As I worked through the heartbreak, I continued to cry out to God and try to praise Him through it all. One day during worship at church, God spoke the name Zoe (Zwn) in Greek) to my heart. This was to be the name of my child in heaven to remind me she is alive with Him—more alive, in fact than my children on earth. One day, I will see her alive and well. Near the end of February, I gave birth to a son at home, in the same place where I had delivered my tiny, dead child. As his first cries filled his lungs and his body turned a healthy pink, I cried. God had answered our prayers for a safe delivery at home. It wasn’t a miracle, in the same way, that restarting a baby’s heart in the womb is, but it showed that God cares for me and my family. My baby son’s name is Jotham, meaning “God is perfect.” He does nothing wrong; He makes no mistakes. When I speak my baby’s name, I recall God is Lord of my life and that I would do well to leave everything to Him. I still believe that God does miracles. I wonder if He will ever do one for me. In the meantime, I cherish each time He gives me good gifts, each time He provides me with my needs, and each time He works in my heart to draw me to Himself. The verse in Hosea 6:3 (NASB) hangs near my desk. “So let us know, let us press onto know the Lord.” I want to know Him in such a way that I don’t need a miracle to know that He is good and perfect. I know He will perfect such a work in me.
Rachel Cardin is a mother of six children on earth and one in heaven. She and her husband serve as “tent-maker” missionaries in Southern Thailand. When she has time, she practices her fiddle and writes a blog. She experienced a miscarriage with her sixth child, Zoe. Zoe’s first birthday would have been this June.
Sing By Rolanda Pyle Sing, sing, sing Come on, do your thing Let those praises ring To others, joy you bring When you sing Songs that uplift, songs that reprove Songs that help us get into our groove Songs that give our Lord the praise Songs we remember for the rest of our days. Sing in the morning, sing in the night Sing when things go wrong and definitely when they are right Sing, for music is the key to life Able to lift burdens and ease strife So sing, sing, sing Come on, do your thing Let those praises ring To others, joy you bring When you sing. Learn more about this award winning author, Rolanda T. Pyle by visiting her website. http://www.rorosrainbowcommunications.com/index.html
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