The truth about insomnia More than just a restless night, insomnia is a sleep disorder that can deeply impact a person’s life. Here, Sassy Smith reveals what it’s really like to experience insomnia first-hand...
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t’s 4am and I’m lying in bed sobbing, listening to my husband snoring gently beside me, and trying to resist the urge to pinch or elbow him, just so that he’s awake too. At this moment, even though I know that it is completely irrational, I hate him. I’m angry, frustrated, and anxious, and I just want to shout: “How dare you be asleep. It’s so unfair. Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!” But I don’t. Instead I bury my face into my pillow and sob silently, my eyes fixated on the glowing numbers of my alarm clock. The numbers that have been taunting me since 1am, and will continue to do so until I finally give up and get out of bed at 6am. It’s the summer of 2017, and in the past six months I’ve gone from being a solid eight-hours-anight sleeper to getting less than three hours at best. I’m feeling exhausted, stressed, snappy, and permanently on the verge of tears – and I have no idea why this is happening to me.
60 • happiful.com • May 2020
