The Candy Zine Issue Twelve: October and November

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ISSUE TWELVE OCTOBER/NOVEMBER

CONTRIBUTORS Allison Tovey founder and editor

Tay Sanders Galena Marie Sara Tonning Scarlett Ward Hannah Siegfried Tom Weller and Sullen Girl Natalie Claro Zoila Molina Mallory Henman Kaitlyn Tiffany Anne Brown Elsa Burgos Issy Medworth Alexandria Dravillas Kawika Joseph Jessica Nauta Jade Rosales

TABLE OF CONTENTS Tay Sanders Elsa Burgos-­ Drive, Drive, Drive Galena Marie-­ Dreamer Sara Tonning Scarlett Ward Hannah Siegfried-­ Fall Picnic Tom Weller-­ Sullen Girl AW ’16 “ID” An Interview With Natalie Claro Zoila Molina Elsa Burgos-­ Can’t be that.

Mallory Henman-­ Make Room Kaitlyn Tiffany-­ American Pie Anne Brown Elsa Burgos-­ Coral Sand Motel Scarlett Ward Kaitlyn Tiffany-­ Remedy / Autumn Breeze Issy Medworth Elsa Burgos-­ Wake Up Alexandria Dravillas-­ 83 October Kawika Joseph-­ Memories Jessica Nauta-­ November: A Short Poetry Collection Jade Rosales

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Tay Sanders

Drive, Drive, Drive Elsa Burgos Light up the cigarette get into the car and drive, drive take me with you we’ll see where we’ll end up you know more about me than any other boy with only a few words crossed because you see right through because you’re transparent like a drop of water and we’re not saints, we make mistakes and how beautiful is that? we’re imperfect, we’re allowed to make mistakes we’re allowed to do whatever we want we’re allowed to be whoever we want.

Galena Marie

a dreamer dreaming dreams, she walks among us and yet she is above her story is one told only to those who listen – to those who press their ear against the velvet bark of the magnolia tree during the golden hour of spring only then will you hear her laughter, her cries and her silence a dreamer dreaming dreams listen, or you will miss her entirely.

Sara Tonning

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Fall Picnic

Hannah Siegfried

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Sullen Girl UK is a clothing line started by 19 year old Tom Weller.

Launched in April of last year, ID is Sullen Girl’s second collection for Autumn and Winter which explores ideas about education, identity and stereotypes.

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shop here http://shop.sullengirl.uk

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'SG' Sport Shorts ÂŁ33.00

'Dropout' Embroidered T-Shirt (White) £20.00

Spaghetti Strap Crop Top £25.00

Logo Long-Sleeve T-Shirt (White) £20.00

‘Sullen’ Embroidered T-Shirt (Yellow) £24.00

‘Heartthrob’ Hoodie (Red) £29.00

An interview with

NATALiE claro

By Allison tovey

Natalie Claro is a 17 year old alternative rock artist hailing from Florida. Not only is she an amazing singer but she writes and produces her own music as well. Her EP Atychiphobia is coming out soon and I got the chance to speak with her about the EP, pursuing a career at a young age, and her plans for her impending music world domination (I’m calling it now!)

Your voice is amazing!! How long have you known you wanted to make music?

- THANKS! I’ve been a music junkie since I was able to talk. Growing up I joined programs, clubs, orchestras, and engaged in whatever I could to always be apart of music somehow. Yeah, even musical theater.

(I enjoy watching those shows but man do I hate being in them.) Despite all those things for some reason as a kid I wanted to be a fashion designer. My mom’s the one that would always ask me “You like it so much, why aren’t you going to do that when you’re older??” I’d always just shrug it off thinking it wasn’t possible. Then in 8th grade I saw Paramore in concert and was like “okay I have to do this”. My mom knows everything.

What motivated you to pursue your music career while you're still a teenager?

- The reason I started so young is because I honestly didn’t think I’d be at the stage I’m at so soon. I started off doing open mic’s at restaurants and people always liked my songs a lot. Then out of nowhere I got thrown into these bigger venues and everything just sort of happened. I came out with singles and promoted the living hell out of them and here I am hello.

Have you experienced any road-blocks because of your age?

- The biggest road-block I deal with is being under 18. A lot of larger venues don’t really pay attention to you until you’re of age regardless of your obvious dedication due to legal fears or doubts about your capability. That’s okay though, overall I’m still taken seriously amongst adults and I have more opportunities lying ahead as I reach each age.

Tell us a little about your songwriting process.

- I sit down with either my guitar or keyboard, and then the words just kind of flow out as I play chords and rhythms. I can only write when I have a situation significantly affecting me. The song “My Calling” on my upcoming EP goes into detail about that concept. Other times I’ll have an idea while out around people but due to being really personal about my music I just kind of find an excuse to leave so I can record what I’m thinking on my phone. I’ve never written a song with anyone or let someone see me as I write because then I feel so… violated.

Your EP title is “Atychiphobia”, which means the fear of failure. Would you consider that a running theme in your music and songwriting?

- Yes exactly. That’s actually the whole concept behind my job. It’s not so much a fear of failure, but more of a blatant refusal to accept it. Sometimes I come across situations with my music and my image that I feel could be better if I was farther along in my career, but regardless I push and push until it’s something I feel relieved with. My single “Mountains” was mixed, and I’m not kidding, 19 times. With every single mix that came back to me, I couldn’t feel satisfied with it- but because of my relentless desire for my own interpreted perfection I wouldn’t accept it until it felt right. Hundreds of notes and 19 mixes later I gained a song that I’ve been told is some people’s new favorites. It’s even been played on 97x. I trust my gut and I’m grateful for it.

What are your plans for the future?

- Concerts like crazy. Along with my EP will be a short tour through the East Coast (the majority of my viewers live there). Other than that I’ll be starting my album and just doing the most I can. Woohoo.

We loved the music video for your song Stumble!

How involved were you in the process of making that music video?

- I actually came up with the entire video. Each scene represents a different metaphor for frustration with people I’ve dealt with during my whole life. The paint idea sprouted when I saw a post on twitter of “colors that represent emotions”. I took ones like grief, anguish, etc. and had them pelted at me. (I couldn’t get it out of my hair for days). The symbols were influenced by comic strips censoring cursing by using characters (?&*#%!). The frustration in me is supposed to build throughout the video, hence more and more symbols appearing on my skin as the song progresses. The finale they are smeared off in relief. The flower and mannequin scene represents my puppy-like acceptance to befriend people quickly only to realize they might not be that great of a person (I really despise friendships or relationships that are unkind, disrespectful or abusive.

I try my hardest to have 4 quarters rather than 100 pennies worth of relations.) The flowers the mannequins hand me blossom so full and youthful, but as the video continues they keep getting destroyed. At the end I gave up and decided I’d rather be alone than with toxicity so I shoved all the mannequins down as a way to give up on them. And as for the car, well… I finally got to do what I’ve always wanted to do whenever I’m PISSED! I totaled a vintage car for artistic expression.

Unfortunately, the single won’t be available much longer. I made the song before I knew how to produce music, so I didn’t exactly have much control over what the end result was. I was told a lot of “can’t” and “no” while making the song and it ended up being very far from how I imagined it and very pop. That’s okay though, now I create my own music and what lies in the future is a lot of originality, creativity… and frequent tempo changes.

Can’t be that.

Elsa Burgos I can’t be that person that person you want not free perfect I’m so much more than perfect can offer I make mistakes you act like you don’t I don’t wanna be that person the one you want me to be I wouldn’t like her she wouldn’t be honest she’d be in a cage like a constant drizzle on my shoulders cold and rusted I can’t be that person you try and be that person see how miserable you’ll end up.

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Mallory Henman

AMERICAN PIE KAITLYN TIFFANY The month of October has been beautiful and cozy. I’ve really been into Americana vibes and static screens. With this insane election going on, some would seek comfort in fantasy movies (Labyrinth in a favorite of mine) or Halloween films, but for some reason this month I’ve been drowning myself in nostalgic hyperrealism. The idea of America, rather than what it currently is, has been a form of escapism for me. I’ve also been trying to spend each waking moment in the now (well as best as I can). I started actually keeping a diary that I write in daily and I’m already so grateful to have it. Senior year is in full swing and the reality of my impending graduation is a constant source of fear, but this month I let myself feel the warm rapture of optimism and it’s been rather lovely. Letting yourself just live your life instead of worrying all the time is the best advice I can give someone. While applying to colleges and figuring out what you’re going to do with your life is important, don’t let it consume you.

Enjoy time with your family and go outdoors during the glorious fall weather. Have the time of your life.

Here are some of my favorite AMERICANA movies and songs Hope you enjoy!

XOXO Kaitlyn

Films The Place Beyond The Pines (2012) dir. Derek Cianfrance My Own Private Idaho (1991) dir. Gus Van Sant Inherent Vice(2014) dir. Paul Thomas Anderson American Graffiti (1973) dir. George Lucas Rebel Without A Cause (1955) dir. Nicholas Ray Mulholland Dr. (2001) dir. David Lynch To Die For (1995) dir. Gus Van Sant Desert Hearts (1985) dir. Donna Deitch The Long, Long Trailer (1953) dir. Vincente Minnelli Easy Rider (1969) dir. Dennis Hopper Manhattan (1979) dir. Woody Allen Dazed and Confused (1993) dir. Richard Linklater Almost Famous (2000) dir. Cameron Crowe Viva Las Vegas (1964) dir. George Sidney Songs America - Simon and Garfunkel Take Me Home, Country Roads - John Denver American Woman - The Guess Who Midnight Rider - Allman Brothers Band The Weight - The Band Born To Be Wild - Steppenwolf California Dreamin’ - The Mamas and Papas Ride - Lana Del Rey American Pie - Don McLean Born On The Bayou - Creedence Clearwater Revival Night Moves - Bob Seger Dancing In The Dark - Bruce Springsteen American Nights - The Runaways Roxy Roller - Sweeney Todd Freedom - Jimi Hendrix

Anne Brown

Coral sands motel.

Elsa Burgos The Motel lights blinded us while the clock almost marked 2:00 a.m we were dazzled and dripping from too many hours on the road you looked at me, you said ‘’We’re here, darling’’ and I smiled ‘’I need some coffee if we’re gonna stay awake’’ you said we were going straight to bed we woke up the next morning and had breakfast at the diner beside that Motel was our home for 4 or 5 days until we hit the road again off to Vegas we go, I’m living in my own magical world with you you and me, me and you enjoy it while it lasts enjoy it while we’re still unknown from the rest while we can still kiss on the street I see stars anyways when you look at me now I’m starting to know all the coffee flavors around the country those are my kind of cheap thrills yours are seeing every place really quietly and then telling me about it I love when you tell me all those stories when we come back you can tell them all of ours.

Scarlett Ward

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By Kaitlyn Tiffany She is controlled by demons That tell her she is no good, Without any reasons She is left scared of adulthood For a moment, She can feel sweet relief By escaping the torment Amongst piles of autumn leaves But soon this bliss will fade away Visions become hazy, like when on a carousel And she will remember what those demons used to say While under winter’s frozen spell Nature becomes a sanctuary When their voices drown out the melody If only she knew that her fears were imaginary, She would be able to find a remedy

Issy Medworth

Wake up!

Elsa Burgos For the one this poem is for you’ll never know stay this soft don’t let heartbreaks harden you and turn you cold you have so much to offer, don’t you realize?

I wish I could show you what I see when I see you uncertainty agobiates but we’ll get through it realize that the stars did it good when they created you wake up! we can do whatever we want share a cigarette with me sometime I’ll be around for a little bit more perhaps we’re made from the same material perhaps we met in another life walk proudly, you deserve the world.

About beating hearts and fantastic worlds.

The shorter looks the shorter smiles mutual trust look away! don’t perform the tricks I taught you don’t tell them what we know don’t treat me like the rest you and me are build for more than lovers, something more transcendent no pain, we’re something else something I haven’t figure out quite yet stay in your seat, don’t make a fuss I know they make you mad but they don’t matter don’t take your mask off, they’ll never know it’s us from ancient times here we are again from the cigarette we shared on the street

to the coffee talks every morning talk about fantastic worlds, I like this one keep driving we’ll be late to watch the sunset talk about adventures, I like this one I like looking beside me and finding your eyes don’t tell them about the monsters we fought we’ll keep these battles for ourselves don’t tell them about the life we’ve been living after all we’ve been the happiest don’t tell them about the stranger’s pools we crashed at midnight these days will remain in our heads until we meet again.

Alexandria Dravillas

Memories Kawika Joseph memories frayed worse than the bottom of my jeans. A friendship as endless as the deep blue sea, and all it took to end it was four hundred miles.

Spring wildflowers spring wild flowers everywhere sweet nothings whispered in my They tickle and I know that I loved by the greatest mother all.(earth)

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I am a cactus I am a cactus, you make my flowers bloom. I am just an admirer of the shimmering glitter moon.

An Eternity Of This If your lipstick loiters on his coffee cup, remove your lips.

If his voice somehow sounds how you'd imagine paranoia to feel, choke back the Thorazine.

If at some point you find yourself wishing away an entire lifetime, live it anyway.

An eternity of this cut us loose, let us sleep, we've all been here before.

Poem After much consideration, I've decided I'll eat now a meal or maybe two a coffee with creamer and salt.

Or maybe I'll go for a walk.

My hands shake my head is weak regardless.

November – A Short Poetry Collection

by Jessica Nauta Poem I am not above you but you're right under me and you're yelling at me to get down.

Jade Rosales

There are pieces of myself left in the earth Many things beyond this hurt A real place where we can be more Where the world sees us as the cure The youth in our hearts Is the youth in the stars It all began with us so let's join hands and be the difference now

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Thank you so much for reading the twelveth issue of The Candy Zine!!

Follow this issue’s lovely contributors on Instagram Allison Tovey @suzybish0p Tay Sanders @taytaytherat Elsa Burgos @lisztomaniaclub Galena Marie @galena.marie Sara Tonning @saratonning Scarlett Ward @scarlett.ward Hannah Siegfried @bahannahcupcake Tom Weller and Sullen Girl @sullengirluk Natalie Claro @natalieclaro Zoila Molina @imagesdufutur Mallory Henman @cptnsamurai Kaitlyn Tiffany @sunflower_grrrl Anne Brown @anne.b Issy Medworth @proverbialbagofissy Alexandria Dravillas @alexandriadravillas Jessica Nauta @jessnauta

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