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omething I have struggled with my whole 30 years of being alive. I never wanted the
life I had or the body I was in. Always wanting to run away or escape. I remember when I was a kid, I had this favourite tree that I would run away to and climb. I could see the whole of my street. All the cars driving up and down the road and people walking their dogs. I remember the smell of fresh air and the wind in my hair. That was probably one of my healthy escapes. I wish I continued that as I got older but I chose other forms of escape like self-harm, drugs, alcohol, basically anything that stopped me feeling that overwhelming mental pain. I wish I continued that as I got older but I chose other forms of escape like selfharm, drugs, alcohol, basically anything that stopped me feeling that overwhelming mental pain. I eventually came to realise that I was incapable of processing my emotions so I would cling to these substances to cope. It’s not easy sitting with your emotions and I completely understand why anyone finds it hard to give up whatever they do/use to help them cope with their emotions and everyday life. I still get those feelings of wanting a cigarette even though I haven’t had one in about 7 years or wanting a drink which I haven’t had in approximately 10 months, or wanting to eat a bar of chocolate full of sugar which I haven’t had in a few months even though I know all those things would make me feel worse than I already do. I know now that I’m not missing those things exactly, I’m missing that feeling of escape. The way those things made me feel, how they took away the emotions for just a little bit and I didn’t have to think. PAGE 37 MUMPRENEUR MOVEMENT
