Fidel Melissa Forde Kelley :: HE :: SELF-CARE LOVES ME, IS HEAN LOVES INSIDE MEJOB NOT
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y son healed me. I decided that the year my wife was stationed overseas would be the year “I would get to dad,” and redefine what it means to father... not only for my kids, but for me. But I was several months in and I was having a terrible, horrible, very bad day. The thoughts were overwhelming; I was feeling defeated and depleted. I felt like life was on hold. You know, the type of day when you are behind on everything — goals, purpose, business, and the laundry — and you’re out of patience. I was having a terrible, horrible, very bad day. It’s the day when you are aware you are being a jerk and you just don’t care anymore. On that day, I didn’t feel like a good father. I had been doing great and was really proud of the way I had been showing up, but this day in particular was not the same — it was harder for some reason. I went to
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