Halinka Van Minnen :: MOVING FROM FEAR TO FAITH
Here I am again, living in the space of uncertainty. Not the good kind of uncertainty that is exciting and full of hope, but the dreaded kind. The uncertainty that results from a shattered existence. I catch myself in an old pattern of attempting to control everything while I am in this place of uncertainty, fearful that if I allow myself to sit in it, I won’t survive. Yet, the more I try to control, the more my body is plagued by fear until the moment when my fight and flight response has exhausted its limits and I am paralyzed. I’ve allowed fear to run the show. Fear of what is going to happen. Fear of what others think. Fear of disappointing others. Fear that I have failed. Fear of breaking promises, no matter what the cost.
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