wiTeli, yviTeli da mwvane ferebiT midis Semodgoma da zamTars vnebdebi. albaT aRarasdros ar mogeferebi da mxolod sizmrebSi Tu gagaxsendebi.

Seni mowamluli Rimilis gamoa, gulSi Jruanteli rom unda gacivdes. am siyvarulisgan arc ara gamova da me mirCevnia, usityvod dagcilde. mtkiva ganSoreba da Tvalebs varideb mkerds, aRmocenebuls, aRmarTuls golgoTad. me waval, ho, waval... me unda wavide, Sen bedniereba ipovo oRondac. rom SenTan arasdros ar unda movide, rogor Seveguo an rogor viwamo? vici, sigiJemde rom unda mominde, vici, sikvdilamde rom unda viwamo.

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miyvarxar, miyvarxar, miyvarxar Zalian! dae, xval iaros qalaqSi Worebma, Seni toqsikuri Rimilis bralia ase ucnauri Cveni daSoreba.

*** ho, saxeze Segatyve, gulSi raRac Wirs malav. dumxar, radgan ar gsurs, rom amimRvrio guneba. mere Seni Tvalebi, sufTa da gamWvirvale, dauSveben loyebze cremlebs nakadulebad. vxvdebi, Sens cxovrebaSi rom sxva vinme gamoCnda da xsovnas Seeyina jadosnuri wuTebi, radgan ver Cavabare ucnauri gamocda, fexqveS gagiTelia grZnoba nasaTuTevi.

Sens saxlis win davdgebi isev RamenaTevi, gaRebuli sarkmeli Cems suls ver daamSvidebs, amoskdeba gulidan leqsi naucbaTevi da siCumes mohyveba sevda sapanaSvide. farda Senarnardeba nazi, rogorc sosani da mis ukan idgeba mSvenieri cduneba. “gaxsovs, rogor giyvarda Sen is mandilosani?� _ vnebiani tuCebiT sio meCurCuleba. umowyalod gadaRlils Rameebis TenebiT monatreba trfobisken isev ise mibiZgebs da me SenTan amoval mWknari qrizanTemebiT, 123

kidev erTxel rom igrZno siyvarulis sigiJe. es ra dardi scodnia guls eWvians, Wirveuls, mainc Seebralebi, aseTi aqvs buneba, radgan Seni Tvalebi sufTa da gamWvirvale dauSveben loyebze cremlebs nakadulebad.

*** maxsovs, roca SemefeTe, iyav mxolod cxrametisa.

Sengan erTi tkbili sityvac ar iyo da ar meRirsa. o, ra nela gadioda wlebi Cemi wamebisa! gavige, rom sxva giyvarda, mSurda Seni damwvelisa. sxva mogwonda, sxvas gahyevi, bedi iyo gangebisa. didxans masTanac ar darCi, sma uyvarso sasmelisa. axla quCaSi Semomxvdi, Tqma inebe saTqmelisa.

Tan miRimi, Tan miyvebi im mTisas da am mTebisas.

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gza sanTebel-sakmevlisa. me ki ukve aRara mwams mag lamazi Tvalebisa. viziareb mwuxarebas Tqveni gardacvalebisa.

*** Tu me ambavs vikiTxav Cems daTa da ZmaTa, CemTa axlobelTa da CemTa naTesavTa, aseTi var ras izam, sxvam ikiTxos sxvaTa. momwons wyaros xmauri da dumili mTaTa, mze rom moekideba qedebs vardisfrada, Cemi qveynisa momwons, sxvas uyvardes sxvaTa. erTi gogos Rimili, magiJebda mTlada, misTvis Tavs ar vzogavdi vedebodi mtlada. me – im gogos Rimili, sxvas moswonda sxvaTa. 125

megona, siyvaruli moskdeboda zRvada. netav im gogos guli, rad gadiqca qvada? me im qvaze vtirivar, sxvam itiros sxvaTa. dros rom vatarebdi da vTvlidi arafrada, Cemma Seyvarebulma damiwuna qmrada.

Cemsa megobars gahyva, sxvam ikiTxos sxvaTa, aRar gamoilia es sxvaTa da sxvaTa. erTi kiTxva ratomRac Zlier aiTaTa, yvelaferze miwyreba, rada? rada? rada?

*** SenTvis ucxoa erTgulebis gulSi gavlebac, sunTqav da feTqav, ra Tqma unda, isev imediT. ubralod, ar gaqvs arc Ralatis saSualeba, Torem gaqceviT medeasac gaakvirvebdi.

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ar SegiZlia iyo ise, arvin giyvardes da azidula Seni mkerdi, rogorc golgoTa. eli, ar ici, ocnebebi sad wagiyvanen, sulerTi aris, wagiyvanon sadme oRondac. xandaxan Tvalebs brolis cremli Tu estumreba da Sens gaSlil Tmebs sevdiani aTovs fanteli, ginda RalatiT siyvarulis dadastureba, magram ara Cans iazoni argonavtebiT.

*** rogor giyvarda, giJdebodi iyo momenti, magram uecrad Seicvala ase bedi rad? roca gegona yvelaferi iyo mSvenivrad, im qalma SenSi uneburad mokla poeti. iyo amtydari Woraoba, mieTmoeTi, ara hqondao am qalbatons amis ufleba. zogma Tqva, sityvis radgan iyo Tavisufleba: didi ambavi, ra vuyoT, Tu mokvda poeti. aha, miiReT sevdiani ese soneti. arc Jruanteli, arc gulidan leqsis moTxovna, xeli iTxove da, rodesac igi mogTxovda, Sens sulSi TviTon veragulad mohkal poeti!

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*** me kvlav uZilobiT viTxri Tvalebs, Sen arc mekiTxebi _ ratomo, gulSi Citbatona gifrTxialebs, Sens guls Citbatona batonobs. mogelamuneba sio nazi, netav mogefera sio rad?

CemSi mowyenili Ciora zis, erTi eWviani Ciora. ukve suls Rafaven kelaptrebi, modi, siyvaruli vitiroT. marTla cremlebamde menatrebi, Cemo SroSano da gvritino!

*** igi cxovrobda didi xnis winaT, Sen arcki ici, vin iyo morze, da gikakunebs karebze wvima, gelodebian, gamodi droze. wvimas bavSviviT fereba uyvars, SeuSver peSvebs da mere dalev. is raRac taqtiT minaze ukravs da Tan saocar sinazes avlens.

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rad ver gebulob am martiv anbans, ratom maeWveb qarze da Tovlze, cota xnis Semdeg romlebic albaT Seni saxlis win uCemod movlen? gaivlis kidev sul mcire dro da SeuerTdebi uxilav landebs. me wvimis didi imedi mqonda da saidumloc imitom vande. ara, ver vityvi, rom mrCeba valSi, rac SeuZlia, namdvilad cdilobs, Tumc yovelive eyreba wyalSi, sabraloc aris da sasaciloc. albaT Sen fiqrob – ara Rirs imad, gaxvide gareT am Tavsxmis fonze. me mogigzavne sarkmelTan wvima da gikakunebs – gamodi droze.

perpetuum-mobile anu calmxrivi siyvaruli maSin sxvagvari qarbuqi qroda, jiuti iyav, rogorc warmarTi da radgan mkerdSi guli ar gqonda, guli wamarTvi. didxans geZaxdi, mivdevdi daRmarTs, tvirTi moxsnili mqonda bolomdis, 129

aRar miyvardi, sruliad aRar da arc momwondi. mere ki maxsovs, iribad Tovda, daRmarTi uceb gaxda aRmarTi da radgan maSin guli ar mqonda, guli wagarTvi. axla Sen qvemoT dauyev ferdobs, Semomeyare da wuTiT Sesdeq da radgan mkerdSi guli ar gqonda... da ase Semdeg.

*** roca Sens yelze CamoxrCobas damipireb, yulfad gamodgeba Senive nawnavebi. vicი _ ar migloveb, vici _ ar mitireb da arc me meqneba saxe nawamebis. albaT am wuTebis, albaT am wamebis sulac ar gamyveba grZnoba sinanulis. saxe momiCrdile Seni wamwamebiT, gulze amomfxaWne didi siyvaruli. sxva ram netareba qveynad aris kidev? ara, ar mgonia iyos sxva wamebi.

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roca Sens yelze CamoxrCobas damipireb, yulfad SemaSvele Senive nawnavebi.

*** xan gulwrfelia, xan matyuara, xan fxizelia da xan mTvralia, ra SuaSia ginda Tu ara, mova uTuod, garduvalia. arafers gkiTxavs _ ra xar, vina xar, ras warmoadgen, ra SegiZlia. is daganaxvebs, rac ar ginaxavs da gagrZnobinebs, rac ar gigrZvnia. sulerTi aris sqesic, asakic, farCa gimosavs tans Tu ZonZebi, mefe iqnebi, yma Tu glaxaki, versad wauxval, mainc mogZebnis. uazrobaa masTan Widili, mogiwevs yvela codvis gamxela, is Tavad mova, rogorc sikvdili, mas siyvaruli hqvia saxelad.

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* * * gorSi rom erTi gogona dadis, gamomwvevia is Cemi dardis. didi xania, rac Seviyvare, is ki axlosac ki ar mikarebs. uxdeba didi lurji Tvalebi _ lamazi, saTno da sayvareli. mSvenieria, magram ugulo, mxolod Soridan unda uyuro. da im patara ZuZukokobam qselSi gamaba, rogorc obobam. gorSi rom erTi lamazi dadis, mze amomdis da mze misiT Camdis.

*** eWvianad mimzeren Telebi da verxvebi. ra ician verxvebma, ra ician Telebma, Zlier samwuxaroa, Senc verafers ver xvdebi _ rogor minda mag TvalTa acicinaTeleba.

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RoRnaSosfrad Ramdeba, alublisfrad Tendeba, sanTeliviT nel-nela, viferflebi, vilevi.

Sens xilvas monatruli guli ar mimTeldeba, myvanan Sengan leqsebi, Cveni RviZli Svilebi. araviTar kanonebs me ar vemorCilebi, Sua gzaze davdivar ucnauri goreli, miyureben xeebi, foTlebaCeCilebi, da Cumad CurCuleben: isev imas moelis. modi, sanam amqveynad azrs dakargavs yoveli, sanam Cemi sicocxle, Sens lodinSi gavTele, sanam wamwams SeaSra cremli, Sengan soveli, modi da eg Tvalebi momacicinaTele.

gasaTxovari megona gasaTxovari megona me is patara gogona, lamazi, cisferTvaleba da koxta, rogorc madona. quCaSi monarnarebda da guli sevdiT amevso _ CaiWoraves qalebma, ornaqmarevi ariso.

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vifiqre, gaveridebi, _ Tvalebi darCa Cemzeda, ornaqmarevi gogona, albaT mesames eZebda.

*** Seni survili surosaviT maxrCobs, mexveva, suli amomdis, sasikvdilod TiTqos damWeri. mwyins, radgan gjera, rom siyvaruls rac Seexeba, ocneba aris, wylis nayva da sxva araferi. afrindebian eg warbebi, rogorc orbebi, roca fiala moTminebis ukve geleva, momibrundebi da mimtkiceb, Cemi grZnobebi uazrobaa da namdvilad sisulelea. mTis wyarosaviT gabrazeba swrafad gadarbis, maJruantelebs momRimari saxis danaxva. rom ar miyvarde, me ara maqvs rame sababi da Tuki momcem _ ki, batono, me var Tanaxma.

Sens sadRegrZelos dRes ki isev vavseb piramde da brolis Wiqas bolomde vcli, Cemo imedo, 134

Tu marTla wrfeli guliT ginda, rom ar giyvarde, iqneb sul mcire siZulvili gamoimeto.

*** ar SemiZlia, dRes viyo Cumad da moridebul sayvedurs gkadrebT, Tqven daipyariT sizmrebi Cemi da mxolod Tqvenze aCvenebT kadrebs. ocneba SoriT nislebSi dneba da saqorwilo mejlisebs marTavs, TqviT _ Tqven vin mogcaT imisi neba, rom Cems sizmrebSic dadixarT sxvasTan? mze Camcems gulSi sxivs, rogorc maxvils, amova mTvare kvlav dediserTa. Tqven gaigonebT Soridan Zaxils: “sizmarSi mainc iyaviT CemTan!� ca daufaravT afrenil gedebs, qari varskvlavebs zed gulze mirwevs da yovel diliT, sizmrebis Semdeg, me Tqvens siyvaruls Tavidan viwyeb.

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*** wyaro liklikebs Tu Seni kiskisia, Cemi guli Seni gulis gamodis tyve. vici, rom es CemTvis didi riski kia, magram siyvarulSi unda gamogityde. xelidan wasuli kacis bodvebia, arc ras gpirdebi da arc ras gaimedeb.

Sen ase kargsa da me ase codvebians...

RmerTi saCemod mainc ar gagimetebs. ho, unda gagicnon didma darbazebma, arc kacisa ar gaqvs da arc uflis wuni. sulac ar mindoda Seni gabrazeba, vwuxvar, ar gaxlavar me is ufliswuli. sixarulis garda sevdac SegZlebia, minda ganugeSo, magram aba riTi? zRvis moqcevaa Tu Seni cremlebia _ brwyinavs wamwamebze wyvili margaliti. ise SegeCvie, wuTiT veRara vZleb. ara, ar gegono marTla udardeli da Tu cocxali var me am qveyanaze _ Seni trfobiTa da Seni JruanteliT.

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nu daRondebi brbos ybebi mudam Ronieri aqvs, brbos, binZursa da Tavad mouvlels. qveynad ramdeni morielia – Sxamsa da balRams ra gamoulevs? de iWoraon, Sen ar daRonde, ra vuyoT, dResac mTvlian me giJad. ar iSurebdi arc Sen Zal-Rones, CemTvis guli rom amogeglija. gacvda TiTebSi Zveli rveuli, vin damibrunos dRes is wuTebi...… yria nagavSi gadaxeuli leqsebi, Senze nasaTuTebi. caze Rrublebi isev SeerTdnen, Tavze damnaTis mTvaris profili, isev aRvsdeqi aTasmeerTed, Sengan aTasgzis uaryofili. warsul dReebze nuRar idardeb, atkivebuli guli momande, radganac vici, unda miyvarde bolomde, sulis amoxdomamde.

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*** guli ucnaur sevdiT amevso, _ mze moefera mTebze qarafebs da me mivxvdi, rom dRes ualersod azri ara aqvs qveynad arafers.

Tumca Rrublebi Camsafrebian, mainc vnetareb, aq rom megulvi.

ZarRvebi Seni trfobiT Tvrebian da Relavs guli aborgebuli. ra saswauli ismis hangebi, _ aTasi Citi cidan gigalobs. sadac Sen metyvi, me iq davdgebi, Tundac klde iyos sali, pitalo. viRaca ukravs fortepianos, mze saocari SuqiT anaTebs da, rom aravin ieWvianos, peplebis frTebze mogwer baraTebs. da Tu fiqrob, rom mxolod Jinia, Caviferflebi Cumad maSin me... sikvdilis ise ar meSinia, Seni dakargva rogorc maSinebs. guli ucnaur sevdiT amevso, _ mze moefera mTebze qarafebs da me mivxvdi, rom dRes ualersod azri ara aqvs qveynad arafers.

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*** gana yovelTvis Cven varT marTlebi? gulebi mkerdSi gveqcnen Wurvebad. wvimebs rad undaT misamarTebi, midian, sadac moesurvebaT. Cven veWvianobT, mere vfeTqdebiT _ sada xarT netav damalulebi? avgizgizdebiT da safeTqlebiT Tbebian Tofis civi lulebi. vfiqrobdiT: cxel tvins tyvia Caxraxnis, magram sicocxle gadagvrCenia, ar daSvebula radgan Caxmaxi, Tan gvixaria da Tan gvrcxvenia. wvimebs rad undaT misamarTebi, de, rogorc undaT, ise iaron. nacnob sardafSi isev davTvrebiT, rom Rvinos sevda gavuziaroT. me moginatre da Sen aqa xar, Tan geferebi da Tan gemduri, Cemi cxovrebis TeTri laqa xar, var bednieric da ubeduric.

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*** asfaltze ise SiSxinebs wvima, TiTqos Samfurze iwveba mwvadi.

Sen imizezeb yovelgvar wvrilmans: _ Ramdeba, wadi! amindma celqma rad agiSala fiqrebi mware? xom xedav, modis iseTi delgma, ZaRls ar gaagdebs patroni gareT. ho, uneburad Tvalebma gagces, raRaca xdeba, gana ver vxvdebi Sens SiSs da gancdebs, magram rom giTxra, ara maqvs neba. vici, udrood movedi stumrad, sxvas elodi da ver gagimarTle, damixvdi ubrad, sinaTle qreba, ukideb sanTlebs. ukve saTqmeli arc ara dagvrCa, foTlebi scvivaT galumpul totebs.

Rame wvimaSi cremlebi ar Cans, mivdivar, gtoveb!

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*** maxsovs tanis napiras mTvare Rames aTevda. idga Seni surneli gadafurCqnul atmebTan. sadRegrZelo ismoda im xevTa da am xevTa. quxda doli, garmoni, iyo dava damkveTTa. sacekvao daukres, ar icekve arcerTTan. vqeifobdiT, vpurobdiT tanis piras, atenTan. ise mebutebodi, TiTqos raRac mmarTebda.

Seni mowyeniloba lxinis xaliss marTmevda. arc SenTvis Semicodavs, arc xatTan da arc RmerTTan, sityvac, Svebismomfeni, ar vicodi, ra meTqva. magidaze kiafi iyo Taflis sanTelTa. 141

Rvinom, gorulma mwvanem, damaTro da damTenTa. vqeifobdiT, vaTevdiT Rames sofel atenTan. CemTan cekva gindoda, ar cekvavdi arcerTTan. vigrZen gulSi da uceb inaTa da gaTenda, roca Cemken Tvalebi mogicicinaTelda.

*** netav Rrublebi aRma-daRma sad dadiano an wamdauwum mTebSi mexi ratom axvelebs? meca maqvs gulSi pawawina sadardiano, sadac aravis arasodes ar Cavaxedeb. caSi torolas ganTiadi miaqvs niskartiT, sadedamiwed mzem sxivebi gadaarCia. warsuli droa, ra Tqma unda, me Tqven miyvardiT da, samwuxarod, momavali ar gaaCnia.

Cems Zvel Wrilobebs dro da Jami ver Seaxorcebs, Tqven ki cdilobT, rom damanaxoT sveli Tvalebi, 142

magram sadRa gaqvT cremli Tundac sacxvirsaxoce, Torem yvelafers mxolod Cems Tavs davabralebdi. caze Rrublebi Zveleburad gadarbiano, fiqrob da ici, ar iqneba Cemgan xeiri. carielia radgan Seni sadardiano, mixval quCaSi, miabijeb gularxeini.

*** maxsovs, iyo wlebis win, Tqven patara iyaviT, lamazebis deficits quCa ar ganicdida. sanam daginaxavdnen, me manamde miyvardiT. “gamarjoba”, “naxvamdis” quCis bolos gicdidaT. uTqmeloba maxrCobda, TiTqos yulfze vekide. xalian yayaCosTan Tqven cxovrobdiT zRaparSi. plise-plise kabaSi bavSvi CandiT jer kidev, is-is iyo SewyviteT TojinebiT TamaSi. izrdeboda es dardi, verafers gibedavdiT, gzas mosasvlels Tqvenamdi vspobdi TavgametebiT.

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mtkiced vdumdi pedanti da Soridan vxedavdi, rogor ifurCqnebodnen broweulis kertebi. da rodesac qalaqSi Caqreboda Suqebi, guls sanTelad vunTebdi da simxneves mmatebda, varskvlavebs vadarebdi, mnaTobebs vamuqebdi, sinatifes vuqebdi Cems salocav xatebas.

Tavis gasamarTleblad vcodvilobdi iqneb Sin? Tqven sul mcire siTbo da saTnoeba gmarTebdaT. xSirad iferflebodnen imedebi fiqrebSi, sigaretiT TiTebSi bevrjer SemomaTenda. usasrulo lodini, usasTumlo baliSi, minoruli klaviSi suls miforiaqebda da patara gogona edreboda qaliSvils, Tqma “masze fiqrs daviSli� advilia aqedan. aziduli warbebiT CaivlidiT quCas da asi guli erTbaSad awydeboda civ karcers, vgrZnobdi me Tqvens simkacres sazRvari ar uCanda da vicodi moswondiT ukve viRac-viRacebs. wlebma gairbines da mkerdi agikokordaT, ver miagneT oRondac princs, romelsac eZebdiT. netav vis gauRimebT, mSveniero jokonda anda romel ufliswuls aqvs saTqveno beWedi?

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sxvanairad anaTebs Tqveni mze da Cemi mze, ver gimzerT da arafers ar gabralebT srulebiT, saocari bindia axal gzajvaredinze, Cveni gzebic midian sul sxva mimarTulebiT. Canacruli ocneba, Caumcxrali vnebebi, beds mainc ar vnebdebi, mtkiva Zveli iara. mwkrivad mogogmaneben mwveli mogonebebi, me siyvaruls veZebdi, man gverdiT Camiara. iyo wuTic netari, is tkivilic miRirda, radgan guls rac miRrRnida, Svebac sdevda yovelTvis. sevda, rogorc neqtari, wveTavs sulis siRrmidan da striqonebs aTrTolebs gancda usaTnoesi.

werili ucnob qaliSvils gTxovT, momitevoT, arcki gicnobT da ramdens vbedav, magram Cems Rimils, quCaSi rom civad RebulobT... ise damtanja uZilobam da Tqvenze sevdam, roca SemxvdebiT, ra vqna, unda gisayveduroT.

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*** pianinoze ukravdnen TiTebi da me vrCebodi saxtad, utaqto musikas, ra vuyoT, viTmendi, _ TiTebis patroni lamazi gaxldaT.

gaxseneba dRes is sufraze moigones ise, zogadad.

Tqven TqviT, rom TvlidiT uaxloes, Zvirfas megobrad. mere ki Tvalze sinanulis cremli mogadgaT, CaaweT puri RvinoSi da brZaneT Sendoba. gadaiyola Rvinis smam da xalxis Worebma da mere aRmarTs Seuyenes lurji cxedari. ra ucnauri iyo mTeli misi cxovreba _ fiqri, ocneba, foriaqi mousvenari. gaqra, wavida, dagvtova da cas Seeria, morCa zRapari, iyo qveynad, ara iyo ra...

Cveulebrivi gogonasgan Seqmna feria da arafrisgan siyvaruli gamoigona. ver gaarRvia Tumca Tqveni mkerdis blokada, darCa udabnos RaRadisi anakvnesebi. is gikiTxavdaT, Tqven ki nervic ar gitokavdaT, usmendiT, magram ar gesmodaT misi leqsebis. guli gwydebaT, rom Tqvenze fiqrSi arvin aTenebs, dgas usanTlobiT mowyenili Zveli Sandali, carielia brolis vaza saqrizanTeme, 146

yria ujraSi striqonebi gaurandavi. araferia, Sexorcdeba Tqveni Wriloba, bedi gqoniaT, nuRara xarT ase mwuxared, radgan is ise iRimeba marmarilodan, ar SeiZleba miwisqveSac rom ar uyvardeT.

*** jer ar Camomdgara zamTari, isev Semodgomaa da wvims. ratom hgvanan es wveTebi, netav, cidan Camowyvetil brolis mZivs. jer ar Camomdgara zamTari, isev Semodgomaa da wvims. mTeli dRe quCa-quCa geZeb, an ra gamaCerebs Sin, davdivar eklian gzebze da Seni uguloba mwyins. jer ar Camomdgara zamTari, isev Semodgomaa da wvims. vatyob, Seni gulis baRSi, sul sxva alublebi mwifs, me adre davibade Senze, sul raRac oci wlis win. jer ar Camomdgara zamTari, isev Semodgomaa da wvims.

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Ramea, wvims... wvims da moCurCule wvimis wveTebs gulSi WuWrutanebs ver vuketav. xelebs baliSis qveS SevukeTeb, baliSs Senze sizmars SevukveTav... axla monatrebis amindia, SenTvis umizezod miuRebi, caze nislebi mec damidian magram arasodes viRrublebi. dars Tu elodebi Sen ukeTess, davivaldebuleb me ukve Tavs.

Rames Senze sizmars SevukeTeb da xval mzian aminds SevukveTav.

*** xandaxan eWviT davadebulebs sinanulic ver kurnavs. xSirad ver imkis, rac dauTesavs, vinac Rirsia risi. radgan eTeri abesalomze metad uyvarda murmans, RmerTma Seundos da miutevos farmacevtoba misi.

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*** roca raimes kargs vambob Senze, sakuTar Tavsac, gamodis, viqeb, radgan Sens sulSi me Cems suls veZeb da Sens fiqrebSi vamCnev Cems fiqrebs.

Tumc SeiZleba, virjebi fuWad, mainc arvisgan ar viTxov Svelas, Seni nabijiT mivyvebi quCas, Seni RimiliT vuRimi yvelas. gzaSi xeebi mxvdebian mwkrivad da roca gulSi eSveba mwuxri, me Seni yvela tkivili mtkiva da Tavs sakuTar cremlebsac vuxri. me vici cremlis gemo da yadri, Cven gavecaniT erTmaneTs adre, me mas margalits arasdros vadri, rames vadaro, an rogor vkadreb. de enTos SenTvis sul mze da sul mze, guli sagules mivides gulTan, zecas xom Seni TvalebiT vumzer, haersac Seni filtvebiT vsunTqav.

Cems sizmrebSiac Sens sizmrebs vxedav da itanjeba suli da xorci, xandaxan Cumad leqsebsac vbedav da furclebs Seni tuCebiT vkocni.

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mkiTxavi gvirila man cudi sizmari ixila wuxel da Sewuxda, wamxdari wamodga. saxlidan gavida da arvis umxelda ras swuxda, iseTi ra moxda. gatopa mindori Wreli da livliva, mere gauswora mzes Tvali da waiCurCula: madloba, gvirilav, vuyvarvar, vuyvarvar, RmerTmani!

*** biWi, romelic msxlis Ziras iwva, nakverCxlad iwva. visi saqmea, ratom an rogor, uyvarda gogo. ukve ramdeni Rame eTia, mowme RmerTia. xolo igi pasuxs ar hgvrida, radgan ar swamda. am biWs SeeZlo, Tvisi guli Seewva mwvadad da mierTmia, magram rad ginda _ gogo mxolod TvalebiT Wamda.

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*** Sen TuTasaviT tkbili xar da TuTasaviT saTuTi, me Sen gaCuqe saTiTe _ am siyvarulis sabuTi. saTiTes Ziri ar hqonda da mizezs arc Sen eZebdi.

Sens TiTs amSvenebs saTiTe, rogorc Zvirfasi beWedi.

sofelSi ayvavebul alublis tots veambore, badri mTvare kvlav maxsenebs Sens saxes, varskvlavebi usaTuod giamboben, ucnauri siyvarulis Sesaxeb. bayayebi batebiviT yiyineben, de, CamTvalos gazafxulma arifad, aprilia, magram mainc viyinebi, cota siTbo momaSvele, ariqa! niavqaro, iqneb hkiTxo im gogonas, aserigad gaaStera biWi rad. guls naRveli moswolia imodona... is rad aris udardeli WriWina?

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xelisgulze _ barvisagan beberebi. mjera, rom dro yvela tkivils gadaSlis, Sen magivrad alublis tots veferebi, gamowyobils sapatarZlo kabaSi. sadac aris mova dila meamboxe, mzem sxivebi mTebze ukve mofina, gaiRviZeb da mercxlebi giamboben, rom arc ise cudi biWi vyofilvar.

*** rom damSordi, damenane Zalian da sanam xels sxva gogonas movxvevdi, davrwmundi, rom dedamiwa mrgvalia, iare da isev CemTan moxvedi.

*** „aTas sisuleleze xurdavdeba meleqse“ v. javaxaZe maxsovs erTxel, sufraze, gamiRime malulad, Tavi moikekluce banalurad, qalurad.

Cemeburi principiT axdilad, ar farulad, mcire sisuleleebs vebrZvi maqsimalurad.

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sxvanairad anaTebs mindvrebs mze da velebs mze, aris sxvadasxva azri “neskafeze”, “peleze”, zogs maradona uyvars, zogi afrens peleze, zogi dardobs daviTis uxelebo xelebze.

Sen ki rom gamiRime banalurad, qalurad, ar icodi namdvilad, caze, zRvaze, xmeleTze mcire sisuleleebs rom vgmob maqsimalurad da mxolod Tanaxma var did sisuleleebze.

setyva movida, qva daxvda mTa ar midis muhamedTan, arc ra moxda iseTi, etyoba, rom mTas namdvilad aqvs raime mizezi. axla vnaxoT muhamedi _ arc SiSi aqvs, arc ridi _ mTa ar midis muhamedTan, muhamedic ar midis. eri, beri eCiCina, vah, yofilxar Sen vina? principi da sijiute vervin Seacvlevina.

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mere roca daiRala, saxlSi uqmad jdomiTa, mzad iyo, rom daelaSqra, cxra ra aris, oci mTa. da kvlav rCeba yvelaferi amouxsnel rebusad, muhamedi midis, magram _ midis SeyvarebulTan.

*** guli uceb gamefurCqna, suli uceb micxonda, baridan rom cisferTvala, gogo gamosicocxlda. imdagvarad miRimoda, viTom adrec micnobda, Cemi ra vTqva, man Tavisi fasi kargad icoda. kidev kargi, ufulobam amarida did codvas, miyurebda, TvaliT mWamda, TiTqos Jins ver icxrobda. usaxsrobas ra vuTxari, Torem mama micxonda!

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*** eg zRapari, Cemo kargo, mouyevi patarebs, metsac getyvi, vici, Seni sizmrebic da miznebic. uars ambob, magram, aba, karts ras gamoapareb, _ mimkiTxaves, ase miTxres, rom Sen Cemze giJdebi. ar idardo, SemiZlia saidumlos Senaxva, nu ahyvebi, iybedeben Woriani enebi. damijere, mag yofaSi gana marto Sena xar, uares dReSi arian Turme danarCenebi.

Tavidan mec eWvi mqonda _ gana marTla vina var, erTi biWis siyvaruls rom saqaleTi atarebs.

Senc rom gkiTxo, ase metyvi, viTom sul ar giyvarvar. vTqvaT, me vcdebi, magram, aba, karts ras gamoapareb? sulac ar msurs liandagze daalagon Tavebi, eZebon sasaxrCobele toti, Toki, masala, Seawuxon Cems gulisTvis wminda salocavebi, mowydnen sali kldeebidan, Sesvan Sxami, samsala. me iqneba suleli var, SeSlili var, giJi var da ocneba abebiviT mamSvidebs da mawynarebs.

TiTqos sulac ar giyvarde, Tavi ise giWiravs, magram, aba, dalocvilo, karts ras gamoapareb?

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don-giJ-Juanoba isev daberes zamTris qarebma, male fifqebi fiqrebs amiSlis da momanatrebs TaflisTvaleba, qera, mzisferTmebgaSlil qaliSvils. gazafxuls erTi gogo miyvarda mwvaneTvaleba, xaliT loyaze. mere maisic roca miwynarda, ukve vgrZnobdi rom sxvaze mSokavs mze. cisferTvalebam Tvalis faxuliT mixmo da uceb amacerceta, gadamiyola mTeli zafxuli vnebianma da welwvrilwerwetam.

Semodgomisas misi xseneba ar iyo, arc me viyav zarmaci, radgan ZilSiac ar masvenebda gogo, SavTvalwarbwamwamwarmtaci. ukve daberes zamTris qarebma da me es jmuxi rogor damiSlis, kvlavac rom Sevxvde TaflisTvaleba, qera, mzisferTmebgaSlil qaliSvils.

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*** albaT mamakacTa Tu iyo gamocda, (mdedrs fasi daedo Calis), rodesac erT diliT qalaqSi gamoCnda saocrad lamazi qali. danaxva erTia da yvelas gulebi dawva ucnaurma alma, Camoiseirna sruliad unebliv varskvlavs mowyvetilma qalma.

Savi dalalebi brolis mkerds umSvenebs, taniT edareba alvas, netavi saerTod gareT rad uSveben qals egre saSiSad lamazs?! modis, moabijebs igi saocreba da ar erideba arvis, vin mixvdes mis fiqrebs anda mis ocnebebs, mzesaviT lamazi qalis?! ymawvilic, moxucic vnebebs ahyolia da yvelas ubrwyinavs Tvali – kataraqtiansac da glaukomians – saSinlad lamazi qaliT.

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axla vin daiwyebs arSiys an ancobas, Tumc survils veravin malavs, vin miva, vin hkadrebs quCaSi gacnobas angelozs, movlenils qalad?! unda kakaliviT vtexo Rameebi, caze varskvlavebi vTvalo, jokondasaviT Cumad geRimeba Cvenze, idumalo qalo.

piknikze saqeifod mwvaneze wavideTo, avxirdiT. avxirdiT da wavediT, ra Tqma unda, imav dRes. ucabedad, avbedad Seicvala amindi.

Sen Tqvi: “nu geSiniaT, mze pirs unda ibandes�. mere gamoidara, cam moixsna pirbade, tyeSi sufra gavSaleT da Tamada Tamadobs. sxvis gverdiT rom aRmoCndi, es ucnaur Jins badebs da hgavs guli Sen mier gadaCiCqnil sabados. hoda, minda Rrubeli kvlav Camowves kabadons, Trobas da uSenobas ver gavuZleb me amdens. is ki, geJRurtuleba TvalJuJuna qalbatons, SeTver da uneburad Tavi mxarze miade.

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minda grZnoba Sendami ar daminagviandes, imdagvarad WikWikeb SeSurdeba iadons, modi, gverdze damijeq, Sens varskvlavze miambe, mec patara, ucnaur Cems mnaTobze giambob.

Sens xelebze mis mier veRar vitan me ambors da mkortnian dardebi, rogorc Savi orbebi, Cemi nasaTuTebi qars ocneba miaqvs Sors, vdgebi gulnatkeni da yvelas vemSvidobebi.

diliT paemanze (ra SuaSia)

wvimda, mere uceb gamoidara, svel balaxze gamobrwyinda lokokina, zurgze edo moxatuli niJara, dilis namiT piri Caikoklozina... gelodebi... agvianeb... giJad var.

pasiansis gaSla samkiTxaod nu gamiSli karts, nu ikiTxav Cemi satrfos saxels, Sen iseTi momxiblavi xar, rom me Cemi mokrZalebac mamxels.

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mekiTxebi: Tu vuyvarvar mas? me gpasuxob: mkiTxaoba kmara!

Sen ki mainc miSli pasianss. asruldeba? ra Tqma unda, ara!

Sematyve, rom ar gitexav xaTrs, brazdebi da urwmunobas mwameb, ai, kartSi gamimarTla, vTqvaT, gana amiT Seicvleba rame? cxel mkerds vuSver wvimasa da qars, vsvam Rvinos da kvlav vewevi TuTuns, Sen iseTi gulubryvilo xar, veraferi ver Sematyve nuTu? karts urev da ferze awyob fers, eSmakob da memuqrebi TiTiT, Tu dResac ver mixvdi verafers, veRarasdros gamoicnob, ici?! asruldeba, daujere karts, miTxari da gamiRime mSvidad.

Sen iseTi kargi gogo xar, rom Sen garda sxva aravin minda.

* * * avarcxnili aqvs alvas totebi, miwaze dasTrevs tirifs wkirebi, zogs uyvars sruli qalbatonebi, zogs juja, zogsac awowilebi.

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zogs mruSni, zogsac patiosnebi, ram gamolios maTi fanebi, me momwons Txeli mandilosnebi, peplis frTebiviT sifrifanebi. nu gagviwyrebi, modi, SevrigdeT, masze, rom Tvali xSirad gagveqca da es codvebi, RmerTo, Segvinde ucoloebs da colianebsac.

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zRvanairi leqsebi

naTloba aikrifa sxivebi oqrosferma mnaTobma da narnarad gafina mRelvar talRebze, dRis dasasruls tardeba uCveulo naTloba, mirons icxebs aqamde mosanaTli mze. ca RoRnoSosferia, dakemsili Rrubeli niavs dauxatia – norCi mxatvris funjs, rogorc gaugonari mura daTvis yru beli, xan sad mibobRdeba da xan sad Cayofs drunCs. cisartyela – naTlia SvidWreli da mSvidferi, siyvaruliT evleba Tavis naTluls Tavs, mze ayirmizebuli moferebas iferebs, mTvare mohgavs talRebSi moqanave navs. ca ver itevs varskvlavebs _ mTvaris lamaz asulebs, elvarebiT sanTlebs rom ar udeben tols, naTlobis wess JuJuna Tbili wvima asrulebs da miwaze sakmevlis surnelebas tovs.

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horizonti silurjes isev udgas Tavdebad, mze miayuryumelavebs cecxlmodebul raSs, zRvis veeba scenaze warmodgena mTavrdeba da talRebi ukraven sal kldeebze taSs.

plaJze roca agvisto ZalaSi Seva da xalxs CrdilSiac xvati abodebs, ros leRvis foTols gaiZrobs eva da mas cxel plaJze qvis qveS amodebs, Sens gulze uceb iWeqebs elva, magram grZnob, coli mzeras gayolebs. iReb sigarets, elav da Relav da, viTom ise, mSvidad aboleb.

*** zRvam ferebi Sens TvalebSi gaiswora, macodina, netavi, ra uflebiT? aRarc axsovs aRelveba daiwyo rad, daiviwya moRuSuli Rrublebi. xedav, wvimam, rogorc iqna, gadaiRo? cisartyela gabrwyindeba, albaT, dRes. 163

erT rames gTxov, xalxis codo ar daido, kenWs nu esvri, zRva isev ar gabrazdes.

TeTri qafi aiwona-daiwona, ca gaixsna Toliebis TanxlebiT, zRvam ferebi Sens TvalebSi gaiswora, damSvidda da gailurja talRebi.

saaTiani gogona plaJze rom viweqi, davinaxe gogona, marTlacda, saocreba, sxeuli qviSaSi davimarxe da kvlav rom vsunTqavdi, maocebda. momiaxlovda da SevamCnie, rogor uwiTlebda xelebs sicxe, mere ki momenti SevarCie _ saaTi ar gaqvTo? _ SevekiTxe. maqvso, man mokled mipasuxa da Semdeg zurgisken Setrialda, TiTqos Cemma kiTxvam Seawuxa, TiTqos daejaxa Slegi talRa. Tavo, ra jandaba dagmarTnia, nuTu sxvanairad ver etyodi?

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_ gogonav, romeli saaTia? _ romelia da eleqtronis. musikis xmauri gvayruebda, Soridan moCanda ialqani, sivrces kvlav uazrod gahyurebda cisferi Tvalebis iagani. _ dros ver metyviT-meTqi? _ mivaCerdi gogos, lamazsa da qvagulians.

TiTqos ver gaigo iman Cemi, ise mipasuxa _ zafxulia. xalxi meubneba zustad saaTs, me kvlav im qaliSvils vekiTxebi, iq viRac, Cem gverdiT, cudadaa pasuxebiTa da SekiTxvebiT. mec gadamria da gamaxela, surs yvelas nervebi auSalos, saaTze mainc ar damaxeda, ise mipasuxa: ar muSaobs! guli momikla da gamiciva misma gulgrilobam monazvnurma, mere, ucabedad gamicina da am qveynisaken momabruna.

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mze uceb gamzevda, gamzemaRlda, caze Toliebis SekrTa gundi da roca daiwyo tanze gaxda, zRvaSi selapiviT Sevdgafundi.

*** aTasi Tvali ukan gahyva qalwuls eSxians, napirs lokavdnen gaSmagebiT brolis Sxefebi, mas ki surda, rom talRa mkerdze gadaemsxvria da midioda zRvisken TeTri nukris fexebiT. zurgs umSvenebda oqrosferi Tmebi Sekruli, mis Tlil malebze ielvebda TiTqos male mze da RvTaebrivi silamaziT iyo Semkuli tani, mkerdi Tu fosoebi muxlisTavebze. ver itokebda aserigad qarSic lerwami, SeSurdeboda am qalwulis tanis mimoxvra, ar eyo Zala zRvas vnebebis dasalewavi da kvlav xmauriT svel kenWebze amoioxra. fexiT mosinja, wyali civi iyo namdvilad, cisfer TvalebSi saocari Suqi aenTo, jiqur SeiWra, gadeyara raTa dardi da... da zRva xalxisTvis zRva lamazi taniT gaeTbo. mere ki napirs karga manZils ganacilebma, Sekruli Tmebi gaiSala wyalSi RimiliT, 166

uecrad talRa daabrmava oqros sxivebma da mzis amosvlas hgavda misi Tmebis livlivi. maSvel razmidan Txoulobda xalxi binoklebs, Cia kacebic veRar isxdnen mSvidad colebTan, is brundeboda xalxiT savse sanapirosken da lurj talRebSi TeTr TeZoebs moaZovebda.

*** mzian dilas uflis madli urevia, zRva napirze gvegebeba taSiT. sulSi Seni mkrTli nafexurebia, xsovnaSi rom veraferi waSlis. zRva mSvidia, peizaJi ucvlelia, Tvals vera gwyvet bedniers, Tan daRvremils, talRebs TiTqos Seni Tmebis surneli aqvs Tu Sens Tmas aqvs surneleba talRebis. rad gipove udrood da ase gvian, es Sexvedrac, netavi, ras niSnavs? wyalni wavlen, qviSani ki darCebian, vin gaugebs an wyalsa an qviSas... am mzian dRes cota sevdac urevia, viT poetis cota cremli melanSi. sulSi Seni nazi nafexurebia, xsovnaSi rom veraferi ver waSlis.

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wyaldidoba

wvimda, wvimaSi ar itexda mTvare ixtibars da Rrublis ZonZebs miarRvevda ganrisxebuli, zangis qaliviT nebivrobda Rame zRvis piras da iyo miwac Tbili, rogorc qalis sxeuli. wvimis mklavebSi SemkrTali da ganayuCebi idga qalaqi da cdunebas veRar uZlebda, zRva CurCulebda sicxiani kacis tuCebiT, ar Cerdeboda, CurCulebda da CurCulebda. haerSi idga daSaqruli nesvis surneli, aRmosavleTis amovarda qari cercerta, damfrTxal yvaviviT Sors gafrinda Savi Rrubeli da mTvral kaciviT zRva qalaqSi Semoexeta. zRvam erTmaneTSi auria RorRi, nalafi, talRebs ar darCaT unaxavi erTi quCac da motyuebuli qalwuliviT idga qalaqi da Tavxedobas zRvisas bolo aRar uCanda.

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ferTa cvaleba gaqvs raRaca ucnauri qarizma, talRam qvebze wahyo TeTri TaTi, xan mwvanea, xan lurjia Savi zRva, Wreli, rogorc Seni xasiaTi. arcki vici, damemarTa Tu rodis, sulSi raRac ucnaurad dacxa, saocarma Zalam mizidulobis Sens jadosnur Tvalebs Semanarcxa. da ar vici, bedi saiT gamriyavs, Sen ras fiqrob Cemze, arc eg vici. veWvianob, Cemze metad zRva giyvars, Ramdeba da mTeli dRea gicdi. vagvianeb, abjari rom avisxa da Sleg talRebs avutexo omi. xan lurjia, xan mwvanea Savi zRva, damarcxeba minda, netav, romlis? gelodebi, cda ar aris advili da ros gawyda moTminebis Zafi, mecxre talRam, samSvidobo mandili, momawoda Tavis TeTri qafi. davmSviddi da tkivilebic damicxra, horizontze gakrTa aTinaTi.

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xan mwvanea, xan lurjia Savi zRva, Wreli, rogorc Seni xasiaTi.

*** wevs qalRmerTi zRvaze Tumc ar icis „mis“ aris Tu „misis“. miiswrafvis misken qafiani talRa, wevs qmnileba zRvaze, arc ra viciT masze gogoa Tu qali. samxreTisam mas mzem, ra Tqma unda, cali gauwiTla loya, gagvaoca roca dadga talRis jeri. sulmTlad gamoloka is Sedevri Sokoladisferi.

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saubari gulTan saubari gulTan

me: wlebi gadis da xdebi gulgrili, adrec mindoda, gulo, meTqva me, Tuki Sewyvite wva da duRili, raRa azri aqvs mkerdSi feTqavde? guli: Sens xelSi kidev kargad vmuSaob – Tambaqos bolSi, RviniT TrobaSi… pirdapir miTxar, tyuila nu mSarob, kerZod, Sen ra gaqvs mxedvelobaSi? me: rad gemduri da getyvi – imada, davafiqsire dResac is faqti, lamazma qalma gamiRima da ar migiRia mikroinfarqti! guli: maS, Sevecdebi faqti ganvmarto: qva ggonivar da me ki guli var.

Sen ara, Sens cols ara vRalatob, me Senze xeli Caqneuli maqvs.

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Ramis frenologika (anu meore saubari gulTan) “me mainc unda avfrinde...� m. focxiSvili

pawawkintela aris samyaro, ufro patara _ Cveni orbita. es hipoteza rom gavamarTlo, maqvs sakuTari frenologika. ocnebebiT rom laJvardebs ipyrob, mogridebia, netav, gulo, ris?

Tu afrenaa, afrena iyos, nu geSinia dedamiwis mizidulobis.

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baladebi

wvimiani balada mkrTali, nacrisferi Rame, cidan moCurCule wvima, xis qveS Sefarebul damebs isev gauRima iman. sveli, mawanwala ZaRli, gareT gagdebuli kata, zeca moRuSuli saxiT gzaze muq gubeebs xatavs.

Cumad mosisine “volga�, ukan gayolili Tvali, wvimiT bednieri qolga, qolgiT moseirne qali. tokavs sawvimari TeTri, tanze Semortymuli qamriT, modis ucnauri mdedri, ager _ ucnauri mamric. wvima tanis ovals urkvevs, qali namdvilad Rirs imad 173

da, ha, meramdened ukve Tvali kvlav Caukra iman. mainc Tbili aris Rame, mdedric ar emduris wvimebs, oRond moewonoT rame, oRond moewonoT vinmes. _ saaTs xom ver metyviT zustad? _ vwuxvar, Sig Casula wyali, wesiT aTi iyos unda, _ aTi, _ iRimeba qali. ra ucnauria Rame, ras ar mogandomebT wvima, Tu gaqvT mosawevi rame? _ diax, ra Tqma unda, “prima”.

TiTebs nerviulad imtvrevs, Tvali gadaavlo mwyrali, _ “primiT” gaviWvartlav filtvebs? _ uceb moiRrubla qali. _ o, es gaaCnia mwevels, romels airCevdiT TviTon “mores”, “malrboros” Tu “qemels”, “pel-mels”, “parlaments” Tu “vinstons”?

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ager, or nabijze, kafe TviTon airCie, hoda, cotac davlioT da gavTbeT, _ cota? SeiZleba cota. kafe. magidebi TeTri. kuTxeSi boTli udgas cxra loTs. _ miboZeT koniaki erTi, diax, “varkeTili”, gmadlobT! mgzavrebs gaumarjos gareT am maRalyeliani WiqiT, es _ Cven gagvimarjos aqeT, es _ maT gaumarjoT iqiT. Rame wvimiani, Talxi sityvebs ver aitans litons, radgan varT keTili xalxi, “varkeTils” mivirTmevT mitom. modi, vadRegrZeloT wvima, es ris surneleba agdiT? _ albaT, gagigiaT “klima”, sunamo franguli, naRdi? isev moitanes yava, qali xels finjanze iTbobs, _ ukve gviania, waval... _ modi, dagvelia TiToc. _ aRar SemiZlia meti, ukeTesad vsvamdi uwin, 175

iwvis saferfleSi “kenti�, kenti boTli gaxda luwi. _ aba, sad wavide awi, RamiT da aseTi mTvrali? ikisreb? _ kiTxulobs kaci, vikisreb! _ kiskisebs qali. oRond ar gamigo cudad, rom ar avagoroT Wori, kibeebs avivliT Cumad, Sen ukan momyevi SoriT. kaba, bavSvisaviT mini, mkerdi, saswaulad maqsi, ori areuli tvini, gzaze momlodine taqsi. saxlSi Seiparnen, hoda, farda gaufares wvimas da rac amis Semdeg moxda, nuRar momayolebT imas.

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sasiZo qitesa _ amboben, cols Txoulobdi, gamopranWulxar im dResa, uari raze gakadres, ras giwunebdnen iseTsa? _ uari TviTon vuTxari RvTis madli ar gamiwyresa, qalic TinaTin ara hyavT, arc ayoleben mziTevsa. _ Sen mziTevisTvis mixvedi, Tu qalisaTvis, qitesa? sul sxva raime gabrazebs, gulze javrs gatyob iseTsa. an sufra ar gagiSales, mohyvnen raime mizezsa, an arayi ar mogarTves, yeli ar Cagiwmindesa.

Tu is TinaTin ar aris manaTobeli mTvarisa, arc Sen ara xar avTandil, Ze amirspasalarisa. _ kargi da TviTon gansaje, me aras veZeb mizezsa, Sehyares naTesavebi, hgavdnen suyvela giJebsa.

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sacole vnaxe, vifiqre, aq guli ar gamiskdesa, netav, mas, vinc dauZaxebs, mis mSoblebs simamr-sidedrsa! viTomcda, sufra gaSales, Tavebi gamoidesa, rac imaT sufraze hqondaT, samxarze SevWam imdensa. patara Wiqa me momces, Tavad daxarbdnen didebsa, TviTon bolomde ivsebdnen me ki misxamdnen mciredsa. nerwyvs vayolebdi or imdens, im cicqnas gadamkidesa, iqneb rogorme arayi yels iqiT gadavidesa. qvabidan nel-nela hyridnen, kapikisxela xinklebsa, Tan uyurebdnen, qafqiris nasvretSi ar gaZvrindesa. xeliT xom Zlivas viRebdi, ver vaxvedrebdi kbilebsa, Tvals vadevnebdi sacolis Tavze moxtunav tilebsa.

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wamovel mSier-mwyurvali, gzaSi vikvnetdi frCxilebsa, pantas da Jolos veZebdi, xeebs vaclidi kvirtebsa. mzeTunaxavis im saxlsa rad ar hkideben klitesa? hai, mogikvdeT qali da hai, mogikvdeT qitesa! sulac ucolo davrCebi, vidre Tvals amovikemsav, Cemze arc mtersa vaxareb, arc vaxarxareb biWebsa.

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miZRvnebi

vaJa dadianiZis xsovnas aris sikeTe TavisTavad madlis mTesavi, datovebuli igi qvazec bevrjer gvinaxavs, xSirad Cven gverdiT imyofeba kaci mzesaviT, gvaTbobs, gvanaTebs, Sexedav da ver dainaxav.

Tvals ver usworeb, is kaSkaSebs, rogorc mnaTobi, guliT ki xvdebi, rom im kacSi didi ganZi devs. vikrifebodiT meleqseni oTxSabaTobiT da vukiTxavdiT leqsebs vaJa dadianiZes. gvetyoda xolme, poezia rom kvlav Sors aris, sityva CuqurTmad rom aqcio Zalze Znelia, unda Zerwo da aqandako, quxda moZRvari, jer Tqven saWurWle Tixac ki ar mogizeliaT. verc poetebad ver iqceviT da verc mwerlebad, mkiTxvelebad Tu mainc darCiT egec kargia, gvakritikebda, ar gvindobda, gvacamtverebda, xSirad striqoni strofianad gaurandia. gvwamda, gviyvarda, kritikasac mSvidad viTmendiT, misi yoveli frazisa da sityvis gvjeroda, 180

Tambaqosagan qarvisferi hqonda TiTebi da mtredis RuRuns waagavda misi msjeloba.

Semdeg oTxSabaTs dagvitovda mxolod imedad, alali iyo, gulis karebs yvelas uRebda. ganxilvis Semdeg Cvevad hqonda - gagviRimebda da saTiTaod finjan yavas mogviduRebda.

Cven is gviyvarda da mis xsovnas wlebi ver waSlis, gardacvaleba aq miwaze axdens disonanss, Torem is axla imyofeba maRla, zecaSi, RmerTma acxonos, SeuerTda maradisobas.

jemal injias quCebSi mSvidad daabijebs WaRara kaci, amSvenebs qalaqs daZvelebuls da ferebmixdils. sxvisi arvisi, mas aqvs vali am miwis, am cis da, ra Tqma unda, yovelives kacurad ixdis. aq daibada, aq aanTo leqsi, viT kvari. maRalma RmerTma aq dabertya sikeTis kalTa, sad gorijvarma or mdinares daswera jvari, sadac liaxvi - patarZali - uRldeba mtkvarTan. gaWirvebaSic ar gaudgams nabiji mrudi, 181

alRos uRebda namdvilsa da SeTiTxnil miTebs. ar mouxdia cxovrebisTvis namusis qudi da goris cixis qongurebze lesavda riTmebs...

vano CxikvaZes (kiTxvaze sad dadixar? misive leqsis “dekemberi, dekemberis” motivze)

rogor giTxra, sad davdivar? xan Crdili var, xan landi var. yvelgana var, aqaca da iqac, arc ras veZeb, arc ra minda da gavuZleb sadamdisac, RviniT xelSi meWireba Wiqa.

WknobaSia dRes mSveneba, arc raime eSveleba verxvis totze mocaxcaxe foTols, gulSi sevda ver aRvkveTe, veRarafers ver vakeTeb, gamovdivar saxlidan da vloTob. aseTi maqvs me buneba, Zveli sibrZnec gveubneba, iq verafers ver waiReb Tano, 182

sanam ufro moRamdeba da guls sevda moRavdeba, wamo, TiTo Wiqa SevsvaT, vano.

megobar poets (mamuka koberiZes)

ganwyobileba amindebma ariv-daria, Tvals mudarians davadevneb damdnar kelaptrebs, amudarias, sirdarias da Cven darials awvims da aTovs yvelasa da, albaT, yvelafers.

Znelia axla, Zmao, riTmebs rom fxa uleso, ipovo zRvaSi gafantuli margalitebi, me isic vici, rom Zalian gviWirs uleqsod, magram, ras izam, gaZaleben Rvinos biWebi.

Sen Seni sityvis, Seni cremlis iyav Tamada, lamazi qalis RimiliT nu moixiblebi. me var Tavdebi da vTavdebi xedav TandaTan, wavida qali da datova Wreli niRbebi. ra dagvrCenia, daviTrobiT, albaT, am dResac, iyo fxizeli am amindSi Sesazaria, 183

Rvinis WiqebSi lalisferi Relavs “adesa� da nacnob quCas esmis isev Zveli aria... ave maria! dardebi gulSi amindebma ariv-daria, Tvals mudarians davadevneb damdnar kelaptrebs, amudarias, sirdarias da Cven darials awvims da aTovs yvelasa da, albaT, yvelafers.

nunu oTaraSvils ucxo planetaze, Cven rom gvanetarebs, RmerTi am patara edemiT, xSirad cdebian da sazRvrebs scdebian da SoriT mifrinaven gedebi. zogi dabrundeba, zogic gabruvdeba, da ucxo mxareSi darCeba. misia misia, neba Tavisia, me vin mekiTxeba garCevas. gabednierdebi, gabelgieldebi, ho, es ra Tqma unda, gexumre, iq Tu mwuxarea, Tovlic uxariaT aq mSier, gayinul beRurebs. mova cota gvian cremliT nostalgia, vici, damijere, nunuka, rogorc RmerTs obolze, Sen Sens samSobloze 184

Tvali geWireba sul ukan. tkivili ver rCeba, Znelia SeCveva, ucxo qveyanaSi vin dacxra? dagtanjavs siSore, dards ver moiSoreb, sasaxle agigon, gindac, cxra. ucxo planetaze, Cven rom gvanetarebs RmerTi am patara edemiT, xSirad cdebian da sazRvrebs scdebian da SoriT mifrinaven gedebi.

nodar mdinaraZes Seni farTxala leqsebidan gamomdinare, rogorc mdinares miuyveba aRma kalmaxi, ise micurav _ xan mSviddebi, xanac mZvinvareb, dambaCasaviT eSxian qals leqsebs daaxli. rom weliwadSi erTxel aris dabadebis dRe da yuradRebis erTxel xdebi mxolod samizne, amaze wuxan, ra Tqma unda, damduRrebulni niangi gena, CeburaSka da mdinariZe. Semoqmedebis mraval dargSi gqonda mcdeloba, magram ufalma leqsis wera albaT girCia. erTi poetic Seemata qarTul mwerlobas da dRes wignaki Cagaxuta jemal injiam. kacur kacobis Caabare radgan gamocda, meimedebi, miyvarxar da Cemad megulvi.

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Zmao, gilocav am lamazi wignis gamosvlas, Sen dRevandel dRes samjera xar dabadebuli. poeziaSi SenTvis farTod kari gaiRo, bavSvuri guliT gixaria locva berikacs, mzad xar qalisTvis sakuTari nekni gaiRo, mTaSi Calewil neknebze rom araferi vTqvaT.

vaJa oTaraSvils iwvi mTeli cxovreba da koconic gizgizebs, gaqvs imedi xvalis, rom dRe gamova mziani da Tu mag SemarTebas CagiTvlian sigiJed, urwmunoebs aCvene guli nakverCxliani. dRes, am aurzaurSi simSvides ver ipovi, wynari navsayudeli siberis Jams ki ginda, gisosebs ki awydeba sicxiani striqoni, radgan saqarTveloze leqsi agitkivilda. sul qarcecxlSi givlia da dRes raRa gamogcvlis, miznad mudam samSoblos gabrwyinebas isaxav, bavSviviT miamiti gaxdi ukve samocis, magram Tu dafiqrdebi, mxolod samocisa xar. mecixovned undixar beber cixes _ sxvilosa, amilaxvris maxviliT mtrebSi unda SegviZRve, 186

Cemo Zmao, vaJao, saqarTvelo gilocavs, qriste jvridan Camodis Seni dabadebis dRes.

kanfetas arsad ar gelian da mainc yvelgan iCqari, TiTqosda Sen gareSe iq verafriT gaZleben. ginda, amouxsneli ar datovo sizmaric, mere honorariviT Wiqa Rvinos gaZleven.

Sen ver hguob publikas, moRuSuls da mosawyens, sadac gauTaveblad RvarZliani xma ismis, Tumca ar gigzavnian maspinZlebi mosawvevs, maTTan mainc midixar Sesatanad xalisis. dro arasdros ar gyofnis, anda rogor geyofa, roca ganfenilia qveynad Seni sufeva? aravin ar gaZalebs im adgilze Sen yofnas, magram iq rom ar iyo Tavs ar aZlev uflebas. mudam moucleli xar, mudam gagviandeba, alionze gadixar, Sin brundebi ukuneTs, dila gvian Tendeba, dRe ki male Ramdeba, verafers ver vaswrebo, naRvliani wuwuneb. sakeTebels ra dalevs, dro ki garbis muxTali, ugitarod ukrav da Tan mRerixar nervebze, 187

lxinis maspinZelic xar, glovis Wirisufalic, planetaze vinc dadis, yvela gainteresebs. aravisi ara gSurs, arc aravis edrebi, daabijeb quCaSi mxrebze pijakmosxmuli, SenTvis an sad gecala, ucolSvilod berdebi, de gagkilos mavanma, darCao martosuli. saqme yvelasTana gaqvs, eria Tu beria, prezidents ar eqneba saqme ase ulevi, rac Sen xelisgulebze ustarebi gweria, albaT ver daitevdnen didi tomeulebic. xan naxulob avadmyofs, xan naxulob patimrebs, Senma bedma sxvisi gza albaT TviTon arCia, Tvalebze danaxuli sxvisi cremli gatirebs, TiTqosda sakuTari dardi ar gagaCnia. cxovrob upretenziod, sadad da gaWirvebiT, arafers ar akldebi da suyvelgan dadixar. radgan ase ggonia, rom qveyanas sWirdebi, RmerTma Sen gagimarjos, gulmarTali kaci xar.

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miSiko koSkaZes ra agizgizebs ese em buxars, guli rom hqvia Turme saxelad, erTxel Tu mainc dafiqrebulxar, xom moiyare, biWo, amxela?! xSirad Tvrebao, ambobs mavani, visac ra unda imas roSavdes, qveynad bevria ampartavani, maTTan ara dgas miSka koSkaZe. ici yvelafris gulTan mitana, xom ara eWvobs coli SemTxveviT, sayvarelsa hgavs Seni gitara, exutebi da ise exvevi. am niWisaTvis gmadlob, ufalo, am biWisaTvis _ Cems gors madloba, xan amayi xar da xan ubralo, dardic ici da dardimandobac. iReb gitaras da yels iRereb, me ki kvlav veZeb iseT moments, rom, Cemo miSiko, sanam imRereb, iqneba, TiTo Wiqac mogveswro.

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naxevrad xumrobiT

pensiis molodinSi rigi grZeli iyo, viTarca amazoni, bolos gauwyda moTminebis Zafi da nervebawewili moxuci meezove cocxze gadajda da gafrinda.

“madliani kaci” madli hqna da qvaze dado, dafiqrda da wuTiT dadardianda, miixeda, madli isev qvaze ido, aiRo da Tan waiRo qvianad.

*** muSaobam viri mokla, virze dardma patroni, gulma uceb “stuki” uyo, Sxaps iRebda atmoriT. fuliani, magram Zunwi, kaci iyo qitesa, 190

orive gadarCeboda virs rom waesnikersa.

*** davinaxe, Semecoda, avlabarSi duqanTan mikitani bolTas scemda, bolTa aRar sunTqavda.

validolis reklama gazafxuli uecrad ise SemofTxrialda, axla mamakacebi unda viyoT frTxilad da, sadac wavalT, yovelTvis vatarebdeT validols, rom gulgrilni davrCeT da Tvali rom avaridoT qalbatonTa gamomwvev Semoxedvas da kidev, mini dekoltirebul sakinZeSi rac ki devs. gogonebma sagrZnoblad daimokles kabebi da klebulobs jibeSi validolis abebi.

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jandacvis saministro gafrTxilebT mowevas Tavi daanebo, Zalze Znelia, magram sicocxles amjobineb nuTu sigarets? nikotini rom yovelgvarad mavnebelia, dameTanxmebi Senc amaze, albaT, jigaro. vin eweoda -_ papaSeni, biZa, bicola, iqneba fuli imdeni gaqvs Tavze gadagdis? de, ase iyos, megobaro, magram icode, filtvebis kibo migacilebs kubos karamdis. tonussa swevso dagimowmebs, albaT, cru mowme. saRad dafiqrdi, moikribe mTeli goneba, Tu Zlier ginda, SeiZine, magram nu mowev, ar gesvris fiStos arc “elizi” da arc “omega”. netavi ra msjis gawyenino, avtyde, avxirde, de, rogorc gsurdes, ise Sale Seni nabadi, rac mTavaria, gagifrTxildi da gagafrTxile, axla wasulxar kisristexiT gind jandabamdis!

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