Maria Gubieva Did you ever notice that your body is speaking with you? It always seems weird and sometimes happens in wrong time. Imagine you are writing an article, talking with colleagues or friends, and your body is telling you that it’s tired, it wants to lie down, or by contrast – it needs more movement. Do you ever pay attention to this voice? Come on, you are so busy with everyday life, you work a lot, you go to the gym regularly or learn languages. And then one obscure (yours??) body starts to disturb you out of a sudden. Annoying, right? I think we don’t like when our bodies speak with us. Sure, we need the body to move, to go to the places we need, to eat, to enjoy life and many pleasant things. But no, please, no interruption. Just do your thing, okay? We don’t have time on those conversations. You know, sometimes you don’t like your body. Well, you think it’s too fat or too skinny, flabby or clumsy. Almost everyone has complaints about their body, almost everyone wants to change this or that. Generally, blaming your body is kinda fashionable. Me too. I will start from the beginning. I have big nose. Big caucasian nose. In the place where I came from big nose is a big honor. Your nose says a lot about your roots and family. Your nose – your legacy. That’s what adults think while girls want to be beautiful and are bemoaning their noses. I was hating my nose for a long time. While I was studying at school and was surrounded by my narrow-minded classmates (as I understood later), I was suffering from the shape of my nose a lot. My classmates never bullied me that much, just were telling jokes which I hated with all my heart. So sometimes this voice could say something to me, but I always tried not to listen. «You don’t love me truly. You think I am bulky and ugly. You could get your hair done, you could do make-up for eyes, lips and cheeks. But you could not decorate me in anyway. I had no choice except being whom I was. Ugly for you».
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