It ends with you Kim Alexis Adversario
Trigger Warning // rape, coming out, mental illness/suicide
Generational trauma is a broad phrase, never elaborated. Used to justify our actions and thoughts, Blame our shortcomings and unhappiness. Facing the circumstances will allow us to heal. Generational trauma is how quiet you are when you meet peopleNever knowing if you are allowed to speak, constantly looking for permission. Your parents were the ones who could only speak when spoken to, Yet, you choose to sit back and observe until you know what is acceptable. Generational trauma is how pious you were bred to be. It’s how the church took advantage of your family’s poverty, How your father could only go to seminary school, how you are related to nuns and priests. The Catholic guilt you feel is because your relatives believe they owe all successes to the Church. Generational trauma is how adamant you are to break gender roles. Your mother grew up with five other sisters and an image to uphold. It was to keep herself attractive- no scars, smooth hair, small waist, modesty and chastity. You think your fight towards feminism can’t be accomplished if your own mother cannot be changed. Generational trauma is how secretive you are about your sexuality. Your grandfather shuns your aunt for loving a woman and your unmarried uncle for having a child. There’s no need to acknowledge it if you will only hurt others. Not only are you afraid to come out, but your parents don’t even know you were taken advantage of. Generational trauma is how wary you are about relationships. Marriage is a prison, the way your parents can never escape each other. Being forced to choose a side just for them to make up. Claiming you are too independent, but you’re just afraid to be vulnerable. Generational trauma is how lonely you always feel. Your people are strong; they’re innovative despite adversity, they smile through the pain. Depression is weakness, just pray and move on. How many times have you had to talk yourself off the edge alone in the dark? 85
